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3. Just A Good Distraction
Why am I still thinking about him? He left me he chose them not us. I don’t know how mom could just accept what he is doing to me. I have been away from him like this before I really want to feel his hot skin on mine. He use to call every night, but he hasn’t called all week and last week he called me twice. So much him for loving me.
I hadn’t slept well in a few days I looked up and it was 4:32 am may I can go talk to mom shell know what to do to help me get over this.
“Mom can I come in ” I walked into her office, which grandma Esme redesigned, to an all mahogany wood. She was reading something that looked like it belonged to grandpa Carlisle.
“Of course Nessie why aren’t you sleep ” she looked at me answering her own question “you’re thinking about him huh. Don’t worry he’ll call ” she stood up and walked toward me giving me a hug.
“I don’t know what to do every thing I did involved him ” I was crying I didn’t know what to do
“Renesmee I want to tell you a story. ” she said picking me up and setting me down on her couch “for my human safety Edward thought it would be best if he left forks I remember that day it was the worst day of my life. Edward told me he didn’t love me any more and that he ruins my hope for any thing and everything. So our entire family just left and there was no way for them to come back I felt like there was a part of me gone with him. I promised that I wouldn’t do think reckless or stupid. I spent 4 months doing just that. I didn’t leave the house I never smiled Charlie said it was so bad that he was going to send me to a shrink. I couldn’t leave I don’t remember why but I couldn’t so I did something stupid and herd his in my head. ” She trailed on then told me about Jacob “Jacob had no idea how crazy I was .he was what seemed to be my best friend. He made me a promise that he would never hurt me emotionally or physically ” she said smiling “and since you are apart of me I think the same thing goes for you. He is doing this to save you to keep all of us safe ”
“Wait dad left you alone for 4 months ” I asked confused I had never seen them apart for to long
“Yeah but I jumped off of a cliff and he thought I was killing my self so he tried to kill him self it was really bad he doesn’t want to remember so I don’t think or talk about. She looked at me and gave me a kiss on the cheek “you should go back to bed.”
“I don’t know if I can ” I sat up and looked hat he. “I have a question. When dad was gone what did you do? “
“I did nothing but try not to think about him. I don’t want you to do that. Find something for you do to keep yourself-distracted. You want to eat something I think there is some eggs in the fridge I can go make you some ”
“No I'm fine ” I lied. I was kind of hungry but I wanted something stronger like blood but mom doesn’t like me hunting to late because of the wolves “I think I’ll try to go back to sleep ”
“Ok will I'm going to Carlisle’s house do you want me to send over Edward ”she asked me as we walked in to my room
“No it’s ok go have fun ” I kissed her and climbed into my bed.
I was just about to fall asleep until my alarm clock went of ugh school just what I needed. Well at lease I’ll be distracted.
That was a lie I couldn’t do anything but think about him all of my classes were dragging and I already knew everything we were learning which made it a longer class. At lunch Claire asked me if I was ok
“Nessie are you ok you haven’t talked all morning ” her worry for me was more then enough to change my attitude
“Yeah I'm fine just tired ”I was still really tired “so what are you guys doing this week ”I asked Claire and my family –except mom and dad.
“Hmmm let’s ask Alice.” Emmett said looking over at Alice who looked like she was having a vision “well what's the verdict sis ” since Claire knew all of our secrets there was no reason to lie to her
“Wow there is nothing fun coming to town well except you Claire your uncle will tell you when you get home.” alike said focusing back to us.
“He’s leaving huh ”Claire looked down “I hate being alone that’s why he has been avoiding me ”
“Why don’t you stay with us just until he comes back it will be fun ”I said. This was the exacted distraction I needed “we can ask tonight I’ll go over to your house after school ” I hoped this works.
When lunch was over I saw what looked like a wolf in the trees but when I looked up it was gone. “What are you looking at, ” Claire asked me when she noticed I stopped “Come on were going to be late. ”
Today in coarse we were assigned to write, sing, and produce a song. It was our final Mrs. Hope gave us the choice to have pairs or solo I chose pair I knew I wouldn’t be able to sing with my high soprano voice .I was parted with Claire and that’s when I got the idea of what we could do this week I hope Alice knew where I was going with this because I had no clue what to do first.
I wanted my own studio.
I know grandma Esme will help me design it and uncle Emmett would love to smash my room wall to make it bigger. Grandpa Carlisle would be more then happy to help me find all the right supplies. I defiantly had a good distraction.
“So partner where do you want to do this” Claire asked me with a big smile on her face. She knew what I was thinking she just liked to play dumb
“How about we make a studio and get a lot of new stuff that make us look professional. I have the lyrics you have the voice I think this is a good partnership.” I smiled just as wide as her
“I see you girl already know what your doing” Mrs. Hope said as she walked around the room helping people.
After school mom and dad went home and started packing for their anniversary vacation but everyone at school knew that they were going to go see Bella’s ‘dad’ who got into a ‘car crash’. I was glad they were leaving I didn’t like the way worried about me it was annoying.
I took Claire home and saw Dean’s bags already packed at the door. Claire took a deep breath and said, “Lets get this over with.”
“Claire good your hear I didn’t want to leave a note—”Claire cut Dean off
“I'm staying with the Cullen’s until you get back ” she slid past him not making eye contact. He knew she was mad at him
“Hi Dean ” I said, “you need a hand or maybe I should go help Claire. I’ll see you when you get back ”I past him and went up the stairs and asked Claire a question “so are you staying in our house or Carlisle‘s”
She looked at me “oh yeh I for got you live in different house I'll just stay in your room ”she continued to packed and then turned to me and asked if I was ready.
When we got down stairs Dean was on the phone talking to his brother, Nathan.
“No I'm not flying over I'm talking a plane yeh is faster but I want to —”he was cut off, then saw us “I have to go— Claire about to leave, I'll see you in a few.” He hung up the phone “ Ok so I trust Bella will be there so if you need me she has my number and I will be with your dad so I think you’ll be good. Ok I love you bye, bye Renesmee ”he said leaving the house and getting into his car
“Lets go,” I said grabbing one of Claire’s bags
It was a quite drive home but at the dirt turn in I could hear the whole family talking and laughing and braking thing. Alice must have seen what I decided to do. When we pulled into the drive I hear Claire gasp “whoa”
“This is Carlisle’s house ours you have to do a little of hiking to do but I'll have uncle Jasper drop your stuff off.” I hear Esme yell and Emmett laugh. There was a loud bang and a lot of smoke on the left side of the house “uh we should see what that was” instead of going inside we walked around to the giant hole in the wall where Dad’s room use to be
“Hey Ness come up we need some help with the measurements.” Emmett said “hi Claire ” he added
I showed Claire around the house and took her upstairs where there were pieces of dry wall everywhere “wow you guys didn’t even let me give you the pitch. I had a lot of complements ready ” I smiled giving grandma a hug “thank you this is really what I want but I thought we were going to do it at my house instead of re-doing dad’s room ”
“Nonsense I would love to have and excuse to redecorate something around her beside Edward doesn’t even go in here anymore. I’ve already order all of the walls and glass I was thinking about cedar or cherry unless you want something light like oak. Or you just want regular paint” she had all of this planed
“Um I don’t know I just want it to look professional I'll Google some pictures ” I gave her another hug and took Claire down to the kitchen “what are you hungry for ”
“Umm I don’t know I'll have what ever you have, ” she said. That was a bad answer I was going hunting to night.
“I'm not eating until Alice or Jasper are free and you wont like what I eat” I told her and I grabbed a TV dinner we had in the freezer “these are pretty good its alfredo. ”
“Ok that’s good” she looked like she was unsure about being here I think I bothered hurt when I explained what I was eating. “Its not you Ness I have a … umm new ability morphing I guess you can call it always happens your fine ” she heard my thoughts then answered them
“I think that’s so cool you answering my thoughts” I said dad doesn’t answer them unless their bad I guess you could say he had self control.
“It doesn’t freak you out ” she said wide-eyed
“Well I have never shown you what I can do so you tell me. Do I creep you out?” I put my hand on her cheek and showed her my life from when I was born to today in just a few seconds
“Whoa. That was. wow.” she was speechless “you were a very cute baby ”
“Thanks, see you don’t scare me at all ” I looked at her “my family should scare you thought you’ll see what I mean this week.”
“And next week Dean just got to Nathan’s house and realized what he had to do he’ll call tomorrow at 5” Alice had walked in covered in dust “Emmett is dirty and he is giving free hug I would get yours before he bathe ” Alice said dusting her self of uncle Emmett had gotten her dirty. I wonder if he had seen aunt rose yet. “Lets go hunting. I would let you tag along Claire but Jasper get in the zone when he hunts and I don’t want to hurt you but Esme has been dying to talk to she is waiting upstairs we should be back I an hour bye ”
We got back at 5 when I started my homework
I yawned .I hadn’t noticed that it was 7 and I had a lot more homework to get thought .I thought of just copying moms but I didn’t want to going to her office. Aunt Alice was staying there while they were on vacation. Claire and I shared a bed I did it with Jacob so I knew there was plenty of room for the both of us.
“Girls you should get cleaned up and ready for bed” I heard her leave the house for a minute. Then she came back “Nessie you have mail ”
I walked down the hall I didn’t know who it was from but then I smelt it like young werewolf it was a letter from Jake I grabbed it out of auntie hand’s and thought about what he would say I didn’t think long I was already reading it
Hey Nessie,
Sorry I haven’t called I lost my cell and the phones are down here at La Push. You haven’t noticed but I’ve been trying to talk to you all week but your always with the human I’m coming over you your side tomorrow afternoon you have to be alone thought I don’t have any pants. Don’t worry about me ok
I really miss you
oxox
Jacob
I read the letter 3 times before comprehending any of it. “I need to go to the store Jake doesn’t have any pants, ”I started to walk outside but I knew he wouldn’t be there, yet I want to see him now I couldn’t wait I wanted to got down to the woods right now. Every one was talking as I was debating the door and my room but that’s when aunt Alice walked over to me
“Don’t even think about ok I don’t think your dad will like that ” she pulled me over to the sofa “your studio will be done tomorrow after school. Can I play with it with you.” she smiled really big smile.
“Of course aunt Alice you can be my first artist ” I kissed her on the cheek “I'm going to bed nighty night ”
3. Just A Good Distraction
Why am I still thinking about him? He left me he chose them not us. I don’t know how mom could just accept what he is doing to me. I have been away from him like this before I really want to feel his hot skin on mine. He use to call every night, but he hasn’t called all week and last week he called me twice. So much him for loving me.
I hadn’t slept well in a few days I looked up and it was 4:32 am may I can go talk to mom shell know what to do to help me get over this.
“Mom can I come in ” I walked into her office, which grandma Esme redesigned, to an all mahogany wood. She was reading something that looked like it belonged to grandpa Carlisle.
“Of course Nessie why aren’t you sleep ” she looked at me answering her own question “you’re thinking about him huh. Don’t worry he’ll call ” she stood up and walked toward me giving me a hug.
“I don’t know what to do every thing I did involved him ” I was crying I didn’t know what to do
“Renesmee I want to tell you a story. ” she said picking me up and setting me down on her couch “for my human safety Edward thought it would be best if he left forks I remember that day it was the worst day of my life. Edward told me he didn’t love me any more and that he ruins my hope for any thing and everything. So our entire family just left and there was no way for them to come back I felt like there was a part of me gone with him. I promised that I wouldn’t do think reckless or stupid. I spent 4 months doing just that. I didn’t leave the house I never smiled Charlie said it was so bad that he was going to send me to a shrink. I couldn’t leave I don’t remember why but I couldn’t so I did something stupid and herd his in my head. ” She trailed on then told me about Jacob “Jacob had no idea how crazy I was .he was what seemed to be my best friend. He made me a promise that he would never hurt me emotionally or physically ” she said smiling “and since you are apart of me I think the same thing goes for you. He is doing this to save you to keep all of us safe ”
“Wait dad left you alone for 4 months ” I asked confused I had never seen them apart for to long
“Yeah but I jumped off of a cliff and he thought I was killing my self so he tried to kill him self it was really bad he doesn’t want to remember so I don’t think or talk about. She looked at me and gave me a kiss on the cheek “you should go back to bed.”
“I don’t know if I can ” I sat up and looked hat he. “I have a question. When dad was gone what did you do? “
“I did nothing but try not to think about him. I don’t want you to do that. Find something for you do to keep yourself-distracted. You want to eat something I think there is some eggs in the fridge I can go make you some ”
“No I'm fine ” I lied. I was kind of hungry but I wanted something stronger like blood but mom doesn’t like me hunting to late because of the wolves “I think I’ll try to go back to sleep ”
“Ok will I'm going to Carlisle’s house do you want me to send over Edward ”she asked me as we walked in to my room
“No it’s ok go have fun ” I kissed her and climbed into my bed.
I was just about to fall asleep until my alarm clock went of ugh school just what I needed. Well at lease I’ll be distracted.
That was a lie I couldn’t do anything but think about him all of my classes were dragging and I already knew everything we were learning which made it a longer class. At lunch Claire asked me if I was ok
“Nessie are you ok you haven’t talked all morning ” her worry for me was more then enough to change my attitude
“Yeah I'm fine just tired ”I was still really tired “so what are you guys doing this week ”I asked Claire and my family –except mom and dad.
“Hmmm let’s ask Alice.” Emmett said looking over at Alice who looked like she was having a vision “well what's the verdict sis ” since Claire knew all of our secrets there was no reason to lie to her
“Wow there is nothing fun coming to town well except you Claire your uncle will tell you when you get home.” alike said focusing back to us.
“He’s leaving huh ”Claire looked down “I hate being alone that’s why he has been avoiding me ”
“Why don’t you stay with us just until he comes back it will be fun ”I said. This was the exacted distraction I needed “we can ask tonight I’ll go over to your house after school ” I hoped this works.
When lunch was over I saw what looked like a wolf in the trees but when I looked up it was gone. “What are you looking at, ” Claire asked me when she noticed I stopped “Come on were going to be late. ”
Today in coarse we were assigned to write, sing, and produce a song. It was our final Mrs. Hope gave us the choice to have pairs or solo I chose pair I knew I wouldn’t be able to sing with my high soprano voice .I was parted with Claire and that’s when I got the idea of what we could do this week I hope Alice knew where I was going with this because I had no clue what to do first.
I wanted my own studio.
I know grandma Esme will help me design it and uncle Emmett would love to smash my room wall to make it bigger. Grandpa Carlisle would be more then happy to help me find all the right supplies. I defiantly had a good distraction.
“So partner where do you want to do this” Claire asked me with a big smile on her face. She knew what I was thinking she just liked to play dumb
“How about we make a studio and get a lot of new stuff that make us look professional. I have the lyrics you have the voice I think this is a good partnership.” I smiled just as wide as her
“I see you girl already know what your doing” Mrs. Hope said as she walked around the room helping people.
After school mom and dad went home and started packing for their anniversary vacation but everyone at school knew that they were going to go see Bella’s ‘dad’ who got into a ‘car crash’. I was glad they were leaving I didn’t like the way worried about me it was annoying.
I took Claire home and saw Dean’s bags already packed at the door. Claire took a deep breath and said, “Lets get this over with.”
“Claire good your hear I didn’t want to leave a note—”Claire cut Dean off
“I'm staying with the Cullen’s until you get back ” she slid past him not making eye contact. He knew she was mad at him
“Hi Dean ” I said, “you need a hand or maybe I should go help Claire. I’ll see you when you get back ”I past him and went up the stairs and asked Claire a question “so are you staying in our house or Carlisle‘s”
She looked at me “oh yeh I for got you live in different house I'll just stay in your room ”she continued to packed and then turned to me and asked if I was ready.
When we got down stairs Dean was on the phone talking to his brother, Nathan.
“No I'm not flying over I'm talking a plane yeh is faster but I want to —”he was cut off, then saw us “I have to go— Claire about to leave, I'll see you in a few.” He hung up the phone “ Ok so I trust Bella will be there so if you need me she has my number and I will be with your dad so I think you’ll be good. Ok I love you bye, bye Renesmee ”he said leaving the house and getting into his car
“Lets go,” I said grabbing one of Claire’s bags
It was a quite drive home but at the dirt turn in I could hear the whole family talking and laughing and braking thing. Alice must have seen what I decided to do. When we pulled into the drive I hear Claire gasp “whoa”
“This is Carlisle’s house ours you have to do a little of hiking to do but I'll have uncle Jasper drop your stuff off.” I hear Esme yell and Emmett laugh. There was a loud bang and a lot of smoke on the left side of the house “uh we should see what that was” instead of going inside we walked around to the giant hole in the wall where Dad’s room use to be
“Hey Ness come up we need some help with the measurements.” Emmett said “hi Claire ” he added
I showed Claire around the house and took her upstairs where there were pieces of dry wall everywhere “wow you guys didn’t even let me give you the pitch. I had a lot of complements ready ” I smiled giving grandma a hug “thank you this is really what I want but I thought we were going to do it at my house instead of re-doing dad’s room ”
“Nonsense I would love to have and excuse to redecorate something around her beside Edward doesn’t even go in here anymore. I’ve already order all of the walls and glass I was thinking about cedar or cherry unless you want something light like oak. Or you just want regular paint” she had all of this planed
“Um I don’t know I just want it to look professional I'll Google some pictures ” I gave her another hug and took Claire down to the kitchen “what are you hungry for ”
“Umm I don’t know I'll have what ever you have, ” she said. That was a bad answer I was going hunting to night.
“I'm not eating until Alice or Jasper are free and you wont like what I eat” I told her and I grabbed a TV dinner we had in the freezer “these are pretty good its alfredo. ”
“Ok that’s good” she looked like she was unsure about being here I think I bothered hurt when I explained what I was eating. “Its not you Ness I have a … umm new ability morphing I guess you can call it always happens your fine ” she heard my thoughts then answered them
“I think that’s so cool you answering my thoughts” I said dad doesn’t answer them unless their bad I guess you could say he had self control.
“It doesn’t freak you out ” she said wide-eyed
“Well I have never shown you what I can do so you tell me. Do I creep you out?” I put my hand on her cheek and showed her my life from when I was born to today in just a few seconds
“Whoa. That was. wow.” she was speechless “you were a very cute baby ”
“Thanks, see you don’t scare me at all ” I looked at her “my family should scare you thought you’ll see what I mean this week.”
“And next week Dean just got to Nathan’s house and realized what he had to do he’ll call tomorrow at 5” Alice had walked in covered in dust “Emmett is dirty and he is giving free hug I would get yours before he bathe ” Alice said dusting her self of uncle Emmett had gotten her dirty. I wonder if he had seen aunt rose yet. “Lets go hunting. I would let you tag along Claire but Jasper get in the zone when he hunts and I don’t want to hurt you but Esme has been dying to talk to she is waiting upstairs we should be back I an hour bye ”
We got back at 5 when I started my homework
I yawned .I hadn’t noticed that it was 7 and I had a lot more homework to get thought .I thought of just copying moms but I didn’t want to going to her office. Aunt Alice was staying there while they were on vacation. Claire and I shared a bed I did it with Jacob so I knew there was plenty of room for the both of us.
“Girls you should get cleaned up and ready for bed” I heard her leave the house for a minute. Then she came back “Nessie you have mail ”
I walked down the hall I didn’t know who it was from but then I smelt it like young werewolf it was a letter from Jake I grabbed it out of auntie hand’s and thought about what he would say I didn’t think long I was already reading it
Hey Nessie,
Sorry I haven’t called I lost my cell and the phones are down here at La Push. You haven’t noticed but I’ve been trying to talk to you all week but your always with the human I’m coming over you your side tomorrow afternoon you have to be alone thought I don’t have any pants. Don’t worry about me ok
I really miss you
oxox
Jacob
I read the letter 3 times before comprehending any of it. “I need to go to the store Jake doesn’t have any pants, ”I started to walk outside but I knew he wouldn’t be there, yet I want to see him now I couldn’t wait I wanted to got down to the woods right now. Every one was talking as I was debating the door and my room but that’s when aunt Alice walked over to me
“Don’t even think about ok I don’t think your dad will like that ” she pulled me over to the sofa “your studio will be done tomorrow after school. Can I play with it with you.” she smiled really big smile.
“Of course aunt Alice you can be my first artist ” I kissed her on the cheek “I'm going to bed nighty night ”
