Warning: Thist is just my fantasy coming through. And some information to you; the story plays before Bella became a Vampire and there is no Nessie in sight. So its just for our little Jacob's sake, he needs some luving.

Where are the bloodsuckers when you need em...
I was never the confused type of person, neither did i start things without a plan. But like an old saying that i had heard before, there is a first time for everything. I couldnt stop myself from daydreaming, it was wonderful and yes it was annoying. I felt like a teenager, which reminded me for a second: Thats exactly what i am. Normally i would have laughed about myself, but today i did not feel like being funny. Nearly a week had passed and i had the hardest time to stay away from Kristine, but whenever i remembered her shaking voice.- i had to do that for her. She would find me... where, how and why? She knows your from LaPush. How many natives are running around here? Exactly. Being sarcastic was my normal way of dealing with such things, but it started to become a pain in the ass. Was it possible to miss someone that was hardly part of your life? Probably not even part of your reality. I wouldnt have said no to some of the abilities that the vampires had. Like seeing the future or reading people's minds, not today at least. But since i was 'only' a wolf, i had to live with what i was able to do.
''Damn it'', i mumbled after hitting my head for the third time. It was not natural, did Bella infect me with being clumsy. Or was every fool in love that way? If Kristine only loved me back... . Again i was driffting off, but since it was hard to have privacy in the Black house.- my thoughts were destroyed quickly.
From behind i heard Quil and Embry, along with little Seth. It was strange to know he was a wolf, to me he was just a kid. None than less he had shown in the past that he was worth everything. I gave my friends a friendly look, or at least i hoped it was friendly. Embry was the first who had reached me, leaning against my car.
''Hit your head Jake?'', he asked pretty amused.
''Yeah, stupid little people building this house.''
''Oh no, i meant the day you got born.- not recently'', they couldnt help but laugh. And even though i wanted to give something back to him, it didnt work. After all i understood his humour better than anyone, and i would just laugh with them. Minutes passed where we just laughed, probably looking pretty insane to strangers. It took me a while to realize that something bothered me, or at least my nose. Seth. He smelled too sweet, too cold.- too much like a Vampire. My eyes found his, and he had that sorry grin on his face. It was not his fault, i kept telling myself.- it was still so much more easy to blame The Fangs..., i mean the Cullens.
''We will sit together at the beach today, Emily will cook'', Quil said, but it was more like a question to me.
''Yeah and?'', that sounded more rude than expected. It was so hard to hide things from those guys, they were my family. But the problem was, if i wanted to protect her.- i had to lie. Cause i couldnt let her close and then be rude to her, that wouldnt work.
''You keep staying on your own? Like some weirdo?''
''Weirdo? Look who's talking, Embry. The point is i need to work for school.- i have fallen pretty much behind since...'', i stopped in the middle of the sentence. Bending the truth was okay, but lying for real was too hard. In my head i tried to explain things to them, something like: Look guys i met this girl, but i have to hide her cause she is human... plus i have saved her life, and she probably knows i am a wolf. Okay that option had just died. So for another night i would stay at home or run through the forest, maybe finding her.
''Jacob turns into a Nerd, and all cause of a Vampire Girl...'', i heard a new voice, it was Paul. He really knew how to annoy me, and always giving me the chance to let my anger out. Cause before he was able to say anything else, i had jumped up being right in his face. I had punched him down, knowing that this was the wrong thing. But i was angry, unsatisfied and moody anyhow.- so god save Paul. I heard his cheekbone crack, and then i smiled.- helping him up.
''Jesus! Are you having PMS... .'', he asked putting his face back in shape.
''If i did could i borrow your tampons?''
We shared a little laughter before i turned my back on them once and for all, leaving my garage. I heard them mumble, they seemed less worried those days.- just mad cause i havent had time. But all in all things were going good again, and i didnt feel the urge to change into my wolf form that often anymore. With a weird feeling grin i walked into the house finally, making myself 'ready'. Cause if she would come today, i would be able to say more than: I am Jacob Black.

Could we start again, please?
My father had left hours ago, watching the game with Charlie. I was pleased to have the house for myself, at least for a few hours. I had tried to tidy up my little room, which was not working too well. I had too much stuff, and never enough space. I heard voices down at the beach, which made me remember that all my friends were down there. As i stepped out a light breeze was waving in my face, but it wasnt cold. You could still smell the rain from the previous days, it was summer finally. Again i would walk, and it would drag me to the same place that i visited since days. The Meadow. I havent seen wild animals here latley, probably they had learnt their lesson.- or the Cullens had a family dinner. It was still a bit light, allthough night had already set in.- it could have been the full moon. I had never noticed it so clearly before, and for moments i had to laugh with myself. Full Moon and i was still human... yeah, thats what we call shape shifting. I was sitting in the grass wondering what to do with myself, and if i was even the biggest fool on god's green earth. No, but you come in second best. I had my eyes closed but my senses were fully awake, to not let anything suprise me. I heard something behind me in the trees, but nothing had been seen. Another noise made me get up, but before i was able to search for the reason.- i saw a shadow. It definatley wasnt one of the pack, the figure didnt match. And it wasnt one of the Fangs either, the moving wasnt right. The wing just had changed and it hit my face, and there was the scent again. How would she expect me here? Did she know it after all? And as she finally stepped away from the trees, i saw Kristine coming closer. Her hair fell open over her shoulders, it looked kinda curly tonight. I waited for the friendly smile, but it never came. Instead of that, two dark eyes stared at me. She took her time to reach me, standing inches away from me. Still or again she looked tired, even a bit sick when she stood there in the pale moonlight.
''I said i would find you'', she whispered, looking at the floor for a while.
''Why here?''
Kris looked up again, walking a bit closer.- but still giving me enough room. Her hand moved forward, and for a split second she reached my chest. It burned, but only cause i was so excited about that touch.
''Cause i saw you here, for the very first time.''
The excitment was gone, the dream was over. I so hoped she wouldnt say that, i tried to hide everything as good as possible. I had thought about our chances well enough, to know it wouldnt work. Sam let the thing with Bella through, he said i am young and a fool in love. But he wouldnt go for it twice, without me imprinting on her. Normal love didnt matter to him.
''You saw me first at your house'', i tried to save the situation, or maybe making her stay a little longer.
''Thats what i thought first, but it isnt the truth Jacob. I know that you are that wolf, and i know you are not the only one. You saved me once, and now let me save you. I cant offer you much, but what i have you can take from me'', i couldnt believe what she said. Not only sounded her words like music in my ears, but her reaction was so wrong. She had to run from me, she had to realize that this wasnt some movie like the Beauty and the Beast. How much did she know, and how was i able to push her away in the right way. I had to be rude, and that was the last thing i wanted to do. Of course she had found out herself, but Sam wouldnt let me work that out. With Bella it was different, she had been too much into this stuff before. But Kristine she was pure, and she had a normal life in front of her.- i wished.
''Can it be that you lost your mind?'', i said but the words burnt in my mouth. It was like toxic, talking like this to the one person you wanted to hold. I felt like falling down into a black hole, never landing on my feed again. I again expected her to react different, than she really did. Instead of anger or sadness i saw strenght and love in her eyes, she stepped closer again.

I never had felt more alive...
Her gentle hands were shaking as she wrapped her arms around my waist. Of course she was way smaller than me, but that didnt matter to her. A wave of warmth ran through my body, it nearly made me shiver. I wanted to push her away, correction, the sane part of me wanted to push her away. Not in this lifetime. Her big eyes looked up to me, and without the chance of resisting i looked down.- locking eye contact with her. Kristine pressed her warm and slender body against me tightly, and without thinking i wrapped my arms around her. It was now or never, and i always took the Now. The consequences would come, i knew that well enough. I lowered my head, feeling that she already stood on the tip of her toes. My fingers were playing with her long hair, and then i smiled without wanting to. I lifted her up like she had no weight.- her feet no longer touching the ground. I heard a little gasp coming from her, which made me smile even more.
''Wow'', she whispered, more than likley talking about my strength.
''You couldnt have said it better.''
And then it happened, like it did a thousand times in my head now. She laid her warm and full lips on mine, making me hers. It was nothing wild or forcing in this kiss, not from her neither from me. I had waited too badly for that to happen, and i wanted to taste it as long as possible. And what a taste it was. We remained in that position for a long while, not able to let go. If i had been broken before, i finally became even again. I was enjoying the kiss as much as i could, while my mind was running and searching for the right answers.

You put her in danger, but you can protect her. You mess up with your brothers, but they will understand. You cant know if she can deal with it, but she seems to feel for you. You will hurt her, but that doesnt have to happen. Let her go, let her free..

I had to realize something in that moment, the choice wasnt mine anymore. It probably never was, from the moment that i found her. I had to deal with all those problems, but every second was worth it. Fools in love, it echoed in my head again. If i had to die for her, i would. If i had to protect her 24/7, i would. There was only ong thing i couldnt bare, and that was to leave her again. I held her tighter, making the kiss more intensive and she did the same. It was our special moment, no one could have destroyed. The Beauty and the B... gigantic Wolf.

End of the Third Chapter