At first ther was only the pain of her razor-sharp teeth. It was very painful, but I could handle it without screaming. Then I felt the venom start creeping into my system, and I fell back on the bed, screaming in agony. I tried to push her off me, not in my right mind enough to know it was usless. A moment later she released me, but it didn't matter much. It was already in my system, and I continued to scream at top volume. It did no good. It brought not even the tiniest bit of relief. I tried to squirm and writhe, but Alice's hands held me down. I didn't even know what I was seeing. I couldn't see anything. I could only feel. The pain was getting worse. I didn't know how that was possible. Everytime I thought it wasn't possible to get worse. And then it did. I screamed louder than I ever had before when I felt more pain in my wrist. I felt the venom seeping into my system, and I wished for death.
"Please!" I gasped at top volume. "Kill me!" I wailed. I wished there was some way to kll myself, but there was no way. I couldn't focus on anything but the pain. I felt the same pain in my other wrist, and I couldn't believe it. I could,'t believe she was still doing this to me. I couldn't believe that the pain got worse still. Finally, new pains stoped coming, but it didn't matter. The other pain was still there. I tried to stop myself from screaming, to tell myself this was all worth it, but it was hard to remember why. I tried to grasp it, something that was worth all this, but I couldn't focus away from anything but the agony. I knw this was what I wanted, and screaming was going no good, so I finally cut off my screams. I whimpered, groaned, and went back to screaming often, but I tried to stop myself. I could hear Alice whispering in my ear.
"It's okay, Bella, it will all be okay, it will be over soon, shhh..." she whispered over and over. I could feel her holding my hand, but even it's ice cold touch didn't help the fire in my viens. I don't know how much time past. It felt like an eternity, but I tried to count Alice's breaths. I couldn't focus enough, but it helped give me some idea of time. After what felt like an eternity, I thougth I had fallen into a dream. Not exactly a perfect dream, because I was on fire, but at least I could remember why it was worth it. I heard the most beautiful voice in the world. Velvet smooth, and furious. The way I had heard it so many times before. It was easy not to scream, to focus on the voice as much as I could. It felt like there was cotton in my ears, so I could not hear as well as I would have liked.
"What's going on!? BELLA!" He screamed so loud it hurt my ears. Would have hurt my ears, I should say, were I able to feel any pain other than the venom.
"ALICE! What happened?!" I felt cold fingers on my face, and I opened my eyes to welcome this odd dream. I saw his face. It was so much more beautiful than I remembered it. I wanted nothing more than to reach up and touch him, but I couldn't. If I moved a muscle, I would scream.
Alice said nothing. The seconds ticked by. He starred down at me in pained disbelief. It hurt to see him look at me that way, but feeling his cold hands carrsessing me helped considerablly. I was in heaven and hell at the same time. The confusion didn't halp anything, and all the emotions at once got the better of me. A whimper escaped my lips, and I closed my eyes tightly, blocking my view of him. It was the last thing I wanted to do, but I could not help it.
"Bella? Bella? Oh, Bella. No, no. Bella." He caressed my face, and I opened my eyes again.
"ALICE!" he roared. "What. Happened?!" he enunsiated each word.
"Edward..." I heard her breathe. He gasped, then growled, looking away from me, to the direction of her voice. "YOU DIDN'T!! he screamed so loud it echoed through the room. He started to move away from me, towards her, and I let out a small scream. He couldn't go. I needed him, especially now. He came back into my view, with a pained and worried expression. He softly turned my head, pressing his fingers to my neck. He touched the spot where Alice had biten me, and though with the softesy of touches, I screamed top volume again before controlling myself. He jerked his hand away, and I felt myself being moved. I wasn't sure where to exactly, but the only thing I cared about was that I could see his face again. His expression was one of almost pure agony, except for the bit of rage that touched his features. Now that I looked closer-as close as was possible-it was clear that he didn't look his best. He had black circles under his eyes and they looked sunken-in. His hair was a tangled mess. His eyes were pitch black. Even though he looked a mess for him, he was still beyond-belief gorgeous.
"It's okay, Bella," he sounded like he was being choked. Like he was going through the same amount of pain I was. I could feel his weight on the bed next to me, and I could see that he was sitting close to me head. He stroked my hair. I closed my eyes and tried to think of nothing but his face. Looking at it was just causing me more pain. Seeing him in pain was worse then having my own.
"Edward..." I heard Jasper mutter. I opened my eyes to see Edward look in the direction of his voice. When he looked back to me, his face was more composed, but I could still see how much pain he was in. His eyes flickered towards Jasper, and his expression became completely calm, no traces of stress anywhere on his face. I felt my body going slightly numb, the endorphins kicking in. It was only mind relief but any relief helped. In the absense of that bit of pain, I managed to dose slightly, though the pain never left the front of my mind.