In bed
I think
Of all the things
I used to be

I felt attraction towards you,
And my eyes lit up like fireworks
On the Fourth of July,
Red, White and Blue.

I clipped my wings
Until I saw perfection
Standing in these heels,
I thought we had a connection.

But you pushed me down a hill,
And I drowned in a lake,
You did what you will,
and my life is at stake.

I stopped and realized what I've done,
Now I'm standing on the beach,
staring at the sun.

I don't want to see anymore,
So I blind myself
With politics and war.

But in the back of my mind,
or my head,
Sometimes I wished
That I was dead.

Then the feeling surged,
And a knife took the pain away.
But I was brought back to life
To live another day.

Then a blink, a twitch
I soon turned mad,
I was stitched and stapled,
My life's too sad.

I shivered and shook,
No kindness or heat
But soon you took
My only need

A will to live,
A persistance to die,
An unwilling to laugh,
A treat to cry.

Jump
Fall
Crash
Bang

Sing
Sung
Song
Sang

Another mask
Another Day
Another possibility
Another day

I've been sinking in a hole
For a while now,
And to get out,
I'd need a why or how.

My wings are gone,
I don't know why
I trusted that guy.

So now I'm bleeding
In this deathbed of mine,
But now I'd like to say goodbye.

As I close my eyes,
I go numb at last,
And imagine of the rod
I've never cast.