Niall Horan Fanfic Chapter 22: Wherever I Go
We were driving only for a few minutes. When we got to wherever it was we were going Niall put his hands over my eyes. We stepped outside and I immediately knew it was the beach. He uncovered my eyes and I took in the scenery.
“Ally loved the beach.” I said more to myself then Niall.
“I know, that’s why I brought you here. Since you missed the wake and the funeral, I thought this would be the best way to say goodbye. Going to her grave would be to emotional, but doing something you both loved to do together, you’ll be able to let go.” He said wrapping his arms around my waist.
“Thank you, for not giving up on me.” I said.
“I told you, I’m never going to leave you. Ever.” He said.
We linked hands and walked out onto the beach. We had left our shoes in the limo. I couldn’t help but feel Ally with us.
“Do you think it’s possible that Ally’s spirit is here?” I asked Niall.
“Yeah.” He said, after considering it for a little while.
“Do you think it’s crazy that I think her spirit is here?” I said again.
“No, you could be right.” He said.
We stopped walking and just stood in the water, letting it come in and hit our feet and then recede. I loved being here with Niall. This was perfect. I finally felt at peace with Ally’s death. She was gone and there was nothing I could do but live on for her.
“Thank you for bringing me here.” I said.
“You’re welcome.” Niall said smiling down at me.
“I’m not just saying this, but I think it really did help me.” I said.
“Well, that was the goal.” Niall said chuckling a little.
I smiled at him. He really was beautiful.
“Hazel?” he said.
“Yeah?” I answered.
“Harry took you for ice cream, and you guys have been hanging out a lot lately, should I be worried?” he asked.
Part of me couldn’t believe he would think Harry would make a move on me, and I would let him. Another part of me couldn’t believe that he would ask me this while I was grieving the death of my best friend, but then the last part of me saw how he looked. I couldn’t be mad at him when he looked at me like that.
“No, there is nothing to worry about.” I said finally.
“Are you sure?” he said, hesitant because of how long it took me to respond.
“Yeah, Harry and I are just good friends. He was trying to cheer me up.” I said.
“I saw the way he kissed you on the cheek before and how tight he hugged you that night on the bus. It looked a little more than friendly.” He said.
I couldn’t believe he was accusing me of cheating on him with Harry, his best friend.
“Niall, I told you nothing is going on. Why don’t you trust me?” I said getting angry.
“It’s not that I don’t trust you Hazel, I just, it hurts to see other guys around you. I just want you to be my one and only.” He said.
“I am Niall, I only love you. You know that right?” I said.
“Yeah, but…” he trailed off.
“But what? I thought we were done with this?” I said.
“We are. Just forget it.” He said.
“No, tell me.” I said.
“I always feel like, like you could do better than me. Like I’m not good enough, and that you’ll leave me for some guy who’s bigger and has big muscles and a perfect smile, and who can be around you all the time, without ever having to leave.” He said letting a tear roll down his cheek.
“Niall, I very well could do that, but that’s not what I want. I want you. I love your scrawny arms, and your braces. I don’t want a big tough guy, who’s more interested in working out than being with me.” I said.
Niall just nodded. He let a few more tears slide down his cheeks.
“No one is better than you Niall. I love you.” I said.
“I love you too Hazel.” He said.
“Can I have a hug?” I said.
Niall quickly wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped my arms around his neck. We were still standing in the water. He lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist and nestled my head into his neck.
“Hazel, I love you, I’m sorry for accusing you of cheating on me. I just get really jealous when I see you with other guys.” He said.
“It’s okay babe. Just promise me something.” I said.
“Anything.” He replied.
“That you’ll never doubt my love for you again.” I said.
“I promise.” He said.
He placed me down back in the sand and grabbed my hand. We continued walking down the beach. Every few minutes we would stop and kiss and/or hug. I was finally not thinking about Ally when my phone rang. It was Ally’s mom. I didn’t know if I could talk to her yet. Niall saw it was her and pressed the talk button. I looked at him shocked but he gave me the ‘It’s for your own good’ look.
“Hello?” Ally’s mom said.
“Hi Mrs. Varen how are you.” I said.
“As well as I can be. How are you holding up honey?” she said.
“I’ve been better.” I said.
“Well I heard you were back home. I wanted to have you over for dinner.” She said.
“Can I bring my boyfriend?” I asked.
“Sure.” She said hesitantly.
“Thank you.” I answered.
“Well that’s all for now. I’ll see you tomorrow night then.” She said hanging up.
“What did she want?” Niall asked grabbing my hand.
“She wanted me over for dinner. I asked if you could go and she said yes. Will you come?” I said.
“Yeah of course.” He said.
“It’s tomorrow night, she probably talked to my mom so I’ll find out more from her later.” I said.
“Are you okay?” he asked me.
“Yeah. Yeah I am okay.” I answered. Honestly, I was okay.
After that we continued walking down the beach. When we got to the end we made our way back and got in the limo to go home. The whole way home I had my head rested on Niall as he hummed various songs in my ear. When we got back to my house he walked me to my door.
“See you tomorrow?” he said.
“See you then.” I said.
He gave me and small kiss and then went back into the limo. I watched it pull away before I went inside. Today was one of the best days ever. It was late at night when I got home so I went straight to my room and collapsed onto my bed. My phone rang.
“Hello?” I said sleepily.
“Hey babe.” Niall said.
“What’s going on?” I asked him.
“Nothing just getting into my hotel room.” He said.
“Cool.” I answered.
“Yeah, you sound tired. Did I wake you?” he said.
“Nope I was just about to put my pajamas on.” I said.
“Cool, well goodnight princess.” He said making a kissy noise into the phone.
“Goodnight.” I giggled.
“I love you, sweet dreams.” He said.
“I love you too.” I said.
When we hung up I put on my pajamas and slid into bed. Tomorrow was going to be rough. I didn’t know if I was ready to talk about Ally. I didn’t want to break down. That’s the last thing her parents need is me freaking out. I’m glad Niall was coming. He always knew what to say and do to make me feel better.
We were driving only for a few minutes. When we got to wherever it was we were going Niall put his hands over my eyes. We stepped outside and I immediately knew it was the beach. He uncovered my eyes and I took in the scenery.
“Ally loved the beach.” I said more to myself then Niall.
“I know, that’s why I brought you here. Since you missed the wake and the funeral, I thought this would be the best way to say goodbye. Going to her grave would be to emotional, but doing something you both loved to do together, you’ll be able to let go.” He said wrapping his arms around my waist.
“Thank you, for not giving up on me.” I said.
“I told you, I’m never going to leave you. Ever.” He said.
We linked hands and walked out onto the beach. We had left our shoes in the limo. I couldn’t help but feel Ally with us.
“Do you think it’s possible that Ally’s spirit is here?” I asked Niall.
“Yeah.” He said, after considering it for a little while.
“Do you think it’s crazy that I think her spirit is here?” I said again.
“No, you could be right.” He said.
We stopped walking and just stood in the water, letting it come in and hit our feet and then recede. I loved being here with Niall. This was perfect. I finally felt at peace with Ally’s death. She was gone and there was nothing I could do but live on for her.
“Thank you for bringing me here.” I said.
“You’re welcome.” Niall said smiling down at me.
“I’m not just saying this, but I think it really did help me.” I said.
“Well, that was the goal.” Niall said chuckling a little.
I smiled at him. He really was beautiful.
“Hazel?” he said.
“Yeah?” I answered.
“Harry took you for ice cream, and you guys have been hanging out a lot lately, should I be worried?” he asked.
Part of me couldn’t believe he would think Harry would make a move on me, and I would let him. Another part of me couldn’t believe that he would ask me this while I was grieving the death of my best friend, but then the last part of me saw how he looked. I couldn’t be mad at him when he looked at me like that.
“No, there is nothing to worry about.” I said finally.
“Are you sure?” he said, hesitant because of how long it took me to respond.
“Yeah, Harry and I are just good friends. He was trying to cheer me up.” I said.
“I saw the way he kissed you on the cheek before and how tight he hugged you that night on the bus. It looked a little more than friendly.” He said.
I couldn’t believe he was accusing me of cheating on him with Harry, his best friend.
“Niall, I told you nothing is going on. Why don’t you trust me?” I said getting angry.
“It’s not that I don’t trust you Hazel, I just, it hurts to see other guys around you. I just want you to be my one and only.” He said.
“I am Niall, I only love you. You know that right?” I said.
“Yeah, but…” he trailed off.
“But what? I thought we were done with this?” I said.
“We are. Just forget it.” He said.
“No, tell me.” I said.
“I always feel like, like you could do better than me. Like I’m not good enough, and that you’ll leave me for some guy who’s bigger and has big muscles and a perfect smile, and who can be around you all the time, without ever having to leave.” He said letting a tear roll down his cheek.
“Niall, I very well could do that, but that’s not what I want. I want you. I love your scrawny arms, and your braces. I don’t want a big tough guy, who’s more interested in working out than being with me.” I said.
Niall just nodded. He let a few more tears slide down his cheeks.
“No one is better than you Niall. I love you.” I said.
“I love you too Hazel.” He said.
“Can I have a hug?” I said.
Niall quickly wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped my arms around his neck. We were still standing in the water. He lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist and nestled my head into his neck.
“Hazel, I love you, I’m sorry for accusing you of cheating on me. I just get really jealous when I see you with other guys.” He said.
“It’s okay babe. Just promise me something.” I said.
“Anything.” He replied.
“That you’ll never doubt my love for you again.” I said.
“I promise.” He said.
He placed me down back in the sand and grabbed my hand. We continued walking down the beach. Every few minutes we would stop and kiss and/or hug. I was finally not thinking about Ally when my phone rang. It was Ally’s mom. I didn’t know if I could talk to her yet. Niall saw it was her and pressed the talk button. I looked at him shocked but he gave me the ‘It’s for your own good’ look.
“Hello?” Ally’s mom said.
“Hi Mrs. Varen how are you.” I said.
“As well as I can be. How are you holding up honey?” she said.
“I’ve been better.” I said.
“Well I heard you were back home. I wanted to have you over for dinner.” She said.
“Can I bring my boyfriend?” I asked.
“Sure.” She said hesitantly.
“Thank you.” I answered.
“Well that’s all for now. I’ll see you tomorrow night then.” She said hanging up.
“What did she want?” Niall asked grabbing my hand.
“She wanted me over for dinner. I asked if you could go and she said yes. Will you come?” I said.
“Yeah of course.” He said.
“It’s tomorrow night, she probably talked to my mom so I’ll find out more from her later.” I said.
“Are you okay?” he asked me.
“Yeah. Yeah I am okay.” I answered. Honestly, I was okay.
After that we continued walking down the beach. When we got to the end we made our way back and got in the limo to go home. The whole way home I had my head rested on Niall as he hummed various songs in my ear. When we got back to my house he walked me to my door.
“See you tomorrow?” he said.
“See you then.” I said.
He gave me and small kiss and then went back into the limo. I watched it pull away before I went inside. Today was one of the best days ever. It was late at night when I got home so I went straight to my room and collapsed onto my bed. My phone rang.
“Hello?” I said sleepily.
“Hey babe.” Niall said.
“What’s going on?” I asked him.
“Nothing just getting into my hotel room.” He said.
“Cool.” I answered.
“Yeah, you sound tired. Did I wake you?” he said.
“Nope I was just about to put my pajamas on.” I said.
“Cool, well goodnight princess.” He said making a kissy noise into the phone.
“Goodnight.” I giggled.
“I love you, sweet dreams.” He said.
“I love you too.” I said.
When we hung up I put on my pajamas and slid into bed. Tomorrow was going to be rough. I didn’t know if I was ready to talk about Ally. I didn’t want to break down. That’s the last thing her parents need is me freaking out. I’m glad Niall was coming. He always knew what to say and do to make me feel better.
