Chapter 1 - Normal

Sometimes she couldn't decide who she was. No. She could never decide who she was. She was odd, different, awkward and dying inside. Maybe she had thought about hanging herself on her closet rack a few times too many. Her own voice was destroying her. Searching endlessly for the one crack in this dark closet of a life she had. The little crack that she could squeeze into just to see the ounce of light. To feel the touch of another person who she could interact with. Maybe that would never happen. Maybe she tried to hard - changed herself too much - was too scattered to appeal anyone.

Her hunger for affection ate her alive.

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December walked down these dark halls with alert blue eyes. Maybe they were too big - were her eyes too big? did she put to much makeup on? Did she not put enough makeup on? Maybe the orange hair was too much.

A glare from a popular girl. Yep the orange hair was too but. But hey it brought out the blue in her eyes.

A boy looks at her with a slight smile. Yes it did. It brought out the blue in her eyes. December didn't notice the girl barreling around the corner and rammed right in her.

"oh.. I-I" December's mind was instantly a whirlwind of anxiety and paranoia. Bully. Bitch. Bully. Fighter. Bully.

Bully. Bully. Bully? What if she was another bully...

"I-I am S-s-so sorry! " December backed away. The girl looked up at her with big brown eyes and flicked them back at the ground.She avoided December.

"Oh," She had a very flat, sad voice. Not a bully. Now December just felt bad. "Its. Fine." She walked away narrowly - her brown hair flowing behind her.

Decemebr gulped. Shit. Why did she have to be so damn air- headed?

She sliped away into the classroom - watching were she walked, She was way too tired to keep on worrying about her stupid hair. It was ugly. Who cares?

December
slinks in. The usual A-list kids in the front. Staring at e - like they did since when? Oh yeah, kindergarten. No It didn't matter. It was stupid.

she back to the back row - narrowly avoiding the feet that stick out from underneath desks. There was only one des open - the one next to that girl. That was her name in my head- I knew the other kids called her Platinum, but she was that girl. She was pretty and smart and December couldn't remember how long it really was she wanted to be just like her. The quiet girl in the back - Platinum. White hair, grey blue eyes. She was perfection living in a body.

"I-is.. .this s-seat, t-taken?:She tried not to stutter. Why did she always do this? She was a freak.

Platinum looked at her sharply. "No, not at all. You can sit here." December smiled.

This time - it was inside and out. She really smiled. Her mind swirled with thoughts. December sat down and another question popped up in her head. The anxiety fused through her- so she didn't look in Platinum's eyes. She stared at the white board instead.

" Platinum.. D-Do you have anyone to sit with at lunch?" December choked on her words nervously. Yep this girl was going to make fun of her for it. She probably had friends - she wasn't weird like December.

"No, do you?" December most scram in excitement. She might have a chance.

"No, do you want to sit together?"
she asked somewhat confidently. she just wanted her to like me.

"Oh sure. I don't have anything better." She smile, a full smile and it made me so happy inside December smiled back.

"Cool." she couldn't think of anything else to say "I- like your hair by the way!"

She laughed "Thanks I could say the same to you."

Maybe this was the year. It was all going to get better?

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