The sun was just begining to set over the mountains, I viewed from the cottege.The sky was highlighted with pinks and dark, misty blues, alined perfectly with streaks of gold."Beautiful..." I sighed.The air cool against my hot skin, and the touches of gold shining down upon my face."Not near as pretty as you," I heard from behind.
Two hot arms craddled me inside a chest, I looked to find Jacob.I remembered.When a was young, I called him my Jacob, indicating that he belonged to me.He smiled warmly down at me, his white smile and dark eyes gleamed.I smiled back.Jacob was everything I wanted...more of, everything I once wanted.I had lost interest in Jacob last summer, just a little, and now, it was becoming a blur of why I ever loved him.
Every time we kissed, I felt nothing.Just a stranger's lips on mine.Every time we touched, I felt nothing once more.Only a pair of arms wrapping me in more heat.Every time he whispered Renesmee, I felt nothing.My name being said once gave me shivers, and I would run to him.Now, nothing was there.As if I wasn't really wanting him anymore.
"I love you, Renesmee," he whispered slowly in my ear.I did shiver.But not of the pleasure from him, to make some kind of movement.I had been having these sensations of nothingness ever since last summer.Nothing was there between us.Only I knew that, Jacob, did not.Every morning I would wake to see his face, smiling, as usual.And every time those three, now painful little words, "I love you" meant nothing.And put me into the day's dark despair.
I knew I would have to tell him.But...could those words pass my lips?Could I reject him?The one whom I once had a burning passion for?I should tell him."Jacob," I began.Questioning my own track of thought."Yes?" he said.I was at a loss for words.So I made an excuse.Like I did every time he wanted to go out on a date."It's getting late, and, um, I am very tired." his face dropped."Oh.Okay.See you tomorrow?" he asked.Glee now spreading across his face.Why?Why is this so difficult if I know I don't love him?I'm not like my mother, torn between two loved ones.I was torn, though.Between Jacob...and my heart."Yes," I whispered.
Careful to not let the tears of what was something sweet escape.He grinned.And kissed my cheek.I didn't bother to watch him leave, because teardrops were already falling.Silently.Like my silent screams of wanting him no more.I wasn't like my family, either.I didn't wear makeup, and I wore mom's old clothing.Just because I wanted to.My hair is as long as mother's, too.Except, mine's black/brown now.No longer the pretty bronze.My face was now all white.
Is my brokeness effecting my appearance now?I examined everyone in the room.Mom hand-in-hand with dad, Carlisle and Esme smiling at each other every few passing moments.Alice clinging to Jasper.And Rosalie by Emmett's side.Always.Perfect love.I once loved pretty, stylish clothes, and makeup.My eyes bright and awake, the pinkness of my cheeks.My bronze hair stunning.But...Jacob happend.I began to fall out of love.I basically looked like your average human being.Except I was more prettier.I walked back out to the cottege, and slept.I had to escape this pain.But how?Would I have to leave?I will.Anything to break away.Anything.
Two hot arms craddled me inside a chest, I looked to find Jacob.I remembered.When a was young, I called him my Jacob, indicating that he belonged to me.He smiled warmly down at me, his white smile and dark eyes gleamed.I smiled back.Jacob was everything I wanted...more of, everything I once wanted.I had lost interest in Jacob last summer, just a little, and now, it was becoming a blur of why I ever loved him.
Every time we kissed, I felt nothing.Just a stranger's lips on mine.Every time we touched, I felt nothing once more.Only a pair of arms wrapping me in more heat.Every time he whispered Renesmee, I felt nothing.My name being said once gave me shivers, and I would run to him.Now, nothing was there.As if I wasn't really wanting him anymore.
"I love you, Renesmee," he whispered slowly in my ear.I did shiver.But not of the pleasure from him, to make some kind of movement.I had been having these sensations of nothingness ever since last summer.Nothing was there between us.Only I knew that, Jacob, did not.Every morning I would wake to see his face, smiling, as usual.And every time those three, now painful little words, "I love you" meant nothing.And put me into the day's dark despair.
I knew I would have to tell him.But...could those words pass my lips?Could I reject him?The one whom I once had a burning passion for?I should tell him."Jacob," I began.Questioning my own track of thought."Yes?" he said.I was at a loss for words.So I made an excuse.Like I did every time he wanted to go out on a date."It's getting late, and, um, I am very tired." his face dropped."Oh.Okay.See you tomorrow?" he asked.Glee now spreading across his face.Why?Why is this so difficult if I know I don't love him?I'm not like my mother, torn between two loved ones.I was torn, though.Between Jacob...and my heart."Yes," I whispered.
Careful to not let the tears of what was something sweet escape.He grinned.And kissed my cheek.I didn't bother to watch him leave, because teardrops were already falling.Silently.Like my silent screams of wanting him no more.I wasn't like my family, either.I didn't wear makeup, and I wore mom's old clothing.Just because I wanted to.My hair is as long as mother's, too.Except, mine's black/brown now.No longer the pretty bronze.My face was now all white.
Is my brokeness effecting my appearance now?I examined everyone in the room.Mom hand-in-hand with dad, Carlisle and Esme smiling at each other every few passing moments.Alice clinging to Jasper.And Rosalie by Emmett's side.Always.Perfect love.I once loved pretty, stylish clothes, and makeup.My eyes bright and awake, the pinkness of my cheeks.My bronze hair stunning.But...Jacob happend.I began to fall out of love.I basically looked like your average human being.Except I was more prettier.I walked back out to the cottege, and slept.I had to escape this pain.But how?Would I have to leave?I will.Anything to break away.Anything.
He sighed,"No job though very rich.He doesn't really need the money he says."Sam gazed at the window."Hello in there!!!"He was giving me a noogie."Ahhh!Quit it,I'm just practicing my powers." He took a glance and saw a rock moving up and down,up and down,up and through the window.Ithink I messed up by taking a look at him and the rock went to the guy behind Jacob."Maybe we should?"He whispered as he got up.I nodded and walked away.I took a glance at the clerk she stared dead at me.
"Aw geez I'm late.Look just remeber the name,Edaward Cullen.I need to talk a little more info,$1,000 is my final offer."He was walking to his car."Thanks for everything,"I managed to say.He smiled and sped off.I walked home then it was close to 12:00p.m.I took the bus to save time.I went home looking at the forest quiet and green. I sighed then a big -CRACK- happened.
TO BE CONTINUED...
THE VSMPOLF IS LOGGING OFF.
"Aw geez I'm late.Look just remeber the name,Edaward Cullen.I need to talk a little more info,$1,000 is my final offer."He was walking to his car."Thanks for everything,"I managed to say.He smiled and sped off.I walked home then it was close to 12:00p.m.I took the bus to save time.I went home looking at the forest quiet and green. I sighed then a big -CRACK- happened.
TO BE CONTINUED...
THE VSMPOLF IS LOGGING OFF.