I was once in the pit of all darkness...
Where all my fears and anything and everything didn't matter.... where nothing helped.
No love.
No help.
No one cared.
At least... thats how it felt...
No one noticed because of the mask, the mask everyone see's...
I felt like everyone would either be better off if I just DIED or might even throw a party!
Ha! I used to think thats what they all wanted they just acted nice.
I felt I didn't deserve there kindess.
Thats what I 'thought'.
Every night crying my self asleep,
every night thinking of how to kill my self,
every night praying...
praying God would kill me.
Now I pray for my loved ones.
Now I pray for happiness,
now I pray that I don't fall back into that hole...
The hole that scares me and that holds all my memories...
I pray that others will find a way to climb out.
I did it with one thing driving me...
I did it for MY dream!
I will work, and go threw this terrible world so I may spread my message!
I will go the distance so no one may fear that hole ever again!
I will for my children,
my grand children,
AND THERE CHILDREN!
This is what you do, you look for something,
something positive, to take your mind off
EVERYTHING!
Get a new attitude, try it out for a few months,
and forgive your self.
Forgive everyone around you.
And forgive your enimies~!
And maybe find a religion if you don't have one.
Live for your loved ones,
live for your lover,
and most importantly...
live for you!
~B
Where all my fears and anything and everything didn't matter.... where nothing helped.
No love.
No help.
No one cared.
At least... thats how it felt...
No one noticed because of the mask, the mask everyone see's...
I felt like everyone would either be better off if I just DIED or might even throw a party!
Ha! I used to think thats what they all wanted they just acted nice.
I felt I didn't deserve there kindess.
Thats what I 'thought'.
Every night crying my self asleep,
every night thinking of how to kill my self,
every night praying...
praying God would kill me.
Now I pray for my loved ones.
Now I pray for happiness,
now I pray that I don't fall back into that hole...
The hole that scares me and that holds all my memories...
I pray that others will find a way to climb out.
I did it with one thing driving me...
I did it for MY dream!
I will work, and go threw this terrible world so I may spread my message!
I will go the distance so no one may fear that hole ever again!
I will for my children,
my grand children,
AND THERE CHILDREN!
This is what you do, you look for something,
something positive, to take your mind off
EVERYTHING!
Get a new attitude, try it out for a few months,
and forgive your self.
Forgive everyone around you.
And forgive your enimies~!
And maybe find a religion if you don't have one.
Live for your loved ones,
live for your lover,
and most importantly...
live for you!
~B
Wrote because I was bored
Dark Despair
by cutiegirl01
In the dark I die
Scared and alone
Keeping me in the dark
No one ever sees
That who they see
Is not the real me
So scared and alone
I die till I see
You come as the son of night
So I wait in my dark despair.
Can anyone save me
Does any body know
that I am dieing
and I am alone?
Save me
from what I have become
alone and broken
the life of me is draining
I have nothing
to live for
but I know that
I am holding on for you
I am holding on for that
I am dieing
please come save me
from my dark despair
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Dark Despair
by cutiegirl01
In the dark I die
Scared and alone
Keeping me in the dark
No one ever sees
That who they see
Is not the real me
So scared and alone
I die till I see
You come as the son of night
So I wait in my dark despair.
Can anyone save me
Does any body know
that I am dieing
and I am alone?
Save me
from what I have become
alone and broken
the life of me is draining
I have nothing
to live for
but I know that
I am holding on for you
I am holding on for that
I am dieing
please come save me
from my dark despair
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Main Entry: 1sui·cide
Pronunciation: \ˈsü-ə-ˌsīd\
Function: noun
Etymology: Latin sui (genitive) of oneself + English -cide; akin to Old English & Old High German sīn his, Latin suus one's own, sed, se without, Sanskrit sva oneself, one's own
Date: 1643
1 a : the act or an instance of taking one's own life voluntarily and intentionally especially by a person of years of discretion and of sound mind b : ruin of one's own interests <political suicide> c : apoptosis <cell suicide>
2 : one that commits or attempts suicide
Pronunciation: \ˈsü-ə-ˌsīd\
Function: noun
Etymology: Latin sui (genitive) of oneself + English -cide; akin to Old English & Old High German sīn his, Latin suus one's own, sed, se without, Sanskrit sva oneself, one's own
Date: 1643
1 a : the act or an instance of taking one's own life voluntarily and intentionally especially by a person of years of discretion and of sound mind b : ruin of one's own interests <political suicide> c : apoptosis <cell suicide>
2 : one that commits or attempts suicide