I woke up the next morning hopped in the shower and brushed my theeth I dressed and went down stairs to eat breakfast it was me Jada and Princeton. Glad enough for me Princeton never made fun of what happened with me and roc the other day I guess he knew better. I was putting my bowl of cereal away when Jada asked if I had seen roc no I said where did he go after the fight? He walked out on us she said. Well he is probly with Steve we're with him for the trip Princeton said well I see why he would do that for he has no real business here kiki said walking into the kitchen and turned on the tv. I washed the dishes and picked up my cell phone 47 missed calls!!!!! Whoa my phone was blown up from call from roc he left like 34 voice messages I decided not to Call him back until I knew what to say. On the mean time I asked if we could go swimming it sounded like a plan to the other so we got ready. Wait said kiki it post to storm today she explained watching the weather channal. I started worrying about roc a lil. When it just started raining harder we heard a knock on the door I figured it would be cam but when I opened the door I saw roc with red eyes a tunny nose flowers a box of chocolate and a Teddy bear he was drenched and crying he had swollen puffy eyes and he was on his knees he said faith for give me plz what ever I did to hurt u I'm sorry he got a letter out of his pocket and handed it to me it was a poem I teared up a lil and covered my mouth with my hand cuz when I finished reading the letter and I looked back down he had a ring in his hands kiki went to see wat was going on she gasped when she saw him o my God I said I got a towel helped him up and wrapped him with it I made some hot coco and he sat at the kitchcen table. R u mad at me he asked I gave him a tissue. And pulled a seat rite next to him with my coco. We just got to talk about this a lot I said. We have different feelings for different people I began. We have to get over this for a little and try again later. Honestly I honk we started the whole thing to soon. I continued. He looked down I don't have feelings for someone else he said? What. So ur telling me what I saw at the park was not true. I mentioned. Wat thing at the- o u mean that girl I was with no we were just- wait u thought I was cheating on u u said. Well... ya I did I finished I did and that wat got me mad I thought u were braking up with me and u ...IDK OK! I yelled I was ....I told u things are difficult rite now. I understand but the girl I was with was my friend from Indiana I understand hope u thought I would be cheating but I was just teasing her about something u know an inside joke about indiana. Well it kind of hard seeing u play around with a girl I don't even know of. At least I told u about Cameron remember we got to fellow each other about Wat's on our mind. I said. Well the thing about that is I don't like her like u do cam she is just a summer friend that I met a while back there is nothing between us anymore. He said wait anymore summer friend this just gave me an idea. I thought in my head. Roc did u date that girl before I asked. Faith ya but that was the summer its a new summer. I started feeling extra irritated so I'm gonna tire out like her ur just gonna for get me. No faith! He said I wont do that. Face it trey ur gonna have to go back on tour and I'm gonna have to move back to my home town. Sorry trey but I'm not doing any long distence relationships. Wat ur saying we should just forget about ours now he said. Wat I'm saying is we don't like each other the wag we want us to and the more we try the harder it gets. I don't know about u but I have deep feeling for u ....but. I interrupted him no trey u don't u think u do but u don't h want to but u cant the more we keep stuff from each other the more difficult our relationship is going to be if we even had one I stopped there I wish I never said that I wish so badly he would tie me to a tree and say ready aim fire. He said u know said ur rite WE can take this any more WE should move on hell WE are over he got up and if u like keep your stuff. I was froozen I didn't know wat to do I just wanted him back like I was the one knocking on his door begging for mercy but the worst part is he didn't give it to me. I didn't know wat to do I just wanted everything back to normal the only reason I said all this is because I wanted Cameron I'm a mess and so mashed up like potatoes like it was me calling 47 times and leaving 34 voice mails like I had feelings for someone ht couldn't just reach them quit enough i replaced myself with rocs shoes I could j have been so blind was I afraid of rejection or afraid I would loss cam to something that was already going down and not wort. I sat there and though for so many hours nothing in the world never even mattered anymore to me there could have been a fire and k would have turned into ashes still woundering. Isaac in a stage of depression.

After a while I got back to reality I heard another knock on the door I was really hoping it was roc so I could apologies but I was scared to get stilled on like I did him. So I never got up it was cam I heard his voice but I still thought j would screw something up so I just sat there he made his way in by himself when I was him I melted again he sat by me in the seat roc sat in he asked wat all the stuff was I looked at him and said roc was here. O God wat did he do this time a swear if- nothing I interrupted I....
I broke down crying I... steped on him I...u dumped him cam asked I told him it not working out I said. Well do u feel u did the rite thing he asked I guess but j made him feel so little and that probly hurt cuz I don't like him the way he likes me. I cant have feelings for two ppl at the same time. Faith I'm sorry. He gave me a hug. Beauty u need someone who will respect u as a lady. I smiled I have a feeling I know who that is I said. He smiled back I think I know to. Be kissed my neck again I don't know y he always does that he never kisses my lips or anything. He lifted me up again with my arms sround his neck and my legs around his waist he took me upstairs and then he finally kissed me but not just a normal kisses a slow French kisses we reached upstairs but Princeton and Jada was in the way they was us coming so they stepped into the bathroom when he took me to my room he set me down and locked the door he turned of the lights and closed the curtains then of withe his shirt. He came back with the slowest French kiss every and he was the best at it then any person I every flayed tongues on which is a few he was half way of with my shirt when roc walked In he stopped and we turned around ric turned red and swang at cam cam was winning big time this reminded me of when prince and doc fight I was like damn and pulled roc off I pushed I'm out and locked the door I got back on the bed and pulled cam with me I didn't even care any more I was happier then every I got wat I wanted he kisses for a long time then he went into the mini refrigerator and got some friut and dip an laied him down and rubbed some dip on his abs I got the fruit and dipped it in the pink dip on his abs and ate it I feed some to him and then locked the rest off of him Idk wat I was doing anymore I think I might have been drunk. I put a grape in my mouth and kissed cam he ended Hp with it in his mouth he didn't hesitate to eat it. I was just doing anything that I felt like to him I put some baby oil on hm and blew on it he said it heated up every time I blew on it we were just goon in our lil world. He got kn top of me and put me in a lock but then we accidently fell of the bed we kept going on the floor I never felt so crazy in my life after a while we got tiered and W's just payed there on the floor painting for air. I wish I could have that moment for life