Gwen's pov!
It was hard..so very hard to get money for the family. Trent couldn't get his career so he decided to work out in the farm fields to pack food for other country's around the world. while i was stuck at a rundown cafe serving people. we have 2 kids. Amber and Dylan. Dylan was just born and Amber was in her teenage years. after long,hard hours of working at the cafe i drove home. i saw Amber running out of the house with Dylan in her arms with a worried expression. i stopped the car and got out. "what's wrong?"i asked. "its dad. he keeps screaming and throwing stuff around because he is tired of working in a field."Amber said out of breath. i gasped and we both ran into the house. i found him in our room breaking things. "Trent! what are you doing?"i said. he turned around and glared at me. "I'M TIRED OF WORKING IN THE FIELDS!"he shouted. "well i would say the same thing about working at the cafe."i said. "i cant keep living off of food stamps and rags as clothes!"he screamed. "i know the whole family hates it as well! but you cant kick and scream for what you want!"i screamed back. he got out his busted up suitcase and packed his stuff. "what are you doing?"i asked about to cry. "i got a better job. far away from here. i don't want you to come with me cause we're done."he grabbed the picture frame with our marriage certificate in it and broke it on the wall and picked it up and ripped it. i stood there cold as stone. he picked up his bags and left without saying goodbye. "mom..are you guys getting a divorce?"Amber asked. i just stared at the ripped up certificate. "mom?"Amber asked again. i slid down the wall and covered my eyes with my hands and broke down crying. Amber hugged me. "its okay."she whispered. i just cant believe he would do that..

Fathers hands were lined with dirt
From long days in the field
And mothers hands are serving meals
In a cafe on Main street
With mouths to feed
Just trying to keep clothing on our backs
And all I hear about is
How it's so bad, it's so bad

It's too bad, it's too bad
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad that we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk
Let's talk

Now its even harder that he is gone. all three of us has been starving for days now. Dylan was having breathing problems and i took him to the doctor and they said i should give him more food. i just don't know what to do. Trent only calls Amber to see if she and Dylan are alright..just not me. i don't even know why he's mad at me. Amber always told me what's up with him. he got his career of making music..good for him. he didn't even say goodbye..and i knew he didn't want to. Amber has been more in her room than usual ever since Trent left. i sat on my torn up bed. why couldn't i have just got a better job? i walked to the cafe for another brutal horrible day. "hey Gwen! you look terrible."Bridgette said. i swallowed back my tears and walked around the empty cafe. it was almost opening time and i had nothing to do so i just sat on a chair and watched the rain outside slide down the windows. "Gwen you seem upset about something. you can tell me if you want."Bridgette sat in front of me. i choked on my tears. no these tears aren't worthy. i thought about the other day and a tear slid out. i wiped it away quickly. "nothing."i said looking into my coffee. "okay i realize you don't want to talk. i`ll leave you alone."she walked away just like everyone else would. i broke down crying once again,but this time it was worse. nobody cared about me. they would always walk out on me..just like Trent did. Bridgette patted my back. "lets go to the break room and then you can tell me."she helped me up and we went to the back room. "okay spill."she said. "w-well..3 weeks ago Trent finally snapped about him working in the field and doing all the work. and..we had a fight and he tore up our marriage certificate and left the house."it was hard to speak with my sobbing. Bridgette hugged me. "don't worry,it`ll be fine."she said. "no it wont. ever since Trent left we started to run out of money and i had to sell the car and it only sold for 12 dollars."i cried. "at least its something."she offered a weak smile. i felt really sick. "i need to go home."i said. "okay..see you tomorrow!"or never. i walked home in the bone chilling rain. i looked in a Tv store and i saw Trent singing in the talent show on total drama island. i ran home. i slammed the door and walked inside,soaked. "hi mom."Amber said sitting on the couch. i ignored her and walked to my room with my head down. Amber ran into my room. "hey are you feeling okay?"she questioned. "n-no."i said. "dad called."she said. "what did he want?"i asked hugging my knees. "he's on a tour around the world for 2 years."she said. "i guess its better than working in the field,huh?"i asked myself. she sat beside me. "mom you have got to stop torturing yourself. there are other guys out there."she said. "Amber..when you get older...you`ll understand what its like for your husband to just leave without saying goodbye and bitch slapping you around."i said. "its to late. he's already gone."she said. "j-just go to your room..i need to think things out."i said. she kissed my forehead and walked out. i picked up a piece of glass that was from the picture frame and stabbed it deep into my wrist. this is what i have become...

You left without saying goodbye
Although I'm sure you tried
You call and ask from time to time
To make sure we're alive
But you weren't there
Right when I'm needing you the most
And now I dream about it
How it's so bad, it's so bad

I didn't go into work very much anymore. it was all my stress and i was ashamed to show my face to the world with all of my cuts and bruises. i have been beating myself up many times just to get rid of the pain. i never came out of my room. i never spoken to Amber or Dylan. i never left this house. i kept getting bills the we are gonna lose the house soon if i don't make up money for..5 thousand dollars. i heard my stomach growl. i looked down and i could see bones on my stomach. i sighed. someone started banging their fists on my door. i cant answer it.."mom! mom! Dylan isn't breathing!"Amber screamed. i ran out of my room into Dylan's nursery. i picked up Dylan and me and Amber ran to the hospital. i was extremely upset. i was sitting beside Amber in the waiting room and i had my face in my hands. this is all my fault! if i would have fed him he wouldn't be here now. the doctor slowly opened the door. i fast walked over to the doctor. "is he okay?"i asked. he hesitated. "i`m sorry..but your baby is dead."he whispered. i dropped to my knees and cried. he's dead! my life is horrible! he was only 4 weeks old,dammit! i stayed in the hospital until i calmed down. i walked into Dylan's hospital room and saw his tiny body laying on the bed and he was attached to a flat line monitor. i wish that flat line would move. its to late..he's dead. i kissed him on the cheek lightly. his cheek was very cold. i wish Trent was here so he could comfort and hold me. a few weeks after my family and Trent's came to the funeral of Dylan. i was so devastated. i couldn't even look at him being lowered into the ground and buried up. i was crying the whole time. i have never cried so much in my life. this was so painful. being a mother and losing your child is horrible. its like losing Trent. but if Trent did die i would possibly not feel sorry for him. he broke my heart.

It's too bad, it's too bad
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad that we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk
Let's talk

It's too bad, it's too bad
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad that we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk
Let's talk

My phone rang. "you're speaking to the one with no life,how may i help you?"i sighed. "you do have a life. hey girl."Leshawna said. "oh hi.."i said. "how are you feeling?"she asked. "horrible."i said. "sorry to hear that."she said. "its okay."i looked down at my feet. "so look,we have a surprise for you."she said. "let me guess? something to ruin my life even more."i hissed. "no,something that will probably make you happy again."she said. "alright.."i trailed off. "come out of your house at...7 Pm."she said. "sure,whatever."i said. i sat outside on the front porch at 6:59 Pm. Amber came out smiling for some odd reason. "what are you so happy about?"i mumbled. "something."she smiled bigger. i held my head up with my hand and i drew stuff in the mud with a stick. a black van pulled up and Leshawna came out and hugged me. i would have hugged back but i was to weak. "ready for your surprise?"she asked. "sure."i said not so enthusiastic. the van door opened and out came Trent. i got up and stepped back a little. i was so pissed. he`ll come back now but not then. he seemed like he was crying. now he feels bad. he reached out to hug me but i felt tears whelm up in my eyes and i ran back inside. i cant believe him! i threw myself at the wall and fell onto the ground and cried. "Gwen can i come in?"he asked outside the door. "GO AWAY!"i screamed. he opened the door and i threw one of the many pieces of glass at him. "let me explain."he dodged. "explain what! you have been gone for almost 5 years and now you come back! do you know how heartbroken i was when you left?"i said. "i`m so sorry..i didn't know it was that bad. Leshawna told me that Dylan died?"he said tears falling out of his eyes. i started to tear up a bit. "yeah..he had breathing problems...and i couldn't afford any food."i said. "i`m sorry.."he said. "sure you are."i rolled my eyes. "i was really annoyed that day and i don't know what become of me."he said. "that still doesn't make me forgive you."i looked away. he got down on his knees in front of me. "Gwen i really am sorry. i love you and you know that."he said. "do i?"i asked. "stop acting like this."he said. "i would! i just..i don't know anymore."i broke down crying. he hugged me. i couldn't fight against his will,i hugged him back tightly. i don't think i should say i missed you..cause i don't think i did. we just hugged in silence. "i feel guilty about being a dick to you guys and that's why i came back."he said. i enjoyed this embrace allot. him holding me tight and comforting me. just like i felt before. but i still don't forgive him. "Trent i think you should leave so i can have some time to think about forgiving you."i looked up at him. "take all the time you need."he kissed my cheek and left me sitting on the floor. i smiled and put a hand on my cheek. well there's a starter.

Father's hands are lined with guilt
For tearing us apart
Guess it turned out in the end
Just look at where we are
Made it up, still got clothing on our backs
And now I scream about it
How it's so bad, it's so bad, so bad, so bad

I was working in the cafe. i had two emotions at the moment. happy and nervous. should i be happy that Trent is back? and what happens if i tell him i don't forgive him? i gave some dirty dishes to Amber. she smiled and began cleaning them. oh yeah,Amber decided to help with the family budget by helping me at the cafe. i started to hum a tune in my head. "scooch on little closer dear and i will nibble your ear."i sang. i heard a guitar play. "i`ve been spending way to long checkin' my tongue in the mirror and bendin' over backwards just to try and see it clearer,but my breath fogged up the glass. so i drew a new face and i laughed."a familiar guy sang. i turned around and Trent was leaning up against the wall playing his guitar and looking up at the ceiling. he looked at me then quickly looked back at the ceiling. i giggled and kept mopping the floor. Trent walked by and put his arms around my waist which made me jump. "you know you look sexy in that cafe outfit of yours."he winked. i blushed. "um..thanks...but i have to get back to work."i stammered. i saw Trent whisper something to Amber. she smiled huge and nodded. he gave her a thumbs up and walked away. what was that all about? i wiped off the tables but then something grabbed me. i turned around and it was Amber. "whats wrong dear?"i asked. "dinner for two,this way mam."she dragged me over to a table. "Amber what are you doing?"i laughed. "your dinner partner will be here soon."she walked off. dinner partner? but i didn't purchase a dinner with someone. "excuse a me mam your date is here."Amber said in a french accent. my...date? seriously what is up? Trent sat in front of me with a nice looking tux on. how'd he get the money to afford that? "you look nice."i said. "thank you angel. i bought you a dress."he smiled. "thanks,but how did you afford it?"i asked. "the music career thing."he smiled. "oh okay."i said. "why don't ya go into the bathroom and try it on,gorgeous."he said. he handed me a bag and i walked to the restroom. i slipped the midnight blue dress on and black heels. i walked out of the stall and looked myself in the mirror. i looked beautiful! i haven't worn something like this in forever. i walked out of the bathroom and sat back down in front of Trent. "how do i look?"i asked. "very cute."he said. i smiled. "here is your dinner. enjoy."Amber sat down two plats of food. wow this is really good. "this isn't anything like we make."i said. "yeah,well my bud Geoff is a great cook so i said he could work here."he smiled. "that's wonderful."i said. he held a fork by my mouth that had food on it. i giggled and ate off of his fork. i fed him something off of my fork as well. we fed each other back and forth until we were full. "that was nice."i said. "i`m glad you enjoyed it."he said. i stared at the candle lit on our table. this was very romantic..i liked it. the song She will be loved by Maroon5 began playing. Trent stood up and stuck out a hand. i grabbed it and he helped me up. he wrapped his arms around my waist and i did the same with my arms around his neck. we started to dance slowly. i buried my face into Trent's neck and danced. after the song we sat back down and talked about random things. i`m really starting to fall for him again. he is just to sweet. "hey Trent."i asked. "yes babe?"he answered. "i`ve been thinking..and you truly know how to make me happy...so i`ll give you another chance."i said. his smiled glowed above the candle light. i stood up and wrapped my legs around his waist and grabbed his tie and kissed him. i gave him kisses where ever my lips would go to. then i went back to his lips and kissed him hard. he slid his tongue into my mouth and licked my tongue causing me to moan. "we'd like to keep it Pg-13 please."Amber said. we both looked up at her. "we are trying to have some alone time."i said. Amber smirked. "well its about time you finally fell for dad again."she said. "its takes a woman a little while to figure out that your man truly loves you."i said. "oh by the way dad,you got a little something here,here,and here."Amber pointed to all over her face. i looked back at Trent and he had midnight blue kiss marks all over his face. i giggled. "what?"he asked. i licked my thumb and wiped one of the kiss marks off. "you have kiss marks all over your face."i laughed. "leave them there i like em."he said. i kissed his cheek that i wipe one of the kiss marks off. "better?"i asked. "much."he said. "okay closing time everybody that includes love birds go home."Amber said. we laughed and walked home. when we got there Trent and i headed straight for our room. Trent picked up our marriage certificate and tape it back together and slid it in a new picture frame and hung it up above our bed. "much better."i wrapped an arm around him. Trent pushed me on the bed softly and pulled down my dress strap and it all went from there when we took our clothes off. days later,i found out that i`m pregnant again. that means we will have two children again. its a boy and he's gonna be named Dylan. Trent bought a new bigger house with his career money. the cafe ranks have gotten higher and higher even since Geoff cooked the food and Trent started to play his guitar and sing. Bridgette and i had to hire a few more waitresses to help us out cause of the cafe being packed. Trent walked in with a sack lunch for me. "hello sweetie,how is your day going?"he asked. "really busy."i said. "i made your favorite. peanut butter and ham sammich."he sounded like Gir from Invader Zim. i kissed his cheek. "aw,well thanks. i`m sure Dylan and i will enjoy it."i said. Trent gave me a bouquet of flowers and took one out and put it in my hair. "cute."he smiled. i kissed him and went back to giving people what they want in a happy mood. its never too late to get back together.

It's too bad, it's too bad
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad that we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk

It's too bad, it's too bad
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad that we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk

No time, last one, let's go.