renesmee's pov

i couldn't let nothing happen to Noah or to Jacob it was my fault

i run as fast as i could between noah and jacob because jacob was going to attack Noah and Noah was looking at me so he had no idea

"NOAH WATCH OUT NO JACOB STOP"i yelled

i was just in time to put myself in front of noah just a second before jacob attack him

"NO NESSIE!!!!" i heard noah and daddy scream but it was too late jacob's teeth were on my neck

i felt the pain in my neck and then a blow of aire pushing me away toward my dad that was running towards me

the aire must had been noah trying to safe me, how could he still love me after he knows i also love jacob?

the pain was too much to stay awake a faint

i didn't thought half vampires half humans could do that Noah jacob noah jacob noah jacob noah jacob

MY NOAH MY JACOB

were my last thoughts

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when i started to get up everything was fuzzy

noah jacob noah jacob

then i remember....
my mom and my dad were beside me

"Noah Jacob where are they what happened are they safe?? this is all my fault"

"shhhh Honey everything is ok just relax you are badly hurt"
good, after what i had done i deserve more than this

"Renesmee Cullen dont you even dare think that now relax your only job is to heal my angel " daddy said
He talk to me genlty and then my mom kissed my cheek and my dad kiss my forehead

"honey what were you thinking" mom said angry but her eyes full with relief
"Sorry mom and dad but where are jake and noah are they ok what happend?" i realized i was tring to get up but my dad put his arm in my sholder restraining me

My dad growl "you are just like your mother ,angel could you stop thinking about the others and concentrate one yourself"my dad sigh heavily

how could i concentrate on myself now??

"mom please" i beg

"they are ok when jake hurt you they stop the fight Noah and jacob are downstairs they wanted to be here with you but your dad said they should wait downstairs " my mom said while she stroke my hair

"you been here a whole day sweetie" my mom said

"well maybe i should go downstairs i dont feel bad im ok " i lied

well my head was still spinning and my neck felt like it was on fire

"nessie " my dad said

o crap mindreading ugh well i could sleep i was tired but
i wanted to see Noah's face
his beautiful green eyes
i wanted to see jake
they must be so worry about me

my dad sigh
"ok nessie"he kissed my forehead and took my mom by the waist
"come ,my love, lets nessie talk to noah and jacob" he said their names through gritted teeth
i touched his cheek

thanks daddy love you

"love you too my angel"
"we'll go get you some food honey " my mom said with worried eyes and then smile lightly "maybe your grampa has some donated blood, just relax"

and they left the room

ooo i didn't wanted to face Noah and Jacob
what was i going to say ?
would they make me chose one of them?
who would i chose
NOAH
His beautiful green eyes filled my mind his black hair his lips OUR KISS he was so loving so honest ,funny
JACOB
I had knew and love him (in different ways) all my life and i still love him
his face

my face filled with tears i didn't wanted to say goodbye to neither of them
no no i didn't wanted to talk to them about that maybe i could fake i was sleeping

then the door open and NOAH came in then JAKE