Confusion. Pain. Suffering. Tension. Fear. Anxiety. Anger. Worry.
They were familiar emotions to me, never absent. Always, they stalked in the back of my mind, leaving trails of horrendous feelings.
Why were they always there? Why did they walk in my mind, suffocating me of happiness and pleasure? They never left, even when I was truly having a nice time, they would ruin the sunniest of my days.
Was it Dark? Was he back? And if so, how? How did he manage to make a return to this plane of existence? Back into my head where it all began?
I held my face in my claws. I am Mephiles. I was created to be Solaris, an immortal sun god. Why did I of all people have these emotional problems? I was supposed to be strong, perfect, unbeatable, and untainted of weakness and emotion.
Sure, I was not Solaris. I knew that. Only when I was fused to Brother, Iblis, could I become Solaris.
"Mephiles..?" A soft voice said from nearby. I looked up to see a human with dark brown hair and eyes to match. She was a little overweight, but in reasonably good shape for her age, she was 54, but didn't look a day over 40. She was both Rebecca's and my own adoptive mother, Annie.
"Mom?" I said as she wiped a tear from my eyes. Yes, I considered her to be my mother.
I hadn't known her for very long, yet she had accepted me, and I, in turn, accepted her.
"Mephiles? What's wrong?" She asked, concerned and knowing how much I hated being called 'Mephy'.
I sighed. "Y-you remember D-Dark, right?"
She sat down next to me, on my little makeshift bed that consisted of a mattress on Rebecca's bedroom floor.
"Is he back?"
I shook my head. "I-I don't t-think s-so. B-but he... I-I think he... l-left part of h-himself i-in me..."
"Like his emotions?"
I nodded. "Y-yeah."
She pulled me into a hug, and petted my quills. Without even realising it, I slunk into her warm embrace and purred as she stoked her warm, human hands over my head.
"Don't worry, Mephiles. Everything will be okay. We'll get him out perminatly."
I closed my eyes and squeezed her gently before realeasing, and smiled greatfully.
She smiled back, was it... lovingly? I still was not the best at making out emotions. Getting better, but still not fantastic.
"Thanks, mom." I said. She always knew just what to say, even if it wasn't comforting, she could make a point very clear using minimal speech.
"If anything's ever wrong, Mephiles. Don't hesitate to tell me."
I smiled, and hugged her once more.
"Thanks, mom."
They were familiar emotions to me, never absent. Always, they stalked in the back of my mind, leaving trails of horrendous feelings.
Why were they always there? Why did they walk in my mind, suffocating me of happiness and pleasure? They never left, even when I was truly having a nice time, they would ruin the sunniest of my days.
Was it Dark? Was he back? And if so, how? How did he manage to make a return to this plane of existence? Back into my head where it all began?
I held my face in my claws. I am Mephiles. I was created to be Solaris, an immortal sun god. Why did I of all people have these emotional problems? I was supposed to be strong, perfect, unbeatable, and untainted of weakness and emotion.
Sure, I was not Solaris. I knew that. Only when I was fused to Brother, Iblis, could I become Solaris.
"Mephiles..?" A soft voice said from nearby. I looked up to see a human with dark brown hair and eyes to match. She was a little overweight, but in reasonably good shape for her age, she was 54, but didn't look a day over 40. She was both Rebecca's and my own adoptive mother, Annie.
"Mom?" I said as she wiped a tear from my eyes. Yes, I considered her to be my mother.
I hadn't known her for very long, yet she had accepted me, and I, in turn, accepted her.
"Mephiles? What's wrong?" She asked, concerned and knowing how much I hated being called 'Mephy'.
I sighed. "Y-you remember D-Dark, right?"
She sat down next to me, on my little makeshift bed that consisted of a mattress on Rebecca's bedroom floor.
"Is he back?"
I shook my head. "I-I don't t-think s-so. B-but he... I-I think he... l-left part of h-himself i-in me..."
"Like his emotions?"
I nodded. "Y-yeah."
She pulled me into a hug, and petted my quills. Without even realising it, I slunk into her warm embrace and purred as she stoked her warm, human hands over my head.
"Don't worry, Mephiles. Everything will be okay. We'll get him out perminatly."
I closed my eyes and squeezed her gently before realeasing, and smiled greatfully.
She smiled back, was it... lovingly? I still was not the best at making out emotions. Getting better, but still not fantastic.
"Thanks, mom." I said. She always knew just what to say, even if it wasn't comforting, she could make a point very clear using minimal speech.
"If anything's ever wrong, Mephiles. Don't hesitate to tell me."
I smiled, and hugged her once more.
"Thanks, mom."
