Rosalie's POV
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Rose, I'm leaving,' I heard Emmett spoke quickly. My expression changed in hurt. My eyes widened while my breathe stopped.
'No, y... you can't,' I murmured. Where was he talking about? Leaving? Okay, we didn't spend much time together, but that doesn't mean that he has to leave! Maybe there was something else, maybe he was just sick off Edward's gift, or that we hadn't much privacy. There must be something.
'I'm sorry Rose. I love you, but I don't think it can work out between us,' he said softly to me. My jaw dropped. Where did he talk about? I loved him and he loved me, what did he want more?
'No,' I shook confused my head and started to step back. This couldn't be true. This was a nightmare, a awful nightmare. My hands were in my hair, trying to rip them out of my head. This couldn't be true. 'No... please,' I heard the vibration in my own voice. 'Emmett, I'm able to do everything for you. We can work this out. Please, Emmett. Don't give up so easily,' my lower lip trembled. He couldn't do this to me, no please.
'Rose, there's another,' I heard him suddenly say. My jaw drop again and I looked in horror at him. No way, that must be a joke. That must be a damn stupid joke. He didn't look at me, he stared awkward at the ground.
'Say that that isn't true,' I said to him. My voice was full of hurt and sadness. 'Emmett, say that that is one of your stupid jokes,' I begged him. He couldn't have done this to me. Emmett wasn't the kind of person who cheat on his wife. I'm his wife for fack sake. But when I saw that the expression at his beautiful face didn't change I knew it wasn't a joke. For the first time in my hole vampire existence I lost my balance. I fell on the ground and started dry sobbing. How could he do this to me? I thought he loved me more than anything else. I thought we were meant to be forever with each other.
'I'm sorry Rose. I'm sorry,' he only whispered and he turned around and ran away. I shook my head while I dry sobbed. How could he cheating on me? How could he hurt me like this? He healed my wounds, and now he ripped them open again. Harder and worse than ever.
'Emmett, no!' I screamed at the top of my lungs while I started to cry out loud. I fell on my stomach with my head on my arms. I shook like crazy while I dry sobbed. My endless life was this time really over.
I'm broken.
I was sitting on the couch in my house. I stared at nothing. After I broke down in the woods, Bella and Alice found me. They carried me to home and they whispered sweet things in my ear like "it's going to be all right" or "he needs just time". I wish I could believe it. But I really couldn't. I never really thought about my life without Emmett. It was like a life without sun or love. A life without color. Yes, that's what it was. A life without color.
I asked myself what I had done wrong. Why would he ever cheat on me? I thought that I was everything he wanted. Beautiful and caring. From the day I saved him I knew I had to be with him. I knew that I didn't deserved him, at all. But I was more than happy that he professed his love to me. Maybe he was finally done with me. After my behavior to Edward and Bella. After my call what almost killed Edward, Alice and Bella. I knew I was shallow, vain and selfish. That's why I was surprised why Emmett loved me.
That Emmett left me was the worst thing ever, but that he cheated on me was even more painful. Every time I imagined him with another woman the wounds started to burn. It almost killed me. The pain was so awful. Oddly enough, the pain was worse than my transformation. Maybe every time he hunted he went to that woman, instead of hunting. I didn't deserve Emmett, that was already known. But why did he do this to me? Why didn't he just go? What did I ever wrong that I deserved this miserable life?
I bit my lower lip and started to dry sob again. My life was miserable. Finally my wound were healing, and Emmett just ripped them open. Why? Why? I couldn't stop asking myself. What's a life without Emmett? Nothing. Exactly nothing. Maybe it was better if I died. I have nothing anymore. Everything is gone. My humanity, my motherhood, my Emmett. My Emmett I could never think that again. He wasn't mine anymore. He was from someone other. I could never feel his strong arms around me. Or his soft lips against mine. I could never smell his sweet scent, or never hear his stupid jokes. Never.
I stood up and walked out of the house. I started to run. I kept running, I didn't care where I ended. I mean, I have nothing. So what could happen? I lost Emmett, what could happen worse than that? Exactly, nothing. I fell the wind in my golden hair. I was beautiful, that was known. But how pretty would look that woman? I hated her, for doing this to me. Emmett could have everyone he wanted. He was gorgeous, tall, muscular, funny, loving and you can trust him with everything.
It started to rain. But I didn't care. Emmett wasn't here anymore, with me. So why would I care about my looks? I kept running for a few minutes before I couldn't anymore. I fell in the mud. I started to dry sob again while I laid on the ground. I didn't know how long I laid there, just crying, before a smell hit me. A disgusting smell. Werewolf’s a.k.a the dogs. I didn't liked them, they stink and they were annoying. But does that matter now? I have nothing to live for.
I looked around and suddenly I was surrounded by the werewolves. I recognized Jacob. He looked confused at me with his dog eyes. I stood immediately up. I was all covered in mud and dirty leaves where in my hair. I bet I looked awful. I sighed deep because I had the feeling that if I wasn't careful I would break in pieces. I wanted to run away but the dogs surrounded me. I didn't say anything, afraid of my weak voice.
One of the dogs walked closer to me. I didn't move an inch. I even didn't care if it attacked me, I wouldn't fight back either. Again, it would be hopeless. I was hopeless. I was nothing more than a week, shallow thing. That never had enough, that always broke. This time my wounds wouldn't heal. Never. I would never find a man like Emmett. So what's the point of fighting back? What's the point of living if you have nothing to live for?
Suddenly the wolf changed into his human form. The one who looked like Jacob changed too. The others stayed in their wolf form. I looked expressionless at Seth and Jacob, who changed. They looked confused at me. I saw in the corner of my eyes a wolf growl. I thought it was Leah.
'Rosalie, what's wrong with you?' Jacob asked me softly. I almost gasped when I heard my name. Jacob and I didn't get along, and we fight allot. Normally he called me Blondie or something. I called him mutt. But it wasn't the time for fighting. Or was it? It doesn't matter, I don't have a life.
'Nothing,' I tried to sound reliable. I didn't wanted compassion for them. I didn't wanted compassion from anyone. It wouldn't matter. Compassion wouldn't bring Emmett back to me. I swallowed by the name Emmett. Even thinking about that name was killing me.
Jacob started to walk slowly closer. Normally I would push him away or step back, because of the smell. But now even the smell didn't hit me. I didn't remove and bowed my head. I couldn't look at them. I even didn't care if I looked horrible, it was just the compassion I saw in their eyes. Even in Jacob's. They knew something was wrong. I was a strong person, and I never broke down in front of other. Especially not in front of them. I tried to hold back my dry sobs, but I lost. My hands covered my face and I started to dry sob again. Suddenly I felt arms around me. It surprised me that Jacob was so nice to me. I leaned my head against his chest, with my hands still on my face.
'Shh, it's okay,' I heard Jacob reassuring me. It was the first time that he saw me so weak. That made it even worse, I didn't wanted to look as a weak person. But I knew that every person had their ups and downs. But this time I couldn't heal.
Suddenly I fell more arms around me. I didn't look up. I hadn't the strength to look up. But I heard voices, many voices. I guess it were the voices from Jacob, Leah, Seth, Jared, Embry and Quil. All hugging and reassuring me that I was going to be all right. I never thought that they were so nice and understanding. Even if they didn't know that happened. I couldn't resist myself from starting to cry out loud. And I didn't care anymore, it was like that everything now was official. I lost him. Forever. I would never see him again, I would never feel love anymore.
My soul was gone. Everything was gone. I fell slowly in pieces. Countless pieces.
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Rose, I'm leaving,' I heard Emmett spoke quickly. My expression changed in hurt. My eyes widened while my breathe stopped.
'No, y... you can't,' I murmured. Where was he talking about? Leaving? Okay, we didn't spend much time together, but that doesn't mean that he has to leave! Maybe there was something else, maybe he was just sick off Edward's gift, or that we hadn't much privacy. There must be something.
'I'm sorry Rose. I love you, but I don't think it can work out between us,' he said softly to me. My jaw dropped. Where did he talk about? I loved him and he loved me, what did he want more?
'No,' I shook confused my head and started to step back. This couldn't be true. This was a nightmare, a awful nightmare. My hands were in my hair, trying to rip them out of my head. This couldn't be true. 'No... please,' I heard the vibration in my own voice. 'Emmett, I'm able to do everything for you. We can work this out. Please, Emmett. Don't give up so easily,' my lower lip trembled. He couldn't do this to me, no please.
'Rose, there's another,' I heard him suddenly say. My jaw drop again and I looked in horror at him. No way, that must be a joke. That must be a damn stupid joke. He didn't look at me, he stared awkward at the ground.
'Say that that isn't true,' I said to him. My voice was full of hurt and sadness. 'Emmett, say that that is one of your stupid jokes,' I begged him. He couldn't have done this to me. Emmett wasn't the kind of person who cheat on his wife. I'm his wife for fack sake. But when I saw that the expression at his beautiful face didn't change I knew it wasn't a joke. For the first time in my hole vampire existence I lost my balance. I fell on the ground and started dry sobbing. How could he do this to me? I thought he loved me more than anything else. I thought we were meant to be forever with each other.
'I'm sorry Rose. I'm sorry,' he only whispered and he turned around and ran away. I shook my head while I dry sobbed. How could he cheating on me? How could he hurt me like this? He healed my wounds, and now he ripped them open again. Harder and worse than ever.
'Emmett, no!' I screamed at the top of my lungs while I started to cry out loud. I fell on my stomach with my head on my arms. I shook like crazy while I dry sobbed. My endless life was this time really over.
I'm broken.
I was sitting on the couch in my house. I stared at nothing. After I broke down in the woods, Bella and Alice found me. They carried me to home and they whispered sweet things in my ear like "it's going to be all right" or "he needs just time". I wish I could believe it. But I really couldn't. I never really thought about my life without Emmett. It was like a life without sun or love. A life without color. Yes, that's what it was. A life without color.
I asked myself what I had done wrong. Why would he ever cheat on me? I thought that I was everything he wanted. Beautiful and caring. From the day I saved him I knew I had to be with him. I knew that I didn't deserved him, at all. But I was more than happy that he professed his love to me. Maybe he was finally done with me. After my behavior to Edward and Bella. After my call what almost killed Edward, Alice and Bella. I knew I was shallow, vain and selfish. That's why I was surprised why Emmett loved me.
That Emmett left me was the worst thing ever, but that he cheated on me was even more painful. Every time I imagined him with another woman the wounds started to burn. It almost killed me. The pain was so awful. Oddly enough, the pain was worse than my transformation. Maybe every time he hunted he went to that woman, instead of hunting. I didn't deserve Emmett, that was already known. But why did he do this to me? Why didn't he just go? What did I ever wrong that I deserved this miserable life?
I bit my lower lip and started to dry sob again. My life was miserable. Finally my wound were healing, and Emmett just ripped them open. Why? Why? I couldn't stop asking myself. What's a life without Emmett? Nothing. Exactly nothing. Maybe it was better if I died. I have nothing anymore. Everything is gone. My humanity, my motherhood, my Emmett. My Emmett I could never think that again. He wasn't mine anymore. He was from someone other. I could never feel his strong arms around me. Or his soft lips against mine. I could never smell his sweet scent, or never hear his stupid jokes. Never.
I stood up and walked out of the house. I started to run. I kept running, I didn't care where I ended. I mean, I have nothing. So what could happen? I lost Emmett, what could happen worse than that? Exactly, nothing. I fell the wind in my golden hair. I was beautiful, that was known. But how pretty would look that woman? I hated her, for doing this to me. Emmett could have everyone he wanted. He was gorgeous, tall, muscular, funny, loving and you can trust him with everything.
It started to rain. But I didn't care. Emmett wasn't here anymore, with me. So why would I care about my looks? I kept running for a few minutes before I couldn't anymore. I fell in the mud. I started to dry sob again while I laid on the ground. I didn't know how long I laid there, just crying, before a smell hit me. A disgusting smell. Werewolf’s a.k.a the dogs. I didn't liked them, they stink and they were annoying. But does that matter now? I have nothing to live for.
I looked around and suddenly I was surrounded by the werewolves. I recognized Jacob. He looked confused at me with his dog eyes. I stood immediately up. I was all covered in mud and dirty leaves where in my hair. I bet I looked awful. I sighed deep because I had the feeling that if I wasn't careful I would break in pieces. I wanted to run away but the dogs surrounded me. I didn't say anything, afraid of my weak voice.
One of the dogs walked closer to me. I didn't move an inch. I even didn't care if it attacked me, I wouldn't fight back either. Again, it would be hopeless. I was hopeless. I was nothing more than a week, shallow thing. That never had enough, that always broke. This time my wounds wouldn't heal. Never. I would never find a man like Emmett. So what's the point of fighting back? What's the point of living if you have nothing to live for?
Suddenly the wolf changed into his human form. The one who looked like Jacob changed too. The others stayed in their wolf form. I looked expressionless at Seth and Jacob, who changed. They looked confused at me. I saw in the corner of my eyes a wolf growl. I thought it was Leah.
'Rosalie, what's wrong with you?' Jacob asked me softly. I almost gasped when I heard my name. Jacob and I didn't get along, and we fight allot. Normally he called me Blondie or something. I called him mutt. But it wasn't the time for fighting. Or was it? It doesn't matter, I don't have a life.
'Nothing,' I tried to sound reliable. I didn't wanted compassion for them. I didn't wanted compassion from anyone. It wouldn't matter. Compassion wouldn't bring Emmett back to me. I swallowed by the name Emmett. Even thinking about that name was killing me.
Jacob started to walk slowly closer. Normally I would push him away or step back, because of the smell. But now even the smell didn't hit me. I didn't remove and bowed my head. I couldn't look at them. I even didn't care if I looked horrible, it was just the compassion I saw in their eyes. Even in Jacob's. They knew something was wrong. I was a strong person, and I never broke down in front of other. Especially not in front of them. I tried to hold back my dry sobs, but I lost. My hands covered my face and I started to dry sob again. Suddenly I felt arms around me. It surprised me that Jacob was so nice to me. I leaned my head against his chest, with my hands still on my face.
'Shh, it's okay,' I heard Jacob reassuring me. It was the first time that he saw me so weak. That made it even worse, I didn't wanted to look as a weak person. But I knew that every person had their ups and downs. But this time I couldn't heal.
Suddenly I fell more arms around me. I didn't look up. I hadn't the strength to look up. But I heard voices, many voices. I guess it were the voices from Jacob, Leah, Seth, Jared, Embry and Quil. All hugging and reassuring me that I was going to be all right. I never thought that they were so nice and understanding. Even if they didn't know that happened. I couldn't resist myself from starting to cry out loud. And I didn't care anymore, it was like that everything now was official. I lost him. Forever. I would never see him again, I would never feel love anymore.
My soul was gone. Everything was gone. I fell slowly in pieces. Countless pieces.
