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I reached out to gently brush her pouting bottom lip.
“Bella, you seem to be under a misapprehension.” I couldn’t believe she didn’t understand. I suppose she wouldn’t if she thought I didn’t want her. I closed my eyes, shaking my head back and forth, a slight smile on my lips. How to make her see?
“I thought I’d explained it clearly before. Bella,” just speaking her name brought me so much pleasure. “I can’t live in a world where you don’t exist.”
The frown on her face became deeper. “I am...” she searched for a word. “confused.” She finished. How could she believe my lies and not the truth? Why couldn’t she see how much I loved her, needed her?
I stared more deeply into her eyes. “I’m a good liar, Bella, I have to be.”
As soon as I spoke the words her whole body froze, all her muscles tightly held in place and her breathing stopped. I ran back over my words and realised what she must have heard in them. I shook her shoulder, trying to loosen her rigid pose.
“Let me finish!” I spoke with a bit more volume. “I’m a good liar but still, for you to believe me so quickly.” I winced, memories of that night coming back to me. “That was... excruciating.” I knew I had to explain in more detail, as hard as it was. I knew I did because Bella remained frozen, her breathing shallow. “When we were in the forest, when I was telling you goodbye—” I tried not to remember, but the moment played back in my head like a colour movie, each agonizing second played with perfect clarity. “You weren’t going to let go.” I whispered. “I could see that. I didn’t want to do it—it felt like it would kill me to do it—but I knew that if I couldn’t convince you that I didn’t love you anymore, it would just take you that much longer to get on with your life. I hoped that, if you thought I’d moved on, so would you.”
“A clean break.” She whispered through her stiff lips, her eyes filled with pain.
“Exactly. But I never imagined it would be so easy to do! I thought it would be next to impossible—that you would be so sure of the truth that I would have to lie through my teeth for hours to plant the seed of doubt in your head. I lied, and I'm sorry—sorry because I hurt you, sorry because it was a worthless effort. Sorry that I couldn’t protect you from what I am. I lied to save you, and it didn’t work. I'm sorry.” I could never apologise enough.
“But how could you believe me?” I went on, incredulous. “After all the thousand times I’ve told you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith in me?” Bella looked up at me, her eyes wide and shocked. All the things I had thought through when she was sleeping came flowing out of my mouth and I was unable to stop them. It was almost as if I needed her to know what I was thinking.
“I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn’t want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept—as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!”
I expected Bella to say something, but her features will still locked in their frozen state, incomprehension clear in her eyes. She still didn’t get it. Maybe she needed time?
I shook her again, gently, but her teeth still rattled together.
“Bella,” I sighed. How I loved to say her name. “Really, what were you thinking!”
And then she started crying, tears running down her cheeks. What had I done now?
“I knew it.” She sobbed. “I knew I was dreaming.”
What? Was I really that unbelievable? How could she believe my imperfect lies so easily yet completely dismiss the truth?
“Your impossible,” I said then laughed without humour. I was too frustrated to feel humour at the moment. I needed to explain to her I loved her without loopholes, but how?
“How can I put this so that you’ll believe me? You’re not asleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away. When I told you I didn’t love you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy.” Did she understand yet?
I watched as she slowly shook her head, tears still falling from her eyes.
Abruptly, panic hit me. What if she never believed me? What could I possibly do?
“You don’t believe me do you?” I asked, seeking assurance through my rhetorical question. “How can you believe the lie, but not the truth?”
“It never made sense for you to love me, I always knew that.” She whispered, her delicate, beautiful voice breaking twice.
There must be some way to make her see sense. To make her believe me.
A thought that had been at the back of my mind since Italy, burst to the front of my head.
“I’ll prove your awake.” I promised. I had the perfect way to do it.
I caught her face between my hands, reminding myself to be careful. I ignored her efforts to turn her head away and leaned in towards her face. Her scent was coming off her in waves and the heat of her skin warmed mine slightly. Oh, how I had missed her.
I leaned in closer, but when my lips were just half an inch from her's she spoke.
“Please don’t.” She whispered, heartbreak in her voice.
“Why not?” I couldn’t form a longer question. Her breath was caressing my face, stunning me.
“When I wake up” she began and I opened my mouth to protest. Hadn’t we already been through this?
“Okay, forget that one—” she cut in quickly. “When you leave again, it’s going to be hard enough without this too.” I pulled my face back an inch to stare at her nonplussed. She thought I was leaving. Even thinking about leaving hurt, but what if she wanted me to leave?
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just an extra, if you like new moon from other POV's read Alice's new moon by just_bella. its fantastic so i thought i'd tell you about it.
please comment!!
enjoy!
I reached out to gently brush her pouting bottom lip.
“Bella, you seem to be under a misapprehension.” I couldn’t believe she didn’t understand. I suppose she wouldn’t if she thought I didn’t want her. I closed my eyes, shaking my head back and forth, a slight smile on my lips. How to make her see?
“I thought I’d explained it clearly before. Bella,” just speaking her name brought me so much pleasure. “I can’t live in a world where you don’t exist.”
The frown on her face became deeper. “I am...” she searched for a word. “confused.” She finished. How could she believe my lies and not the truth? Why couldn’t she see how much I loved her, needed her?
I stared more deeply into her eyes. “I’m a good liar, Bella, I have to be.”
As soon as I spoke the words her whole body froze, all her muscles tightly held in place and her breathing stopped. I ran back over my words and realised what she must have heard in them. I shook her shoulder, trying to loosen her rigid pose.
“Let me finish!” I spoke with a bit more volume. “I’m a good liar but still, for you to believe me so quickly.” I winced, memories of that night coming back to me. “That was... excruciating.” I knew I had to explain in more detail, as hard as it was. I knew I did because Bella remained frozen, her breathing shallow. “When we were in the forest, when I was telling you goodbye—” I tried not to remember, but the moment played back in my head like a colour movie, each agonizing second played with perfect clarity. “You weren’t going to let go.” I whispered. “I could see that. I didn’t want to do it—it felt like it would kill me to do it—but I knew that if I couldn’t convince you that I didn’t love you anymore, it would just take you that much longer to get on with your life. I hoped that, if you thought I’d moved on, so would you.”
“A clean break.” She whispered through her stiff lips, her eyes filled with pain.
“Exactly. But I never imagined it would be so easy to do! I thought it would be next to impossible—that you would be so sure of the truth that I would have to lie through my teeth for hours to plant the seed of doubt in your head. I lied, and I'm sorry—sorry because I hurt you, sorry because it was a worthless effort. Sorry that I couldn’t protect you from what I am. I lied to save you, and it didn’t work. I'm sorry.” I could never apologise enough.
“But how could you believe me?” I went on, incredulous. “After all the thousand times I’ve told you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith in me?” Bella looked up at me, her eyes wide and shocked. All the things I had thought through when she was sleeping came flowing out of my mouth and I was unable to stop them. It was almost as if I needed her to know what I was thinking.
“I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn’t want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept—as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!”
I expected Bella to say something, but her features will still locked in their frozen state, incomprehension clear in her eyes. She still didn’t get it. Maybe she needed time?
I shook her again, gently, but her teeth still rattled together.
“Bella,” I sighed. How I loved to say her name. “Really, what were you thinking!”
And then she started crying, tears running down her cheeks. What had I done now?
“I knew it.” She sobbed. “I knew I was dreaming.”
What? Was I really that unbelievable? How could she believe my imperfect lies so easily yet completely dismiss the truth?
“Your impossible,” I said then laughed without humour. I was too frustrated to feel humour at the moment. I needed to explain to her I loved her without loopholes, but how?
“How can I put this so that you’ll believe me? You’re not asleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away. When I told you I didn’t love you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy.” Did she understand yet?
I watched as she slowly shook her head, tears still falling from her eyes.
Abruptly, panic hit me. What if she never believed me? What could I possibly do?
“You don’t believe me do you?” I asked, seeking assurance through my rhetorical question. “How can you believe the lie, but not the truth?”
“It never made sense for you to love me, I always knew that.” She whispered, her delicate, beautiful voice breaking twice.
There must be some way to make her see sense. To make her believe me.
A thought that had been at the back of my mind since Italy, burst to the front of my head.
“I’ll prove your awake.” I promised. I had the perfect way to do it.
I caught her face between my hands, reminding myself to be careful. I ignored her efforts to turn her head away and leaned in towards her face. Her scent was coming off her in waves and the heat of her skin warmed mine slightly. Oh, how I had missed her.
I leaned in closer, but when my lips were just half an inch from her's she spoke.
“Please don’t.” She whispered, heartbreak in her voice.
“Why not?” I couldn’t form a longer question. Her breath was caressing my face, stunning me.
“When I wake up” she began and I opened my mouth to protest. Hadn’t we already been through this?
“Okay, forget that one—” she cut in quickly. “When you leave again, it’s going to be hard enough without this too.” I pulled my face back an inch to stare at her nonplussed. She thought I was leaving. Even thinking about leaving hurt, but what if she wanted me to leave?
i hope you enjoyed it :)
just an extra, if you like new moon from other POV's read Alice's new moon by just_bella. its fantastic so i thought i'd tell you about it.
please comment!!
Remesee's pov.(she's 16)
I walked down the dimly lit halls to enduer another year of 9th grade . Somethims never growing up has it's dis-advanages." Remesee Cullen pay attention" Mrs.Zedong yelled to me as I stared out the window. I wandered into my room after school and waited till my parents came home from collage."Nessie, wanna go hunting with your anut Roselie and me" mom asked from down stairs. "Sure" I called back coming down the stairs. We ran into the forest ,jumped over the river and stated hunting .
When we got hom Jacob was talking to dad ,mom ran to talk to grandma, and aunt Roslie and uncle Emett whent in to their room . "Nessie wanna go down to La Push with me" Jacob called when he saw me walking into the house. "Can I" I asked dad " be back by 7:30 no later " he agreed . Yes !! Now i dodn't have to lisen to mom and dad doing it today
I walked down the dimly lit halls to enduer another year of 9th grade . Somethims never growing up has it's dis-advanages." Remesee Cullen pay attention" Mrs.Zedong yelled to me as I stared out the window. I wandered into my room after school and waited till my parents came home from collage."Nessie, wanna go hunting with your anut Roselie and me" mom asked from down stairs. "Sure" I called back coming down the stairs. We ran into the forest ,jumped over the river and stated hunting .
When we got hom Jacob was talking to dad ,mom ran to talk to grandma, and aunt Roslie and uncle Emett whent in to their room . "Nessie wanna go down to La Push with me" Jacob called when he saw me walking into the house. "Can I" I asked dad " be back by 7:30 no later " he agreed . Yes !! Now i dodn't have to lisen to mom and dad doing it today
Isabella "Bella" Marie Swan (later Isabella Marie Cullen) is a clumsy, accident-prone teenage girl who moves from Phoenix, Arizona, to Forks, Washington, to live with her father, Charlie. Though many boys are attracted to her when she arrives, she falls in love with Edward Cullen, a mysterious boy she discovers to be a vampire. In an attempt to protect Bella from his lifestyle, Edward leaves her. Bella falls into a depression and is comforted by her friend, Jacob Black. She comes to love Jacob as well, though not as deeply as she loves Edward. She eventually marries Edward and, after a complicated pregnancy, gives birth to their daughter, Renesmee, and becomes a vampire at age 18. After Bella's transformation, she has the ability to shield her and others' minds from mental attacks.
