Song: Katy Perry – Thinking of You (though some words are changed to fit the storyline)
AN: I've written a few oneshots of Brucas in Fanfiction.net but this is my first time posting one at this site. I hope you guys like it.
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Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
Everybody has always compared my relationship with Brooke and Peyton. Time and time again, people have commented that Peyton suits me more instead of Brooke. Nonetheless, both of them meant a lot to me. Though, during junior year I knew it was Brooke who had a hold on my heart. Granted I'm married to Peyton and we have a daughter, but Brooke still has a part of me I've never given to anyone else.
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
When you said you didn't love me anymore, I was crushed. At first, I couldn't believe your feelings for me had faded but after hanging out with Peyton, I knew I had chosen her over you by spending every spare moment I had with her. The night we won the Championship game, it was you that I wanted to spend it with. However, after seeing you pushing me towards her, I realized that I cannot be with you unless I explored the feelings between Peyton and me. After all I have put you through; I guess I deserve to be with someone who is second best to you.
Cause when I'm with her
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Every time I'm with her, I imagine that it's you I'm with. When I get up, I picture you beside me. Your brunette locks fanning your face, your mesmerizing soulful eyes looking up at me and that infectious grin that brings out those two dimples I love so much. However, when I see her beside me, I'm disappointed to see yellow curls and limpid green eyes staring back at me.
When I see her there, I can't help but wish it was you that I had married and it is you who is the mother of my child. Do not get me wrong, I love Sawyer but I had always pictured having a kid that looks like you with my personality. That way, I would be able to have a piece of you with me always.
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
I never thought I would fall for you. When I first knew you, I heard that you were nothing more than a party girl. However, after getting to know you, I recognize that there was more to Brooke Davis that one sees. You were unlike anyone I have ever known. You were fun and cheery and yet, at the same time you were vulnerable and insecure. I love learning the different sides of you and I'm forever grateful that you showed me the real you.
I was devastated when you pushed me towards Peyton. Granted, I understand you did it to help me. By exploring a relationship with Peyton, it removed any doubts that you and I were not meant to be as it showed me how much you were truly the one for me. Although we aren't together, I have never stopped loving you. People say that The Unkindness of Ravens and The Comet are about my love for Peyton and they are wrong.
Unkindness is about my relationship with both of you and the loss I felt over Keith while The Comet is actually my description of how you came into my life. I'm sorry for being such a coward that I cannot blurt out the truth. The honest truth is Peyton doesn't mean that much to me the way you do. I made my bed when I chose her and now I've no choice but to lie in it.
She kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
She pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Whenever I'm with her, I'm thinking of you. When we kiss, I picture you instead. At times it seems we're passionate for each other but that's far from the truth as all that fills my head is you and no else. I'm sorry that I fell into her plans. I knew in senior year she had feelings for me but I brushed it aside hoping it would never be revealed. How wrong was I when it blew up in my face and I loss you in the process.
The point is I see myself as a hero. Thus, I'm a sucker for saving people. Peyton knows this and she puts herself in these kinds of situations since she knows I will always save her. Therefore, no matter how hard I try to pull away, she has the ability to suck me right back in.
Cause when I'm with her
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Everyone seems to think that you were second best compared to her and they are wrong. You've always been the first choice. But, I had screwed it up with you too many times that I knew I didn't deserve another chance. I wanted so badly to call you at the airport but I was scared that you would reject my advances. Guess I'm a wimp. For so long, Ive acted that you were second best when in actuality you aren't.
Every day I think about what would have happened if I was honest with you from the beginning, starting with the kiss in the library. Sometimes, I wish I hadn't been so stupid. How could I let you go after getting you back in senior year? I promised myself I would not hurt you when we got back together and yet I did it again.
Cause when I'm with her
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
When I see you with him, I get jealous. He has the luxury of being with you when I've none. Sometimes, I wish you would realize that I've never stopped loving you and you would come and declare your love for me. You know the last time we said I love you, I meant it as more than a friend. I prayed that you would hear it that way but instead you replied the same, like you meant it as a friend too.
I long to have you in my arms like before. Nowadays, you look at him the way you use to do with me and it hurts me to see you looking at him that way. People say that you were second best for me. But, that is clearly far from the truth. It is I who settle for second best and in the process I became second best to him.
