But they only see the outside of me, the surface
But inside this shell another me exists
The one nobody never sees
It's a me full of thousands of desires
A me that loves love and venerates friendship
A me that understands your glances and your anguish
A me filled up with needs, passions and hopes
This me owns so many facets that the outside loses itself
Still, for once in my life
I finally found the human being who I can trust, entirely
To this person who is essential to my survival
And that I can let him into my universe my arms open wide
To appear to him with my naked soul and body
I’m yours and I told you things that I will never tell anybody else
You are the only person that can see
I can tremble and be scared like a wounded bird
You are the only person I want by my side
When music invades me and makes my spirit fly high
To you, inevitably...
I confided in you all my secrets
As you confided me yours
This sharing ... this unique sharing
Is one of the most beautiful dimension
My life has ever attained
My destiny, I know it now, is you, only you...
jj9/1996
has been labeled by darkness.
Your birth is your death.
You have died a thousand times
in your heart,
death shines in your eyes,
following you like a limpet.
You've died,
though you still breathe,
but life is just a shadow
of your past,
you don't see the life.
Your road is spiny,
hope is smothered and distant
to your sight.
You're on the road,
but this road is your life,
and this life is a burden of
your fate,
and past never dies until you die.
Your road is full of thorns,
empty and abandoned,
like your heart,
like your life.
The day of your birth
has been labeled
by darkness.
It's everywhere you look,
you're on this road alone
and this road is the burden
of your fate,
past never dies until you die.
hear my
unspeakable words,
those are screaming
inside my
lost strifes!
See me,
see it through my
frightened eyes,
those will show you,
those will defeat
the peace itself.
That peace,
well-known
to you,
but not to me.
Not to me.
I've seen it only
in their eyes,
while mine were dreaming.
Grabbing my soul,
living inside,
the fear loves me more,
smiling to my
faith.
Hear me,
hear those
unspeakable words,
those are living here,
praying silently,
crying sternly.
Hope is awaken,
but weakened.
Hating fear
and its cruelty,
it struggles
tirelessly,
though
fading...
Fading
along with
unseen dreams,
sleeping
along with
sorrow.
The doors
are locked,
Sun is not
illuminating
my path,
not mine.
Fears sleep
in there,
loving my failures,
listening to my
unspeakable
words,
those are prayers,
unseen
dreams,
fear lives within.
Do you remember the song I never sang?
Do you remember the words I never said?
Do you remember the love I never felt?
Do you remember the tears I never shed?
Do you remember the pain of heart's first fall?
Do you remember who put me through it all?
Do you remember the way you never cared?
Do you remember the time I felt so scared?
Do you remember holding me in your arms?
Do you remember me walking out the door?
Do you remember us standing in the rain,
when you said you wanted me back again?
©COPYRIGHT, Waverly L. Harris, 2011, DO NOT REPOST WITHOUT PERMISSION AND CREDIT FOR THE AUTHOR.
Do you remember the words I never said?
Do you remember the love I never felt?
Do you remember the tears I never shed?
Do you remember the pain of heart's first fall?
Do you remember who put me through it all?
Do you remember the way you never cared?
Do you remember the time I felt so scared?
Do you remember holding me in your arms?
Do you remember me walking out the door?
Do you remember us standing in the rain,
when you said you wanted me back again?
©COPYRIGHT, Waverly L. Harris, 2011, DO NOT REPOST WITHOUT PERMISSION AND CREDIT FOR THE AUTHOR.
I'm desire
I'm pain
I'm denial.
Call me whatever you
want me to be.
Call me!
That's all you see.
I'm pale
I'm tired
I'm love
I'm desire.
My kiss is so deep.
Can you feel my soul
talking?
My kiss is so soft.
Can you feel me?
Will you dream me?
I give my love to you.
I haven't chosen that,
it's just how it meant
to be.
I hide my tears from you,
i lock my the pain inside of me.
That's the place
i wish you never find.
That's my soul,
sorrow and desire.
I give you all you want,
i choose the sweetest words
for you.
My touch leads you
to the highest
power of imagination,
just to show you,
just to have you.
with a seed of grace. The expression
of joy slowly shine on its face.
A little black flower beautifully
devine. An elegant structure in this flower u will find.
Love and the joy of
happiness, this shows a black flowers
elegance. the color of
this flower so proudly stand out.
You are a little black flower without
a doubt.
Note: I would like to bring this out to a little girl that was killed in chicago where i live. so smart, so nice, so good, but why did she had to die..... she was part of the light and now i must find her in the darkness and bring her back to life.
echo in my head,
seeking for
the truth,
remembering,
memorizing...
Sounds of past
still harm my soul,
but now I'm strong,
I can accept the truth.
Sounds of past
echo in the depth
of my heart,
though some truths
have never been found.
We just see these
through our eyes.
Sounds of past
still echo,
sometimes silently,
but we know
that the past still
lives inside,
as a memory,
as a burning wound.
Sounds of past
still echo
inside.
As a memory,
as a burning wound.
away you left
flying far from me
shooken by the wind
the pain
we were meant to be
far you left
Never to Return
the pain destroyed you
you were never to be whole
There was nothing left to learn
You left me that cold night
Without even a hug
I was left behing
all alone
with just a red lady bug
You left me
crying alone
A week had passed
slow and painful
my red lady bug sat dull
you were still gone
never coming home
I couldn't forget you
but you were still here
the red lady bug was still here
I knew you were gone
there was no hope
but somehow I felt you
I knew you were near'
the Red lady bug was nothing to fear
you are still gone
not coming back
I miss you
I feel you
and all I have left is the red lady bug
flying far from me
shooken by the wind
the pain
we were meant to be
far you left
Never to Return
the pain destroyed you
you were never to be whole
There was nothing left to learn
You left me that cold night
Without even a hug
I was left behing
all alone
with just a red lady bug
You left me
crying alone
A week had passed
slow and painful
my red lady bug sat dull
you were still gone
never coming home
I couldn't forget you
but you were still here
the red lady bug was still here
I knew you were gone
there was no hope
but somehow I felt you
I knew you were near'
the Red lady bug was nothing to fear
you are still gone
not coming back
I miss you
I feel you
and all I have left is the red lady bug
Left & lonley
Abondoned & destroyed
the doll will seek revenge
The hate and pain have all subsided and left a fiery passion for revenge
The doll will have revenge
In pursiut of unfair justice in an unfair world
The doll will gain revege
The war that rages the hate that raises
All left the doll empty & tattered & broken
The doll will get revenge
The doll left broken by the side of the rode
Ignored by all mankind
The doll will receive her revenge
Who determines what is just in this unjust world
Not the doll or me or you
In a world of wrong what is right
Not the doll or me or you
Who leads the way in this endless maze called Life
Not the doll or me or you
One More Chance
By Cody Herman
Do you remember the good old days?
When we used to laugh and play?
Nothing worried or stopped us
We would run until we were breathless
Tell me, when did it stop?
Why did it all drop?
Was it because of something I did?
I know I was stupid
I didn't mean to do it
It came bit by bit
It wasn't till the end
That I knew I had lost a friend
It never worked out
But by then there was no doubt
If I could turn time back, I would
Even if it was just to see our childhood
I ask for one more chance
Just to advance
To turn back the clock
For our friendship again to unlock
It was my entire fault
Our comradeship didn't just halt
I wished I never started that romance
Again, I ask for one more chance
By Cody Herman
Do you remember the good old days?
When we used to laugh and play?
Nothing worried or stopped us
We would run until we were breathless
Tell me, when did it stop?
Why did it all drop?
Was it because of something I did?
I know I was stupid
I didn't mean to do it
It came bit by bit
It wasn't till the end
That I knew I had lost a friend
It never worked out
But by then there was no doubt
If I could turn time back, I would
Even if it was just to see our childhood
I ask for one more chance
Just to advance
To turn back the clock
For our friendship again to unlock
It was my entire fault
Our comradeship didn't just halt
I wished I never started that romance
Again, I ask for one more chance
U Grab My Hands Off the blind
I feel Warmth that firstly strange
Where will u take Me??????
u show me Colors,,,
U show Me sadness
What was The truth u meant??????
U takes me in different Way,,to Love
That was Not also Kiss,,,Hugs,,,Playing
U show Me Care,, Joy,,, And deep
that was Not about how birds can Flown away..
this is how to feel when they r Flying,,,
It was not to watch the Blossoms come...
it Learn about How to Wait until it Blooms....
U makes Me that cry was a way out too...
u make me believes that Laughs Also hides in the sadness
Now I know...
ur Loves Changes ME...
I feel Warmth that firstly strange
Where will u take Me??????
u show me Colors,,,
U show Me sadness
What was The truth u meant??????
U takes me in different Way,,to Love
That was Not also Kiss,,,Hugs,,,Playing
U show Me Care,, Joy,,, And deep
that was Not about how birds can Flown away..
this is how to feel when they r Flying,,,
It was not to watch the Blossoms come...
it Learn about How to Wait until it Blooms....
U makes Me that cry was a way out too...
u make me believes that Laughs Also hides in the sadness
Now I know...
ur Loves Changes ME...
When I think of you
A tear falls and I start to cry
And brings me to sleep like a childs lullaby
When I see you
I have to look away
And pray that my hurt can come another day
So I can feel better
When I hear your voice
I have to tune it out not that I have a choice
We may like each other
But if we come together and start
We would burn our soles and fall apart
Your like fire and I'm like ice
When we touch we hurt each other
We will never be able to be together
And for now all I can do is wish
A tear falls and I start to cry
And brings me to sleep like a childs lullaby
When I see you
I have to look away
And pray that my hurt can come another day
So I can feel better
When I hear your voice
I have to tune it out not that I have a choice
We may like each other
But if we come together and start
We would burn our soles and fall apart
Your like fire and I'm like ice
When we touch we hurt each other
We will never be able to be together
And for now all I can do is wish
She hates the irony, and the pain is too much.
She cannot see his face;
He has advanced from behind.
But she does not need too,
She knows his face too well.
His knife digs deeper into her soft cheek.
He is carving a heart;
Mocking her obsession of him.
He whispers something incoherent to her.
She wishes she had listened closer.
He caresses her unmarked cheek with his gloved hand.
She closes her eyes,
Half wishing it was over,
Half wishing it would never end.
-Emily Rose-
7-20-10
~*As she rolls the dice*~
~*I must think twice*~
~*About who I stand by*~
~*If we lose the bet*~
~*I'll surely get*~
~*A big shot to the head*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*At least for a while*~
~*No one ever understood*~
~*Why he killed an innocent child*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*It surely is true*~
~*I will wait until you die*~
~*So I could be with you*~
<3
~*I must think twice*~
~*About who I stand by*~
~*If we lose the bet*~
~*I'll surely get*~
~*A big shot to the head*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*At least for a while*~
~*No one ever understood*~
~*Why he killed an innocent child*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*It surely is true*~
~*I will wait until you die*~
~*So I could be with you*~
<3
She picks up the knife, ready to end her life.
She tightens her fists, ready to end all this.
As tears roll, she starts to feel droll.
She feels numb, why did they call her dumb?
She still, about to take a pill.
He comes in, hopeing she her depression wouldn't win.
He feels dumb, but ready to run.
He lays in bed with her, she's cold and dead.
He thinks " I'm too late, she met her fate."
He takes a knife, wishing she could be his wife.
He thinks to himself "I love you, I wish you where here to say you do too."
They both ended there lives. Entering the light they see eachothet, and hold one another tight.
