if youâre reading this, youâre one of my closest friends. You literally mean the world to me, and I never want to lose you. I feel like we belong together, it wasnât an accident that we met.
Well, first if youâre reading this, you should know that this was supposed to be a birthday letter. I was so worried that I was going to be late of course, thatâs me I guess. Iâve made mistakes and disappointed you for a long time, havenât I? Multiple things Iâve done and Iâm so ashamed now. I havenât been the perfect friend but thatâs assumed isnât it? You havenât been perfect either, but I didnât want perfect. I call you âperfectâ a lot because I canât find any other word to describe you. I wanted a friend like you, canât you see that? I wanted you and I got you. I know you feel insecure and doubtful about yourself a lot,and every compliment I give you, youâll disagree with, but you can never disagree with the fact that I wanted someone like you and I got someone better. Iâm so blessed and I will never stop thanking you for how amazing you are and I will never stop trying to make you happy.
I know Iâve thanked you a lot, Iâve written articles and said a million compliments. Iâm writing this right now, I wish I could do so much more. But itâs 12:00 a.m as I write this, and Iâm putting a lot into this. Just recently, I wrote an article of 10 reasons why I think youâre unique and special. Iâm so proud of that, you see, because now you can see for yourself all the reasons why I love you.
I said I disappointed you. You may have disagreed with that. Maybe you remembered? The one thing that really stands out in my mind, that hurts me everyday, was the promise I broke. It wasnât just a promise, I gave you my word that I wouldnât do that again, we promised each other, and I broke it. I had the audacity to do that? I know youâve forgiven me, but I could have lost you. I see it in my scars everyday, and I feel the mistrust you have in me now because of my actions. I know that I let you down, I feel it and see it everyday. But in a few years, Iâm going to get a tattoo that says âDonât break the promise you gave to a queenâ just to remind me. Iâm sorry again by the way.
But I donât want to make you sad, birthday girl. I know it seems like Iâm trying but Iâm not, I just want to be honest I guess.
I worry about you a lot you know, but I know that youâre okay or you will be. I know that youâre life has been so difficult but thatâs why I respect you. More than anything, I want you to open your heart and accept yourself completely. I know thatâs so tough to do, but I know you will. And you have to tell your story to others, okay? It would make me so happy if you did, because through your story, I found strength and respect and hope. They would too.
This is just words, isnât it? I want to give you the world but all I can give you is this. I try to do everything I can and I always will, to make you proud. You mean so much to me and you need to know that. I try everyday to be what you are already to me: Amazing and beautiful.
I donât want you to be scared okay? I know you are sometimes and itâs going to be that way, but I just want you to be open to the oppurtunities that are gonna come for you. This is your last âteenagerâ birthday and I know thatâs frightening but thatâs also kind of awesome and I want you to dwell on that. I disagree with the saying âa positive mind will give you a positive lifeâ because thatâs not true for any of us, but it will give you a positive view of life. So for all the frightening things to come, think about the positive impact itâll give you and dwell on that instead.
Iâve said before why you mean so much to me, and Iâm not going to repeat myself here, but you remember my reasons, right? I hope so. I hope you remember what I think of you even if itâs hard to feel it.
You are my big sister and youâre my role model. Thank you. Just THANK YOU!
I know you hurt a lot, and I donât promise happiness, I wish I could. But your a queen and youâll find your king, I swear, even if I have to punch him in the face and drag him to youđ And you will always try, I know that. Youâre a survivor and you will survive.
So Iâm sorry this is short and not what Iâd like, but Iâm just happy to know you. I know you love me most, but I love you with a kind of love I canât place, and one thatâs irreplaceable. I donât want you to forget that. Ever :) x.
Happy birthday queenđ
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