a little sad fic for matt.

Mello had always been your best friend.

The only one to see you cry, the first to make you smile when you arrived, the only one to welcome you as a friend.

He was the one who whispered 'its okay, i'm here' through the tear filled nights

The one who knew what you feared,

What made you laugh,

And what made you hurt.

The one person that actually cared for you and you cared for him.

Like brothers, just closer.

And now that hes gone, you're breaking.

Disappearing in the early morning then not returning.

You blame yourself.

If you hadn't lost your temper, if you had just listened to what he was going to say, you would be with him where ever he is.

You know you cant live without him.

The one you grew to know, like and maybe even love?

A single tear falls from those emerald green eyes.

The ones he looked right into that night and promised never would he leave you alone.

He wasn't usually a liar.

But where is he now?

You're alone.

Again.

Something he promised would never happen.

You cant take it much more, as you stand on the balcony.

A faint smile appears through the tears as you remember the day he demanded the top appartment.

It soon fades though.

Slow drops of rain hit your face, darkening your mood even more.

With another sigh you give up.

Just another step and its over.

Taking a deep breath, closing your eyes.

You curse the fact he brought you to do this.

You hit the sent button on your phone.

The last message.
'Goodbye Mello.

I will always love you.

Always.

xxxxx'

Knowing he wont read it, why would he?

You do it.

Taking a last breath.

Taking a last step.

You.

Say.

Goodbye.