Courtney's Point of View:
I alway's promised myself to give my children a better and more loved life than I had. I was left out of so much growing up. Thats why I had to be so smart to get reconinized. I would cry everyday after school. I was never good enough for anyone. I didn't want Jude to go trough the same pain and torture that became a daily routine for me. I just can't barely get through talking about it. I never get into detail especially that I never told ANYONE befor of what I went through.I couldn't bare to see my child go through it. I am crying right now just saying this. The way I am may think I have a perfect life, well my life was far from it. It was worth nothing. Well it was until Duncan made it worth something and now little Jude. The only reason I'm still allive is because of them. The only two people I love. I honestly don't even love my own parents, they always always singled me out. I wanted Jude to love me just so I had meaning. I've blocked out my childhood but just as I look at my child all of that horror and sufferring just rushes all at one time back into my brain. I would never tell Duncan he would freak out. Oh what have I done. One of the two only people love I've lied to. I can't believ I just did that, well I didn't JUST do that I've done it forever. I'm just ruining my life. Just as my parents did to me all of my life. Even now they do that. They did even come to see there grandchild in the hospital because they were too busy on a fishing trip with my younger brother. Which I found pointless.I would never nor ever do that to Jude. Then I would be no better than them. I would not let them tormente him just as they did me. I hate them. Just as much as Duncan hates his father. But at least he likes his mother I hate both of my parents. And I don't even today know why they hated me. What did ever do but want their love witch I never got. I just want my boy to be happpy and healthy and the hell away from those ass holes.
THIS WAS DEDECATED TO ST.JUDE'S CHILDREN HOSPITAL IN SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA!
WHY DOES COURTNEY HATE HER PARENTS? AND WHEN WILL PART 35 COME OUT? I CRIED WRITTING THIS YOU'LL FIND OUT WHAT HER PARENTS ACTUALLY DID TO MAKE HER SO... WELL... DISTURBED? WHO KNOWS? I KNOW!
I alway's promised myself to give my children a better and more loved life than I had. I was left out of so much growing up. Thats why I had to be so smart to get reconinized. I would cry everyday after school. I was never good enough for anyone. I didn't want Jude to go trough the same pain and torture that became a daily routine for me. I just can't barely get through talking about it. I never get into detail especially that I never told ANYONE befor of what I went through.I couldn't bare to see my child go through it. I am crying right now just saying this. The way I am may think I have a perfect life, well my life was far from it. It was worth nothing. Well it was until Duncan made it worth something and now little Jude. The only reason I'm still allive is because of them. The only two people I love. I honestly don't even love my own parents, they always always singled me out. I wanted Jude to love me just so I had meaning. I've blocked out my childhood but just as I look at my child all of that horror and sufferring just rushes all at one time back into my brain. I would never tell Duncan he would freak out. Oh what have I done. One of the two only people love I've lied to. I can't believ I just did that, well I didn't JUST do that I've done it forever. I'm just ruining my life. Just as my parents did to me all of my life. Even now they do that. They did even come to see there grandchild in the hospital because they were too busy on a fishing trip with my younger brother. Which I found pointless.I would never nor ever do that to Jude. Then I would be no better than them. I would not let them tormente him just as they did me. I hate them. Just as much as Duncan hates his father. But at least he likes his mother I hate both of my parents. And I don't even today know why they hated me. What did ever do but want their love witch I never got. I just want my boy to be happpy and healthy and the hell away from those ass holes.
THIS WAS DEDECATED TO ST.JUDE'S CHILDREN HOSPITAL IN SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA!
WHY DOES COURTNEY HATE HER PARENTS? AND WHEN WILL PART 35 COME OUT? I CRIED WRITTING THIS YOU'LL FIND OUT WHAT HER PARENTS ACTUALLY DID TO MAKE HER SO... WELL... DISTURBED? WHO KNOWS? I KNOW!
DUNCAN'S POV: Did i just say that? Atleast she knows that i love her now. "I've been really stupid" i exclaimed, hugging you again and this time, you were hugging me back.
"I've been stupid too, and selfish, im sorry" you said, beginning to cry. "Please dont cry, you haven't, i have" i said "you'll make me cry!" i admitted. "So, what now?" you asked me. "Wait here 5 minutes!" i said, "ok, wat r u doing?" you asked, "you'll see!" i said, gleefully. *5 mins l8r* i produced a wedding ring and said...
TBC...
"I've been stupid too, and selfish, im sorry" you said, beginning to cry. "Please dont cry, you haven't, i have" i said "you'll make me cry!" i admitted. "So, what now?" you asked me. "Wait here 5 minutes!" i said, "ok, wat r u doing?" you asked, "you'll see!" i said, gleefully. *5 mins l8r* i produced a wedding ring and said...
TBC...