All my life I've been fighting a war I can't talk to you or your friends It's not only you My heart jumps around when I'm alluded to This will not do
Back in my middle school days, it was the opposite of how it is now.. I used to be picked on by the other kids. I had a friend named Katie. we met in 1st grade and became best friends. through 5th grade, I didn’t know. I didn’t know that all those years I was bossing her around, or teasing her. In 6th grade She changed and it became the opposite. She bullied me. I could never talk to her or her friends which she somehow corrupted them and turned them into her. I always was scared to walk near them, my heart skipped a few beats if I did so. Especially if I heard my name. I couldn't stand it.
Cause I was raised up
To be admired to be noticed
But when you're withdrawn it's the closest thing
To assault when all eyes are on you
This will not do
My mom always told me to not slouch in the shadows, but to shine in the sunlight. To always be known.. I tried to follow that I didn’t, and it cost me dearly, my best friend. When she completely excluded me from her circle and the fact that she made sure that everyone in the school knew it made me feel like I was shot, in the heart, multiple times. That’s when I realized, I needed my old life back.
I'm faking glory
Lick my lips toss my hair
And send a smile over
And the stories brand new
But I can take it from here
I'll find my own bravado
I changed everything to show I didn’t care about Katie or her snooty friends. I stopped wearing dull colored clothes, I stopped frowning and slouching everywhere I went, and I spoke up and fought back. Now instead of everyone talking about me, everyone was talking about Katie.
It's a switch flipped
It's a pill tipped back, it's a moon eclipsed, whoa
And I can tell you that when the lights come on I'll be ready for this
Just like that, everything was back to how it was before Katie took over my life. I overshadowed her all together, there was nothing else for her to take from me. And if she tries to come back for me, she’ll regret it that’s for sure.
I was frightened of every little thing that I thought was out to get me down
To trip me up and laugh at me
I’ll never have to be scared of her anymore. Not have to worry about one of them tripping me on the way to class to embarrass me and go further into my shell. I’ll never feel down in the dumps again, but up in the sky, shining with the sun.
But I learnt not to want
The quiet of the room with no one around to find me out
Through that year I learned what I didn’t want, what I never wanted to feel anymore. I never wanted to have to suffer through sitting in a quiet room sobbing on the floor, and wishing that I could end it all.
I want the applause the approval the things that make me go.
I wanted the claps from the audience, I wanted the crowd cheering my name, and no one else’s. I wanted all that attention that made my day, that gave me the strength to continue on through the rest of my days, and that, was exactly what I got.
Back in my middle school days, it was the opposite of how it is now.. I used to be picked on by the other kids. I had a friend named Katie. we met in 1st grade and became best friends. through 5th grade, I didn’t know. I didn’t know that all those years I was bossing her around, or teasing her. In 6th grade She changed and it became the opposite. She bullied me. I could never talk to her or her friends which she somehow corrupted them and turned them into her. I always was scared to walk near them, my heart skipped a few beats if I did so. Especially if I heard my name. I couldn't stand it.
Cause I was raised up
To be admired to be noticed
But when you're withdrawn it's the closest thing
To assault when all eyes are on you
This will not do
My mom always told me to not slouch in the shadows, but to shine in the sunlight. To always be known.. I tried to follow that I didn’t, and it cost me dearly, my best friend. When she completely excluded me from her circle and the fact that she made sure that everyone in the school knew it made me feel like I was shot, in the heart, multiple times. That’s when I realized, I needed my old life back.
I'm faking glory
Lick my lips toss my hair
And send a smile over
And the stories brand new
But I can take it from here
I'll find my own bravado
I changed everything to show I didn’t care about Katie or her snooty friends. I stopped wearing dull colored clothes, I stopped frowning and slouching everywhere I went, and I spoke up and fought back. Now instead of everyone talking about me, everyone was talking about Katie.
It's a switch flipped
It's a pill tipped back, it's a moon eclipsed, whoa
And I can tell you that when the lights come on I'll be ready for this
Just like that, everything was back to how it was before Katie took over my life. I overshadowed her all together, there was nothing else for her to take from me. And if she tries to come back for me, she’ll regret it that’s for sure.
I was frightened of every little thing that I thought was out to get me down
To trip me up and laugh at me
I’ll never have to be scared of her anymore. Not have to worry about one of them tripping me on the way to class to embarrass me and go further into my shell. I’ll never feel down in the dumps again, but up in the sky, shining with the sun.
But I learnt not to want
The quiet of the room with no one around to find me out
Through that year I learned what I didn’t want, what I never wanted to feel anymore. I never wanted to have to suffer through sitting in a quiet room sobbing on the floor, and wishing that I could end it all.
I want the applause the approval the things that make me go.
I wanted the claps from the audience, I wanted the crowd cheering my name, and no one else’s. I wanted all that attention that made my day, that gave me the strength to continue on through the rest of my days, and that, was exactly what I got.
