Chapter 2
The next morning I woke up feeling tired and worst than usually. Swollen feet, aching back, I was up all night long treating people who thought they had the flu. I knew I had to get up and go to work, I lived alone for now and somebody has to pay the rent. And right now, it's me. Just as I was about to get up the phone rang. "Hello?", "ohh thank goodness I caught you before you left. Listen jasmine, I know you really need this job to keep your rent up but you've been working yourself crazy down here at this clinic. You’re pregnant and I think you should really take the day off, stay home and get some rest I’m working on finding you a replacement for the day right know"."Ms. Jones you really don’t have to do that I’m sure I’ll be fine. I- "Jasmine, your baby is coming very soon. You’re due n 3 weeks. Now I may sound like your grandmother for a second but your little tail needs to sit down and relax for a while. Your grandmother and I are both members of the juvenile church, we could easily help you pay your rent until you have this baby and you’re capable of coming back to work". Ms. Jones was right. I’ve been working so hard these past couple of months and I did need a break. "Yes ma'am" as I hung up the phone. well, since I’m going to be out of work I think I should go to the mall and look for some cloths and little baby shoes and toys for Jeremiah. Rubbing my belly, I thought about what my life would be like when I have Jeremiah. Who is going to watch him while I’m at work and school? That means um not going to be able to see him during the day. Off to the mall I go.
Walking to the bus stop something hit me; I was going to be a parent soon. Suddenly I started to feel kinds scared. I was going to the mall to find cloths for MY BABY. A BABY that was going to be my responsibility. A BABY that I needed to take care after and watch after until he gets old enough to watch himself. While I was day dreaming I hadn’t realized that the bus had come. It was my mom’s old friend Ronnie. He was always so nice to me. "Hey jasmine, look at you looking all pretty baby girl. You going to work today?".”Nahh, my baby due soon so they gave me a couple of days off. I figured I would due a little shopping for myself before the baby shower tomorrow, so I’m headed to the mall." Of course he was going to let me on the bus free because I was pregnant. But also a friend of the family's. He started telling me all about his family and how they talk about me whenever they have a family get together. At that moment, I felt so special, more people care for me then I thought. I thought no-one cared about at all. But I guess I was wrong.
After leaving Ronnie, I felt like a new person. The first store I went into was baby gap. The cloths there were so tiny, and cute. There was this little hat and gloves set for 2 dollars. It was blue, white and yellow my favorite colors, of course had to buy it. I found him a shirt some pants and a little jacket to go with it. I couldn’t wait to see him in his little outfit that his mommy brought for him went to foot locker and found him 3 pairs of Jordan’s and two pairs of air forces. “Mommy got to make sure her baby look good”. A few hours later, I was beat. I did so much shopping for my baby people were offering to hold my bags while I waited for the bus. A good friend of mine from the second grade gave me a ride home. You know it’s really funny when you see people that you haven’t seen in years in the weirdest places. Its been so long since I seen her, she didn’t even know I was pregnant. We got to my house and she carried all my bags up the stairs. She really got strong over the years. I remember in second grade she was so skinny and weak, everyone used to make fun of her. I was her best friend so you know I backed her up. She had to go to work so I told her to swing by the baby shower tomorrow when she gets a chance. I started to put the baby cloths away when someone knocked on my door. I thought it was Kennedy forgetting her car keys but it wasn’t. When I opened the door it was……MIKE!!
The next morning I woke up feeling tired and worst than usually. Swollen feet, aching back, I was up all night long treating people who thought they had the flu. I knew I had to get up and go to work, I lived alone for now and somebody has to pay the rent. And right now, it's me. Just as I was about to get up the phone rang. "Hello?", "ohh thank goodness I caught you before you left. Listen jasmine, I know you really need this job to keep your rent up but you've been working yourself crazy down here at this clinic. You’re pregnant and I think you should really take the day off, stay home and get some rest I’m working on finding you a replacement for the day right know"."Ms. Jones you really don’t have to do that I’m sure I’ll be fine. I- "Jasmine, your baby is coming very soon. You’re due n 3 weeks. Now I may sound like your grandmother for a second but your little tail needs to sit down and relax for a while. Your grandmother and I are both members of the juvenile church, we could easily help you pay your rent until you have this baby and you’re capable of coming back to work". Ms. Jones was right. I’ve been working so hard these past couple of months and I did need a break. "Yes ma'am" as I hung up the phone. well, since I’m going to be out of work I think I should go to the mall and look for some cloths and little baby shoes and toys for Jeremiah. Rubbing my belly, I thought about what my life would be like when I have Jeremiah. Who is going to watch him while I’m at work and school? That means um not going to be able to see him during the day. Off to the mall I go.
Walking to the bus stop something hit me; I was going to be a parent soon. Suddenly I started to feel kinds scared. I was going to the mall to find cloths for MY BABY. A BABY that was going to be my responsibility. A BABY that I needed to take care after and watch after until he gets old enough to watch himself. While I was day dreaming I hadn’t realized that the bus had come. It was my mom’s old friend Ronnie. He was always so nice to me. "Hey jasmine, look at you looking all pretty baby girl. You going to work today?".”Nahh, my baby due soon so they gave me a couple of days off. I figured I would due a little shopping for myself before the baby shower tomorrow, so I’m headed to the mall." Of course he was going to let me on the bus free because I was pregnant. But also a friend of the family's. He started telling me all about his family and how they talk about me whenever they have a family get together. At that moment, I felt so special, more people care for me then I thought. I thought no-one cared about at all. But I guess I was wrong.
After leaving Ronnie, I felt like a new person. The first store I went into was baby gap. The cloths there were so tiny, and cute. There was this little hat and gloves set for 2 dollars. It was blue, white and yellow my favorite colors, of course had to buy it. I found him a shirt some pants and a little jacket to go with it. I couldn’t wait to see him in his little outfit that his mommy brought for him went to foot locker and found him 3 pairs of Jordan’s and two pairs of air forces. “Mommy got to make sure her baby look good”. A few hours later, I was beat. I did so much shopping for my baby people were offering to hold my bags while I waited for the bus. A good friend of mine from the second grade gave me a ride home. You know it’s really funny when you see people that you haven’t seen in years in the weirdest places. Its been so long since I seen her, she didn’t even know I was pregnant. We got to my house and she carried all my bags up the stairs. She really got strong over the years. I remember in second grade she was so skinny and weak, everyone used to make fun of her. I was her best friend so you know I backed her up. She had to go to work so I told her to swing by the baby shower tomorrow when she gets a chance. I started to put the baby cloths away when someone knocked on my door. I thought it was Kennedy forgetting her car keys but it wasn’t. When I opened the door it was……MIKE!!
Dusty Streets
A blazing sun,
Food and Water
There is none.
Living on hope
Crying out,
Helping others
Around and about.
Children Shouting
They wail and cry,
Willing for a change
A signal, a sign.
They're grateful for everytihng
Whatever comes their way,
They're constantly working
All night, all day.
The air is filthy
They cough and they weep,
They want to survive
They sniffle and sleep.
Begging off strangers
It's all they can do,
Someone to help them
It could be you.
-Emily Eaton (13)
A blazing sun,
Food and Water
There is none.
Living on hope
Crying out,
Helping others
Around and about.
Children Shouting
They wail and cry,
Willing for a change
A signal, a sign.
They're grateful for everytihng
Whatever comes their way,
They're constantly working
All night, all day.
The air is filthy
They cough and they weep,
They want to survive
They sniffle and sleep.
Begging off strangers
It's all they can do,
Someone to help them
It could be you.
-Emily Eaton (13)
I have a secret: I'm afraid. I'm terribly afraid that I AM GOING TO DIE. I didn't ask for leukemia. Nor did I expect it. Especially not chronic myelogenous leukemia. Especially when chronic myelogenous leukemia tends to affect the OLDER males, and I'm only what, 14?
But do you know why it has to be a secret? I have a family: my dad and Jae, my youngest sister. [Yeah, I have two more, but, they're out of my life at the moment.] They cried their hearts out once I was diagnosed. They were afraid that they'd lose another family member--after all, my mother passed away after a car accident. I promised to be strong. For Dad. For Jae. For Mom.
But if being strong means that I have to hold back all these tears, that I have to surpress all my fear in order to comfort my family, sometimes I wish I didn't make that promise.
But do you know why it has to be a secret? I have a family: my dad and Jae, my youngest sister. [Yeah, I have two more, but, they're out of my life at the moment.] They cried their hearts out once I was diagnosed. They were afraid that they'd lose another family member--after all, my mother passed away after a car accident. I promised to be strong. For Dad. For Jae. For Mom.
But if being strong means that I have to hold back all these tears, that I have to surpress all my fear in order to comfort my family, sometimes I wish I didn't make that promise.
I was in the class the other day, and Mrs.Crosswaer was handing out new assignments. And he stared at me! Oh his name is Sam, and he was staring at me dreamly!!!!!!!!!!!
It was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cooooooooooooooool!
I am SO SORRY! It had to be lonfer so yeah!
It was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cooooooooooooooool!
I am SO SORRY! It had to be lonfer so yeah!
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One lonely sunday afternoon
I sit in my chamber and have nothing to do
My love is far away
I wonder if (s)he's already forgotten me
So I sadly watch the sky
See the raindrops passing by
One looonely sunday afternooon...
One looonely sunday afternoon
One lonely sunday afternoon
I'm even as my flowers still out of bloom
I find some old photos, covered with dust
I cannot forget you although I know that I must
So I sadly let them fly
And this time I have to cry
One looonely sunday afternooon...
One looonely sunday afternoon
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you seek for spark of hope.
Your life held by
darkness thoughts,
anchor is
some place else.
Bad luck follows you
like a hook,
won't let you go,
won't leave you alone.
You smile today,
and cry whole eternity,
like that's your fate,
disturbing thoughts
to lie inside of you,
to take away everything
that you hope for.
Devil is calling your name,
leaves you not,
you don't see the angel on
your shoulder,
trying to give you a strength.
You long for life
that you don't know of,
you seek for peace,
trying to get away
from misty forest
that stains your heart
into black.