This is a VAMPIRE DIARIES one-shot in Stefan's POV. If I didn't put it on here, it would never get read so, before you starting chewing me out for that, I KNOW!! Okay, I really hope you guys like this.
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I laid back on my bed, shoving my palms into my eyes, to try and stop the tears. Despite my efforts, tears seaped through and soaked my hair and pillow.
Just a week ago, Elena was laying beside me, bringing light into my old battered room. She was running her fingers though my hair, telling me how everything would work out. She was kissing me with her soft lips telling me how I was the only one she loved.
I believed her, but somewhere deep inside me, I knew it was all a lie. Nothing worked out, I wasn't the one she really and truely loved.
I locked my fingers on my fourhead and stared up at the ceiling.
God knows where she was right now with my brother. They could be anywhere. Italy, Austrila, Mexico.
I turned my head to where her note still lay on the floor. The note she left for me telling me how she had been wrong. About everything.
I threw the covers off my legs and walked over to pick up the note, reading it again.
Stefan,
This isn't how I wanted things to work out between us, but this is how it is supposed to be.
I love you Stefan and I always will, but I was wrong. About everything.
I should tell you what exactly happened in the hotel room a few months ago. Damon and I kissed. We kissed and, and I forgot about you for that moment. I hated myself, and told myself I would never do it again, but it still didn't ease the want for him to do it again.
It still doesn't till this day. Don't hate your brother Stefan. He gave me a choice. He said, "Before you marry him, just know that I love you, Elena. Nothing is going to change that. Not even marrying my brother. And I know, that you love me too. And you aren't scared to love me, but to leave Stefan."
He was right, Stefan. I loved him. And I was scared to hurt you. But I can't deny my feelings and go against my heart. My head said stay but my heart said to go and you always told me to follow my heart.
I wish I could tell you personally. But I don;t think I would be able to stand to see the pain in your eyes and I would keep me here and that isn't what I need. I need to get away from Fell's Church. Away from everything wrong I have done.
Don't blame Damon, blame me. Don't hate your brother, hate me. I hope that when we meet again, you will be able to at least say "Hello" to me before walking away.
I'm sorry,
Elena.
I crubmled the note in my hand and threw it across the room, tugging the hair at the back of my head.
I need to see her one more time. Just one, more, time.
As if prayers were answered, I heard a car door outside my window. I looked out to see her and Damon walking into the house.
That was it. I had got to see her one more time. The sun was shining and rising with every second. I pulled up a chair and wrote my own note.
Elena,
I don't blame you or my brother. Feelings, are feelings and you shouldn't hide from them. I'm glad you followed your heart and not your head as you always did.
I'm going to make this note short and sweet.
There is nothing left for me here. You were the one that kept me here, on this ground. I can't stay here, and live with this pain. This pain that makes my heart contract and sqeeze with an unbarable pain.
I have decided that if I can not live with you, I will live with the memories you have left for me. I don't know where I am going or how long I will be gone, but I hope too, that next time I see you, I will be able to say hello and walk away before anything else happens.
Goodbye Little Lovely Love,
Stefan...
I folded the paper and placed it on my now made bed. I opened the widow and inhaled her sweet scent one more time before jumping out the window and leaving with my broken heart.
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I laid back on my bed, shoving my palms into my eyes, to try and stop the tears. Despite my efforts, tears seaped through and soaked my hair and pillow.
Just a week ago, Elena was laying beside me, bringing light into my old battered room. She was running her fingers though my hair, telling me how everything would work out. She was kissing me with her soft lips telling me how I was the only one she loved.
I believed her, but somewhere deep inside me, I knew it was all a lie. Nothing worked out, I wasn't the one she really and truely loved.
I locked my fingers on my fourhead and stared up at the ceiling.
God knows where she was right now with my brother. They could be anywhere. Italy, Austrila, Mexico.
I turned my head to where her note still lay on the floor. The note she left for me telling me how she had been wrong. About everything.
I threw the covers off my legs and walked over to pick up the note, reading it again.
Stefan,
This isn't how I wanted things to work out between us, but this is how it is supposed to be.
I love you Stefan and I always will, but I was wrong. About everything.
I should tell you what exactly happened in the hotel room a few months ago. Damon and I kissed. We kissed and, and I forgot about you for that moment. I hated myself, and told myself I would never do it again, but it still didn't ease the want for him to do it again.
It still doesn't till this day. Don't hate your brother Stefan. He gave me a choice. He said, "Before you marry him, just know that I love you, Elena. Nothing is going to change that. Not even marrying my brother. And I know, that you love me too. And you aren't scared to love me, but to leave Stefan."
He was right, Stefan. I loved him. And I was scared to hurt you. But I can't deny my feelings and go against my heart. My head said stay but my heart said to go and you always told me to follow my heart.
I wish I could tell you personally. But I don;t think I would be able to stand to see the pain in your eyes and I would keep me here and that isn't what I need. I need to get away from Fell's Church. Away from everything wrong I have done.
Don't blame Damon, blame me. Don't hate your brother, hate me. I hope that when we meet again, you will be able to at least say "Hello" to me before walking away.
I'm sorry,
Elena.
I crubmled the note in my hand and threw it across the room, tugging the hair at the back of my head.
I need to see her one more time. Just one, more, time.
As if prayers were answered, I heard a car door outside my window. I looked out to see her and Damon walking into the house.
That was it. I had got to see her one more time. The sun was shining and rising with every second. I pulled up a chair and wrote my own note.
Elena,
I don't blame you or my brother. Feelings, are feelings and you shouldn't hide from them. I'm glad you followed your heart and not your head as you always did.
I'm going to make this note short and sweet.
There is nothing left for me here. You were the one that kept me here, on this ground. I can't stay here, and live with this pain. This pain that makes my heart contract and sqeeze with an unbarable pain.
I have decided that if I can not live with you, I will live with the memories you have left for me. I don't know where I am going or how long I will be gone, but I hope too, that next time I see you, I will be able to say hello and walk away before anything else happens.
Goodbye Little Lovely Love,
Stefan...
I folded the paper and placed it on my now made bed. I opened the widow and inhaled her sweet scent one more time before jumping out the window and leaving with my broken heart.
It was the middle of the night, me and edward had a massive argument so he stayed at Rosalies house with her and emmet.
I was lonley lied in bed on my own with just 'the bump' as a friend, well a child pretty soon.
"OUCH" I screamed! Contractions........hard contractions.
I called Alice to take me to Carlisle but just as I went of the phone, my waters broke. I was just 15 minuets away from giving birth. While I'd been pregnant I couldnt eat real food that often, all the baby wanted was blood, blood and well.....more blood!
As we reached his house I got carried out of the car, and then layed on the sofa. Five minuets later I gave birth, it was a girl.
I decided to call her Renesmee!
I was lonley lied in bed on my own with just 'the bump' as a friend, well a child pretty soon.
"OUCH" I screamed! Contractions........hard contractions.
I called Alice to take me to Carlisle but just as I went of the phone, my waters broke. I was just 15 minuets away from giving birth. While I'd been pregnant I couldnt eat real food that often, all the baby wanted was blood, blood and well.....more blood!
As we reached his house I got carried out of the car, and then layed on the sofa. Five minuets later I gave birth, it was a girl.
I decided to call her Renesmee!
It's been so long since i even thought about writing on here. I'm so excited that i still have people reading my stories and i have new fanpop-ers too.
Let me get my thoughts together and get my schedule together also because im in the middle of my two week testing. I will write and it will be before the middle of may i will have two new chapters out!
Tell me which story you want me to write on first and ill try and get it together. But for now until after April 30, 2010, you have to be paitent! i get my progress reports next week and im getting projects every 2 weeks so i might not be on here every day but i will be on maybe once or twice a week, three times if i can but all of you know that the end of the school year is the hardest time of the year.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!,
Bella_cullen902
Let me get my thoughts together and get my schedule together also because im in the middle of my two week testing. I will write and it will be before the middle of may i will have two new chapters out!
Tell me which story you want me to write on first and ill try and get it together. But for now until after April 30, 2010, you have to be paitent! i get my progress reports next week and im getting projects every 2 weeks so i might not be on here every day but i will be on maybe once or twice a week, three times if i can but all of you know that the end of the school year is the hardest time of the year.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!,
Bella_cullen902