All that afternoon, Cal knew he wasn't right. He couldn't even identify emotions right, what he thought was happiness was actually contempt. Everyone just stared at him, looking confused but Loker looked slightly amused. After realizing what he'd done, he left room but Gillan followed.
'Cal? Cal!?.' She grabbed his arm. 'What's wrong with you today? You have never mistaken one emotion for another before.'
'I've.. I've got alot on my mind at the moment.'
'You keep using that excuse but I'm not buying it.' He looked at her for moment. 'What?.'
'I.. Can't.'
'Or won't.'
'Oh believe me, I want to.'
'No you don't. How is our partnership suppose to work if you keep stuff from me?.' He took her hand and lead her into his office.
'Let's get some thing's cleared up. One, I don't have to tell you everything. Two, You keep secrets from me too and Three. are every going to talk about last night or what?.' Gillan looked down at the floor. 'That's a never.' She looked back up at him, leaned forward and kissed him.
'Wrong again.' Cal recaptured her lips but this time it was more passionate. He wrapped his arms around her waist whilst hers were in his hair, he liked that. After a moment, he pulled away gently and looked at her. He wanted to be with her but if she found out what he did she would leave in a heart beat. He placed his forehead against hers and sighed. 'What is it?.'
'I can't do this Gill. As much as i want to, i can't.'
'Why?.' She pressed a light kiss on his lips. 'I thought this is what you wanted?.'
'It is, but I can't right now.' He took a step back from her. 'I'm sorry.' She shook her head.
'You know you can be a right ass sometimes.' She walked out of the office.
'I know.'

When he got home, he plumped himself of the sofa and closed his eyes for a moment. He couldn't believe what he had just done, to that guy, to Gillan. He felt like the biggest idiot in the world. He never heard Emily come in, she looked at him and decided to let him sleep. He needed it. When he woke it was five o'clock.
'Em?.'
'In the kitchen.' He got up from the sofa.
'When did you get home?.'
'A couple hours ago.'
'Why didn't you wake me?.'
'I didn't want to. I thought you could use some sleep, you've seemed pretty stressed lately.' He hugged her. 'What was that for?.'
'For being you. So.. what you cooking?.'
'Beans on toast.' Cal smiled.
'My favorite.'
'I know.'
After dinner, he tried to help Emily with her homework, He had no idea what he was doing.
'When did maths get so hard?.'
'That just shows how old your are.'
'Oi.' He went and got a beer out the fridge. 'I'm not that old.' She smiled at him. 'What?.'
'You are so easy to wind up.' He took a sip. 'You ok dad?.'
'Course, why wouldn't i be?.'
'It's just you seem.. stressed about something.'
'I'm fine.' Emily shook her head.
'Your going to have to do better then that.'
'And you need to stop coming to my office.'
'Just answer the question.' He sighed.
'Ok, i'm not alright.'
'What is it?.'
'A couple nights ago after you went to be, my friend Terry came round and asked me for some money. I told him no.'
'So what are your worrying about?.'
'He need them money to pay off some debt. I just keep thinking that something bad will happen to him. But that's not all. The other night, Foster came round and I.. kissed her.'
'You kissed?. What does that mean?.'
'Don't get your hopes up Em. It's not going to happen.'
'Why not?. Haven't you liked her since.. i don't when?.'
'I do. i still do. Before i came home we had a row about it at the office and she walked out. Besides there's only one girl in my life at the moment.' He put his beer down.
'Who?.'
'You.' She smiled at him. 'And don't say i'm the only man in your life cause that's a lie.' Emily sighed and shook her head.
'Same old dad.'