Getting There

A/N: Right so I'm in such a writing mood today so I decided to get this chapter up asap and I'm nearly done with my pen-ultimate AMLSL chapter so I'm really happy with that. Now I can just focus on this one. Anyway yeah same reason for the slow update I'm sorry just been really busy and I have another art show competition this week so I had to make a load of new projects! I made a CB one! Lool! I just had too! Anyway I hope you all like this chapter, but I think that will be a no. Anyway thanks for all the comments so far. Please do keep commenting I really appreciate it. Thank you. xoxo

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Rating: T

Copyright: I own Nothing, Apart from my original characters.

Story Type: Multi Chapter

Published: 12th August, 2009

Main Character: Blair Waldorf

Characters: Chuck Bass, Dan Humphrey, Nate Archibald, Serena Van der Woodsen & Vanessa Abrams (Others will be included)

Summary: Inspired by the movie 'Little Miss Sunshine'. The NJBC have graduated high school and Serena persuaded the gang to take a road trip since they are all being separated next year by going to different collages. They all go and have a few bumps along the way. Which makes them realise who their real friends are.

More Details: Blair and Chuck did happen but after 1x18 nothing happened. Chuck left Blair and then that's how that kinda ended. They are kind of avoiding talking about their relationship and are kind of back like they were in the start of season 1. Serena and Nate did happen. Nate still has feelings for Serena even though he's not aware of it. Nate is dating Vanessa. Dan and Serena are still together.

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Chapter 8: The Brave & the Weak

        That next morning Blair tried to keep the previous days events as far to the back of her mind as possible. She never wanted to relive that day ever again, it was best for Blair and for everyone if she forgot everything about it. Even though it made her upset beyond reasoning but no one was blaming her for that she did have that shoulder to cry on. What had happened surprised Blair but no where near as much as how much is surprised her the support she had gotten from Chuck Bass. He had been a true friend, but actually no he hadn't. He'd been more of a friend. She pretended to be asleep half the time just to make Chuck feel he had gotten her off to sleep all right but half the time she felt what he was doing, taking care of her. He had placed a blanket over her, he had held onto her hand. He had kissed her goodnight.
At one point she actually wished it had been more, she thought her love for Chuck had worn off, it had drifted away but now it was most certainly back in every possible way seeing what he had done for her made her love him even more than the first time.
        When she went downstairs to the parking lot Chuck carried her bags down for her and as he was chatting with Nate and Vanessa Dan approached Blair offering her his support.
“I'm not even going to ask how you are Waldorf, I know you'll end up killing me for it”
“Wow Humphrey listening to what I'm saying for once, but I know you're dying to ask so...”
Blair knew he was dying to ask so she just gave in early.
“How are you?”
“I'm fine”
She nodded.
“You sure?”
Dan was unconvinced by her answer.
“See things like that is what's going to get you killed. I said so didn't I”
She said and frowned.
“Okay, just making sure”
He answered and stepped quickly away before Blair hit him.
“Thank you for being concerned anyway”
She moved closer to him and tapped her hand on his arm, she was grateful for his concern.
“Any time Blair”
“You're not the only one then”
She mumbled under her breath
“What?”
He asked.
“Chuck. You were right”
She spoke clearly for the first time while admitting that Dan was right.
“About what?”
“What I asked you before. I think it's true”
She couldn't help but smile while speaking those words so quietly since Chuck was only a few feet away.
“Blair I appreciate that you don't fully hate me now but do you have to talk about this to me, shouldn't it be Serena?”
“Yes but...”
Blair's sentence was cut short when Serena made her way over to them with a look of guilt all over her face.
“Blair do you want to go home?”
Serena spoke quietly and Blair saw the guilt all over her face.
“I never do anything for you”
Blair stepped forward and held Serena's hand.
“Yes you do”
“No. Not really, this time I'm going too. This is your dream and if you want this then I want it too”
Blair finally had the opportunity to go home and she didn't take it, friendship was more important.
“B. Trust me when we get to Los Angeles I am getting you the best hotel suite in the whole town”
Serena jumped in the air filled with giggles, hoping that Blair would say that.
“I think we can agree on those terms”
Blair joined Serena in her laugh. Then after finally packing everything away they got back on the open road and headed into Missouri.
        A few hours of driving through the deserted roads with nothing much in sight Dan thought what a perfect time to start a game of 'I spy'. Everyone tried to be enthused over it but it was a very hard ask. Blair tried her best seeing as she and Dan had this new found respect for each other. Dan obviously begun with his choice which lets face it was pretty very limited.
“I spy something beginning with S”
“Sky”
Blair answered only a second after the last letter left Dan's mouth.
“Yes”
“I spy something beginning with S”
“Sand”
Dan answered.
“Yes”
Blair held her thumbs up.
“I spy something beginning with...”
“Serena”
Blair answered before Dan got a chance to finish.
“Yes”
Dan answered in a very annoyed tone that no one else was even bothering to play.
“Well there's that game over with”
Blair muttered as the others seemed totally unaffected, no expression what so ever on their faces. It was very boring for the next few hours. More endless five minute games went on over the hours mostly only involving Dan and Blair, Nate occasionally joined in but not for very long.
        The next thing they knew it was getting dark and the rain was starting to pour down. Being Dan he had concentrated more on the games than on the road and a few wrong turns later they ended up at the wrong hotel so a few hours later and a few 'right' turns they ended up at the right hotel. This was a luxury, since they were going through St. Louis that day Serena decided to give her friends a treat and not to slum it in a Motel and she thought it might cheer Blair up and of course it did.
“I love you S”
Blair was getting over excited as they were checking in and being the Upper East Side's most elite off-spring booking in advance wasn't in issue.
“Do you two want to share or get your own room?”
Serena asked Blair and Chuck, just as she did they both looked at each other and said,
“We'll share”
As a smile crossed between them.
They got the bellhop to carry their cases up to their suites apart from Vanessa and Dan who decided not to be the spoilt brats and do it themselves. Vanessa, Nate, Serena and Chuck got into the first elevator going up to the 30th floor leaving Dan and Blair to get the next one.
“I've decided I'm going to tell him”
Blair told Dan
“What now?”
He looked confused.
“When we get up there obviously”
“That's why you wanted a room”
Dan realized, the penny finally dropped.
“Among other things”
Blair giggled as Dan looked away in disgust.
“Blair I don't wanna hear this”
“Well obviously when he says it back you know...”
“Blair shut up! Stop talking”
Dan put his fingers in his ears trying to block out what Blair was saying but there was no need once Dan told her to shut up, she did so. Nobody ever told her to shut up and even if they did she'd never listen but this was Humphrey so she kind of had too.
        Blair arrived just as the bellhop was leaving their room counting his very generous tip. Knowing what she was going to have to do next she walked into the room very nervously. Chuck was still concerned for her after the previous day.
“You want to talk?”
He offered.
“You know you'll have to stop being so nice to me. I'm okay honestly”
Blair smiled.
“Okay”
Chuck accepted and nodded.
“We can still talk though”
She got the courage up and decided to get straight to it.
“About what?”
“Well actually I needed to ask you something...”
“What is it?”
“I don't know how to say this but...” She mumbled a few words and kept repeating herself but then eventually got the words together to make sense. “Vanessa told me that she thinks that you... that you... You love me...”
“Huh?”
His frowned he seemed confused.
“And Dan thinks so too”
She added.
“And you listen to Vanessa and Humphrey? Blair I thought you had more sense”
He laughed it off, unconvincingly.
“So it's not true?”
Blair asked worryingly.
“Ha! No” He laughed again. “Did you think I did?”
“No...” Blair laughed along with him until he stopped and she saw she was being weak. “Yes!”
“Why?”
“You've been looking after me and you've been so nice and I thought after last summer you...”
Blair was upset, tears started to well up in her eyes thinking about the previous summer.
“You're bringing this up again”
Chuck frowned.
“We've never talked about it. Not once”
She yelled and corrected him.
“What do you want to say about it?”
“I waited for you. All summer. Even after it dawned on me you weren't coming I was stupid enough to think that you would. You'd surprise me and sweep me off my feet”
Blair had never admitted how she really felt about that summer to no one, not even Serena. She didn't want to seem stupid if Chuck did show up and eventually sweep her off her feet, but that day would never come.
“Is that what you wanted?”
“Yes! So damn much” She yelled at him again. “And then it was over”
“It was never over”
Chuck mumbled seeing what his abandonment of her had caused.
“You ended it!”
“No I didn't. I just wasn't ready for you”
“And what am I suppose to just take that? I can't. You broke my heart. When I saw you at the end of summer and you were acting like nothing had happened I wanted to die”
“I'm sorry”
He muttered under his breath feeling very guilty for lying to Blair and for not realizing how upset she was over last summer.
“Doesn't matter. Nothing ever matters with you...”
Just as she said those last words she turned away from him and he made a quick run for it out the door. Leaving a tearful Blair clearing her eyes of the tears.
        After a while and Chuck hadn't returned to their room, unlikely that he would but then Blair decided to go find him and finish what she was going to do. She would not be a coward, she said she was going to do it that night and she was going too, whether Chuck wanted to hear it or not.
She found him out in the gardens of the hotel. Standing in the rain. She didn't care about what the rain would do to her hair or her make-up she just ran out to join him.
“It was never over for me either”
“I just...”
Chuck rolled his eyes.
“I'm going to tell you something now that I will regret the second it leaves my lips but you have to know”
Blair walked closer to him and placed her hands on his cheeks pressing her forehead against his.
“Blair... Don't say it”
Chuck knew what was coming he couldn't avoid it. Blair was going to say it no matter what he said.
“I love you.” After months of avoiding it, not being in it, trying everything she could not to fall in love again, but this time the love was even stronger. Same boy totally different feelings, and what she wished he had done the previous evening she could do right at that moment. Blair closed her eyes and as the rain poured down onto their skin she pressed her lips against his as they shared their first kiss since the wedding, one year previous. “Say something”
“What?”
Chuck mumbled, speechless.
“Just tell me how you feel”
“This wasn't meant to happen on this trip”
Chuck finally moved away from her.
“Answer me”
Blair moved her hands away.
“I don't want to hurt you” Chuck spoke but not the words Blair wanted to hear, just as she was about to speak he stopped her again.“And don't say I wont because you know I will”
“Please don't be weak if you love me too then say it”
Blair got to the point that she was begging him to say it back, he just had to be strong.
“I am weak, that's why I can't say it”
He moved fully away from Blair and walked back from the rain into the hotel.
“Chuck!”
Blair yelled as he went back inside and she noticed that Serena and Vanessa had been staring through the window the whole time.
As if it wasn't bad enough.
“Did you hear us?”
Blair asked Serena.
“Yeah”
Serena nodded.
“Did she hear?”
Blair pointed at Vanessa getting all of her anger out on her.
“Yes”
“Oh great. I bet you loved that”
“She didn't say anything Blair”
Serena defended Vanessa.
“I didn't Blair”
Vanessa tried to be sympathetic but knowing Blair she would not get that, at all.
“I bet you didn't. You were laughing too much”
“She wasn't Blair”
Serena added again.
“I just wanted him to say it back Serena”
Blair started crying again but this time it didn't seem to ever end, they kept on falling. Serena held onto Blair and hugged her tightly, supporting her best friend.
“He will”
Serena tried to convince Blair.
“No Serena, he wont”
Blair attitude was defeatist, what was the point. If Chuck wasn't going to be strong why should she be?
        Just as Blair was left to cry in Serena's arms for the night, Dan was in for an unpleasant knock on his door.
“What the hell did you say to Blair?”
Chuck pushed his way in and pushed Dan straight into the nearest wall.
“The truth”
Dan coughed.
“You have no right to tell her anything”
Chuck gritted through his teeth.
“She asked I just answered her”
“You have no idea what you've done”
Chuck finally let go of Dan and sat on the nearest arm chair placing his palms into his face.
“Blair already knew that, she just needed someone to confirm it”
“I don't want to hurt her again”
Having Blair admit what she had felt last summer made it even harder for him to say those three words back to her, if he had hurt her that time it was inevitable that it was going to happen again.
“You just have!”
Dan muttered.


TO BE CONTINUED...

A/N: Okay so I'm kind of undecided about whether I like this chapter or not. What did you all think, I'm really liking how this is turning out and since I'm nearly done with AMLSL I might start a new one of just focus on this one, depends if my school work gets too heavy next year. So please do comment I really appreciate it. Thank you xoxo