On Monday morning I got to school extra early, waiting by my car the whole time, waiting for the Volvo to arrive. It did, but he wasn’t in it.
It was the same on Tuesday, and Wednesday, and Thursday. Everyday he didn’t show up my mood slipped farther and farther into oblivion. Because I had figured out he wasn’t lying to me, Jacob and I were back to normal. Well almost. Considering I was completely obsessed with seeing Edward.
On Thursday I had had enough. I had been contemplating my next move all day, and I had finally decided what I was going to do.
After school I stood by my truck, listening to my iPod, waiting. After what seemed like forever I saw them walk over to their car, just a few spaces away from mine. Taking a deep breath I started walking.
“Alice?” I croaked, stopping about three feet away from them.
“Bella!” she beamed. She looked happy to see me. I returned the smile, slightly taken aback.
“Em, Alice, can I talk to you for a minute?” She nodded pulling me aside.
“What’s up Bella?”
“Well, Alice, this might be.. I mean I was wondering..” I stared at my hands, twisting them around in my palms.
Alice laughed. “Come on Bella! Spit it out!”
I laughed nervously. “Alice, is Edward ok?” Her face fell slightly.
“Yeah Bella, he’s just doing some stuff.” She looked over her shoulder to where Jasper was standing, and before I knew it he was by her side, his arms folded protectively across his chest.
“So, do you think he will be back anytime soon?” Jasper relaxed slightly. Although his demeanour was scaring me slightly. I hadn’t realised how protective he is of Alice. I’d never given it much thought.
“It’s ok Jasper,” Alice’s voice was like bells, “go back to the car. We’re just talking.”
My jaw dropped. I was definitely in over my head here. All of a sudden Alice’s eyes went blank and her face froze. “Alice? Alice are you ok?”
Jasper’s face was concerned. “Alice. What is it?”
As fast as it had happened it was over. Alice’s expression cleared and she smiled widely at me. “Don’t worry Bella, he’ll be here tomorrow.” With that she turned and skipped back to her car.
That night, after Jake had left I lay in my bed staring at my ceiling. I went over the conversation we had just had in my head.
“Bella are you ok with all of this? I mean all of a sudden you’re exposed to werewolves and vampires. You seem so relaxed about it.”
“Jake I’m not frightened of you. I know you would never hurt me, and that’s pretty much all I need.”
“And Cullen, are you going to stay away from him now that you know the truth?”
“No Jake. Nothing has changed. He’s still my friend, and he saved my life.”
“Oh for God’s sake Bella! He’s a killer!”
“No Jake, he’s not. And if you keep saying things like that the only person you’re making me not want to be around is you. I’m not having this conversation again.”
Edward would be in school tomorrow, and I would be able to talk to him. With that thought in mind I fell asleep peacefully. Waiting for the release of my dreams.
We were in a forest, just the two of us. But this time there was no cloak or fangs. There was just be and him, alone. The atmosphere was peaceful as we stood there. It felt natural, right, like it was the most fated thing in the whole world. He was a killer, but I wasn’t scared, not even a little. I closed my eyes as his lips brushed mine…
I shot right up in bed, pulling the covers up to my chin. I’d never had that dream before, and since I’d arrived in Forks all my dreams had been fairly repetitive, but that one, that was knew. So much rushed through my head at once. Every moment I had had with Edward flew by at once. From that first day in the cafeteria to the last time I had seen him in the hospital. Suddenly I was overcome with emotion and tears filled my eyes and spilled down my face. I knew what would come now would cause pain, and I hated myself for that, but I couldn’t deny it anymore. I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with Edward Cullen.
Getting ready for school the next day was infuriating. I was so distracted I could barely dress myself. I was happy that Jacob didn’t get lifts with me anymore, he’d definitely know something was up.
I wolfed down cereal with tea and sprinted to my car. Bad move, I slipped and landed flat on my ass. A pale white hand shot out to help me up.
“Are you ok?” I thought I was hallucinating. I looked up o see his perfect face staring down at me. Features concerned. I nodded taking his hand and pulling myself up.
“What are you doing here?” I asked, slightly star struck. My hand was still in his.
“I thought you might need a lift. And, I was wondering if we could talk?”
“Ok. Sure.” I climbed into his car. He held the door for me, ever the gentleman.
“I heard you spoke to Alice,” he said slamming his door and gunning the engine.
“Yeah. I was wondering why you weren’t in school. And I was wondering if it had anything to do with me.”
“It had everything to do with you Bella.”
My heart stopped. What was he talking about?
“Sorry Bella, what I meant to say was that I wasn’t in school because I was trying to avoid you. I was worried about the conclusions you may have come to last week. I didn’t want to put my family in danger. You see, I was afraid that you might have told someone what happened, with the van.”
I shook my head. “I wouldn’t do that.”
“I didn’t think you would, but I had my family to think about also. If anyone suspected, what we are, well then we would be forced to move again. Rosalie would be furious. I’d never hear the end of it.”
“So it’s true, you’re not human.” Of course I already knew this, but part of me wanted to hear it from him, so I knew I wasn’t crazy.
“Bella, do you think that a human could have pushed away that van?”
“Well I heard about a guy in Asia who could pull an airplane with his teeth.”
“Be serious Bella.”
“I am! I swear I heard it.”
He sighed. “Bella, what I am, I don’t think you could handle it. And if I were to tell you, I’m afraid that I might lose you, and I can’t have that.”
I stared down at my hands. I knew I had to say something, before it was too late. “Edward, I know what you are.”
His hands gripped the steering wheel. “How?” His voice was tense.
“When I first got here, Billy gave me a book about the Quileute tribe. You were in it.” I didn’t look up to see his reaction.
“So, you know everything? About Jacob and his pack?” I nodded silently, turning my attention to the trees on the roadside.
“How long have you known?”
“Since you saved me. I knew Jake had been telling the truth. About him and you.”
“Jacob doesn’t like me.” It wasn’t a question.
“He doesn’t trust you around me.”
“Bella, he hates my guts. Even if you and I weren’t friends, he is genetically programmed to hate me.”
“You don’t know that!”
“Actually Bella I do.”
I froze. I didn’t know if I was ready for more revelations. I closed my eyes leaning back.
“Bella? Are you alright?”
“Yes,” I breathed. “Edward, how can you know that?”
“I’m afraid it will upset you.”
I pinched the bridge of my nose, trying to steady myself. “Tell me.”
“Well, I- I can read minds Bella.”
That’s what I didn’t want to hear. All this time when I had been with him he had been able to read my thoughts. My cheeks flushed crimson. And now he knew that I was completely infatuated with him. Great.
“When I say that Bella, I mean with one exception. You.” I opened my eyes.
“What?”
“Bella you are the most confusing creature I have ever met. Never in all my existence have I met a mind that would not allow me in, until I met you.”
Relief washed through me like a tidal wave over a beach. He couldn’t hear my thoughts.
“Is there something wrong with me?”
He laughed then, louder than I’d ever heard him laugh before. “Bella, I tell you I can read minds, and you think there’s something wrong with you!” I had to laugh with him at that.
At this stage we were at the school. He drove like a maniac.
“Edward, will you do something for me?”
“Anything.” His words dripped with meaning. My heart melted.
“There’s a party on tonight, at Jessica’s. will you come? I would like to talk to you. Properly.”
He nodded. Relief swam through me. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Jacob waiting. I had 4 hours until Biology. It was going to be a long day.
Unfortunately we were forced to watch a video in Biology. I couldn’t tell you what it was about as when the lights went out all I could concentrate on was that Edward was right beside, arms practically touching. Electricity coursed through me and all I wanted to do was move my arm an inch so that we would be touching. I restrained myself. I had to deal with Jake first. A lump formed in my throat. I didn’t want to hurt Jake, I wanted to make him happy. He had been the only good thing about Forks for so long. But now being with him seemed so wrong. I wouldn’t just be lying to him, I’d be lying to myself and everyone else. I didn’t know if Edward had the same feelings for me as I did for me, but I thought it very unlikely. He’s beautiful kind and intelligent. And what am I? Average down to a tee. I was meeting Jacob at the party later. I would have to do it then.
Angela was coming over to get ready with me for Jessica’s party. According to her it was going to be wild. Jessica’s parents were away for the weekend. I had always liked Angela. She was a very genuine person. We got on from the start.
“What are you wearing then Bella? Do you think a skirt is too much?” She was standing in front of my mirror, examining herself from all angles. I was already dressed. Jeans and a blue top, nothing fancy.
“For the one thousandth time Ange, you look gorgeous! Now can we please go? Jake’s waiting.”
“What’s going on with you two anyway, you’ve been sort of off all week.”
I forgot just how perceptive Angela was. She saw anything.
“If you don’t want to talk about it we don’t have to.”
I shook my head. “No it’s fine. It’s just kind of fresh. I think I’m going to break up with him tonight.”
Her eyebrows shot up her forehead. “What?! Since when? I thought you two were like the perfect couple!”
“Since yesterday. Yeah I know but I just can’t do it anymore you know?”
“Would Edward Cullen have anything to do with that?”
“A little.”
“What? Are you two a thing now?”
“No! I’m with Jake, I could never do that. But, I do really like him, and I think he might feel the same way about me, but I doubt it.”
“Bella you make no sense you know that?”
I laughed.”Yeah I know. Come on, let’s go.”
We climbed into my truck giddily, and I drove towards my destiny.
It was the same on Tuesday, and Wednesday, and Thursday. Everyday he didn’t show up my mood slipped farther and farther into oblivion. Because I had figured out he wasn’t lying to me, Jacob and I were back to normal. Well almost. Considering I was completely obsessed with seeing Edward.
On Thursday I had had enough. I had been contemplating my next move all day, and I had finally decided what I was going to do.
After school I stood by my truck, listening to my iPod, waiting. After what seemed like forever I saw them walk over to their car, just a few spaces away from mine. Taking a deep breath I started walking.
“Alice?” I croaked, stopping about three feet away from them.
“Bella!” she beamed. She looked happy to see me. I returned the smile, slightly taken aback.
“Em, Alice, can I talk to you for a minute?” She nodded pulling me aside.
“What’s up Bella?”
“Well, Alice, this might be.. I mean I was wondering..” I stared at my hands, twisting them around in my palms.
Alice laughed. “Come on Bella! Spit it out!”
I laughed nervously. “Alice, is Edward ok?” Her face fell slightly.
“Yeah Bella, he’s just doing some stuff.” She looked over her shoulder to where Jasper was standing, and before I knew it he was by her side, his arms folded protectively across his chest.
“So, do you think he will be back anytime soon?” Jasper relaxed slightly. Although his demeanour was scaring me slightly. I hadn’t realised how protective he is of Alice. I’d never given it much thought.
“It’s ok Jasper,” Alice’s voice was like bells, “go back to the car. We’re just talking.”
My jaw dropped. I was definitely in over my head here. All of a sudden Alice’s eyes went blank and her face froze. “Alice? Alice are you ok?”
Jasper’s face was concerned. “Alice. What is it?”
As fast as it had happened it was over. Alice’s expression cleared and she smiled widely at me. “Don’t worry Bella, he’ll be here tomorrow.” With that she turned and skipped back to her car.
That night, after Jake had left I lay in my bed staring at my ceiling. I went over the conversation we had just had in my head.
“Bella are you ok with all of this? I mean all of a sudden you’re exposed to werewolves and vampires. You seem so relaxed about it.”
“Jake I’m not frightened of you. I know you would never hurt me, and that’s pretty much all I need.”
“And Cullen, are you going to stay away from him now that you know the truth?”
“No Jake. Nothing has changed. He’s still my friend, and he saved my life.”
“Oh for God’s sake Bella! He’s a killer!”
“No Jake, he’s not. And if you keep saying things like that the only person you’re making me not want to be around is you. I’m not having this conversation again.”
Edward would be in school tomorrow, and I would be able to talk to him. With that thought in mind I fell asleep peacefully. Waiting for the release of my dreams.
We were in a forest, just the two of us. But this time there was no cloak or fangs. There was just be and him, alone. The atmosphere was peaceful as we stood there. It felt natural, right, like it was the most fated thing in the whole world. He was a killer, but I wasn’t scared, not even a little. I closed my eyes as his lips brushed mine…
I shot right up in bed, pulling the covers up to my chin. I’d never had that dream before, and since I’d arrived in Forks all my dreams had been fairly repetitive, but that one, that was knew. So much rushed through my head at once. Every moment I had had with Edward flew by at once. From that first day in the cafeteria to the last time I had seen him in the hospital. Suddenly I was overcome with emotion and tears filled my eyes and spilled down my face. I knew what would come now would cause pain, and I hated myself for that, but I couldn’t deny it anymore. I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with Edward Cullen.
Getting ready for school the next day was infuriating. I was so distracted I could barely dress myself. I was happy that Jacob didn’t get lifts with me anymore, he’d definitely know something was up.
I wolfed down cereal with tea and sprinted to my car. Bad move, I slipped and landed flat on my ass. A pale white hand shot out to help me up.
“Are you ok?” I thought I was hallucinating. I looked up o see his perfect face staring down at me. Features concerned. I nodded taking his hand and pulling myself up.
“What are you doing here?” I asked, slightly star struck. My hand was still in his.
“I thought you might need a lift. And, I was wondering if we could talk?”
“Ok. Sure.” I climbed into his car. He held the door for me, ever the gentleman.
“I heard you spoke to Alice,” he said slamming his door and gunning the engine.
“Yeah. I was wondering why you weren’t in school. And I was wondering if it had anything to do with me.”
“It had everything to do with you Bella.”
My heart stopped. What was he talking about?
“Sorry Bella, what I meant to say was that I wasn’t in school because I was trying to avoid you. I was worried about the conclusions you may have come to last week. I didn’t want to put my family in danger. You see, I was afraid that you might have told someone what happened, with the van.”
I shook my head. “I wouldn’t do that.”
“I didn’t think you would, but I had my family to think about also. If anyone suspected, what we are, well then we would be forced to move again. Rosalie would be furious. I’d never hear the end of it.”
“So it’s true, you’re not human.” Of course I already knew this, but part of me wanted to hear it from him, so I knew I wasn’t crazy.
“Bella, do you think that a human could have pushed away that van?”
“Well I heard about a guy in Asia who could pull an airplane with his teeth.”
“Be serious Bella.”
“I am! I swear I heard it.”
He sighed. “Bella, what I am, I don’t think you could handle it. And if I were to tell you, I’m afraid that I might lose you, and I can’t have that.”
I stared down at my hands. I knew I had to say something, before it was too late. “Edward, I know what you are.”
His hands gripped the steering wheel. “How?” His voice was tense.
“When I first got here, Billy gave me a book about the Quileute tribe. You were in it.” I didn’t look up to see his reaction.
“So, you know everything? About Jacob and his pack?” I nodded silently, turning my attention to the trees on the roadside.
“How long have you known?”
“Since you saved me. I knew Jake had been telling the truth. About him and you.”
“Jacob doesn’t like me.” It wasn’t a question.
“He doesn’t trust you around me.”
“Bella, he hates my guts. Even if you and I weren’t friends, he is genetically programmed to hate me.”
“You don’t know that!”
“Actually Bella I do.”
I froze. I didn’t know if I was ready for more revelations. I closed my eyes leaning back.
“Bella? Are you alright?”
“Yes,” I breathed. “Edward, how can you know that?”
“I’m afraid it will upset you.”
I pinched the bridge of my nose, trying to steady myself. “Tell me.”
“Well, I- I can read minds Bella.”
That’s what I didn’t want to hear. All this time when I had been with him he had been able to read my thoughts. My cheeks flushed crimson. And now he knew that I was completely infatuated with him. Great.
“When I say that Bella, I mean with one exception. You.” I opened my eyes.
“What?”
“Bella you are the most confusing creature I have ever met. Never in all my existence have I met a mind that would not allow me in, until I met you.”
Relief washed through me like a tidal wave over a beach. He couldn’t hear my thoughts.
“Is there something wrong with me?”
He laughed then, louder than I’d ever heard him laugh before. “Bella, I tell you I can read minds, and you think there’s something wrong with you!” I had to laugh with him at that.
At this stage we were at the school. He drove like a maniac.
“Edward, will you do something for me?”
“Anything.” His words dripped with meaning. My heart melted.
“There’s a party on tonight, at Jessica’s. will you come? I would like to talk to you. Properly.”
He nodded. Relief swam through me. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Jacob waiting. I had 4 hours until Biology. It was going to be a long day.
Unfortunately we were forced to watch a video in Biology. I couldn’t tell you what it was about as when the lights went out all I could concentrate on was that Edward was right beside, arms practically touching. Electricity coursed through me and all I wanted to do was move my arm an inch so that we would be touching. I restrained myself. I had to deal with Jake first. A lump formed in my throat. I didn’t want to hurt Jake, I wanted to make him happy. He had been the only good thing about Forks for so long. But now being with him seemed so wrong. I wouldn’t just be lying to him, I’d be lying to myself and everyone else. I didn’t know if Edward had the same feelings for me as I did for me, but I thought it very unlikely. He’s beautiful kind and intelligent. And what am I? Average down to a tee. I was meeting Jacob at the party later. I would have to do it then.
Angela was coming over to get ready with me for Jessica’s party. According to her it was going to be wild. Jessica’s parents were away for the weekend. I had always liked Angela. She was a very genuine person. We got on from the start.
“What are you wearing then Bella? Do you think a skirt is too much?” She was standing in front of my mirror, examining herself from all angles. I was already dressed. Jeans and a blue top, nothing fancy.
“For the one thousandth time Ange, you look gorgeous! Now can we please go? Jake’s waiting.”
“What’s going on with you two anyway, you’ve been sort of off all week.”
I forgot just how perceptive Angela was. She saw anything.
“If you don’t want to talk about it we don’t have to.”
I shook my head. “No it’s fine. It’s just kind of fresh. I think I’m going to break up with him tonight.”
Her eyebrows shot up her forehead. “What?! Since when? I thought you two were like the perfect couple!”
“Since yesterday. Yeah I know but I just can’t do it anymore you know?”
“Would Edward Cullen have anything to do with that?”
“A little.”
“What? Are you two a thing now?”
“No! I’m with Jake, I could never do that. But, I do really like him, and I think he might feel the same way about me, but I doubt it.”
“Bella you make no sense you know that?”
I laughed.”Yeah I know. Come on, let’s go.”
We climbed into my truck giddily, and I drove towards my destiny.
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Chapter 1 cont.
All of the wedding preperations were getting tedious. But it was worth it all in the end, when I would marry the most perfect person on the planet. Edward, my Edward. It was all over,no one would bother us again. We wuld be together forever. If I could survive the wedding first.
That night, I got home around 11:20, I carried the 500 bags that I had gotten from the wedding shops in Seattle and Port Angeles up to my room. I turned on the light and set them on the bed. I looked up and Edward was standing in the window smirking. "Had fun with Alice?", he asked, I made a face. "You know I hate shopping". I walked over to him and kissed him. "Missed me?", he murmured. "Yes." Spent the rest of the night talking and then I fell asleep.
Chapter 1 cont.
All of the wedding preperations were getting tedious. But it was worth it all in the end, when I would marry the most perfect person on the planet. Edward, my Edward. It was all over,no one would bother us again. We wuld be together forever. If I could survive the wedding first.
That night, I got home around 11:20, I carried the 500 bags that I had gotten from the wedding shops in Seattle and Port Angeles up to my room. I turned on the light and set them on the bed. I looked up and Edward was standing in the window smirking. "Had fun with Alice?", he asked, I made a face. "You know I hate shopping". I walked over to him and kissed him. "Missed me?", he murmured. "Yes." Spent the rest of the night talking and then I fell asleep.
I just moved here to Forks to visit my long waited family of vampires. The only one I'm actually related to is Edward. We were only 5 years old when we were separated. He stayed in Forks and I had to live with the always annoying and horny Voltori.
Soon I jumped straight through the Cullen's window while they were chatting with BELLA. " Hey sis, long time no see. Are you here to stay or are you on a fling with you wolfy boyfriend?" Emmett groaned from boredom. " One, we broke up years ago. Two, I'm here to stay. And three, Jasper, are you going to tell them or am I going to?" I said with excitement.
Soon I jumped straight through the Cullen's window while they were chatting with BELLA. " Hey sis, long time no see. Are you here to stay or are you on a fling with you wolfy boyfriend?" Emmett groaned from boredom. " One, we broke up years ago. Two, I'm here to stay. And three, Jasper, are you going to tell them or am I going to?" I said with excitement.