Even that i love Damon i also can understand that Elena is terrified about her feelings. I had a little bit of the same situation like she had. I was in a relationship which was ment for eternity in my head allthough that deep inside i knew something was missing. But this guy was my first love and i swore to myself that i would be trustworthy and true all the time. Than a friend of mine got a new boyfriend and from the first moment we saw eachother their was something between us, something i couldn`t put a finger on it. So what did i do. I try to hide that feelings. For me, my girlfriend, my boyfriend and for this guy. He was all i`m dreaming about. But he was also a deep risk. He wasn`t this perfect type. He was kind of big kid with all this fantasies in this head. Nothing i thought i could build a relationsship on. He was this kind of a Pacey Whitter guy and he also looked like him. So i tried hard to fight against this burgeoning feelings and pretented to myself that i`m still in love with my boyfriend. Years passed by and my feelings for "Pacey" get stronger instead of lower. But stepping into this would mean that i`m that kind of bitch i never wanted to be. So i did everything i could to push that feelings away. Till we were alone on a party, and their was to much alcohol and a lot of other excuses i could find for myself. The feelings exploded on both sides and we kissed..And after that i felt happy, increadibly bad and guilty in the same way. I tried to convince myself that it`s only a moment of weakness, because i don`t want to be like that and i still have feelings for my current boyfriend. So i`d abandoned this guy. But the feelings didn`t go away. And when i realized that he splitted with his girlfriend. And after a few month later i realized that i had to do something because i knew that i will always regret it if i didn`t give it a chance. So, on my own risk i broke up with my boyfriend. Try to get clean with it. And than a month later i phone up Mr.Pacey Whitter..We are still together..And i don`t regret anything accept of my doubts..
So, i totally understand that Elena has problems say what she feel for Damon. She`s 18years old and jsut terrified about the deepness of her feelings. Also that it really hurt to see and hear how she act, deep inside i understand what she`s going through. It is hard to accept that something big in your life is lost and that even how hard you try to let in stay in your life it doesn`t work. It`s a hard process to figure out that your first love is gone and that it`s time to open the windows for something new and challenging. So Elena, more of us than you think were at sometimes in our lifes in the same boat like you. But also realize, that when you wait to long you will loose Damon forever..
So, i totally understand that Elena has problems say what she feel for Damon. She`s 18years old and jsut terrified about the deepness of her feelings. Also that it really hurt to see and hear how she act, deep inside i understand what she`s going through. It is hard to accept that something big in your life is lost and that even how hard you try to let in stay in your life it doesn`t work. It`s a hard process to figure out that your first love is gone and that it`s time to open the windows for something new and challenging. So Elena, more of us than you think were at sometimes in our lifes in the same boat like you. But also realize, that when you wait to long you will loose Damon forever..
