"Bella" Alice whispered on the other side of the door, only a vampire could hear.
i Know the cullens may look and be shocked right now and want them to ask questions that carlisle adn i jsut have answers for right now, but i dont know want anyone to ask me..
After seeing rose so torn up over the fact that what she wants is possible but she just have it herself, and then asking me to do it for her. I couldnt even generate that, i still havent really understood.
Never in a thousand years, or in imortality that i'd think that i could ease rosalies Pain, and desire for a child of her own and not just the swooning over mine.
Just seeeing her, she was broken, not jsut in two, but shattered, like glass, a porclein rose she couldn't even dress her usual self. And i felt even more guilty that i have everything she has ever wanted for years in my grasp and i diddnt even ask for it compared to her, or even wanted it. I already have Renesmee, why does this have to be soo hard? Why would god give me this "power" if he knew that we would struggle with it.
And we all knew for me to satisfy Rosalie, its would have to be from me by me. MY baby, with Emmett to her, i couldnt do that.
i almost forgot about alice at the door.
"Yeah, come in" Just praying i wasnt going to have another Rosalie moment.
she skipped inside, in a short aqua ruffle strapless dress, it glittered in the small sunshine, She was a pixie, looked jsut like tinkabell.
Her smile, was larger then the moons, she was soo excited, my worry grew as to what about? along with the worry that she was too happy about my new "power" that she too would ask too , however in a more energetic tone.
she danced her way to my side, she put ballerina's to shame, i bet my vampire life, as soon as they saw her they would bring up that last carrot stick, out of envy. Alice, my best friend, i need her.
"Alice, please dont ask me right now" my voice shallow, my eyes on my folded hands, i diddnt want to meet her glowing glance, scared i might hurt her, i could stand hurting Alice of all people, so delicate.
"Ask you? are you referrring back to about Rosalie? Dont worry Bella, i already told her, her head is in clouds in this one, i told her, bella isnt going to let this go any further, and plus Bella, im happy with who i am, i have jasper and this wonderful family, you and Nessie, i dont think i want to give all that up for a baby." she replied calmly, whilst her arms wrapped around my shoulder.
She was wonderful, i dont know i could survive without my alice.
"Look, im not sure whether your up to it today , but i thought i might as well ask. but do you want to go out shopping today? you know clear you mind?" Her grinchy smile returned in full volume.
Why diddnt i think of this? Alice, always thinking of me and always knows best. Sometimes, i feel like shes Renae, but this time she plays the mother, But my best friend at the same time.
I leaned back onto her side, and naturally a warm smile slipped, this is the first happiness in a while.
"Alice, I'm so there" Now i couldnt even think straight, i was soo happy, i love you alice, she always has her ways to my heart.
"You coming bella? We are going to be late, i dont want to miss the sale at "Ally's" they have the cutest skirts" Alice sounded from garage.
Edward's hand caressed my face once more. He smiled that half smile.
i leant in for the final kiss,
"Alright, hopefully i wont to be long, Renesmee cant be let in Rosalie's room again, i cant trust her with her heels, What with my old human balance, and Nessie has told me she has jacob coming over at 2, so" Man i was staring to sound like a real mum,..... always organised. Not me.
Edward just Chuckled, but as i twisted away he grapped my wrist.
i turned in response. His eyes on our hands.
"Before you go, i want to give you something, Mrs. Isabella Cullen, i want to give a Cullen crest. You are this family, you complete this family and i want you to wear it because i'm so proud to be your husband."
I was shocked, i had never thought about that, wearing a cullen crest. wow.
he reached into his pocket adn pulled out a shiny blue velvet ribbon, from it dangled the symbol of this wondeful family. i turned around for him.
He tied it gently, His mouth was never too soon to replace his fingers, his cool touch gave me shivers down my back. i quiet sigh slurred out of my lips.
"i have one for Nessie too" he said through horse breathing.
"BELLA! COME ON! LETS GO!" Alice now recalling, a hint of humor in her voice, she knew or jsut saw this...
i jumped, and ran out the door, "i love you Edward, ill be back soon," i paced two steps and paced backwards clinging onto the door. "maybe, hahahaha!" then bolted down.
"That crest is beautiful on you Bells, AWW ARENT THEY CUTE!" she was soon distracted by the yipping fresh puppies in the slobbed window.
"Their red cattle dogs, from Australia, they so cute bells, lets see if we can hold one"
"excuse me Miss, But i want to buy one of your dogs for my daughter, she five this year" i haddnt really planned on a pet for Nessie, only because of us being "vegie" vampires and her Wolf soon to be boyfriend, urgh, i dont even want to imagine.
But a pet will be good for her.
"oh ok, boy or girl"
"ahhh... girl please, they dont have names already do they?"
Australian red/blue cattle dogs