Dear Diary...
Do I love him ? Does He love me ? Is that alright ? Isnt that wrong? So many questions becuse of one guy. Why, why me? Even though I broke up with Light and I dont have any feelings for L (till now),why does my heart hurt when I see him, why does it hurt when I see L?? Do I have feelings for him, and if does he have feelings for me??
It was Saturday, my work has ended and the police crew was home. I (idiot) forgot my wallet, so I musted go back and take it. When I came to the police room, it was all dark (maybe becuse it was 10 pm in the night), except the TVs that someone was watching. That was L siting in the chair like usual.

"Hey" I said "What are you doing this late." He turned to my side, and watched me with his big black eyes.
"Hey,I was watching some TV, but what are you donig here?"
"I have forgoten my Wallet,did you see it?" I asked
"Yeah" He came really close to me and watched down on me.
"What are you donig ?"
"Nothing special and you?"
"Dont joke with me L,Im not that stupid, WHAT ARE YOU..."
But before I even finished my sentences, he kissed me and then licked his lips.It was not a hard kiss, but a nice, cute, "I like more then a friend kiss".
It was the perfect first kiss!!
"W-wh-what are you doing ?" I asked schoked.
"I kissed you" He answered sweet.
"But why?"
"Becuse I love you!"
He l-lo-love me, me, the smartest guy in the world loves me!!
"But..." I was schoked.
"I know it sounds wierd,becuse i never felt this way, becuse I was never loved, but when Im with you my heart hurts.Its like a dre...
Before he finished I started to cry,not becuse I was sad, but because I was happy,so happy.
"Why are you crying" He asked me worried.
"Becuse Im happy,more then in my whole life" I said that while I was crying.
"Does that mean you like me too ?" He asked, while he was coming closer and closer to me.
"NO, I dont like you,you idiot" I smiled.
"Ohh.." He looked at me sad.
"I love you.I always did,but I was scared,becuse I tought that you dont like me and..."
He stoped me with his kiss. This kiss was different then the first,this was intensive, hotter. He didnt wanted to stop, even if tried he didnt let me go. I dont know how but managed to stop him for a minute, so i could ask him:
"L, why is this kiss different then the first one?"
He gave me a little kiss and said, "Becuse in the 1st one I havent been sure that you like me that much as i like you, but now that im sure of it I wont let you go, never!!"
That was the moment that should never stop, I loved him so much and he loved me too.
He pulled me to his body and kissed me with his tongue so hard it almost hurted. He raised me, taked me to his room and put me down on his bed.
Even if i loved him I want sure if that would be alright to do that at the same night, but as we were kissing more and more i wanted to do it more than he.
"Misa ?"
"What is it L ?"
"Do you really want to ?"
"Y-yes if its with you, I do. I love you!!"
"I love you too,Misa!"
He started to undress his white shirt,when I saw his muscles I blushed so much, I was so red it looked like I had fever.
"Your so cute when you blush" He said smileing.
"Idiot..." I said. "Dont joke with me !"
"That isnt a very nice sort of talking, becuse of that you must be punished ."
"W-what are you talki..."
He remove my shirt and kissed me on the forehead, then on the nose, then lips, neck...
"Pervert ." I said.
He smiled and removed my shoes, becuse he didnt have any shose or socks.
He get up from the bed, while i was lieing helpless on the bed, I dont know what was he thinking, but he was smileing pervert and cute in one.
I cant stop thinking of that night,but dear diary i should stop talking and go on!!!
He climbed on the bed and started to kiss me again and again.
"Lawliet, why can you kiss so good, didnt you say you didnt had a girlfriend till now ?"
"Thats false. That kiss with you wasnt my first, but it was your right ?"
"How do you know that ?"
"Becuse I know that Light never kiss you and that he dont love you, but I do ." he whispered in my ear "I love you so much i would kill for you ."
I blushed even more than before so I kissed him, and then happend the cutest thnik in this world, L BLUSHED, and becuse he doesnt wanted me to see it so kissed me so hard that i musted close my eyes, but i wanted to see his cute face so I pushed him down on the bed.
"What are you doing ?" L asked all red.
"I want to see your blushing face, its cuter then my..."
In that moment L pushed me down and kissed me.
"No, no im not your the cutest girl ever."
And with this sentence we were kissing and kissing and gone more far then just kissing. <3 <3 <3