We all know that the character of Damon Salvatore in the novels is a seriously complex and complicated individual, one who is full of so many questions and question marks. Most people don't know what really goes on in Damon's head, what he is really feeling, what he is really thinking. Nobody in the novel series, people like Stefan, Elena, for example, can seem to crack him open and try to get to really understand the complexity that is Damon Salvatore. Let's face it. Damon Salvatore is hard to figure out. He's highly misunderstood and complex, therefore, most of the characters who interact with him cannot understand him and what he really stands for whatsoever. This is why people like Stefan, even though he happens to be Damon's own blood, his brother, can't understand the truth depth behind Damon as a person. Stefan only understands how his brother operates on the surface. Because even though they are blood and Stefan unconditionally loves him because of it, Stefan still doesn't understand Damon totally and completely. If Stefan really completely understood his brother, then he wouldn't have made so many judgments about him, whether it be in the past or the present. Stefan only sees the surface of Damon and even though he is his brother, can't seem to crack Damon open and get the actual truth of who Damon is as an individual. Stefan has grown up with Damon and therefore, he knows how his brother operates strictly on the outside. As all of you know, Damon faced some serious issues as a child during his human life. Damon has faced many issues such as loneliness, abandonment, abuse, his mother's death was traumatic for him, and because of all of these issues, Damon has shut off his feelings. This has become Damon to be dark, sinister, cold, uncaring, unfeeling. And because of what Damon presents to the outside world, people like Stefan and Elena and everyone else whom he encounters, this is what they see. This is how they know Damon and this is how they judge him. Even Elena. In the beginning of the novel series, Elena never understood Damon and everything that he did or does. Elena constantly judged him, and she did this not because she was subconsciously challenging him, but because she simply didn't and still doesn't understand him, and who he really is as an individual. Elena was given special angelic powers after she came back from the afterlife and she needed these powerful and strong powers and abilities in order for her to be able to crack Damon open and try to get a significant better understanding of him and who he really is. Because as a regular human being, she could do no such thing. This is because like everyone else in this series, Elena only sees the surface of Damon, and believe it or not, she still does to this day. Because if you look at how she talks about Damon, even though she has developed some kind of feelings for him and developed a connection with Damon of some sorts, she still doesn't talk about Damon the individual, she talks about the surface of Damon. The truth is, and I've said this many times, Elena will NEVER understand Damon and who he is deep down inside of himself. She will never get him. It takes effort for people like Elena, Stefan, Matt, Meredith to understand him. Even Katherine didn't understand him back in the day. There is only one person who understands Damon better then anyone else ever did, does and ever will, even himself (Damon). And that person is Bonnie.
Bonnie is the only person who fully, truly and deeply understands Damon as an individual. She understands who he is, what he stands for, why he does the things he does, how he operates not only on the surface, but deep down within himself. Bonnie knows that Damon acts out the way that he does and he displays the attitude that he does towards others for a very specific reason. And she does this without judging him whatsoever. Bonnie in the books has NEVER judged Damon. Has she been angry or mad at him? Yes. But that's not because she hates him or is judging him. Whenever Bonnie gets mad at Damon, it's because it's a way that Bonnie subconsciously challenges Damon. Bonnie doesn't realize that every time she really interacts with Damon in the books, that she is having such a huge impact on him and she's really challenging him to bring out his full potential as an individual. Only someone who completely and totally understands from the depth of yourself can challenge you in that way. If a person doesn't understand you, then it's emotionally draining. It's a struggle for one to bring out one's "shadow self" and this is most definitely not the case for Damon/Bonnie. Damon and Bonnie challenge each other, but it's not emotionally draining like Damon/Elena. There is so much effort for Elena to bring out Damon's real self, that it's tiring for Elena. With Bonnie, it is completely and totally effortless on her part. She doesn't struggle to bring out the true side of him. Elena has to be bestowed special angelic powers just so that it wasn't such an emotionally draining task in order for her to get to the depths of Damon, the individual. Now, has Damon and Bonnie's connection and relationship throughout the series been rather chaotic and tumultuous? Absolutely. But at the same time, it hasn't been emotionally tiring or draining in any way. There is a ease between Damon and Bonnie that is hard to describe. The thing with Damon and Bonnie is that they know how to hurt each other the best way they know how. Damon knows how to hurt Bonnie because he understands her better then anyone else does. And this may sound bad, but Damon hurts Bonnie because he is really subconsciously challenging Bonnie. He acts this way sometimes towards her without even knowing it, because he is really trying to encourage and challenge Bonnie to test her inner strength and courage. Damon doesn't hurt Bonnie consciously. Because if he really wanted to hurt Bonnie consciously, he would have abused her, he would have bitten her against her will, he would've taken advantage of her a long time ago. But he didn't. This is because he understands Bonnie better then anyone else does. Whenever Bonnie gets emotional, it has nothing to do with Damon and her connection with Damon. Bonnie is emotional because she is ultimately growing up and trying to find herself. She is enduring her own personal struggles and her own personal journey into finding herself. And this is how Bonnie happens to cope. With being emotional. Damon handles his spiritual journey and growth by shutting others out, by trying to make it seem as if feelings don't matter or that he doesn't care about anything ....or anyone.
Which brings me to my main point of this article. The reason why Damon denies his feelings for Bonnie is because deep down within himself, HE'S DENYING HIMSELF. Underneath all of that ego, all of that pride, all of that selfish facade that he puts on the surface for self-preservation, DAMON FEELS TOTALLY AND UNDENIABLY UNWORTHY. In truth, DAMON HATES HIMSELF, HE DESPISES HIMSELF. He literally hates who he is, hates what he stands for, hates what he embodies, and he doesn't accept who he is. And because of it, he displays all of what he feels about himself deep down within to other people. He covers up the self-hatred that he feels deep down inside of himself with arrogance, pride, ego, selfishness, promiscuity, etc, because he can't stand himself. Damon can't stand Damon, the individual. So, the real issue is that Damon doesn't love himself AT ALL. Damon has serious self-esteem issues. And most of these deeply rooted issues he was basically born with or occurred when he was a very young child. Damon, like I said earlier, has endured a lot of trauma, pain, abandonment, loneliness and abuse (physical, mental, emotional and most importantly spiritual). And all of these issues are being brought up whenever he's around Bonnie. Bonnie brings up all of these issues that Damon has faced in his human life and vampire life up to the surface and that scares him. Damon gets scared because he doesn't want to face it. But the truth is, the only way that Damon is going to have all of these deeply rooted issues and all of the pain that he has suffered in his dark past be healed, is for him to come to terms with his feelings for Bonnie. The thing is, with Damon, as much as he totally and completely understand Bonnie inside and out without any effort, Damon still doesn't know that even though Damon tries to conceal his "shadow self" from Bonnie, Bonnie still sees it. Bonnie has seen Damon's "shadow self" and she has ultimately accepted it. Like I have repeatedly said, Bonnie unconditionally accept Damon no matter what. Bonnie is the MOST important person who has ever come into Damon's life ever. She is his awakening, she is his life-changing experience. If Damon didn't meet Bonnie, he would be in the same place that he was before the series began. Who would be still lingering in the same place without any progress, wihtout any light, without any clue about what to do or how to "fix" himself. Damon is a totally and completely lost soul, who has no idea who he is as a person. But Bonnie knows, she knows who he is and that is why she has come into his life for this special, deep and meaningful purpose. To ultimately show who Damon is as an individual, for him to go on this journey of him looking deep down within himself and discovering the truth of himself. Because the actual reality is, Damon doesn't know himself, he has NO IDEA who he really is. He's a big question mark. All he feels is ultimate darkness, all he feels is emptiness, loneliness, anger, hatred, and ultimately more then anything, sadness and unhappiness. Don't be fooled by what you see on the surface of Damon Salvatore. DAMON SALVATORE IS AN INCREDIBLY SAD, AND UNHAPPY INDIVIDUAL. Damon is lonely, Damon is isolate. Even though Damon has this support system such as his brother Stefan and even Elena who has shown she cares for him in the books, Damon has been missing something...or someone. Whenever Damon says that he is ultimately searching for a strong, powerful and beautiful woman, I always say that that is what his ego/conscious/mind is searching for. No, Damon is searching for something significantly deeper, but he can't figure out exactly what it is because he can't figure out who he is, himself. This is why Damon denies his feelings for Bonnie because in all truth, Damon has desperately been searching for the one thing he has been needing his whole entire life. IT'S BONNIE. Damon is the question/question mark. Bonnie is the answer. She is the ultimate answer for Damon and vice versa. Bonnie would have no idea who she is and what she really stands for, if Damon had never come into her life. Bonnie would still be the same shallow, boy obsessed, flighty girl that she was at the very beginning of the series. She would have never embraced the truth depth of who she is deep down inside of herself, her individuality, if it weren't for Damon. What I'm basically and ultimately trying to say is that DAMON & BONNIE SAVED EACH OTHER. Not just physically, in the sense that Damon is always saving Bonnie's life. But in the sense that Damon and Bonnie saved each other spiritually. What Damon and Bonnie really needed in their lives, was that ultimate push, that ultimate challenge from something that they couldn't put their finger on. They needed that ultimate wake-up call, that awakening. And for over 500 years, Damon couldn't find it, he couldn't find the ultimate answer to his ultimate question, the question being him (Damon).
So, Damon denies his feelings for Bonnie because he doesn't feel worthy, he doesn't feel that he deserves her or her love (Bonnie). Because he hates who he is deep down within himself. And he's scared, that if he lets go and lets Bonnie see the ultimate, real and deep truth of who Damon really is deep down, that Bonnie is going to reject him, that she's not going to care about him, that she's going....to hate him. This is Damon's BIGGEST and DEEPEST fear deep down within himself. Losing Bonnie in absolutely any way, shape or form. And that includes Bonnie hating him and rejecting him, abandoning him. So he hides his feelings as a shell to protect himself, because he's been hurt so many times in the past. He's faced so much hurt and pain and abuse and turmoil and darkness. And for the longest time, Damon has felt unloved and unworthy and hopeless. But he doesn't show that because his outside personality/ego ultimately conceals and hides it. But unfortunately for Damon, there really is no point in Damon trying to hide his feelings for Bonnie because he doesn't want Bonnie to see the depth of who he truly and really is deep down within him. BONNIE ALREADY KNOWS BECAUSE SHE'S ALREADY SEEN HIS SHADOW SELF. Bonnie knows everything and she has always know everything. And guess what? Bonnie has already ultimately accepted Damon's shadow self. This is why Bonnie unconditionally forgives Damon the way she does, because she knows who he truly is, the ultimate good and the ultimate bad. She's seen everything; all of his inner wounds, pain, issues of past abuse, abandonment, loneliness, emptiness....even self-hatred. Like I said before, Damon loathes himself. And he tries to cover up his weakness of his self-hatred by trying to be arrogant, cold and uncaring towards others, because that is how Damon copes. And Bonnie understands this and she accepts it. Bonnie's subconscious way of challenging Damon in the books is unconditionally forgiving him regardless of what he says to her or how he treats her. Yet Bonnie doesn't realize herself that she unconditionally forgives him. It's not apparent that Bonnie does such a thing consciously, the same way that Damon doesn't realize that he subconsciously challenges Bonnie by being harsh towards her in a conscious manner. Damon and Bonnie know how to challenge each other and they both know what really works on the other, because each knows how the other operates both on the outside and on the inside at a much deeper level.
So, Damon denying his feelings for Bonnie is basically useless, it's meaningless and it's not going to heal anything and it's not going to make all the spiritual pain and emptiness that Damon feels deep down within himself, go away. All Damon is doing by denying what he really feels in his heart, soul and subconscious is causing himself more pain. More loneliness, more emptiness. The pain is not going to go away for Damon by constantly denying his feelings for Bonnie. If anything, Damon needs to ultimately let go, because there is nothing that Bonnie hasn't seen. Everything that Damon feels deep within and is ultimately trying to conceal and hide and has kept hidden deep within himself for over 5 centuries, Bonnie has already seen it, ALL OF IT. And she's seen it naturally, without any effort. The only way Damon is going to find ultimate happiness is if he LETS GO. He needs to let go of something that is holding him back and that one thing is ELENA. I've said this many times, Elena holds Damon back. Damon is clinging onto Elena in fear. He's afraid that if he really lets go, that he's going to fall apart and everything will be chaos. And the truth is, it will be. But then again, that is Damon's journey into find the true depth of himself. As long as he keeps denying his strong feelings for Bonnie, Damon will never find the answer to who he is as an individual. Damon will constantly be running around questioning himself and who he really is, unless HE LET'S GO. When Damon accepts and comes to terms with his feelings for Bonnie is when Damon will ultimately KNOW AND DISCOVER WHO HE REALLY TRULY IS DEEP DOWN WITHIN HIMSELF. Because as of right now in the books, Damon has no idea; he's still completely clueless. He's more then half way there, but he's not there yet. And he's still clueless because he hasn't let go and he hasn't come to accept something so crucial in his life (Bonnie).
So what I am basically trying to say is that Damon/Bonnie's relationship is not just the typical romantic relationship from my POV, because I see it a whole lot deeper then most people do. And I think this has always been L.J. Smith's intention regarding Damon and Bonnie. I mean, is it any coincidence that the one person whom Damon made the ultimate selfless sacrifice for was Bonnie McCullough? Not his brother, Stefan. Not Elena, the girl whom he supposedly loves more then anything. BONNIE. I think L.J. Smith has always meant for Bonnie to be Damon's saviour, his light, his humanity, his compassion, and his ultimate redemption. The same way that I have always thought that L.J.'s intention was always to have Damon be Bonnie's hero, protector, her maturity, her stability, her depth. Damon and Bonnie's moments and connection throughout the series may have been the most minimal but for me, IT HAS BEEN THE MOST PROFOUND AND POWERFUL OF THE WHILE ENTIRE SERIES. You know that saying that, sometimes it's the littlest things or details that really mean the most. And this is the case for Damon and Bonnie in the series. I think Bamon are highly misinterpreted and misunderstood because for the most part, this story is centred around a selfish female protagonist who has two brothers fighting over her and competing for her (well, Damon competing for her. Stefan doesn't treat Elena like a competition or prize to be won like Damon does). And because the whole series centres around the love triangle, the Bamon connection is often misunderstood by many people because it is so heavily overshadowed by it. And it's unfortunate but, even though the series hasn't shown how highly deep and meaningful the Bamon connection really is, I can already tell, because absolutely every single moment that Damon and Bonnie share in this story is pure light. And it's powerful and meaningful and it shines on the page. Nothing can overpower it. And this is why Damon and Bonnie are so incredibly amazing to me and always will be considered amazing to me. After all, why do you think that Damon and Bonnie are "The Last Reach Towards Light"?
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Bonnie is the only person who fully, truly and deeply understands Damon as an individual. She understands who he is, what he stands for, why he does the things he does, how he operates not only on the surface, but deep down within himself. Bonnie knows that Damon acts out the way that he does and he displays the attitude that he does towards others for a very specific reason. And she does this without judging him whatsoever. Bonnie in the books has NEVER judged Damon. Has she been angry or mad at him? Yes. But that's not because she hates him or is judging him. Whenever Bonnie gets mad at Damon, it's because it's a way that Bonnie subconsciously challenges Damon. Bonnie doesn't realize that every time she really interacts with Damon in the books, that she is having such a huge impact on him and she's really challenging him to bring out his full potential as an individual. Only someone who completely and totally understands from the depth of yourself can challenge you in that way. If a person doesn't understand you, then it's emotionally draining. It's a struggle for one to bring out one's "shadow self" and this is most definitely not the case for Damon/Bonnie. Damon and Bonnie challenge each other, but it's not emotionally draining like Damon/Elena. There is so much effort for Elena to bring out Damon's real self, that it's tiring for Elena. With Bonnie, it is completely and totally effortless on her part. She doesn't struggle to bring out the true side of him. Elena has to be bestowed special angelic powers just so that it wasn't such an emotionally draining task in order for her to get to the depths of Damon, the individual. Now, has Damon and Bonnie's connection and relationship throughout the series been rather chaotic and tumultuous? Absolutely. But at the same time, it hasn't been emotionally tiring or draining in any way. There is a ease between Damon and Bonnie that is hard to describe. The thing with Damon and Bonnie is that they know how to hurt each other the best way they know how. Damon knows how to hurt Bonnie because he understands her better then anyone else does. And this may sound bad, but Damon hurts Bonnie because he is really subconsciously challenging Bonnie. He acts this way sometimes towards her without even knowing it, because he is really trying to encourage and challenge Bonnie to test her inner strength and courage. Damon doesn't hurt Bonnie consciously. Because if he really wanted to hurt Bonnie consciously, he would have abused her, he would have bitten her against her will, he would've taken advantage of her a long time ago. But he didn't. This is because he understands Bonnie better then anyone else does. Whenever Bonnie gets emotional, it has nothing to do with Damon and her connection with Damon. Bonnie is emotional because she is ultimately growing up and trying to find herself. She is enduring her own personal struggles and her own personal journey into finding herself. And this is how Bonnie happens to cope. With being emotional. Damon handles his spiritual journey and growth by shutting others out, by trying to make it seem as if feelings don't matter or that he doesn't care about anything ....or anyone.
Which brings me to my main point of this article. The reason why Damon denies his feelings for Bonnie is because deep down within himself, HE'S DENYING HIMSELF. Underneath all of that ego, all of that pride, all of that selfish facade that he puts on the surface for self-preservation, DAMON FEELS TOTALLY AND UNDENIABLY UNWORTHY. In truth, DAMON HATES HIMSELF, HE DESPISES HIMSELF. He literally hates who he is, hates what he stands for, hates what he embodies, and he doesn't accept who he is. And because of it, he displays all of what he feels about himself deep down within to other people. He covers up the self-hatred that he feels deep down inside of himself with arrogance, pride, ego, selfishness, promiscuity, etc, because he can't stand himself. Damon can't stand Damon, the individual. So, the real issue is that Damon doesn't love himself AT ALL. Damon has serious self-esteem issues. And most of these deeply rooted issues he was basically born with or occurred when he was a very young child. Damon, like I said earlier, has endured a lot of trauma, pain, abandonment, loneliness and abuse (physical, mental, emotional and most importantly spiritual). And all of these issues are being brought up whenever he's around Bonnie. Bonnie brings up all of these issues that Damon has faced in his human life and vampire life up to the surface and that scares him. Damon gets scared because he doesn't want to face it. But the truth is, the only way that Damon is going to have all of these deeply rooted issues and all of the pain that he has suffered in his dark past be healed, is for him to come to terms with his feelings for Bonnie. The thing is, with Damon, as much as he totally and completely understand Bonnie inside and out without any effort, Damon still doesn't know that even though Damon tries to conceal his "shadow self" from Bonnie, Bonnie still sees it. Bonnie has seen Damon's "shadow self" and she has ultimately accepted it. Like I have repeatedly said, Bonnie unconditionally accept Damon no matter what. Bonnie is the MOST important person who has ever come into Damon's life ever. She is his awakening, she is his life-changing experience. If Damon didn't meet Bonnie, he would be in the same place that he was before the series began. Who would be still lingering in the same place without any progress, wihtout any light, without any clue about what to do or how to "fix" himself. Damon is a totally and completely lost soul, who has no idea who he is as a person. But Bonnie knows, she knows who he is and that is why she has come into his life for this special, deep and meaningful purpose. To ultimately show who Damon is as an individual, for him to go on this journey of him looking deep down within himself and discovering the truth of himself. Because the actual reality is, Damon doesn't know himself, he has NO IDEA who he really is. He's a big question mark. All he feels is ultimate darkness, all he feels is emptiness, loneliness, anger, hatred, and ultimately more then anything, sadness and unhappiness. Don't be fooled by what you see on the surface of Damon Salvatore. DAMON SALVATORE IS AN INCREDIBLY SAD, AND UNHAPPY INDIVIDUAL. Damon is lonely, Damon is isolate. Even though Damon has this support system such as his brother Stefan and even Elena who has shown she cares for him in the books, Damon has been missing something...or someone. Whenever Damon says that he is ultimately searching for a strong, powerful and beautiful woman, I always say that that is what his ego/conscious/mind is searching for. No, Damon is searching for something significantly deeper, but he can't figure out exactly what it is because he can't figure out who he is, himself. This is why Damon denies his feelings for Bonnie because in all truth, Damon has desperately been searching for the one thing he has been needing his whole entire life. IT'S BONNIE. Damon is the question/question mark. Bonnie is the answer. She is the ultimate answer for Damon and vice versa. Bonnie would have no idea who she is and what she really stands for, if Damon had never come into her life. Bonnie would still be the same shallow, boy obsessed, flighty girl that she was at the very beginning of the series. She would have never embraced the truth depth of who she is deep down inside of herself, her individuality, if it weren't for Damon. What I'm basically and ultimately trying to say is that DAMON & BONNIE SAVED EACH OTHER. Not just physically, in the sense that Damon is always saving Bonnie's life. But in the sense that Damon and Bonnie saved each other spiritually. What Damon and Bonnie really needed in their lives, was that ultimate push, that ultimate challenge from something that they couldn't put their finger on. They needed that ultimate wake-up call, that awakening. And for over 500 years, Damon couldn't find it, he couldn't find the ultimate answer to his ultimate question, the question being him (Damon).
So, Damon denies his feelings for Bonnie because he doesn't feel worthy, he doesn't feel that he deserves her or her love (Bonnie). Because he hates who he is deep down within himself. And he's scared, that if he lets go and lets Bonnie see the ultimate, real and deep truth of who Damon really is deep down, that Bonnie is going to reject him, that she's not going to care about him, that she's going....to hate him. This is Damon's BIGGEST and DEEPEST fear deep down within himself. Losing Bonnie in absolutely any way, shape or form. And that includes Bonnie hating him and rejecting him, abandoning him. So he hides his feelings as a shell to protect himself, because he's been hurt so many times in the past. He's faced so much hurt and pain and abuse and turmoil and darkness. And for the longest time, Damon has felt unloved and unworthy and hopeless. But he doesn't show that because his outside personality/ego ultimately conceals and hides it. But unfortunately for Damon, there really is no point in Damon trying to hide his feelings for Bonnie because he doesn't want Bonnie to see the depth of who he truly and really is deep down within him. BONNIE ALREADY KNOWS BECAUSE SHE'S ALREADY SEEN HIS SHADOW SELF. Bonnie knows everything and she has always know everything. And guess what? Bonnie has already ultimately accepted Damon's shadow self. This is why Bonnie unconditionally forgives Damon the way she does, because she knows who he truly is, the ultimate good and the ultimate bad. She's seen everything; all of his inner wounds, pain, issues of past abuse, abandonment, loneliness, emptiness....even self-hatred. Like I said before, Damon loathes himself. And he tries to cover up his weakness of his self-hatred by trying to be arrogant, cold and uncaring towards others, because that is how Damon copes. And Bonnie understands this and she accepts it. Bonnie's subconscious way of challenging Damon in the books is unconditionally forgiving him regardless of what he says to her or how he treats her. Yet Bonnie doesn't realize herself that she unconditionally forgives him. It's not apparent that Bonnie does such a thing consciously, the same way that Damon doesn't realize that he subconsciously challenges Bonnie by being harsh towards her in a conscious manner. Damon and Bonnie know how to challenge each other and they both know what really works on the other, because each knows how the other operates both on the outside and on the inside at a much deeper level.
So, Damon denying his feelings for Bonnie is basically useless, it's meaningless and it's not going to heal anything and it's not going to make all the spiritual pain and emptiness that Damon feels deep down within himself, go away. All Damon is doing by denying what he really feels in his heart, soul and subconscious is causing himself more pain. More loneliness, more emptiness. The pain is not going to go away for Damon by constantly denying his feelings for Bonnie. If anything, Damon needs to ultimately let go, because there is nothing that Bonnie hasn't seen. Everything that Damon feels deep within and is ultimately trying to conceal and hide and has kept hidden deep within himself for over 5 centuries, Bonnie has already seen it, ALL OF IT. And she's seen it naturally, without any effort. The only way Damon is going to find ultimate happiness is if he LETS GO. He needs to let go of something that is holding him back and that one thing is ELENA. I've said this many times, Elena holds Damon back. Damon is clinging onto Elena in fear. He's afraid that if he really lets go, that he's going to fall apart and everything will be chaos. And the truth is, it will be. But then again, that is Damon's journey into find the true depth of himself. As long as he keeps denying his strong feelings for Bonnie, Damon will never find the answer to who he is as an individual. Damon will constantly be running around questioning himself and who he really is, unless HE LET'S GO. When Damon accepts and comes to terms with his feelings for Bonnie is when Damon will ultimately KNOW AND DISCOVER WHO HE REALLY TRULY IS DEEP DOWN WITHIN HIMSELF. Because as of right now in the books, Damon has no idea; he's still completely clueless. He's more then half way there, but he's not there yet. And he's still clueless because he hasn't let go and he hasn't come to accept something so crucial in his life (Bonnie).
So what I am basically trying to say is that Damon/Bonnie's relationship is not just the typical romantic relationship from my POV, because I see it a whole lot deeper then most people do. And I think this has always been L.J. Smith's intention regarding Damon and Bonnie. I mean, is it any coincidence that the one person whom Damon made the ultimate selfless sacrifice for was Bonnie McCullough? Not his brother, Stefan. Not Elena, the girl whom he supposedly loves more then anything. BONNIE. I think L.J. Smith has always meant for Bonnie to be Damon's saviour, his light, his humanity, his compassion, and his ultimate redemption. The same way that I have always thought that L.J.'s intention was always to have Damon be Bonnie's hero, protector, her maturity, her stability, her depth. Damon and Bonnie's moments and connection throughout the series may have been the most minimal but for me, IT HAS BEEN THE MOST PROFOUND AND POWERFUL OF THE WHILE ENTIRE SERIES. You know that saying that, sometimes it's the littlest things or details that really mean the most. And this is the case for Damon and Bonnie in the series. I think Bamon are highly misinterpreted and misunderstood because for the most part, this story is centred around a selfish female protagonist who has two brothers fighting over her and competing for her (well, Damon competing for her. Stefan doesn't treat Elena like a competition or prize to be won like Damon does). And because the whole series centres around the love triangle, the Bamon connection is often misunderstood by many people because it is so heavily overshadowed by it. And it's unfortunate but, even though the series hasn't shown how highly deep and meaningful the Bamon connection really is, I can already tell, because absolutely every single moment that Damon and Bonnie share in this story is pure light. And it's powerful and meaningful and it shines on the page. Nothing can overpower it. And this is why Damon and Bonnie are so incredibly amazing to me and always will be considered amazing to me. After all, why do you think that Damon and Bonnie are "The Last Reach Towards Light"?
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