this is part 2 of our story, so after reading it u'll b about half way thro our basic life. I wanna start by saying we were BORN with all our memories from our past life but, being born a baby like every1 else, no way 2 convey them. Alas, no 1 in their right mind would believe us even if we could so we kept our mouth shut. We were born twins in Central, and were straight A students in the class-room...
but having 2 lives ment having 2 abusive families...at least 4 me. I donno if Cylon had 2 go thro that b4 or not...our older brother was nice but clueless 2 it and our mother had 2 go thro it with us...if we told any1 he said he'd hurt us worse...it was a cruel life...and part of the reason we learned alchemy. Having still had memories from our other life, I knew almost all the symbols and circles...and all of my variations of them. I didn't kno at the time that I wouldn't need them...until 1 day me and Cylon were sitting out my a fire we'd made in the forest after running away again.
“H-he...he said he'd stop hurting us if we gave him something 2 b proud of like brother...” she stammers.
“4get it, Cy...” I sigh softly. “nothing will make him happy....”
“I HATE HIM!!” she cries loudly. “Is this...is this our equal exchange 4 coming bak...?”
“maybe...” I look at her. What happened 2 us...only 3 days b4 that....is 2...2 much of a pain 2 repeat...but it was our 13th birthday....and something I never wanna relive ever again...brother was at collage so there were no witnesses...no 1 2 help...
a few weeks l8er he killed mother....beat her 2 death...blood ran down from them both....and about then he walked in. he said if we could bring her bak with a human transmutation...he'd b proud and leave us alone from then on...and so we did. We tried 2 bring her bak...but not 4 him, 4 us...because she was the only 1 that we loved...brother always even turned up his nose 2 us...he didn't believe it when we told him what the scars r from....they called me Envy...at school...because I hated the very existence of humans after that...mostly because they had something I so wanted...a family...friends....people who care...some1 who listens...a life...a life beyond what I've ever had...either of the 2 times...i hate humans...i hate them....all they do is hurt other humans...and kill them...and lie and hurt and...and I just hate them....i hate being considered human...so, in a way....1 of my sacrifices was my humanity....when I lost my leg, my arm...and part of my inside...and Cylon lost the same arm and leg...only she lost part of her mind...literally. Parts of her memory including that of our 13th birthday...and all the worse parts...i forced that...that thing 2 take all the bad memories..unfortunately it also means she has problems remembering things now as well...and when we got bak father was laughing...but I was the only conscience 1...
“WHAT THE HELL R U LAUGHING AT, DAMN IT!?” i screamed, tears running down my face.
“i knew it.” he laughs “i knew u couldn't do it..but loosing an arm and a leg...both of u? How pathetic.” he keeps laughing...i growl.
“I'LL SHOW U PATHETIC!!” I snap, using blood 2 draw a circle then, using my only arm, forcing spikes around him and a few thro him...but not enough 2 kill him. I pull out the gun I'd made and point at him. “I'LL FUCKING KILL U!!”
“oh, will u now? I don't think u can....because u'r weak...” he growls, his hands on vine points and his entire body wrapped in rose vines. I glare at him, then look at the gun....i sigh softly. He's...he's right...i can't pull the trigger....because even tho all he's ever done is hurt me and my sister and mother...he's still a human...and I can't bring myself 2 kill another human...not after seeing The Gate again...i can't...i can't do it....not if I don't have 2. “HA! I KNEW u were 2 WEAK!! u couldn't even kill insects so how could u expect 2 kill another human being!!??”
I growl “DON'T CALL ME HUMAN!!!” I snap “I WON'T B LUMPED WITH VILE CREATURES LIKE U!!!”
“don't 4get that u 2 r...”
I WILL NOT B PART OF UR SUPPOSED HUMANITY WHICH DOESN'T EVEN EXIST!!” I yell, tears streaming down my face. “I WON'T B DRAGGED DOWN BY U FILTHY HUMANS!! ALL U EVER DO IS HURT EACH OTHER AND CLAIM THINGS AS UR OWN, 4GETTING THAT THERE R OTHERS AROUND U!!! I REFUSE 2 B 1 OF U, U BASTERD!!!” I shoot rocks up around him, forming a circle then punch the ground as hard as I can. Huge vines with poison oozing from the thorns that form and wrapping around him, piercing his skin. I grin hugely as he dangles there from the vines...remembering all the times this was reversed only I was in chains along with sister and mother. “and besides...” I sneer as he screams, the poison entering him. It won't kill him...just cause him extreme agony and hopefully paralyze him. “i only let u live because I want u 2 kno everything u put us thro.....FATHER!” I spit the word. “u will never c us again...understand? We're leaving and u'r going 2 b alone...in fact, u can rot there 4 all I care.”
“harsh words...but how do u plan on leaving? U no longer have a leg 2 stand on.” he glares at me. “And your sister is still unconscious.”
“but unlike u I have friends I can count on.” I retort.
“really? Where?”
“they'll b here.” I reply evenly, forming a sort of horn from the stone and playing it expertly. Slowly a bunch of animals walk in, both big and small.
“what the hell?!”
“oh, u c...animals r reliable...unlike humans. And they're loyal and honest...more than can b said 4 almost any human...” I look at them all with a smile as they all walk about. The wolves surround father, growling and snarling. “it's alright...he can't get out of those vines.” I look at them. They suddenly notice what I'm missing and surround me, whining softly. They do the same 4 Cylon. “it's ok...but I need ur help...2 get sister and me out...please...” I look at them. Birds fly around me and the wolves nod. A huge tiger walks out and gently picks up sister in her mouth. She's a mother...so I kno Cylon will b safe. She manages 2 get her on her bak with help from the other animals and another tiger does the same with me...they all give father a last glare, as do I, and then we all leave...the tigers with me and Cylon in the middle...and the other tigers and cats just outside of them, and the wolves around the cats...with the birds flying over head...and that's when, I think...the rest of my humanity left me...when I realized I felt safer with the animals then I ever did with any human...and when I realized I felt more loved by them then any human other then sister and mother....
but having 2 lives ment having 2 abusive families...at least 4 me. I donno if Cylon had 2 go thro that b4 or not...our older brother was nice but clueless 2 it and our mother had 2 go thro it with us...if we told any1 he said he'd hurt us worse...it was a cruel life...and part of the reason we learned alchemy. Having still had memories from our other life, I knew almost all the symbols and circles...and all of my variations of them. I didn't kno at the time that I wouldn't need them...until 1 day me and Cylon were sitting out my a fire we'd made in the forest after running away again.
“H-he...he said he'd stop hurting us if we gave him something 2 b proud of like brother...” she stammers.
“4get it, Cy...” I sigh softly. “nothing will make him happy....”
“I HATE HIM!!” she cries loudly. “Is this...is this our equal exchange 4 coming bak...?”
“maybe...” I look at her. What happened 2 us...only 3 days b4 that....is 2...2 much of a pain 2 repeat...but it was our 13th birthday....and something I never wanna relive ever again...brother was at collage so there were no witnesses...no 1 2 help...
a few weeks l8er he killed mother....beat her 2 death...blood ran down from them both....and about then he walked in. he said if we could bring her bak with a human transmutation...he'd b proud and leave us alone from then on...and so we did. We tried 2 bring her bak...but not 4 him, 4 us...because she was the only 1 that we loved...brother always even turned up his nose 2 us...he didn't believe it when we told him what the scars r from....they called me Envy...at school...because I hated the very existence of humans after that...mostly because they had something I so wanted...a family...friends....people who care...some1 who listens...a life...a life beyond what I've ever had...either of the 2 times...i hate humans...i hate them....all they do is hurt other humans...and kill them...and lie and hurt and...and I just hate them....i hate being considered human...so, in a way....1 of my sacrifices was my humanity....when I lost my leg, my arm...and part of my inside...and Cylon lost the same arm and leg...only she lost part of her mind...literally. Parts of her memory including that of our 13th birthday...and all the worse parts...i forced that...that thing 2 take all the bad memories..unfortunately it also means she has problems remembering things now as well...and when we got bak father was laughing...but I was the only conscience 1...
“WHAT THE HELL R U LAUGHING AT, DAMN IT!?” i screamed, tears running down my face.
“i knew it.” he laughs “i knew u couldn't do it..but loosing an arm and a leg...both of u? How pathetic.” he keeps laughing...i growl.
“I'LL SHOW U PATHETIC!!” I snap, using blood 2 draw a circle then, using my only arm, forcing spikes around him and a few thro him...but not enough 2 kill him. I pull out the gun I'd made and point at him. “I'LL FUCKING KILL U!!”
“oh, will u now? I don't think u can....because u'r weak...” he growls, his hands on vine points and his entire body wrapped in rose vines. I glare at him, then look at the gun....i sigh softly. He's...he's right...i can't pull the trigger....because even tho all he's ever done is hurt me and my sister and mother...he's still a human...and I can't bring myself 2 kill another human...not after seeing The Gate again...i can't...i can't do it....not if I don't have 2. “HA! I KNEW u were 2 WEAK!! u couldn't even kill insects so how could u expect 2 kill another human being!!??”
I growl “DON'T CALL ME HUMAN!!!” I snap “I WON'T B LUMPED WITH VILE CREATURES LIKE U!!!”
“don't 4get that u 2 r...”
I WILL NOT B PART OF UR SUPPOSED HUMANITY WHICH DOESN'T EVEN EXIST!!” I yell, tears streaming down my face. “I WON'T B DRAGGED DOWN BY U FILTHY HUMANS!! ALL U EVER DO IS HURT EACH OTHER AND CLAIM THINGS AS UR OWN, 4GETTING THAT THERE R OTHERS AROUND U!!! I REFUSE 2 B 1 OF U, U BASTERD!!!” I shoot rocks up around him, forming a circle then punch the ground as hard as I can. Huge vines with poison oozing from the thorns that form and wrapping around him, piercing his skin. I grin hugely as he dangles there from the vines...remembering all the times this was reversed only I was in chains along with sister and mother. “and besides...” I sneer as he screams, the poison entering him. It won't kill him...just cause him extreme agony and hopefully paralyze him. “i only let u live because I want u 2 kno everything u put us thro.....FATHER!” I spit the word. “u will never c us again...understand? We're leaving and u'r going 2 b alone...in fact, u can rot there 4 all I care.”
“harsh words...but how do u plan on leaving? U no longer have a leg 2 stand on.” he glares at me. “And your sister is still unconscious.”
“but unlike u I have friends I can count on.” I retort.
“really? Where?”
“they'll b here.” I reply evenly, forming a sort of horn from the stone and playing it expertly. Slowly a bunch of animals walk in, both big and small.
“what the hell?!”
“oh, u c...animals r reliable...unlike humans. And they're loyal and honest...more than can b said 4 almost any human...” I look at them all with a smile as they all walk about. The wolves surround father, growling and snarling. “it's alright...he can't get out of those vines.” I look at them. They suddenly notice what I'm missing and surround me, whining softly. They do the same 4 Cylon. “it's ok...but I need ur help...2 get sister and me out...please...” I look at them. Birds fly around me and the wolves nod. A huge tiger walks out and gently picks up sister in her mouth. She's a mother...so I kno Cylon will b safe. She manages 2 get her on her bak with help from the other animals and another tiger does the same with me...they all give father a last glare, as do I, and then we all leave...the tigers with me and Cylon in the middle...and the other tigers and cats just outside of them, and the wolves around the cats...with the birds flying over head...and that's when, I think...the rest of my humanity left me...when I realized I felt safer with the animals then I ever did with any human...and when I realized I felt more loved by them then any human other then sister and mother....