Hi,
I dont have much to say today but I hope you enjoy this chapter as I put loads of thought and hardwork into it. once again I hope you enjoy it and chapter 16 is on the way * i promise...*
LAmber/Twilightsauce....x
The wind blowing through my hair was an exhilarating feeling. Jasper had taught me how to ride his bike a couple of months ago; I was surprised when he said yes because he was usually quite responsible. I hadn’t been much good at first but after a few hours I had got the hang of it, no one else knew that I could ride his bike and it was nice to be able to take it out for a private drive now and again.
When I reached Forks, instead of slowing down I sped up, making sure no one saw me. I parked outside the chemist and rushed inside. I knew that I had to do this but my stomach was filled with butterflies and my legs felt like jelly. The woman behind the counter looked old and friendly; I approached her slowly nibbling my lower lip,
“Excuse me,” I said quietly, I took a deep breath before I continued to speak, “excuse me, but I need a pregnancy test please.” saying it out loud just felt wrong, this sentence would change my life forever- for better or worse I did not know. The woman raised her eyebrows as if to challenge my age but fortunately did not say anything. As soon as she placed the box on the counter I paid her and hurried out of the shop.
I jumped onto Jasper’s bike and revved the engine as I zoomed down the street, my eyes scanning for a public toilet. I saw a temporary one outside of a building site on the edge of town; I grabbed a fistful of change out of my pocket and shoved it into the slot. I bolted inside as soon as the door swung open.
After I had finished I brought the test up to eye level, there sitting on the tiny screen was a little black plus sign. Crap. I was pregnant. Crap. I was sixteen, never to age again and pregnant. Crap. I was hardly aware of the tears that spilled down my face as I rode the bike home. What was my family going to say, Jake? I couldn’t tell anyone, not yet, not until Jake knew and that wasn’t going to happen for at least a couple of weeks. I had no clue as to what Jakes reaction would be, I had never wanted a baby before, never even thought about it but now I had one did I want to lose it? No, I wanted this baby, it was Jakes, and of course I wanted it. As I approached the house I pushed any thought of babies out of my head on the off chance dad of hearing it. There was however two other problems the first was Jasper, he would feel my worry and get suspicious but I could always tell him I was nervous about Jake. My biggest problem was Alice, she had probably already seen what I knew and it was only a matter of time before she told someone. I would corner her.
I charged into the house, briefly smiling at Carlisle as I dashed up the stairs. Alice was in her bathroom looking in the mirror, scrunching up random bits of hair experimentally.
“What do you think?” she asked, cocking her head to the side.
“Um, yeah I like it. Alice forget the hair, we need to talk- now.”
“Talk then,” she laughed, raising her eyebrows. She obviously hadn’t seen it yet, but somehow I needed to tell her without actually telling her. This was going to be hard.
“Alice, you know you see things, things that sometimes are good but sometimes aren’t...”
“Nessie are you ok?”
“No not really, but I can’t tell you, not yet. Alice if I ask you something, as your friend as your niece, as someone who really needs your help, would you do it?”
“You need to tell me Nessie,” Alice whispered, sounding worried.
“Look, I know you are going to see something; something that I know as little as you do about. You need to keep it a secret. You need to promise me. You can’t tell anyone, not until I say. You’ll understand when you see but you have to promise. Say you promise Alice.” I was desperate and she could see that.
“I promise Nessie, I don’t have a clue what you’re talking about but I promise,” she sighed, hugging me tightly.
“Thanks, I need to go and check on Jake,” I whispered turning to walk away.
1 Week Later
As I watched the moon come out from behind the clouds I sighed. This was the same place it had all started. Standing watching the stars from the glass wall was a special thing to me. Alice had seen the vision and, standing loyal to her word, was keeping it a secret for me. This proved to be difficult with dad but we had managed it somehow.
I froze as a familiar warm arm snaked over my shoulder. Jake was here, I had only left him half an hour ago and he had been sitting bolt upright in the ‘medical’ room, talking to Emmet about a rather dull sounding car.
“Jake what are you doing here?” I whispered shocked, he still didn’t know about the baby and I was going to have to tell him- tonight.
“Carlisle said I could get up as long as I promised to be careful,” he chuckled.
I laughed to, Jake could never be careful but my laugh soon became a sigh as I prepared myself to tell him, “Jake, I know you love me and I love you but what if something was to happen that could jeopardise your future. Jake, I need to tell you this straight. I am pregnant.” I whispered not meeting his eyes. I was suddenly aware that I was flying around in the air, held securely in his arms.
“Nessie, this is great! Nessie I can’t believe it, how long have you known? Nessie, Nessie are you crying, don’t you want to keep it?” His laugh was full of joy as tears of happiness welled up in his eyes. I had never seen Jake cry before and seeing him so happy was one of my favourite things.
“Jake, I am so happy. I thought you wouldn’t want to keep it, I thought you’d be angry; but your not.” I laughed as more tears slipped down my cheeks.
“Nessie, I could never be mad at you, especially for something that wasn’t your fault! Have you told anyone else though Nessie?” his voice turning serious as I shook my head slowly, to happy to speak, “I think we should, neither of us are human and we don’t know what is in there, it could hurt you.”
“Well okay, Alice knows but I suppose your right. Let’s go and break the...” my sentence was cut off by an ear-splitting crash coming from the hallway. I grabbed his hand and pulled him along at an extreme speed.
As we walked into the kitchen everyone was staring at Alice, eyes wide in a shocked silence. Carlisle was wringing his hands a grim expression on his face. Alice broke the awkward silence.
“I am so sorry Nessie,” she wailed as it sunk it, they knew. I could guess who had made that crash, “my mind slipped and your dad heard; I was stupid!”
“It’s cool Alice; it’s my fault for making you keep it a secret.” I whispered as I looked around the room my eyes pleading. I could feel the question they were all burning to ask even though no one made a sound.
“Jacob and I are keeping the baby. I need it; I am going to have it even if it kills me.” I whispered, feeling Jake go ridged beside me.
“YOU CAN NOT KEEP THE BABY, IT WILL KILL YOU!” Dad yelled storming into the room; I had been right about dad making the noise earlier but his negative attitude was making my anger boil up.
“Dad, you can’t tell me what to do. It is my baby and Jake and I are going to keep it.” I said, trying to keep my cool.
“LISTEN TO ME NESSIE, THIS BABY COULD KILL YOU. I WILL NOT LET YOU KEEP IT, I AM NOT GOING TO LOOSE YOU!” he bellowed, gripping my shoulders. I struggled away, my anger spilling over.
“I AM KEEPING THIS BABY. I DIDNT KILL MUM AND I AM NOT EVEN FULL VAMPIRE. THIS BABY WILL BE SPECIAL AND IT WILL BE OURS!” I screeched, clasping my hands protectively over my stomach. Dad was about to reply but mum cut him of,
“Renesmee,” she smiled as she said my name, “if you want to keep the baby then you can but you need to let us help. I was so ill when I had you and I needed loads of help.” She said as dads eyes softened as he realised he was outnumbered. I nodded my head slowly.
“I am sorry for my behaviour Renesmee, my beautiful daughter, will you forgive me?”He asked gripping my hands. I nodded my head again to happy to speak.
When dad released me I went back over to Jake and beamed at the others who had stood silent and unmoving through the whole shenanigan.
“So what do you think?” I addressed the crowd, heaving down on the sofa.
“Congratulations Nessie, Jake.” Carlisle smiled whilst Esme hugged us both tightly.
We got passed around like the time we announced our engagement. I suddenly thought, when were we going to get married, I wanted it to be before the baby came but that only left nine months and that was f this baby wasn’t a super quick grower like me. It was only the rest of my immediate family here now as the others had gone home and Kate and Garret were on their honeymoon. I would have a lot of phone calls to make later but that was later. I was about to ask my question but Alice did it for me,
“So when is the wedding going to be, we have loads to get ready!” Alice squealed the excitement showing in her eyes. All the men groaned as we squealed again. Slowly every man evaporated from the room including Jacob and all of us threw ourselves into planning the perfect wedding.
I dont have much to say today but I hope you enjoy this chapter as I put loads of thought and hardwork into it. once again I hope you enjoy it and chapter 16 is on the way * i promise...*
LAmber/Twilightsauce....x
The wind blowing through my hair was an exhilarating feeling. Jasper had taught me how to ride his bike a couple of months ago; I was surprised when he said yes because he was usually quite responsible. I hadn’t been much good at first but after a few hours I had got the hang of it, no one else knew that I could ride his bike and it was nice to be able to take it out for a private drive now and again.
When I reached Forks, instead of slowing down I sped up, making sure no one saw me. I parked outside the chemist and rushed inside. I knew that I had to do this but my stomach was filled with butterflies and my legs felt like jelly. The woman behind the counter looked old and friendly; I approached her slowly nibbling my lower lip,
“Excuse me,” I said quietly, I took a deep breath before I continued to speak, “excuse me, but I need a pregnancy test please.” saying it out loud just felt wrong, this sentence would change my life forever- for better or worse I did not know. The woman raised her eyebrows as if to challenge my age but fortunately did not say anything. As soon as she placed the box on the counter I paid her and hurried out of the shop.
I jumped onto Jasper’s bike and revved the engine as I zoomed down the street, my eyes scanning for a public toilet. I saw a temporary one outside of a building site on the edge of town; I grabbed a fistful of change out of my pocket and shoved it into the slot. I bolted inside as soon as the door swung open.
After I had finished I brought the test up to eye level, there sitting on the tiny screen was a little black plus sign. Crap. I was pregnant. Crap. I was sixteen, never to age again and pregnant. Crap. I was hardly aware of the tears that spilled down my face as I rode the bike home. What was my family going to say, Jake? I couldn’t tell anyone, not yet, not until Jake knew and that wasn’t going to happen for at least a couple of weeks. I had no clue as to what Jakes reaction would be, I had never wanted a baby before, never even thought about it but now I had one did I want to lose it? No, I wanted this baby, it was Jakes, and of course I wanted it. As I approached the house I pushed any thought of babies out of my head on the off chance dad of hearing it. There was however two other problems the first was Jasper, he would feel my worry and get suspicious but I could always tell him I was nervous about Jake. My biggest problem was Alice, she had probably already seen what I knew and it was only a matter of time before she told someone. I would corner her.
I charged into the house, briefly smiling at Carlisle as I dashed up the stairs. Alice was in her bathroom looking in the mirror, scrunching up random bits of hair experimentally.
“What do you think?” she asked, cocking her head to the side.
“Um, yeah I like it. Alice forget the hair, we need to talk- now.”
“Talk then,” she laughed, raising her eyebrows. She obviously hadn’t seen it yet, but somehow I needed to tell her without actually telling her. This was going to be hard.
“Alice, you know you see things, things that sometimes are good but sometimes aren’t...”
“Nessie are you ok?”
“No not really, but I can’t tell you, not yet. Alice if I ask you something, as your friend as your niece, as someone who really needs your help, would you do it?”
“You need to tell me Nessie,” Alice whispered, sounding worried.
“Look, I know you are going to see something; something that I know as little as you do about. You need to keep it a secret. You need to promise me. You can’t tell anyone, not until I say. You’ll understand when you see but you have to promise. Say you promise Alice.” I was desperate and she could see that.
“I promise Nessie, I don’t have a clue what you’re talking about but I promise,” she sighed, hugging me tightly.
“Thanks, I need to go and check on Jake,” I whispered turning to walk away.
1 Week Later
As I watched the moon come out from behind the clouds I sighed. This was the same place it had all started. Standing watching the stars from the glass wall was a special thing to me. Alice had seen the vision and, standing loyal to her word, was keeping it a secret for me. This proved to be difficult with dad but we had managed it somehow.
I froze as a familiar warm arm snaked over my shoulder. Jake was here, I had only left him half an hour ago and he had been sitting bolt upright in the ‘medical’ room, talking to Emmet about a rather dull sounding car.
“Jake what are you doing here?” I whispered shocked, he still didn’t know about the baby and I was going to have to tell him- tonight.
“Carlisle said I could get up as long as I promised to be careful,” he chuckled.
I laughed to, Jake could never be careful but my laugh soon became a sigh as I prepared myself to tell him, “Jake, I know you love me and I love you but what if something was to happen that could jeopardise your future. Jake, I need to tell you this straight. I am pregnant.” I whispered not meeting his eyes. I was suddenly aware that I was flying around in the air, held securely in his arms.
“Nessie, this is great! Nessie I can’t believe it, how long have you known? Nessie, Nessie are you crying, don’t you want to keep it?” His laugh was full of joy as tears of happiness welled up in his eyes. I had never seen Jake cry before and seeing him so happy was one of my favourite things.
“Jake, I am so happy. I thought you wouldn’t want to keep it, I thought you’d be angry; but your not.” I laughed as more tears slipped down my cheeks.
“Nessie, I could never be mad at you, especially for something that wasn’t your fault! Have you told anyone else though Nessie?” his voice turning serious as I shook my head slowly, to happy to speak, “I think we should, neither of us are human and we don’t know what is in there, it could hurt you.”
“Well okay, Alice knows but I suppose your right. Let’s go and break the...” my sentence was cut off by an ear-splitting crash coming from the hallway. I grabbed his hand and pulled him along at an extreme speed.
As we walked into the kitchen everyone was staring at Alice, eyes wide in a shocked silence. Carlisle was wringing his hands a grim expression on his face. Alice broke the awkward silence.
“I am so sorry Nessie,” she wailed as it sunk it, they knew. I could guess who had made that crash, “my mind slipped and your dad heard; I was stupid!”
“It’s cool Alice; it’s my fault for making you keep it a secret.” I whispered as I looked around the room my eyes pleading. I could feel the question they were all burning to ask even though no one made a sound.
“Jacob and I are keeping the baby. I need it; I am going to have it even if it kills me.” I whispered, feeling Jake go ridged beside me.
“YOU CAN NOT KEEP THE BABY, IT WILL KILL YOU!” Dad yelled storming into the room; I had been right about dad making the noise earlier but his negative attitude was making my anger boil up.
“Dad, you can’t tell me what to do. It is my baby and Jake and I are going to keep it.” I said, trying to keep my cool.
“LISTEN TO ME NESSIE, THIS BABY COULD KILL YOU. I WILL NOT LET YOU KEEP IT, I AM NOT GOING TO LOOSE YOU!” he bellowed, gripping my shoulders. I struggled away, my anger spilling over.
“I AM KEEPING THIS BABY. I DIDNT KILL MUM AND I AM NOT EVEN FULL VAMPIRE. THIS BABY WILL BE SPECIAL AND IT WILL BE OURS!” I screeched, clasping my hands protectively over my stomach. Dad was about to reply but mum cut him of,
“Renesmee,” she smiled as she said my name, “if you want to keep the baby then you can but you need to let us help. I was so ill when I had you and I needed loads of help.” She said as dads eyes softened as he realised he was outnumbered. I nodded my head slowly.
“I am sorry for my behaviour Renesmee, my beautiful daughter, will you forgive me?”He asked gripping my hands. I nodded my head again to happy to speak.
When dad released me I went back over to Jake and beamed at the others who had stood silent and unmoving through the whole shenanigan.
“So what do you think?” I addressed the crowd, heaving down on the sofa.
“Congratulations Nessie, Jake.” Carlisle smiled whilst Esme hugged us both tightly.
We got passed around like the time we announced our engagement. I suddenly thought, when were we going to get married, I wanted it to be before the baby came but that only left nine months and that was f this baby wasn’t a super quick grower like me. It was only the rest of my immediate family here now as the others had gone home and Kate and Garret were on their honeymoon. I would have a lot of phone calls to make later but that was later. I was about to ask my question but Alice did it for me,
“So when is the wedding going to be, we have loads to get ready!” Alice squealed the excitement showing in her eyes. All the men groaned as we squealed again. Slowly every man evaporated from the room including Jacob and all of us threw ourselves into planning the perfect wedding.
