Preseny day
How did you control yourself Jasper asked. I looked at my son who struggled with this part of being a vampire and said It took all my control. I don’t know why maybe because in some way we were soul mates and I loved her with everything I had. It came close many times. I don’t know how you and Edward did it but yall have so much self control Emmett said. I looked at my usually humorous son and all I saw was wonder and wishful thinking. Esme was standing beside me now and whispered in my ear ‘I love you’. Esme loved me with every understanding and passion that she could. I love you always i told her. Our eyes locked and we were in our own little world. She knows this still hurts me and she stands by me while I speak of my first love. She ceases to amaze me. Did you stay to meet Diana Rosalie asked.
I hunted deer in a near by meadow after I ventured into famailer territory. My father’s farm.Their still were familiar faces their but their was a different vibe about it. I didn’t see my father .A good thing I don’t think I could have handled meeting him that particular moment. I was fixing to cut into Diana’s family farm when I saw my mom’s rose garden. It was beautiful as always though a little unkept. The longer I stood there sadness crept in. if my heart was able to stop it would have because there in the center on the garden was a wooden cross.
Rebecca Cullen –mother,wife, and friend,
1635-1664
It was then when my body was shaking that I realized I was crying. It was the first tears I shed as a vampire. I cried until I could take no more. My mother died just a year after my disappearance. What it most have cost her to lose her only son. My hatred for my father grew. Not only had he cost me my life with Diana but he cost my mother her life and me a mother. I broke out of the past as I heard my daughters crying. Carlisle you must have been heart broken Bella cried. Im sorry Rosalie and Alice said in a low voice. I was but I had to get back to Diana before she could think the worse. So I gathered myself and my thoughts and headed toward to the orchard. Diana was seated under the tree by the pond we called ours. She must have been waiting because she broke into a grim smile when she saw me. I was beginning to think none of this was real.That you were still gone she whispered. Its very real and its still a nightmare though it seems like a good one I told her as I took her in my arms. A good Nightmare? My Nightmare ended last night when you snuck through my window Dinah said. I had come back to convince you to move on. That it was ok to move on and love someone else I whispered into her hair. Their wasn’t a hole lot of convincing last night was there? Or just not the convincing you had in mind Dinah said with a look of embarresment. She hid deeper into my chest and I had to stop from losing control.