Um I'm bored here at the hospital so I'm gonna publish some new chapters.
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“I have to go now.” Hayley said.
“Aww not already.” A frown touched my face.
“I know. I don't wanna leave. I wanna stay here forever, wrapped in your arms.” She frowned, too.
I patted the spot next to me that she had just gotten up from.
“Sorry Joshie, but my mom's gonna send out a search party for me if I don't come home soon.”
“I'm sure she can wait for a few minutes...our hours.” I hinted.
“As great as that sounds, and trust me that doe's sound great, I can't not tonight anyway.”
I sighed. “I'll miss you.”
“I'll miss you more. But just think, tomorrow morning I'll come over and we'll go out and celebrate our anniversary.”
“We could go to the park.” I suggested.
She smiled. “Yeah, enjoy Franklin's beauty.”
“Can't wait. Love you Hayles.”
“Love ya, too.” She quickly kissed my lips before dashing from the room.
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July 7th, 2007
That was the memory that killed me the most. It was etched in my brain permanently. That was July 16th, 2006, the very last time I saw her alive.
“Josh.” A knock on my door snapped my focus back into reality. “Jenna's here.”
I half jogged to the door, and nearly ripped it off it's hinges.
“Jenna!” I pulled her into a tight hug.
Once I let go, she crushed her lips to mine, but quickly pulled away completely aware that my mom was standing somewhere close.
“Come on in.” I stepped aside to make room.
She walked in and sat down on the couch. I shut the door, and slowly went to sit beside her.
We stayed as far apart as possible, avoided eye contact, and glued our eyes to the TV.
“Well I think I'm going to give you two some privacy. I need to go to the market, and pick a few things up anyway. I'll be back later.” My mom said.
“Ok. Bye.”
I waited for the sound of the click of the door shutting.
“So what's up?” I moved closer now that I was sure it was just us alone.
“I really need to tell you something. I don't know if it's too soon, but I just can't hold it in any longer.”
“Just tell me what it is.” I said impatiently.
She dropped her gaze to her hands. “I – I love you.” She confessed.
My heart stopped. I wanted to be able to return those three words, but it would feel like a betrayal of the heart. My heart belonged only to one person, and it always would. Hayley is gone, that I know, but I can't seem to just move on her.
“I'm sorry Jenna, but – ” I took a deep breathe and was about to continue when someone suddenly appeared standing behind Jenna. I struggled to breathe as I looked at the familiar person. “Hayley?”
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“I have to go now.” Hayley said.
“Aww not already.” A frown touched my face.
“I know. I don't wanna leave. I wanna stay here forever, wrapped in your arms.” She frowned, too.
I patted the spot next to me that she had just gotten up from.
“Sorry Joshie, but my mom's gonna send out a search party for me if I don't come home soon.”
“I'm sure she can wait for a few minutes...our hours.” I hinted.
“As great as that sounds, and trust me that doe's sound great, I can't not tonight anyway.”
I sighed. “I'll miss you.”
“I'll miss you more. But just think, tomorrow morning I'll come over and we'll go out and celebrate our anniversary.”
“We could go to the park.” I suggested.
She smiled. “Yeah, enjoy Franklin's beauty.”
“Can't wait. Love you Hayles.”
“Love ya, too.” She quickly kissed my lips before dashing from the room.
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July 7th, 2007
That was the memory that killed me the most. It was etched in my brain permanently. That was July 16th, 2006, the very last time I saw her alive.
“Josh.” A knock on my door snapped my focus back into reality. “Jenna's here.”
I half jogged to the door, and nearly ripped it off it's hinges.
“Jenna!” I pulled her into a tight hug.
Once I let go, she crushed her lips to mine, but quickly pulled away completely aware that my mom was standing somewhere close.
“Come on in.” I stepped aside to make room.
She walked in and sat down on the couch. I shut the door, and slowly went to sit beside her.
We stayed as far apart as possible, avoided eye contact, and glued our eyes to the TV.
“Well I think I'm going to give you two some privacy. I need to go to the market, and pick a few things up anyway. I'll be back later.” My mom said.
“Ok. Bye.”
I waited for the sound of the click of the door shutting.
“So what's up?” I moved closer now that I was sure it was just us alone.
“I really need to tell you something. I don't know if it's too soon, but I just can't hold it in any longer.”
“Just tell me what it is.” I said impatiently.
She dropped her gaze to her hands. “I – I love you.” She confessed.
My heart stopped. I wanted to be able to return those three words, but it would feel like a betrayal of the heart. My heart belonged only to one person, and it always would. Hayley is gone, that I know, but I can't seem to just move on her.
“I'm sorry Jenna, but – ” I took a deep breathe and was about to continue when someone suddenly appeared standing behind Jenna. I struggled to breathe as I looked at the familiar person. “Hayley?”
time goes by
as i think of you
staring in the mirror of my room
your lips are warm
my mouth it lingers
i think of you
with fiery eyes
i want you now
my sweety pie
you are my life
my world my earth
time goes by
with you in mind
i stare off silentl;y
wisshing you were right beside me
looking through
you are my air
the only thing
that keeps me breathing
my darkess images
are disapearing
you are my love
just like a dove
peacefull and beutiful
with oh such beuty
you call to me
through the waves of life
you are my baby
my lil muffin
my one true love
that i cannot get enough of
I love you bree with all my heart
forever you will have my love
as i think of you
staring in the mirror of my room
your lips are warm
my mouth it lingers
i think of you
with fiery eyes
i want you now
my sweety pie
you are my life
my world my earth
time goes by
with you in mind
i stare off silentl;y
wisshing you were right beside me
looking through
you are my air
the only thing
that keeps me breathing
my darkess images
are disapearing
you are my love
just like a dove
peacefull and beutiful
with oh such beuty
you call to me
through the waves of life
you are my baby
my lil muffin
my one true love
that i cannot get enough of
I love you bree with all my heart
forever you will have my love
What would life be with out friends like thee
I'll tell you, like no longer being free.
Imagine what life would be so sad and blue
To go through life without that special you.
And I know we live so far away
Through the internet we are like castaways
Never get to touch or hug you for this I only pray
For some day I hope we can meet
To hug and laugh and dance to the beat
I know this would be a treat
For now this is all I see
Is my good friend here with me
Just think what life would be
Without friends like thee
I'll tell you, like no longer being free.
Imagine what life would be so sad and blue
To go through life without that special you.
And I know we live so far away
Through the internet we are like castaways
Never get to touch or hug you for this I only pray
For some day I hope we can meet
To hug and laugh and dance to the beat
I know this would be a treat
For now this is all I see
Is my good friend here with me
Just think what life would be
Without friends like thee
Goodbye my love
goodbye my bride
I will give you time to get your head straight
you mean the world to me
and will always be
the only one I love
my heart it beats
for you
and you only
Goodbye my sweetheart
i will see you in time
goodbye my one and only
goodbye my bree
my loving fool
You are my life
and Ill give you time
goodby my life
goodbye my wife
I will miss you every second you leave
but goodbye
my love
my sweetest friend
my otherhalf
I love you more
than I ever knew
so goodbye my baby
Ill see you soon
goodbye my bride
I will give you time to get your head straight
you mean the world to me
and will always be
the only one I love
my heart it beats
for you
and you only
Goodbye my sweetheart
i will see you in time
goodbye my one and only
goodbye my bree
my loving fool
You are my life
and Ill give you time
goodby my life
goodbye my wife
I will miss you every second you leave
but goodbye
my love
my sweetest friend
my otherhalf
I love you more
than I ever knew
so goodbye my baby
Ill see you soon