"Your awake"he said smiling that dazzleing smile,he had dazzled me one again.
"Ya,i was really tired sorry"i said getting akeward.
"Its okay i didnt mind"he said smiling even wider.
"Of corse you didnt"i said and he laughed a bit i looked at my watch it was 9 o'clock.
"Where is charlie?"i asked.
"He called and said he would be home tomorrow that something happened and he is sorry"he said back to me.I was going to be home alone and i am pregnant something will happen knowing my luck.
"Um..do you mind staying here tonight because i will be home alone and me being pregnant makes me more unlucky"i said smiling shyly.He looked shocked.
"Ya of corse thats fine"he said in a normal tone but i could hear that he was well happy.
"The food"i said while trying to stand up but he got up before me he smile and held out his hand i took it and got up.
"I saved it,its ready for you to eat"he said while holding out the chair for me to sit in.I ate my dinner then decided to go to bed i was still tired.
"I am going to get changed then i am going to bed so,um decide what you are going to do"i said then went up the stairs.
I dont go into the bathroom to get changed anymore since edward is never in my room,i got on some shorts then took off my shirt.Just then edward walked into my room i screamed and turned around,i heard the door close.
"Edward!"i shouted.
"I'm sorry i thought you were in the bathroom"he said i could hear the smile in his voice.
"I dont have to get changed in their anymore your not in my room,and this is not funny"i said in a angry tone he laughed a bit.
"It doesnt matter i've seen you naked before"he said sounding smug.
"Ya but that was when you were aloud to,but we are not together anymore so you cant see me like that anymore"i said to him he went silent.
"Sorry"he said.
"Well you should be"i said then opened the door the top i was wearing was skin tight.
"What did you want in my room anyway?"i asked while he looked me up and down.
"My eyes are up here"i said to him,he looked my in the eyes and smiled.
"Sorry and i am going to sit in the rocking chair if that is fine with you"he said to me melting me with his golden eyes.
"Ya fine"i said and moved out of the way of the door.He went in and sat in the chair.
I went and sat in my bed,it was really hot again but it was probebly just me.After a couple of minutes Renesmee started kicking,i gasped because it was like she was playing football.
"Whats wrong?"he asked concerend.
"Come here"i said to him,he got off the chair and stood beside the bed,i grabed his hand and pulled him onto the bed and put my hand to my stomack.Then Renesmee kicked again where his hand was he smiled and looked at me.
"That never gets old"he said then gasped realixing that he had just giving away that he had basically been in my room with me when i was asleep,he had been since the day jacob came to visit everynight but i never told him to go away it was nice having him here.
"Dont worrie i know that you are in here everynight i'm not stupid"i said laughing a bit.
"H-how?"he stuttered.
"Well when your pregnant you dont get much sleep,and you are cold so when it feels like the have sunburn all over then coldness comes it normally means your water has broke or well in my case a vampire has their arms around you.And renesmee calms down when you are here"i said if i could see him i would most likly see someone really shocked.
"Um-sorry"he said shocked.
"Its okay"i said then turned on my bedside lamp i turned back round to edward but he face was inches from mine we both breathed in we were about to kiss.
"I cant"i said then layed down.
"I know im sorry"he said then went and sat back down on the chair,after a minute of silence i asked:
"What are you doing tomorrrow"
"I dont know i will probebly help them build the house what about you?"he asked
"I going up to La Push to visit jacob he asked me to come up"i said to him.
"Okay,be careful you never know when they could you know explode"he said trying to find the right words to say when they get angry and change.
"I know"i said to him.
"Goodnight"i said to him.
"Goodnight"he said i was half asleep in about 30 seonds so i was not really consious.
"I Love You"he said to me and without thinking as i was nearly asleep i said:
"I Love You too"then i fell asleep.
I woke up that morning feeling not as tired as i normally did,probebly because i knew edward was there.I sat up and edward was in the rocking chair,smiling again.
"Goodmorning"he said to me.
"Goodmorning"i said back to him.
"Your hair looks like a haystack"he said.
"Where have i heard that before"i said to him he smiled again.
"I think you should have some breakfast now dont you?"he said while getting up.
"Yes i have to change first,and dont come in this time"i said to him while getting up aswell.
"I'll try"he said then left my room,i went into the bathroom did what o had to do in there then got changed.I was wearing a blue top with comfortable trousers.Then i went downstairs,i went into the kitchen and edward just serverd eggs on my plate i sat down and started eating.
"Thank you"i said to him.
"Your welcome"he said back smiling.
After a while of talking about the house and how edward would come over and help me explain to charlie about moving out and edward will be moving with me.
"I have to go to jakes now"i said to him because it was now two o'clock.
"Ya i better get going aswell get started on our house"he said in a normal tone again but i could hear he was full of happiness of saying our house.
"Okay then Cya later"i said to him.
"Cya"he said then drove off,a couple of minutes later jake turned up I walked outside and jake came out of the car and huged me.
"Hello"i said to him.
"Hello and hello to you too renesmee,you are getting bigger by the day"he said while putting his hand on my stomack.
"I know"i said to him we got in his car and drove to La Push.We got there and got out of the car.
"So what are we doing?"i asked.He looked a bit nervous.
"I have a picnic set up for us on thre beach"he said while taking my hand and leading me to the beach.
"This lookes lovely"i said while sitting down on the mat that was layed down,it did look lovely i was hungry.
"Good"he said and sat down too.
We ate our food aswell as talking about,wel everything renesmee,rene and how she was coming over but i didnt tell him about edward ad the house and my new apatite for blood.We were finally finished it was really nice.
"Thanks jake that was great,it was very knid of you"i said while standing up and so did he.
"Bella i have to ask you something"he said to me in a nervous way.
"Okay shot"i said to him but then he got down on one knee and pulled out a ring then looked me in the eyes.
"Bella will you marry me?"he asked OH MY GOD why is he doing this to me i thought he knew how i felt about him,i wish i didnt have to do this but i do.
"No....i'm sorry jake"i said then ran off,i looked back he was still in the same position shocked....hurt.I kept on running until i was at his house i took out my phone and called alice because i didnt have my truck jake brought me here.
"Hello?"it was edward why was he on alices phone.
"Edward wheres alice?"i asked crying.
"Their hunting i am the only one here are you okay?"he asked getting worried.
"Ya...um can you pick me up?"i asked still crying.
"Yes of corse where are you?"he asked.
"Im at la push dont worrie i'll walk to the line"i said remembering the treaty line.
"Thank you,i'll be right there"he said then hug up.
I walked to the line i was crying the hole time,when edward showed up i was still sniffling.I walked over to the car and got in,he looked at me and his eyes widened then narrowed probebly thinking what could have made me cry.He started driving i was calming down but my breaths were still sharp and quick.
"Are you okay?"he asked in a low voice.
"Not really"i managed to say.
"Did he hurt you?"he asked noticeabley getting angry.
"No"i answered back,it was getting better to breath and talk now.
"Is he hurt?"he asked,he really wants to know.
"Not physically but defentally hurt"i said in a low sad voice.He didnt speek.
"What hapened then?"he asked not looking at me just staring out the windsheild.
"He purposed to me"i murmered,then all of a sudden the car stoped i grabed onto the chair so i wouldnt fling forward.I looked at edward,he looked angry,sad,shocked and heartbroken and scared.The his eyes shot down to me left hand looking for a ring.
"I said no"i whispered.He let out a sigh of relife but then looked at me and saw i was in pain because of what i had done to jake.
"He shouldnt have asked it,he knew i didnt feel that way he could have saved himself this pain and saved me this pain because i had to break his heart,and watch the pain overcome his face the pain i caused!"i said as my voice got higher.
"Its not you fault"he finially said his voice sad.
"It is i said no to him i broke his heart"i nearly shouted.
"But you said what you felt and the answer to his question he wanted and answer if you wanted to spend the rest of your life with him and you said no"he said to me,he was right.Then we turned into his drive way i dont care that we were going to his house as long as it was away from jake.
We went into his house and sat on the sofa,i sat stareing at nothing not saying nothing just thinking about what had just happened and how jacob must feel.Then Renesmee kicked she was sad too.
"Its okay dont worrie"i said and edward looked at me wondering why i was talking to myself.
"I was talking to Renesmee not myself she calms down when i talk to her"i said rubbing my stomack.
"I see,but how did you know i was thinking about that?"he asked.
"Its not hard to guess i would be wondering the same thing"i said laughing a bit.Then i heard:
"She can be so strange sometimes"it was edward i looked at him and he was smiling.
If i wasnt strange i would be me"i said to him,he looked at me with wide eyes.
"How did you know that?"asked me shocked.
"You just said it"i said to him.
"No i thought it"he said to me.
"Oh....renesmee"i whispered.
"Maybe"he said.
"Well how else could i read your mind if it wasnt renesmee"i said to him.
"I dont know it seemes to be her"he said but then i got a idea.
"If renesmee can hear peoples thoughts cant you hear hers"i asked.
"Maybe"he said then started listening.
"Nothing its like a tinnie buzzing because your womb is protecting it"he said.
"Try moving closer"i said to him,"Its okay just try"i said.
Then he moved his head up against my stomack then i heard:
"Daddy can hear me"i gasped and so did edward we both heard her edward sat up again.
"I heard her"he whispered.
"I heard her too"i said to him both of us were in shock.
"I can hear whats in her head because she is a part of me,so she can read minds so when she hears someones thoughts i hear them too"i said finally figuring this out.
"Yes but she only lets you hear when she wants too"he whispered.
"She also feels what you feel because she is a part of you thats why she was upset earlier bacause you were too"he said
"She is very smart"i said.
"Yes she is her mind is very mature she can understand things that are very complex"he said then said in his mind"just like her mother".i smiled at him.
"Its going to take a while to get used to you being able to hear my thoughts"he said.
"Yes"i said laughing a bit.He smiled then said "God i love her laugh"then he looked up at me and i was trying not to smile.
"Darn this is going to be hard"he said.
"Now you know why i am happy you cant read my thoughts"i said laughing.
Then everyone came in the door,then saw me and edward laughing an edward was still very close to me.
"Sorry are we interupting something"emmett said then sai in his mind"As if she could do anything shes pregnant"i laughed.
"Nothing emmett"edward said a bit angry about what emmett said in his mind.
"Why are you two so happy?"jasper asked then thought"Probebly got back together".
"No jasper we havent got back together"i said,jasper looked at me shocked.
"Oh ya,Renesmee can hear thoughts and when she hears thoughts and she wants bella to hear them well she lets bella hear"edward said.
"And i can also read renesmee's mind"he added,everyone looked shocked.
"That is amazing"carlisle said"Bella and renesmee amaze me more everyday"he said in his head.
After that everyone was asking more about the baby and what she was thinking until i finally said:
"She has gone to sleep now"everyone smile so did i because i wasnt ablw to hear anyone thoughts anymore it was giving me a sore head.
"What else is wrong bella i can feel anger,sadness and you also feel apologitic"jasper said.
"Oh ya something else happened today aswell"i sais to them.
"What happened now,renesmee change you into something else"emmett joked.
"No,jacob purposed to me"i said then everyone's eyes got wide but they all went silent.
"HA"emmett shouted,that woke up renesmee so i could hear everyones thoughts again"why did he ask that he knows he cant have her she is having a half vampire baby for goodness sake!"it was rose saying in her head but everyone elses thoughts were like that too.Then they thought"what did she say?"they all looked at my hand for ring,they sighed when they didnt see one.
"I said no"i murmered.
"I'm sorry"esme said.
"how did he take it?"alice asked me.
"Not well"i said then esme and alice came and sat beside me
"He was still in the same position when i left him......down on one knee"i said like i was in pain because i was i had broken his heart.
"Awww bella,its okay its not your fault he shouldnt have put you in that position"esme said lovingly.
"I know but he looked so hurt"i whispered.
"It alright"alice said then gave me a hug.
"I better go home charlie will be home soon"i said to them.
"I'll bring you"edward volountered.
"Thanks"i said then stood up with the help of esme.
"Cya"i said to everyone.
"Cya tomorrow"they all said.
I got in edwards car and he started driving,i was feeling sad,sorry and nervous.
"Whats wrong?"edward asked i forgot when renesmee is awake she feels what i feel and edward reads her mind.
"I am nervous charlie has probebly heard what happened from billy and he is going to question me about why i said no and all that"i said to him.
He didnt say anything until we turned up at my house.
"Yes he is going to question you,sorry"he said to me then sighed.
"Its okay its not youre fault"i sighed then got out of the car.
"Thank you,for everything"i said to him.
"Your welcome"he said back to me.
"Goodbye"i said to him.
"Goodbye"he said then i closed the door and drove off.I walked into my house and into the kitchen charlie was sitting at the table reading the news paper.
"Hello"i said to him.
"Hello"he said in a dissaproving tone,ugh this is going to be a long evening.I took some food out of the fridge and put it in the microwave.
"I heard about what happened today"he said like it was a normal conversation.
"And...."i added on so he would continue i might aswell get this over with.
"And i think you made the wrong choice"he said then sighed.
"I dont think so,i am pregnant for one thing,i am going to be moving in with edward and i dont love him so i think that is enough reasons to say no to him"i said back to him and he knew i was right because my reasons were good.
"You are not going to be pregnant forever so when you are not pregnant you could have got married.Jacob could have moved in with you instead of edward if you said yes,and you could learn to love him you havent tried to love him,you are always around edward he is holding you back"charlie said giving ulternatives to my reasons.
"No dad you cant learn to love someone it just happenes,and of corse edward is around me i am having his child i will have this child for as long as i live and edward will want to see his daughter so edward will always be in my life,and what makes you think i dont love edward?"i said to him,he was not prepared for me to have answeres to his questions.
"After all he has put you through you still love him"charlie said shocked.I thought about what i was going to say next because i hadnt actually decided myself if i still love edward so i will be telling myself aswell as charlie.
"Yes i still love him,once you love someone it doesnt just fade away and there is nothing you can do to change my mind okay charlie"i said to him his eyes widened then narrowed.
"Okay"he said as i gave him food.I ate my dinner then went up to my bedroom.I got changed and sat in my bed i started listening to my cd edward made it for me when i listen to it renesmee calms down.
I fell asleep a while after that but i soon heard edward coming in y window.I didnt open my eyes i just let him come in,this was one of the ways he got to be with me and renesmee.I felt him come and lay down beside me and put his hands on my stomack:
"Dont worrie i will get your mum back even if its the last thing i do"he said then kissed my stomack.
He seemes very determined maybe just maybe i will give him a chance to make up for what he has done to me.
Bella's Stomack
I drew this on the computer:D
Either Way You Leave!
Alice's gown
