“- I don’t think that I could rest when I’m hallucinating, or dreaming dreams like that”, she felt angry, she needed to get rest, or care of her baby, she actually doesn’t have time to dream about him.
She closed her eyes gain, hopping to get rest, to get sleep.
“- You are already dreaming, you doesn’t have to be with closed eyes”, his voice was gentle, really different from really House. But he was right, if she is dreaming she doesn’t have to try to get sleep now, she felt stupid, but who cares he is just hallucination.
“- Why you are so angry...? You weren’t when you dreamed last times.” he get smiled, with his beautiful smile she loved. She felt crazy that she can’t resist for hallucination.
He get sit on coach next to her and start caressing her hairs, it felt good. “- Don’t be worry, your baby would be ok...get relax..”, his voice was softly, it sound like music for her ears.
“- Stop,... you are not real...”, she was convincing herself too, she barely could remember that he is not real. “- Am I doesn’t look real..? You can feel me, you can hear me, you can even touch me...”, his voice lull her. He was right, she could see him, she could feel him, in dreams world he is real, and he is the only one she could have. She couldn’t admit her feeling for House, so now she is with Lucas but still dreaming about him, about what she really want. She have to admit, if she won’t like him she won’t dream about him.
“- But you are still not real....” her voice sound sad, she was sad all day, but she really wanted him to be real.
“- You could blame just yourself...”, his voice was still softly, she couldn’t hear that his voice would be blaming her for real, but he was right, she can’t be angry on him.
“- I have to wake up, I need to care of my baby,...she sick she need mommy”, her voice was sad, she was concern about her Rachel. House caress her shoulder, she needed that.
“- Tell me, that she would be ok...House would help her right.?..” she knew that is stupid to ask him that, but she was worried. House noticed her eyes getting wet, he caress her face softly, cleaned her tears from her cheek, that felt so good. She needed that, needed someone to care of her, to caress her, to conform her. She hugged House, and he hugged her back, softly but strong. She needed someone but now she had just him, just this hallucination.
They been hugging for a very long time, it felt so good, she felt safe and happier in his arms. She wish she would be real, but she can’t ask for that until she is with Lucas
Finally he broke their hug, he caress her nice curls, her soft cheek skin, and he kisses her softly. It was wrong, she knew she shouldn’t do that, he is just hallucination, and it’s wrong to dream about her employee, about man she can’t have. But his kiss was so softly, so nice, so tasty, she wanted that so much, she kissed him back.
She woke up feeling happy and relaxed, she actually couldn’t believe that she felt very rested. She take a look to the watch, she slept about 2 hour, actually not much but enough to feel ok. Now she was in better mood, she is ready to visit her baby. She hopped that her baby feeling not so bad, that House would help her. The only one she scared was that she couldn’t visit her baby. Happily she was wrong.
She came back to the 2 floor, when elevator doors opened she saw Lucas still standing in the hall. “- Hey, Lisa, have you rested..?”, he was showing his care, actually she not really believed him, but she is his girlfriend it’s natural that he is caring of her.
“- Where is she,. can we visit her...?”, she was worried that she couldn’t visit her only baby. Her hands start shaking, she was so worried about Rachel.
“- Calm down,....you can visit her, I can’t....they letting just family.”, Lucas was pissed off, he was like her family too, but just not in documents. Lucas care about Rachel very much, he love her, and he believed that she love him back.
“- I need to see her,...wait for me there, later you could come too”, she is dean of this hospital, so she could let him in, but now she needed to see her baby, to be with her for a minute alone. Lucas nodded and she came in.
Rachel was very weak so she was sleeping very tight, she looked bad, her face was red, she was sweating, on her hands and neck was rash. She looked very sick and Lisa felt her eyes getting wet, she sit in chair next to bed, she wanted to take her hand, but she knew that she can’t and it was killing her.
She sit in that chair until Thirteen came in, she said that she have to do some test for baby, so it would be better if Cuddy would leave. Lisa was asking her what’s wrong with her baby, what ideas team have, but Remy doesn’t wanted to say, it’s better her not to worry, they are doing their best, House too.
Cuddy left and found Lucas still sitting on the bench not so far. “- They asked me to leave, she is doing some tests...” her voice was shaking, she was so scared, and nobody is talking with her about Rachel healthy.
Lucas caress her shoulder, it was nice but so different from House. “- Let’s go to eat, you need to relax”, she nodded and they left to cafeteria. She needed to eat something, she felt weak.
They was eating in cafeteria when Lucas phone start ringing, “- I need to pick up, I will went to the hall”, he left to the hall out of cafeteria, it seemed strange, but she agreed, actually she needed some silent.
Lucas came back 5min later, he looked angry, “- Something wrong,?”, he was angry and was avoiding her eyes, it seemed very serious.”- It’s job... those guys are so stubborn , they even dare to ramp me.” It sound very strange, but she believed that it could be truth, “- So do it, what’s wrong, why you can’t work for them?”, she couldn’t believe that he have so much work, his job is very specific, strange that a lot of people need him. “- I wish, but it’s in New York, I can’t leave you right now, when Rachel sick”, it sound he really care of baby, but his job sound very serious too. “- Oh... but if you have to, you should go...I will be ok for few days,....just promise to came back soon”, she doesn’t wanted to stay alone now, but she still will stay in hospital all the time, so maybe she won’t feel so bad.
“- You sure..? I promise to came back as soon as possible... maybe you should call to your sister or mom, they care of Rachel too”, she nodded, she saw how relieved Lucas felt after her nodding.
“- When you have to leave?”, now she is feeling ok, but she wasn’t sure how she would feel later, she was scare to be alone, but even Lucas being around sometimes doesn’t help.
“- As soon I will leave, as soon I could came back,....I’m thinking about tonight then”, he thought that it was obvious, he care of Lisa and baby, but he still have a job.
She just nodded. They finished their lunch and came back to Rachel, now nobody wasn’t there, so she let Lucas to visit baby. He wanted to hold her hand or to kiss to forehead too, but it was risk. They both get sit next to bed for a while, she looked the same like before.
They couldn’t stay there very long, it was time Lucas to leave, he needed to pack his stuff leaving to NY.
“- Take care of yourself, I’ll be back as soon as possible”, he gave her softly kiss and left.
Cuddy was very worried about her girl, she needed to get distract so decided came back to work, today she haven’t done anything about work. Everybody understand her, but still, she is dean, she have to work, and work always help her to get distract from other things.