This is dedicated to Cat and Big Sis you guys are awesome!
Because I new she meant it, Every word she said she looked at me with cold black eyes and said I hate you I've read all the parenting books but none of them said anything about this pain! and No I'm NOT saying that I wish I would have not adopted her I'm only saying that parenting is hard! I love my baby girl and I know she loves me but she meant those words I no she did! I just hugged Kyle closer and closer until I finally told him what was wrong! as I finished telling him I saw Molly walk down the stairs with huge tears crawling down her little angle face! "ma ma Mom?" she said threw all the tears "I"m sorry Mom I did not mean it! I love you please forgive me" "Oh Molly Baby it's okay I no you did not mean it I love you to and I forgive you come here and sit beside me" she walked slowly over with her head looking down like she was ashamed "Molly it's okay baby I forgive you" I said and gave her a tickle I could see her start to smile! She sat down on my lap and I held her tight and I felt safe again! Then Kyle put his arm around me and said "I found a job! I start tomorrow and the kids can start school on Monday!" "Really that is so wonderful! I guess I know what Molly and David and I are doing this weekend! Were going school clothes shopping!" "awesome" Molly said getting happier! "Hon" I spoke soft "If were steel going to get marred I think I should start planning now okay?" "okay and of course we are getting married unless you don't love me" "I love you hon trust me" I said with a giggle! Then Molly got up and ran upstairs I knew what she was up to she was going to talk to David! "I'm going to teach David to swim next week okay?" "okay he will be happy to hear that" I said looking at the love coming out of my angels eyes! "Well I'm going to start on planing the wedding!" I said loving him back! "I want a fall wedding okay" "okay" he said "So were are you going to work?" I ask "I am going to be a construction worker!" he said I could tell he was proud and I was too "Well I'm very happy" I said with a smirk! "I have a poem for you" He said "really well please read it" "okay" he said and them he began "The way you stare into my eyes the way you hug me so tight the only reason I want to stay alive I wake up thinking of you and wondering if you steel love me too the way you talk when your in a rush the way you brush your hair the way you seem to care for me oh baby you keep me on my toes and the way you kiss my nose baby I've got my eye on you the only thing that gets me threw the day I no I'll be okay when I see you baby! it's just the way you are!" I was in tears by the time he was done "I love it" I said "I did not mean to make you cry" he said "it's a good type of cry" I laughed and then there was a knock at the door.....
Because I new she meant it, Every word she said she looked at me with cold black eyes and said I hate you I've read all the parenting books but none of them said anything about this pain! and No I'm NOT saying that I wish I would have not adopted her I'm only saying that parenting is hard! I love my baby girl and I know she loves me but she meant those words I no she did! I just hugged Kyle closer and closer until I finally told him what was wrong! as I finished telling him I saw Molly walk down the stairs with huge tears crawling down her little angle face! "ma ma Mom?" she said threw all the tears "I"m sorry Mom I did not mean it! I love you please forgive me" "Oh Molly Baby it's okay I no you did not mean it I love you to and I forgive you come here and sit beside me" she walked slowly over with her head looking down like she was ashamed "Molly it's okay baby I forgive you" I said and gave her a tickle I could see her start to smile! She sat down on my lap and I held her tight and I felt safe again! Then Kyle put his arm around me and said "I found a job! I start tomorrow and the kids can start school on Monday!" "Really that is so wonderful! I guess I know what Molly and David and I are doing this weekend! Were going school clothes shopping!" "awesome" Molly said getting happier! "Hon" I spoke soft "If were steel going to get marred I think I should start planning now okay?" "okay and of course we are getting married unless you don't love me" "I love you hon trust me" I said with a giggle! Then Molly got up and ran upstairs I knew what she was up to she was going to talk to David! "I'm going to teach David to swim next week okay?" "okay he will be happy to hear that" I said looking at the love coming out of my angels eyes! "Well I'm going to start on planing the wedding!" I said loving him back! "I want a fall wedding okay" "okay" he said "So were are you going to work?" I ask "I am going to be a construction worker!" he said I could tell he was proud and I was too "Well I'm very happy" I said with a smirk! "I have a poem for you" He said "really well please read it" "okay" he said and them he began "The way you stare into my eyes the way you hug me so tight the only reason I want to stay alive I wake up thinking of you and wondering if you steel love me too the way you talk when your in a rush the way you brush your hair the way you seem to care for me oh baby you keep me on my toes and the way you kiss my nose baby I've got my eye on you the only thing that gets me threw the day I no I'll be okay when I see you baby! it's just the way you are!" I was in tears by the time he was done "I love it" I said "I did not mean to make you cry" he said "it's a good type of cry" I laughed and then there was a knock at the door.....
