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Opinion by wolfcat343 posted over a year ago
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T-T wow what an attention seeking article name it basically screams out: "READ ME cuz it has the word secret in the name"... also its written in my diary T-T

Well yeah, the reason I had chose that name is because honestly I didn't know what to name the article *shrugs* I decided to write out my feelings... but why post it? Well, because I want other's opinions and just the fact that once somethings on the web it doesn't feel so lonely anymore, the main problem is once someone see's it, you can't really take it back anymore :/
I might regret posting this, ssh shut up wolfcat, you're gunna talk yourself into not posting it. *my inner me starts beating up my outer me, and my brain fights along, not sure if its stupid or smart X3*
I mean like, if I don't want people to see it why do I post it O-O good question, time to have a heart to heart talk with myself about figuring out whats wrong with me.

here goes *holds thumb that no one reads this*:
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Opinion by Withering-Moon posted over a year ago
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i.
a girl’s feet will tangle yours under sheets you just bought for a night like this. the price tag is still glued to the plastic wrapping stuffed underneath the bed. her feet are frigid and feel like frostbite against your legs when you fall asleep, but they’re like mittens roasted over a fire when the sun blinks through the curtains.
ii.
a girl’s legs are taut and thick. they’re flexible and enclose you in a straightjacket at 2 am when they knot around your waist and pull you just a little closer. if she’s still sleeping, it’s even better.

iii.
her thighs will make you forget about your calculus homework and your french exam. they will make you forget about your father’s affair or your best friend’s disorders. they will make you forget your name and they will make you forget who you are without them. hold them as tight as you can. i promise, she loves it.

iv.
when you were in fourth grade, they taught you stop, drop, and roll at the sign of a fire. when you’re in her bedroom on the second floor, her quivering hips will trick-start a similar fire in your teeth, and you’re going to want to...
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Opinion by Withering-Moon posted over a year ago
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15: I met you and everything seems perfect now. i feel save and loved when I'm in your arms, and your the first man that i've been able to trust in a long time. 15: Loss my V card on the day my favorite band broke, while eating candy and watching my favorite movie to someone i love. 15: Im healthy and happy and I'm proud of myself.
14: I weigh 109, yet i think I'm huge and gross? I think somethings wrong with me? 14: My Self-esteem is so long its in the negatives 14: I took to many pills one night because life became an endless down hill. 14: My parents found out i was insane, they sent me away to get help. 14: My Counselor once asked me why i tried to kill myself and i said "Because people told me to be happy." Kind of sick isn't it? 14: I got out of the place and my family is scared of me, and my older brother is the only one who cares 14: I start high school scared but excited
13: I keep telling myself I was…different 13: I kept telling myself i was fat 13: I thought no one like me but i guess you did.
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Opinion by FoxMeetWii posted over a year ago
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You guys, it's me!
-The drums beat like the speed of rockets. Our pockets are empty, but our hearts are filled. WIth the speed of rockets, the blast off, leaving us with heavy dew. Heavy smoke. Cheers and through that, stands us-

_Guess who's back!
_That's right! It's me ;33
__I've missed everyone so much.
___I think I'm doing better.
____I'm a bit excited to find out if I am as well!

_Anyone else?
_How are you guys in fact?
__It's been tough but I couldn't leave like that.
___I'm very sorry.
____I know I owe someone who's very sweet, a very deep apology.
_____She deserves it more than anyone..

_SO, I see we're not that active.

_Have no fear you guys!

_I'm thinking about making a new UPDATED version of Dream Diary on another club.

_A new club.

_Where we all can decide on the names.

_Maybe it'll be a chatting group for RP's and chats.
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Opinion by LightSoul99 posted over a year ago
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Depression is considered to be the most common disability that affects work productivity, family stability and personal happiness. Understanding how depression affects your relationship with your spouse will enable you to recognize the signs and get needed medical attention for your loved one.

The following is a list of five common symptoms associated with depression. Each has questions to ask that will help you determine if there are problems with your spouse in this area. For a comprehensive discussion on the subject, see the website of the American Psychiatric Association.

Emotional numbness
Is your spouse turning a cold shoulder to your efforts in expressing love and affection?
Is there a lack of caring about you and other members of the family?
Are there pleasurable activities that your spouse engaged in previously that no longer seem to be enjoyable?
Do household chores and financial responsibilities remain undone while time is spent on electronic gaming and television viewing?
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Fan fiction by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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Here I AM!
A God's Son
He truly had no life of his own..
By Mariah Mason

The moonlight shimmered across our bloody path. The red petals that we so deeply depraved fall helplessly to his feet. To the tiny and bruised feet of the Son of God's. For his father, Anger and Heart both caressed this child as if he were there own. For these God's were brother, who were in love. They were incest but incest with glee sometimes Heart was. But Anger, Wrath, as they called him is not so much like his brother. It was the child that had helped Wrath's being change. The green eyes, bright on rainy days and dull on bright days, was the reason.
Each tiny toe slipped over in the sand. Along with his heel tapping back on the soft land as he sprinted as fast as his little legs could go. His mother, Oh how he missed her, would be awaiting at the other side. Her beautiful smile awaits to be seen by him at the end. Her warmth, passionate love, and sympathy. It was the best even if she couldn't give his father what he wanted. So his tired legs leaped across from roof to roof.
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Article by wolfcat343 posted over a year ago
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Trace my face while it's a happy face
When my smile fades I wanna remember this day
Passion killed by the comfort of time
I'm sorry if this makes you cry, but I have to speak my mind

Suck the colours from my eyes
When they lose their sparkle and forget to shine
Remember all the times you turned me down
I'm sorry if this hurts your heart but where's the spark, from the start?

Don't stop, don't stop
Nothing lasts forever soon all will be over
So let's laugh, talk, tickle and turn till the stars fall down
The stars fall down

Embrace my reflection for a little while
For if I am to love I must try love myself
Cuddle with a cold corpse like frame
I'm sorry if my view of matrimony seems so obscure

Don't stop, don't stop
Nothing lasts forever soon all will be over
, illuminated by the blood red warnings
Let's rather put our minds on this starlight event
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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Bully
By Mariah Mason

"These sheets I live on,
hold such a deadly sin,
and if you would only know,
how hard it is to let you in.
But this time I won't capture the words,
and let you believe it's just another win.
Meanwhile I'm left out in the cold
of your heart,
battling what we may never know.
And one day,
I'll understand why I was left with no upper hand,
but until then,
you will never know,
but these demons just want to show,
I thought I should just let you know.
Because I find it kind of funny,
how childish we may seem,
hopping around like a bunny,
boy now; isn't that kid a dummy.
Those kind of comments aren't allowed,
keep talking and I might just punch them out,
like the words I say to make you piss out rain,
the cats and dogs aren't falling today.
Ever notice how you find it hard making new friends?
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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Hope you enjoy. This is advice out for those with this..
I'm in process of making a YouTube channel and put out my songs. When I do... I'll link it out.
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Cheated.

[rap]
Like a wound or a burn, it's gonna make you learn.
I saved and forgave, never forget.
But what I'm about to say is worth the fit,
cause it's ancient art even if it even happened to you yesterday or a whole week to come pass.
'Can't press pause and play back, because the moment is now.
Can't get it back from the grave.'
I think you should promote it.
Even if your too late, or the cause of this blurry eyed fate.
I lived life now and didn't look back at the ones I love who caused me such pure 'hate'.
But let's get out with the truth.
I know it's not that at all, and that I must have done something wrong.
I only get an 'I'm sorry' and never a good explanation of why we're stuck in a rut.
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Article by wolfcat343 posted over a year ago
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A nameless poem I haven't thought of the name ~ Wolfcat343

Heart dipped in black ink
pain causing the soul to sink
it makes you wonder what type of sick minds abuse people... they can't think

the scars prove you have been hurt
you think its the only escape
don't throw yourself in the dirt

Someone loves you
even if you don't think so
you might not know

We try forgetting our pasts but is so damn hard
you're falling apart

I'll try my best to help to piece you back together
but unlike that fairy tale its alot harder
it feels like the pain will last forever

oh oh

don't give up yet, don't give up yet, yeah don't give up yet
You can make it through
yeah me and you

I'll be at your side
helping you fight
tonight is the last night you spend alone
living in the eyes of the unknown
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Opinion by wolfcat343 posted over a year ago
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No escape from the sin –wolfcat343
Piercing ice on paws
Scars from claws

Howling with the wind
Battle took its spin
Creatures fighting in the dark
There is no escape from sin

Focusing on your fears
No hiding the tears

Alone in the dark

Wolves howling around
Battle taking place
You increase your running pace

Run run run

Oh there is no escaping from your sin
They surround you ready to pounce
Oh there is no escaping from sin

Run run run

After you they chase
The moon grins at you
Their teeth glimmering ready to snap
Oh there is no escaping from your sin

Think back on what you have done
What trouble you have won
Banished a many daughter and son

Run run run

One tears at your skin
Oh oh oh
There is no escape from that sin
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Article by wolfcat343 posted over a year ago
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Check your soul – wolfcat343
See those scars?
He’s the reason
he should be behind bars

the girl’s pain is only increasing
never seizing
to that guy its pleasing

nobody realizes
Through their eyes
They only see lies

Some would see
others spread stories

she says she’s okay
She’s hiding away
During those times
No one recognizing the obvious crimes

Outside hurt
Inside beautiful

She stood up for herself oneday
the guy was taken away
finally she was free

All what people need to do now is look past her scars, bruises and pain
find the girl inside who’s beautiful, ignore the outside stain

Are you going to be the person who helps
Or the person who hurts?

it doesn’t matter on outside appearance
The person inside is who counts
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Article by wolfcat343 posted over a year ago
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There's a story behind all of us
A story sad or happy
Finding your own story might be difficult
Every day is a page...

Mysteries can go unsolve-able
But the truths behind shouldn't fade
Its your choice
Are you going to live in the light or the shade

Can you see?
You're writing every page of your story
Even if it is of pain
Only makes it more interesting
STORY PAGES- written by wolfcat343

See the stars out tonight?
In this dim moonlight
Would it help at all to keep out of sight?

Show yourself
Be courageous
Stop being ashamed
Come out for your sins have been paid!

You can't erase you past
Stop trying to make it change
Just make the best of today

Look towards tomorrow
Forget your pain and sorrow

You've got someone who cares
You might not think they are there
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Opinion by LightSoul99 posted over a year ago
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I found this poem on a website and thought I'd like to share it with you guys :) I loved how the poet wrote and expressed her words; it was truly beautiful.

I do not own any of this whatsoever.


Dreams, Save the Empty
Living in the grey

Walking in the shadows

Falling through forever

Never stop

Never stop

 

Crying with The Empty

Comfort from The Lonely

Hateful towards The Truth

Never end

Never end

 

Cling fast to the memories

Grasping yesterday

Chasing after nothing

Going nowhere

Going nowhere

 

Wishing for a Someday

Dreaming of a Somewhere

Hoping for a Someone

Never will

Never will

 
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Opinion by LightSoul99 posted over a year ago
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Life is important and it is precious
Without life, all there would be is a giant cloud of evil and darkness
There will be no universe and no earth
We wouldn't be here today, if not without God and life's worth

Life is but a fragile type of being
It's not one we must take lightly for we are temporary living
Life is too short to experience such negativities we shed
Don't waste your time on people who don't accept you from your toes up to your head
God will place hot coals upon them until they realize their mistake

Life is one long, big road with signs
It takes you to places unexpected, far and wide
Brings you memories captured and stolen, thrown on the ride
Walk on the multiple criss-crossings of the road's lines
Be the person who can surf life on an ocean's tide

Life is like your best friend
Sometimes it can break you and make you bend
Give you things and take what cannot mend
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Fan fiction by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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What Is To Come
The People

Chapter One- Anna

"Daddy, didn't you say that Alice was a big dreamer?"
"Yes," the man nodded, "she crossed over the border line of dreams in fact. That's how much she loved dreaming."
"So she broke the rules?"
"Well I wouldn't say broke the rules," he smiled at his daughter as he tucked her in, "she just bent the rules."
"Am I able to do that daddy?"
"Why would you want to do that, Anna?"
"Well, Daddy, I have my own world! It's really pretty and I was thinking that maybe I could visit it. Like Alice did, in real life too."
"Anna," he moved a tangle of her hair back from her face, "it's dangerous if you try so no. You're not allowed too. You're still so young. You're only seven, silly."
He turned on the nightlight and walked towards the doorway, turning off the bedroom light. Anna's father left the door opened and headed down the hallway for bed as well.


The clock struck nine o' clock. Anna was sound asleep in bed as for her father watched the news channel for awhile. The lights in the kitchen seemed to have gone out and nothing mattered with the poor...
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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"There's a place that humans like to call... home."
"Your point is?" She looks at him.
"Well, Lilith, I believe we need to find out where our home is."
"We're demons, Damon. Home is hell for us."
"But we don't have to have one home?"
"Are you insisting on stealing a child?"
"Make a new Alice since the other one is dead now."
"You do know, this one will be eaten by the lord again if we do so."
"Who cares?"
The two demons shrug.


The clock struck nine o' clock. Anna was sound asleep in bed as for her father watched the news channel for awhile. The lights in the kitchen seemed to have gone out and nothing mattered with the poor man's sight.


Down the next block was a woman, and in a apartment above was a girl named Jayren. She watched the woman stop by a group of men and one took her hand and went into a mobile van. A hooker was never going the right way and sometimes they would have to testify if they may.
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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"You wonder who hides behind you, and step away in such a childish flay. Congratulations to the man that squeals for he is my next meal."
"A place where people are people?" She lifted up her boney chin towards him.
"Oh yes," he touched her head with the rotting flesh of another man's, "and we're known as their shadows."
"So we vanish at night?"
"No," he laughed and grinned, "we come alive."

"I Invite You To A Place Where They All Heavenly Devine. And Encounter Such Delicious Wine. But The Clock Wasn't So Lazy And By Night Time We Were So Junk As We Breathed. The Children Of Night Crawled Out From Their Beds And Took Us Down With Them, With Bloody Dripping Eyes As They Drain The Life That We Once Lived. Can You Bear The Truth? Oh God, Did You Hear Them Say..?"


"We invite those who summon only greed and yet we," she raised her hand to the bloody red sky, "only choose the weakest links."

"You wonder who hides behind you, and step away in such a childish flay." She skidded towards the Queen, "Congratulations to the man that squeals for he is my next meal."
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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--Don't Claim-- But here it is---

Somewhere in some place, was a dream.

No one knew who dreamt it,
And it was so very small.

The little dream thought,
"I don't want to vanish like this."
"How can I make people see me?"

The little dream thought and thought,
and finally came up with an idea.

"I could just let people stray into me,
and they can create their own world"

The first Alice was brave and strong, her eyes were fiery red,
In Wonderland, she had a sword and ideas in her head
She cut down many sorts of things, whatever she could find
To make a path of bright red with the trail of blood behind
Alice was in the woods, far from everyone
There she was locked in as a sinner for the things she'd done
How the woods were made is still a mystery and so
Whatever happened to her, no one may ever know

The second Alice, blue and tame, a young man in his prime
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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-I Have No Clue What To Do For This-

I wonder if you will be able to handle me,
taking down the extra days you see,
because I decided that these are what I seek.
I hear you talking,
seeing what your trying to flatter,
but that's not putting anything on my platter.
You see this is the way we live,
striving or dying to what you see,
but you're wasting my time.
Killing my precious moments in life
And you think that the universe is in control,
but your just a man,
you don't seem to understand.
It's been all part of my plans.
~SG

-Quotes by Mchwa!-

"Your inner demons are worse than those you are facing."

"Thou who seek in the wrong place do not accomplish in two ways. They do not find reason nor do they succeed with reason."


-Facts About Me-

1. I'mma be that gay bacon lover no matter what. Accept or Join.
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Article by wolfcat343 posted over a year ago
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a poem I made for a character of mine.


Skeeter the choosy girl who wants only the best
So she set all her Princes on a puzzling quest
'You must find me the bird
With invisible wings
The spear of a flower
The time-telling rings
And the bright and golden kingdom
Without any kings'
She sent the princes off down the long winding track
But none of them sadly ever came back
Skeeter took the crown from the shelf, said "if the task is so tricky, I'll try it myself
I'll search for the bird
With invisible rings
The spear of a flower
The time telling rings
And the bright, golden kingdom
Without any kings"
She strolled around the lawns, and there appeared a plane gardener's son
she strolled the lawns with the plane gardener's son
They looked for her treasures and found every one
then he said "your puzzle is simple, the task is small
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Article by wolfcat343 posted over a year ago
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It was a little thing
Such a little thing
And it begged me not to tell
So I took it by the hand
And it led me to hell
With almond eyes
Such startled eyes
It said it wouldn't hurt
So I sandalled down the desperate stairs
Slipping on ancient dirt
With coos and yelps
And triumphant smile
It posted me a letter
And here I am as sick as the dead
With no hope of getting better
It was a little thing
Such a little thing
And it begged me not to tell
So I took it by the hand
And it led me to hell...

I don't claim this poem as my own, but I will put up some of my poems I wrote l8er
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Article by wolfcat343 posted over a year ago
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Oki a little about myself.

DONUTS! DONUTS! DONUTS! *bites into a donut and my eyes widen* do you say dough nuts or donuts? Doughnut donut, do not! Neva mind. *whispers* It is donut no matter what other people say.

Hi there! I am new here, well not so new, but no one really knows me well yet except SG (dunno what I would do without her!) . I really want to help out in any way that I can. I look very crazy, but I can be a very serious, trustworthy, kind, understanding friend. I cry myself to sleep every night because there so many people that do self harm, have sad pasts and wish to be dead, somedays I feel like being dead myself. I have helped suicidal people, I have also lost friends from suicide and I don't want to see anyone committing suicide again that is why I want to try my very best at becoming a psychologist, to help not only my friends and other people, but also myself. What I want to say is:
I'm here to listen and help, someone loves you even if you don't think so and it hurts them to see you hurt yourself. So hang in there don't give up on your life because every life to me is special <3
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Opinion by BooBooBear981 posted over a year ago
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I will always be with for every moment of every day
I will call you when I know your not okay
I will be there before the blood starts pouring
I will be there even when you are ignoring
I will be there when you parents do not care
I will be there even when your unaware
I will be there when a blade is pulled out
I will be there even if its me you can go without
I will be there for every tear drop shed
I will be there for every red blood drop bled
I will be there for every time that your depressed
I will be there for every time without rest
I will be there for every bloody nightmare
I will be there when you think nobody cares
I will be there every time that something turns up
I will be there every time
Every single freaking time.
Because that's how much I care.
Every night before you go to bed,
Remember I am there.
And my presence is ahead.
So I wrote this for you.
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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This goes out to you dear, because I know you're in a lock full of hurt. Just look from the boxes to the sky, it may seem impossible but with a little guidence, you'll find the key to all will in your beautiful enchanted soul. <3
-The song!! Full one of a few lyrics!!-

~.:Breaking Inside:.~

[chorus-]
I know you’re breaking inside,
there's so many people who just don't get you,
but if they only knew what was really going on inside,
they would think better!

Oh, Oh,
I feel so alone,
like if they left me out in the cold..
they said they cared,
but they never dared to come near me,
and so,
with every little step I take,
I can feel my heart break.

Outside from my heart,
my body is pumping,
trying to survive,
while throwing these movements.
I tag along,
dragging myself,
not knowing how the hell I got myself in this mess!
And I've been lost,
don't know what's wrong with myself,
Oh God,
I can feel it barely beating in my chest!

[repeat chorus]

Oh, Oh, Would have thought better.
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Opinion by Withering-Moon posted over a year ago
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You know she is finding her way there, by how the air feels. You know she’s coming by the sound of the wind whispering in your ear, telling you secrets. You know she’s on her way by the way the clouds gather and dance in the sky, like there having a party. You know she is creeping behind you by the fog that blows from your mouth. You know she’s right next to you when the lights begin to flicker.

You can feel the air get thicker and it slowly becomes harder to breath. Your lungs feel like there being beaten. You slowly run your hands over your arms and you can feel all your hair standing up straight and you shiver. You breath in the thick air heavy trying to get oxygen into your lungs but it’s not going fast enough and you feel yourself panic. You look all around confused and not sure what to do, but you know she’s getting closer.

You look outside the window and see the clouds begin to come to gather and move as one as if its the big finale. Little rain drops fall from the sky and before they make there way to the ground they freeze whatever they touch slowly covering it. The rain slowly makes its way down the windows but...
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Opinion by StReNgThHoPe posted over a year ago
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Hey you guys... I am uhm. Not going to be online for awhile :\ but while i have the time to... I really need to let some shit out. And also apologise for never ever 'being here'... I guess you were right, i never really am here when you really need me and I am a terrible friend. Trust me. I hate myself for that too.

This morning before my parents left for a baseball game. I had to look in the mirror. I ussually dont because i really have gotten to where i cant stand mirrors. They make me kind of sick. But as I was looking i really thought a bit too long and a bit too hard. Yeah i have brown hair- brown eyes and brown skin. Brown. Whatever. And yeah i have a stomach. Ive been working on that. Skippin meals. And i hate my thighs but i am proud of my calfs! The only reason i wont wear shirts is because everyone notices the scars. Everyone does. And i scramble for bracelets and temporary tatoos- pens - nail polish- bandaids i think really anything that covers them up. But it will never really cover them up. Will they?
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Opinion by Withering-Moon posted over a year ago
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“If a clock could count down to the moment you meet your soul mate, would you want to know?”
The rain beaded off the top of the building as it picked up from a soft drizzle to a hard downpour.
“I love the rain.” Said a sweet calm voice from a old women in a hospital bed, she was hooked up to the machines next to her. She looked like worn down paper that had been used to many times, her hair was white and thin and there was little of it, and the light in her grey green eyes almost gone. The was many people sitting around in the the small white room, they all looked sad and tired like they had been working all day.
“Grandma, why do you love the rain so much?” Asked a little girl who looked no more then ten years old, with curly light brown hair and green eyes. She was sitting next to the window which was close to the bed.
The old women took a second to catch her breath and then said, “Because it’s peaceful,” She looked out the window and smiled gently.
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Opinion by Withering-Moon posted over a year ago
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Sometimes i wonder if people even care about me? Or if they should care? Because honestly i think im going mad. I think everythings getting to my head and the voices, they never stop anymore...and they're louder to..really bad things..

I also wonder why people care about me? I mean i really am a lost hope...i cant save anyone anymore because i can barely safe myself..Everythings getting bad..real bad..

I also wonder if my family notices i havent been eating? Because i havent been eating and ive been skiping meals and counting calories. I wonder if they see that i really hate myself and eveything about me?

Another thing i wonder about is, will i ever get better? Because ive just been getting worse and thungs have been getting harder. And i just dont care anymore about what happens to me..i could care less if i get hit by a car or if a waste away or if i mess everything up because i do. I dont know what to do with myself anymore..i just want out..and everyday as i get worse i wonder with way ill take out..
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Opinion by StReNgThHoPe posted over a year ago
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Montsers and Theives in My Closet
Chapter 1 - Normal

Sometimes she couldn't decide who she was. No. She could never decide who she was. She was odd, different, awkward and dying inside. Maybe she had thought about hanging herself on her closet rack a few times too many. Her own voice was destroying her. Searching endlessly for the one crack in this dark closet of a life she had. The little crack that she could squeeze into just to see the ounce of light. To feel the touch of another person who she could interact with. Maybe that would never happen. Maybe she tried to hard - changed herself too much - was too scattered to appeal anyone.

Her hunger for affection ate her alive.

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December walked down these dark halls with alert blue eyes. Maybe they were too big - were her eyes too big? did she put to much makeup on? Did she not put enough makeup on? Maybe the orange hair was too much.

A glare from a popular girl. Yep the orange hair was too but. But hey it brought out the blue in her eyes.
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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have brushed off some of the lyrics..
__________First few:

And so, I'm going to keep running,
Maybe I'll come back one day,
but until that very day,
I'm going to keep running,
going to keep running.

I'm going to recover,
and one day,
lay my toes between the grass,
but until that very day,
I'm so,
I'm so,

I'm going to walk on this Earth one day,
no longer waiting for myself to heal,
be by all my loved ones,
lay my head down on the ground,
and look up into the sky,
seeing white puffy clouds,
and a much brighter day ahead.

And so, I'm going to keep running,
Maybe I'll come back one day,
but until that very day,
I'm going to keep running,
going to keep running.

___________Second few:

I know your breaking inside,
there's so many people being judgmental,
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These are just some lyrics I collaborated in my fucked up head.^^ I hope you guys enjoy because some are almost a full song anyways.

-------------------------------First few:

[i]I never wanted to see you this miserable,
but you only return such hate into an adorable smile.
I always want to hear your laugh before I dare fall asleep.
All our emotions collide and travel into the deep sea of life.

Before I ever walked alone,
you would always be willing to travel beside me.
You've never said goodbye,
only a "see you soon".
So as I'm walking,
the only thing that comes to my mind,
is you.

On days that I am home and all alone,
you always would come around.
And when I feel insecure,
you'll make me realize who I am at a matter of time.
Never telling me that I look like such a mess,
when that's all that I am.

I never wanted to see you this miserable,
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Article by Beyal8 posted over a year ago
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A pain so deep inside of me that no one will ever see,
I take the pain and lock it up and throw away the key..
Because if I take this pain out of the bottle for you to see,
You would not know the one you know because I’m not even me..
The one I was months ago disappeared the night you left..
My sailing soul was caught ablaze and sunk into the depths..
I smile on the outside but within my hearts in rage..
A beautiful vase filled with poison,
my sadness turns to hate..
The hate that I have,
I hold the closest to my soul..
It is the only thing I have left of you,
it is hate that makes me Joel...
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Hey Guys, It's me , Ellen.
And here, this is where I feel like I am family.
I feel like I don't ever belong. But when I'm with you guys, It's like I'm... Welcome.
I think I am hideous but my friends say otherwise.
I may be the one that tries to cheer everyone up at school but I have my own problems too.
I am going through a really tough time right know and it is a struggle to be OKAY. I am sorry about complaining about my problems like this but it just makes me feel better to tell you guys. I need to tell you guys something very important. I may not be the most depressed person but i sure as hell am not the strongest. I am weak and I will acknowledge that but I cannot take in all of the pain and suffering that is going on in your life. I am weak like that. I am incredibly sorry if I offended you. EVER. But i did not come here to point fingers. I came here to say THANK YOU. Thank you all for putting up with my weirdness (Mallory and Alli) and my complaints, and my stories. Thank you for being there at my hardest points in time, Thank you for shedding a tear for me. Thank you for being my sister or brother when I needed it most. Thank you...
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how it feels

Eating disorders are diseases of silence. We are all silently screaming for something: attention, love, help, escape or forgiveness. Although we might be looking to fill different voids, we never ask for the things we need. We feel unworthy, that for some reason we don’t deserve them. So, we play the game of guess what I need from you. You’re inability to guess just feeds our feelings of worthlessness.

When you finally realize there is a problem, it is much too late. We will now fight, lie, and cheat to hold on to the one thing that has given us support. You see the symptoms, weight loss, weight gain, or depression. You watch us starve, eat, purge, and isolate. You tell us to eat or not eat, to sleep or to get up and do something, you can’t understand why we can’t just get better.

If it were only that easy! Some of us have been living with this, like this, in this hell for half our lives or more. We honestly believe it is the thing holding us together. Even when all others see it as the thing that’s making us crumble to pieces. It is not just a part of us, but it has become us. It is our identity and who are we...
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To this day by Shane Koyczan.

When I was a kid…
I used to think that pork chops and karate chops
were the same thing
I thought they were both pork chops
and because my grandmother thought it was cute
and because they were my favorite
she let me keep doing it.

not really a big deal..

one day
before I realized fat kids are not designed to climb trees
I fell out of a tree
and bruised the right side of my body

I didn’t want to tell my grandmother about it
because I was afraid I’d get in trouble
for playing somewhere that I shouldn’t have been

a few days later the gym teacher noticed the bruise
and I got sent to the principal’s office
from there I was sent to another small room
with a really nice lady
who asked me all kinds of questions
about my life at home

I saw no reason to lie
as far as I was concerned
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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Dear Fellow Reader,

Hi! I can't believe that I've been such a lazy ass and haven't been texting any new songs. Well, I have two new recent songs ready but my lazy self needs to text them on here and I am working on one other song that I believe will shock a lot of readers.
Now, I have been seeing that my friends are having hard times staying alive and well. So, I just have to say that as SG, cay-ray-zee soda jacked me, Dream Diary is always a place to state who you are.
Dreamers are people like you. They are amazing and make my world beautiful. Fortune and fame is something we all have. For instant-

Poem Girl: Best lady poetry member to win her title.

Alli Rae: Amazing upbeat buddy with a amazing taste in RP

Ellen: writer with a intresting juicy pull that keeps you hanging on for more like being tipsy.

annie: Sweetest girl who has a heart for everyone.

Alexander (Daniel): You guessed it- earns the title of Helping Others.
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Darkness falls around me, swirling at my feet,
the shadows ask me questions, their secrets I must keep...
The coldness that I feel inside, keeps my body numb,
but for the thoughts of loneliness, nothing can be done...

In the fog surrounding me, all conscious thought is lost,
I can not tell what's real or not, my mind's a tangled knot...
I'm full of thoughts I can't retain, all I feel is guilt and shame,
I've begun to feel all hope is lost, someone stop the pain,
I Can See the lies dripping from your eyes in disguise...

The wind blows on my tear stained face, calling out to me,
always it's reminding me of what I cannot be.
I try so hard from day to day, but I can't seem to find my way.
I can't control these thoughts that rise, the torment comes from deep inside...

My broken heart is shattered, a pain that knows no end,
the shards of glass they slice me through, I'm bleeding from within...
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You know she is finding her way there, by how the air feels. You know she’s coming by the sound of the wind whispering in your ear, telling you secrets. You know she’s on her way by the way the clouds gather and dance in the sky, like there having a party. You know she is creeping behind you by the fog that blows from your mouth. You know she’s right next to you when the lights begin to flicker.
You can feel the air get thicker and it slowly becomes harder to breath. Your lungs feel like there being beaten. You slowly run your hands over your arms and you can feel all your hair standing up straight and you shiver. You breath in the thick air heavy trying to get oxygen into your lungs but it’s not going fast enough and you feel yourself panic. You look all around confused and not sure what to do, but you know she’s getting closer.
You look outside the window and see the clouds begin to come to gather and move as one as if its the big finale. Little rain drops fall from the sky and before they make there way to the ground they freeze whatever they touch slowly covering it. The rain slowly makes its way down the windows but freezing it...
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Its that feeling you get in you stomach
Its dark and evil and eats at you like a monster
The feeling of you falling apart..
Its begins slowly and then becomes bigger an bigger
Until theres nothing left of you..
Nothing left to hold on to..
Just nothing..
But an empty soul and shattered hearts..
Its a cold endless feeling...
But some how people pick themselves up?
I don't know how they do it?
But they do.
Im trying to find away way were I can do the same..
Pick myself up..
But it all seems like a lie..
A dark twisted place where I can't get out of..
Because I always end up doing the same thing.
Cut.
Hurt myself.
Hate myself more.
It always ends the same.
Just a cut
Just a scratch
"whats that mark?"
"it was the cat."
Just an excuse.
Just another lie.
"Whats with all the bracelets?"
"Just fashion, why?"
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Article by Beyal8 posted over a year ago
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My strange eccentricities
and weird idiosyncrasies
Leave others bewildered
and cause me to ponder
Am I really strange..?
Or it’s the others, I wonder...

My values seem outdated
And my ethics, underrated
Honesty and loyalty
Are they obsolete?
True love is so rare
Am I enclosed by conceit..?

My love, it’s no-holds-barred
My feelings, they die-hard
Waiting and anticipating
Like I face life’s checkmate
Sometimes I feel beset
Can I influence my fate..?

My thoughts are bizarre
Seem unrealistic and far
But I know they’re not
meant for the blinkered
To grasp their true worth
Doubts have to be conquered...
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It’s dusk, that miraculous time of the day
The sun has set on the other side of the bay
Children are shouting, laughing as they play
Birds are hurrying off to where they stay
Pious individuals are bowing down to pray
Labourers seem happy to receive their pay
The Sky looks like a pink rose bouquet
As if His creation, He has chosen to display
If all is so beautiful, why does it seem grey?

Can someone explain to me the reason why?
Is it because beauty is in the beholder’s eye?
What if the eyes are soggy and not dry?
Does it mean everything that’s seen is a lie?
Do the eyes then simply deceive and defy?
Showing a caterpillar, when it’s a butterfly?

When I asked someone who’s wise and smart
He said, it‘s not the fault of eyes, but of the heart,
which beats irregularly when it’s been torn apart
Behaving like a computer that needs a restart
Distorting images to look like a weather chart...
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Shadowing Eternity...

A special place for you and me,
An undying bond to guide us free.
Loneliness blocking the day,
Our Love lighting the way..

Your gentle touch,
Your smiling face.
There is no corner,
No dark place..

Our passion flowing in the waves,
My heart stands still.
Awaiting your pace..

Your love is my destiny,
your heart is like the soul of God..

Our love, withstanding time,
Diminishing doubt, in our mind.
There is no place I rather be…
Than in your heart and in your dreams...

-Beyal

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The life I am living
seems so unreal,
feels like an
endless scary toil,
as I fight
my deep-rooted fears,
unable to hold back
my tears
I pray that
my mind adheres
and my heart also hears
my pleas...

I fear
that my soul
is being hoodwinked
by my mind
…my mean mind
that is so unkind
It simply delights
in the agony
Though I don’t think
it’s so funny
making me dance
to its tunes
as if I was a bunny...

My dream seems now
like a nightmare
As I feel intense
but bare
Never knew
I had to prepare
…to stare
at dark, starless
nights
missing those
lovely fights
we had…at midnights
those highlights
of our love...
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In the hustle and bustle of the day
Surrounded by folks and friends
I feel lost, lonely and astray..

Drifting off or awaking,
in dreams and reality
My heart’s always aching
and my soul’s always praying
for you…

Suppressing my urges
to talk to you
curbing my craving
to hear you
ignoring my thirst
to meet you
restraining my longing
to be with you
stifling my desire
to touch you
I feel fervent and helpless,
desperate and hopeless
For I expect and demand,
hope and anticipate...

Then all of a sudden I seek nothing
Bereft of hopes, wishes or desires
Left with only a soul that aspires
…for your happiness

Then I experience a holy calm
Peace descends on me
like a soft, soothing balm
and a knowing arises
…that we’re never apart
because you live
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My feelings these days
they are so strange
…they have such a range

Now, I am happy and ecstatic
Then, frightened and frantic...

Now, I dream, hope and desire
Then, all my hopes catch fire...

Now, I want to sing and dance
Then, I just get lost in a trance...

Now, I see all so plain and clear
Then, my vision is blurred by a tear...

Now, all I want is to conjugate
Then, I wonder about our fate...

Now, your joy is my only goal
Then, my soul cries for your soul...

My feelings these days
They are so strange
But my love for you
…doesn’t change
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Praying with you is
like walking
on the morning grass
with the fickle dewdrops
tickling our bare feet
while our souls meet
and smile to greet
each other...

Praying with you is
like drifting
on wispy, white clouds
on a sunny day, as we play
like little kids
a little fine, a little fey
And as our game starts
our love engulfs our hearts...

Praying with you is
Like dreaming
a magnificent dream
where we scream
in ecstasy
as a rainbow wraps
you and me
in vibrant colours of glee...

Praying with you is
Like weaving
a fairy story
that we fill with
God’s goodness and glory
Each memory we create
is a tale of our sweet love
so memorable, so great...
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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Tears...
Hall of Fame

by SongGirl (Maria mason)
Hall of Fame:Consequences

    
The Day Has Come To Seak Light, What DOES SOMEONE Do When They Have No shoulder To Burry In?
"How does a girl come out from a rabbit hole, un changed? The answer: She doesn't."
"It's time to stop pretending and take my heart in my own hands. Leave your prints on my heart but I've got nothing to loose." ~Laura Walter

"You can't help to turn back and hope that you'll get another shot but its not. Let the soothing doubts around you get too you is just simply something I can't do. So I am locked up tight in a terrified love prission full of lyrics." ~Debbie Style

    To all of my friends who have been hurt, neglected, shattered, burried, an so much MORE.
    TTS:
Mirror Academy, Techonolgy Academy, Vedermidic Academy, an Microphone Academy Plus.
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[b] I sounds of the piano's steady strings and smells of the old cellar fill my senses with comfort, knowing i am home. I hear Temmi's sweet voice that sings every note on key and had sense her smile. She's playing the song 'Dream' by some arstists whos name i cannot place but she sings words to her own song.

That moment is pure and golden. Those few moments in the basement where the walls are mere packed dirt and the floor is nothing more then stones and the black grand piano is playing away. But mostly its little Temmi sitting at the piano. Her soft brown curls bobbing up and down as her head moves and her pale skin. Her voice sends chills up my back - its sweet and delicate.

The walls are suddenly cramping in - closer and closer. I yelp as i find my hip being forced int the side of the piano. Temmi dares to look up into my eyes. The hypnotic green of hers havent changed over the many years. She whispers in my ears but her words are un heared.
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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now me.
Limited.

In only a few days is when the sun shines, fading in and out.
Oh how we all use to laugh and play until I ruined it all.
Ready to give in from a scrap from just last week, but what really comes within can really stab the fuck out of you.
I've been hated, told as attention and was burned inside and out.
My fatal goodbye is better than this living scrap I make, Its a ticket to a forever jail cell.
Secret talks that are held just silently reconized by the voices in my head. When one comes back, I won't be scared and as for in lonely, I got company ready for me to move. Just walking away from my crowd and putting on the different memo than others.
When I come back, I;ll be scared and lonely, I'll be forgoten by ten years. I was even told that. It only taked a few days to be forgoten. hell, it took my classmates to forget about me for a few minutes.
All in a flash, I can be gone. I've been given the signals to leave. I am not scared and with these phobias in my head- I am never aone.
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Okay so at this moment in time I have so many stories In my head and I'm wondering which ones I should keep going right now.

Choices:

Miles OF Miles Apart..

March 19, 2011
Age 13

From the moment your born somewhere out there you have a true love, There’s someone who is your soul mate. At less that’s what they say? They say there’s one person who has the same heart strings as you and they complete you. And there’s nothing that can keep you apart from one another, and one day you’ll meet. Some people don’t end up with there one true love or don’t see them. But what if my one true love isn’t here? I mean what if I never find him or her if that’s the case which I hope it’s not. I don’t know what to say but I’m different from the rest...What if there’s no one out there for me?
My name is Sunflower I was born on the first day of spring, March 20, 1998. And was born and raised in Maine for now I guess, I just turned 13 yesterday. I was born with albinism, Albinism is a Congenital disorder characterized by the complete or partial absence of pigment in the skin, hair and eyes due...
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Treasures we own..together:

When my hand is wrinkled so,
it's you that I will still want you know.
As my hair turns silver and gray
remember me as I was yesterday.
My long red hair blowing in the breeze,
we loved each other with ease.
Now in the park your hand I hold,
you keep me warm as it turns cold.
We sit on a bench and feed the birds,
not a single word needs to be heard.
Remembrances of years gone by,
we both smile...we both sigh.
Remembering our first glance,
and for hours how we danced.
The flowers you gave to me for no reason,
and the little things you did every season,
made me a believer in true love.
The kind that's been blessed from above.
Our children have grown and left our home,
all those memories we now own.
A treasure of love is between two hearts,
nothing has ever torn them apart.
Our love has stood the test of time,
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Been a fool, been a clown
Lost my way from up and down
And I know, yes, I know
And I see in your eyes that you really weren't surprised at me
At all
Not at all
And I know by your smile
It's you

Don't care for me
Don't cry, let's say goodbye
Adieu
It's time to say goodbye
I know that in time
It will just fade away
It's time to say goodbye

I stand alone
And watch you fade away like clouds
High up and in the sky
I'm strong and so cold
As I stand alone
Goodbye, so long
Adieu

Oh, how I love you so
Lost in those memories
And now you've gone
I feel the pain
Feeling like a fool
Adieu

My love for you burns deep inside me
So strong
Embers of times we had
And now, here I stand
Lost in a memory
I see your face and smile
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Game Changer


Her heart beating faster as she got closer and closer to her goal, she couldn't hear anything but the beating of her heart and the ticking of the time left slowly counting down. She ran past fire trucks and policeman and women, getting closer and closer. Some people tugged at her arms trying to pull her back, but she managed to get away every time. The smell of ash and burnt rubber filled the air and it felt like little knives poking at her lunges with each breath she took. There was a thin layer of ash on her face burning her cuts but all she could think about was, I have to get there on time save someone anyone. As she got closer to the door everything began to get darker and the smell of ash and smoke filled everything in sight. She knew once again she was to late.

''''''' shot up in her bed, as sweat beat off her face. She looked around as the darkness of her room was still there and her heart was beating. She layer back down on her pillow and sighed in disappointment, she had failed once again. She touched her face to make sure it wasn’t a dream, but there was nothing there and it wasn’t a dream. She slowly got up...
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This poem goes out to The Kids Who Are Different

You should know that bullying hurts
It starts with one word, one word you blurt
Fat, ugly, worthless. These are the words they hear
Do you know you're their biggest fear?
Day by day, you torment them
It takes a while for their hearts to mend
All they ask for is one true friend
But you just want to make their life end, make that one wish go away
You bully them till they can't breathe no more
Who are you trying to satisfy this for?
Everyday they wake up with regret
All they want to do is forget
The words, the names, all that you've said

Everyday when they walk down the hall
You kick, you laugh, you taunt
You just want them to be a weakling, to fall
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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Wearing Kat's hat
Song Girl~ I have been listening to a lot of music that has been making me understand life but I found a lot of songs that makes me realizes this is similar; BUT OH MY GOD!!! I FUCKING LOVE YOU THREE DAYS GRACE!!!!!!

Songs I love by Three Days Grace:

get Out Alive
Never Too Late
Riot
Animal I have become
Pain
The Good Life
Break
Let It Die
Operation
Its All Over
over and Over
Time Of Dying
Gone Forever
One-X
Running Away

\ "Life Starts Now" \
Bitter Taste
Break
World So Cold
Lost In You
The Good Life
No More
Last To Know
Someone Who Cares
Bully
Without You
Goin' Down
Life Starts Now

"Transit Of Venus"
Sign Of The Times
Chalk Outline
The High Road
Operate
Anonymous
Misery Loves My Company
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Opinion by BooBooBear981 posted over a year ago
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They call me no name.
Because i haven't got one.
Nor a family or a friend
Not even a house
I am truly alone.
How can I be born with out,,
Well Life.
I cry myself to sleep each night.
But it's impossible for people to see me crying if I'm in the rain
I don't know what love is
I don't know what care is.
I don't know who i am either,
If i did know what love was i would be accepted.
Not here. Not there, No where.
I don't know anything,
And i have never seen another human see me,
But i feel them.
I feel them here.
Watching me, but most of all, on the inside, there souls haunt me and kill me. Slowly, with each breath. With each step.
Why am is still alive? I don't belong here. Or anywhere.
Here i am invisible, And i will never be seen.
I have no voice, I am to scared to call out, even if i was to be heard,
I am alone. An I need to accept that. I need to move on with this filthy, unforgiving and lonely life.
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13 year old me..
Dear Friends and Family,

"My own mother told me to never give up. My own friends told me to never give up. My own brother laughed in my face and told me to never give up. So Melody, I'll never give up on myself."

When I was kid, I had an invisable friend named Melody, and we were the best of friends. We stopped being friends when I gained friends. I stopped being able to see her. She faded so slowly, and what seems so painfully now. Melody, you came back at the time I wanted to die. You wanted to break me for breaking you. I'm sorry but I have to say this, "Fuck you Melody."

I can see you now, and you've started controlling my emotions and my movements. You have gotten me to studder. You took my colorful sights and replaced it with my sadness and tears I never try crying out.

In my home classroom...we were learning about Isaac Newton, and everyone was saying that I could be the one like him to keep myself locked in my room for years working on something. It's true. I bet I could because I never died yet.
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Water Springs High:

*The new summer breeze rolled through the doors as the beautiful popular girls burst through the hallway. Cat walking to class as the leader,Alice,hit the books out of a girl's hands and smiled so wide like if innocent*
Girl: *watches them go and picks her books up,pulling a strand of her curly hair back and slides her glasses to her eyes as she walks to class. Three girls stop her and its obvious that their friends *
1 girl: Melody, you gotta smack that Barbie across the face like what she did to your books!
2 girl: Two wrongs don't make a damn right.
3 girl: Ashley! You aren't suppose to cuss!
princable: *walks out of the hall*not you four! Get to class, we have a new student coming with about five more. Don't fuck this up idiots! Go to class!
Girls; *run off but hide behind the walls*
Principal: Are you one of our new students?
Lilia: Yes, I am. My name is Lilia Guan I came here from DryRock High.
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Alone:
I feel like I’m in a prison. And there’s no way to get out. I turn around see myself alone. {Alone, alone, alone, alone…}
    No one! No one to talk with. No one to laugh with. No one’s shoulder to cry on with. Because I’m alone. {I’m alone.} My respect is replaced by my jealousy. I don’t seem to have heart… any more. Because I’m alone. {I’m just a loner.} 51
My feelings are hurting. My body is cold. I am stiff. My mouth is burning. I don’t have enough words to explain all the feelings I’m having. Please someone tell me, that I’m okay then I’ll feel much better today than I did yesterday. All I want is a friend that’ll stick by me. {I’m not blind.} I know who’ll leave me behind. Friends don’t do that. No one should do that.
    No one! No one to talk with. No one to laugh with. No one’s shoulder to cry on with. Because I’m alone. {I’m alone.} My respect is replaced by my jealousy. I don’t seem to have heart… any more. Because I’m alone. {I’m just a loner.}
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Opinion by PoemGirl posted over a year ago
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“When you’re born a lover
You’re born to suffer
Like all soul sisters
And soul brothers”

I don;t know what it means?
But it's beautiful..


If you could read my mind you'd all be in tears
That's why I write it down for you all to hear
Not that I want to see you cry
But for you to know your not alone and the words you say hurt..

There was a time where I thought I was past. all of this.
Past the cutting.
Past the hate.
Past the crying.
Past the pain.
Past the suicide thoughts
But then.
BAM!
It hit me once again like a bag of bricks...

They say..
So Young, So Damaged..

That's what I am..

I say..
How do you run away when the things you fear are in your head?
Because really all this hurt and pain and emotion comes from inside your head.
All I want to do is get away from it all..
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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Once there was a little girl, was always happy and smiled and made others smile...

She helped people and did whatever she could to help. Little did anyone know by age 10 she'd begin to feel all alone, and feel like her friends hate her...
And think she was ugly because of her glasses.

By age 12 she would begin thinking about bad thoughts and thinking about doing bad things.
She would think about dying and what it would feel like to die.
And how she would die.
She began to become depressed and sad all the time.

By 13 she would become suicidal, and try to kill herself 5 times.
She would think she wasn't good enough and pretty enough, and that no one would ever love her.
She began to believe that her parents hated her and she would be better off die then alive.
They scars on her arms show she didn't want to be there.


By age 15...
She'd be gone..
And people would say
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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If I where to disappear...
Would you look for me?
Would you cry that I was gone?
Or even care that I might never come back?
If something were to happen I want you to know...
I will be at the light at the other end of your dark tunnel, or other words life...
Because in the end of all this darkness theres something better...
I'll be waiting there for you to find your way,
Even if I haven't found my own way or have given up..
I'll wait to see you finally find happiness...
Like I said.
I'm here for you..
And even if I'm not here
I will always be with you
Your never truly alone
I will also be there to talk to
Even when you can't see me...
If I were to go I want you to know its not your fault
Don't blame yourself because I wanted out..
Or that you couldn't save me
Because right now I'm not sure anyone can..
But you will never be alone because I'll always be here..
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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I look back at my life, and I see a girl who I wish I wasn't...
A girl who's fucked up a lot
And has done stupid things
Who is depressed
And cuts
Who's swallowed pills
And swallowed the bleach
Or made herself throw up..
A girl who was always smiling
But I guess she got good at faking?

The world around this girl thinks she's happy and has a great life..
If only they knew the real her..

If only they could see through that fake smile of hers
Or see the scars that line her wrist legs and hips
Because a smile can hide so much..

I feel as if theres something inside me picking at me wanting to be free...
Picking at the way I look, talk, dress, smile, eat, think, act everything...
Just picking at me..
Picking me away...


I have a question.
When did we all become selfish monsters?
When happened to not caring about how someone looked or what they wore?
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Opinion by anniewannie posted over a year ago
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I smile.. I cry.. I lie..

~I SMILE~

I smile, even if people abandon me
I smile, when my friend confessed he liked me… maybe…
I smile, when my heart broke as he said he forgot me
I smile, when I’m in tears
I smile, no matter how much pain I’m in
I smile, through times when it is tough
I smile, when my friends hurt me
I smile, despite the hurt
I smile, when people withdraw their trust on me
I smile, like I’m the happiest girl in the world when I’m not
I smile, whenever my world crashes around me
I smile, to those who ask, “Are you okay?”
I smile, just for the sake of it
I smile, but sometimes it just makes me want to cry…

~I CRY~

I cry, because tears is the best way to remove my pain
I cry, when people beat me
I cry, if I’m alone
I cry, under the happiness that I sometimes act
I cry, when I realized that I could easily be forgotten
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Opinion by anniewannie posted over a year ago
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_______________HEAVEN AND HELL_______________

I feel like there’s a monster inside my mind, clawing its sharp, black fingers at me and making me think that nothing will ever be the same again.
The voices are calling out to me – their voices screaming, like wolves howling when’s it’s a full moon, at me: “Give it a shot Annie!” “Your so-called friends at school don’t care about you anymore!” “Don’t you want to feel that blood trickle down from your cuts?!” “What are you waiting for?” I try not to listen by covering my ears or hiding under my blanket to keep those voices out or even crying just to let them know that enough was enough.
I hate feeling this way.. All the dark voices keep lurking around the back of my mind when I’m alone.. they tell me to do all the horrible things to myself like swallowing pills, giving myself cuts in my arms, going up to edge of a high cliff somewhere and just jump to see what it felt like to fly… or worse–get a gun and pull the trigger at my head, blowing it wide like a popped balloon before it sailed down to the ground…
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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Once Upon A Time..

There was a little girl who was happy...
Until she grew up...


The mirror..
Something that scares people..
The person looking back at them is someone they don't want to see...

"Hey I just met you, and this is crazy! But your fat, so slit your wrist maybe?"

Words that will forever run through my head...

The mirror is the place where truth is,
Until it gets out of hand
Thinking oneself is fat when really all they are, are bones..
People live there life by the number at there feet,
Praying it's not over 100 or even higher then 90
To be skinnier is the goal that people would even die for
That's all they want is to be skinny until there bones show..


This becomes peoples life and making them self skinny...
It;s killing teens today..
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Opinion by SongGirl50701 posted over a year ago
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Crazy Girl
Crazy Girl

[u]"I don't know what I did to deserve this."
"I just want to curl up and just die in the core of the earth."
"I've never felt so alone. I don't know why they called me all those mean names. I just want to fit in."

Soon there will be laughter instead of the voices.
The new ditches are dug with Satin softly speaking towards us to drag the blade.
Names marked on us like banners, but they don't understand decide to cut you and deny their skill while they tear you apart.
oh, either way would have been the way to awaken from the depths.

So the angel of me dies with the screams of my blood.
Still they call me those names that define who I truly not stand.
The beautiful run of the names they call to you, friends leave, parents divorce, and you take a sacrifice.
oh, pumping up the music so my sorrow will drain but I never planned for my deadly prescription.
Oh, I have the same dreams like you in a way that my halo wants to fall from the weight of sorrow.
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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Little things about me...


I've been writing a story at school, this girl has been reading it.

She wonders where I got the idea from, I tell her it's just fiction,

I can't bring myself to tell her thats it's really how I view the world since everyone thinks I'm the super happy smiling girl.

No one knows my world is dark.


~~~

This week we had an anti-bullying activity at school

We have to cross a line when something applies to you.

"Please cross the line if you feel lonely."

No one in my class did, but I know one person who almost did.

Until she saw nobody else did.

I should have crossed that line.

~~~


I say goodbye to someone everyday before I leave school..

I would hate to go out of this world without saying goodbye..

~~~

Art is my passion my thing.
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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She hides her pain..
With a smile on her face...
But one day..
That Smile will break...

The loneliness is killing her...
There's a war going on in her head..

She wishes to tell you the hurt and pain she's going through..
But she;s to scared...
That what you'd think if you knew the real her...

This
Girl
Is
Me

I wish I could tie you in my shoes, so you could feel unpretty to...
I'm losing my mind...
To this battle with me myself and I...


This girl you thought you knew is falling fast..
She's trying to put back together what she never had..
She just wants to be loved and good enough..
But nothing seems to never be enough...

And everything around seems to be working fine.
But not her.
She;s broken and out of her mind...


This
Girl
Is
Me
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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Okay it's time to..Vent...



I grab a knife and some pills to try to ease the pain, but each it feels harder and harder to keep up and stay smiling. I wrote a poem with some beauty and some vision to it bottom line it my expend your mind if you read it closely. To much shine can dull the soul if your feel how I feel then I'll write some more...

How can the world be so mean to me when I did nothing to be in this darkness I now call life? I get a little honest and I ask myself, if the time came would you save me if I asked for help? I normally send my mind out to the outer most to get away from this reality and hope to find something better then living, And one thing I really want to know is how did so many people I know fall down the same path that I'm going, I don't want us to stop when we still have such a long way to go.
I see beauty in the eyes of complete strangers, hopeing to help them and maybe in return help me. But inside I get used when they need me and not come to me out of pure helplessness and out of greed or lies.
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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Life

A Speech

Some words from MikeWJ but I rewrote most of it


Why would are children of today judge a person on how they look on the outside when they don’t know whats going on in the inside and how it feels to be told something that stabs your heart and makes you think if they are right?

Now if your like me your sick of this lie people have brought, but the
people who sold it to us the ones who we should blame. Blame your enemy
or blame your sister either one it's the same. Because times now are
changing are whole world seem rearranging, to fit the fragile pieces
that they say can stop me from ragging. But I am still writing on this
page and nothing is getting any better, right now I'm just looking for
something that will make me feel light as a feather. Some form of
escape form this modern world that's been plagued drugs war rape and
others that can be seen but aren't seen. People say there listening to
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Suicidal Girl: " I just wanna be me and a free social teen but I'm dying from the inside. I am not going to cry any more but get married to a suicide fight, its decided. I'm in jail for killing the voices."

This album is going to be called Dream Diary. I'll post it on youtube soon. I'm trying to get a webcam soon.

Today, I truely feel like me.

bullied continuesly, and wishing I was someone else.

ill post the first song soon.

Songs of you,

me,

him,

her,

and everyone.


If you want, i'll make a song about you.
<3
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Still I Rise



You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.
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Hearing Damage.


Hearing Damage
CHAPTER 2– The Orphanage.


This is the day two men in black suits knocked on the front door.
“Hello,” one of them nodded at me. He slipped off his black lenses. “Are you the daughter of Lisa Moore?”
I nodded. “Y-yes…”
“We’re from FBI and we’re here to take you somewhere.”
“What?” I was confused.
“You will understand when we take you there. Grab the things you need from this house and we’ll be off to go.” The other man told me, almost too hastily.
I was about to turn and go inside when one more thing popped in my mind and I turned my head to the men in black, “I have a sister…” I trailed off.
“Bring her too,” said the man who spoke to me first. “Pack her the things she might need.”
I nodded and went inside the house just as Rue stepped into the living room. She looked at me as I went into her room, jerk her drawers and throw her clothes onto her bed.
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I have a little box in my room with my name on it in big blue letters inside the box i everything I want to but behind me...

Inside it lays these things:

My knifes
Pills
Bottles
Notes


The knifes are from a time in my life were slicing up my skin was a way of telling me I was living but deep down inside I know that the felling was just a lie. I once cut alone on my side small enough so no one would notice my I knew it was there and it reminded me of the truth. That I was alone.


The bottles are in there from a time in my life where I used to drink. That was a short time but I never want to go through it again..Its the feeling when you loss yourself your head aches along with your heart and your mind feels like it's going to explode and in that moment you can lose everything you ever loved...


The pills are in there from a time of my life when the lonely was all I felt it felt like the only way out...
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Have you ever thought about how real video games are? Have you ever thought or wondered if they were real? Well think again..


Nina Wells life seemed normal. She had a normal family and parents and brothers, with a normal house on a normal street and had normal friends. Until one day when something tragic happened to her younger brother Alex. While playing a new video game called Black Quest her brother fell into a coma. Nina believes that the video game had something to do with her brothers coma and she herself ends up playing the game trying to find answers.


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    Nina stared out the window watching the rain drops drip down, she could still remember that day and how she would never forget it.

    "Nina were leaving soon hurry up!" Her mother yelled from down stairs trying to grab her little brother Joey.
    "Coming mom!" Nina grabed her bag and put it over her shoulder and slipped on her boots. Before walking out of the room she looked in the mirror and checked out her hair. She had brown red hair that was short and...
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This for anyone out there who knows what pain truly feels like...This is for you..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Here's my story and feelings...

Each day I always put on a smile
No matter what
I always smile

And the reason why I always smile is because when I was little my mom always used to say to me, to be strong and show your not in pain and suck it up.

Each day I always hold everything in
But when I get home
And I'm all alone
I burst into tears

Each day I feel so alone
I feel as if I'm losing my friends
Which I am

I've cut
I've swallowed the pills
I've drinked
I've force myself not to eat

But I'm done with that..
I want to be happy
I want to smile for real...

So I put away everything in a little secret box..

A bottle of pills
Some razors
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To all who feel like they'll curl up and die from pain. The pain only a few teens, comments, and/or the voices that even I hear.

My Friend, was told on to the consualer about his suicide. I watched him cry, and I listened to him. I agree with him. I have very little faith in God because I'm afraid god doesn't love me from my mistakes. Just like him. He's like my young brother. He's the guy at the lunch table laughing. Trying to make you smile. He seemed like he do no wrong?

My friend, thinks she knows me. She's like a bully to me now. Using one of our friend's for a hide home from cheerleading. Then, she's going to drop her next year and thinks that me and our other friend tag along. Guess what: I'm moving school.


Suicide Girl

People hurt, blood dripping, and eye ticking truth.
A blade in the victims hand and vodka in the other.
She had been dead for six hours now, and one of her friend's have been calling.
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~~~ FOR ALL THE PEOPLE IN UNCOMPREHENDABLE PAIN~~~

Black Heart Black Soul

Filthy like Coal

Dark Heart Dark Soul

Not even a Role

Gloomy Heart Gloomy Soul

Left there Broken

On an Abandoned Knoll

Cold Heart Cold Soul

Never a Whole

Bloody, Hurt, Plenty of Wounds

Nobody Heard that Piercing Cry

Leaving Scars

I might as well Die

With my Black Heart and Black Soul

Maybe you will come by

And Watch me Weep

As I zoom in to a forever Sleep

~~~ Anonymous

"A Note from the Author"

Every 4o seconds a person dies from suicde. Decreasing the population. Bloody brutal deaths or easy painless ones. But People will never know how much it hurts. The Depression, Bullying, anything that Brings you down really does hurt. Most of the time you don't even know what the person is doing, and how much pain they are in. I wrote this for everyone in as much pain as i am or even more. May someone wipe away their...
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Opinion by anniewannie posted over a year ago
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Hearing Damage
CHAPTER 1–Damee’s Past.

December 24th, 2004

I smiled as I saw two faces in the mirror. One of them was mine and the other was of a woman who looked to be in her late twenties with dark brown hair and dark cerulean eyes. She was wearing a dark blue dress with diamond earrings and her face full of light make-up. In the mirror, I thought of her as a princess like in those fairytale stories.
The woman was my mom.
My mom breathed, squeezing my shoulders gently. "You look beautiful sweetie," she said.
"Thanks mom." I smiled a small smile, looking over at her. I was scared of my reflection, to be honest. I had two different, individual colored eyes – my left was light blue and the other was yellow. I was born with my eyes like this – it wasn’t out of choice.
“Damee,” my mom turned me to look at her. I waited, my eyes lowering to the floor. “No matter what you look like, you’re my only flower.” I looked at her as she lifted my chin to look at my eyes.
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I'm sick of these thoughts these people are ponding in my head,
I'm sick of this lie that people call life,
And I'm sick of the tears and hiding them away,
Trying to show my parents I'm strong and okay.
But if your like me..
And your sick of the lies and this life you live you do the same as me..
Put a smile on your lips..

I'm the girl who's always smiling
And always looks so damn happy
But in reality its not even a real smile
It's more like a plastered on mask
And my real smile has been gone now for quit some time
But no one can see that because they really don't care
They never ask if I'm okay they all just think I'm fine
But deep down inside I just want to be good enough
For my parents and teachers and friends
But deep down inside that person me knows..
She'll never been good enough through there eyes..
And know one really cares..
About the little girl who just wants to be happy loved for who she is.
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Hearing Damage.


When you’re born into this world, it’s the best thing that your parents have ever thought right? Suddenly you’re the one having the attention with your family trying their best to take care of you when your mother isn’t around.
But then...what if when you’re four years old your parents find out that your hearing is damaged and you can’t hear? How would you feel in the later years of your life?
Well that’s what’s happening to me this very moment.
My name is Damee Love. I was born in Florida March 14th, 1998 and I’m turning thirteen this year. I have a hearing damage so I wear these hearing impaired called ‘hearing aids’. They are for people who can’t hear. Both my eyes are blind-sighted which means that I wear glasses all the time. I have younger sister who is nine and her name is Rue. If you’re reading this, I would like to let you know that sometimes, life for someone who is hurt but hides it behind a smile, is unfair...
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Scars

Scars– A story about what scars truly mean to me.

When I fall into deep sleep
My heart is at peace
For a while, I guess
Sometimes… it’s hard to say what I need to say
Because with all this pain locked inside me
Scars are printed on my heart
One by one, they appear
Some say that scars heal and wounds do not
With me, they don’t disappear nor do they heal
They simply grow
Pain is something I’ve been trapped in since I was small
It’s like death because pain is a feeling that makes me suffer
I can handle it perfectly, never showing any signs of it
But I don’t think I can handle one from another
People ask if I’m okay
I say, “I’m fine.”
In truth, I don’t want others to know what I truly feel
Weather they ask me a thousand times, I give them the same answer
That is… until he came
He’s kept his promise, considered it was a secret to me
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No one like me…

Can you see that girl over there?
The one who has deep-set brown eyes and raven black hair?
You can see that in her eyes, she has a story
I don’t know about you, but she’s always the one who stood out the most

Perpetually alone, somehow out of sight, out of mind ... and lost in her thoughts
She goes by the rules at her school, obeying what anyone who asks her to do this, or do that
Really, she will do it
Just ask her and then snap she’ll do it, just like that

There are times when she can be regarded as the merriest person in the class
A love-sick one too and a person who has her mother’s laugh
But also the girl with the soft voice

She doesn’t mind the noise though even now and then, she does and goes someplace else
Some say she’s shy
I hear people say she’s a captive disease
But you know, she can really affect people with her tears she’d cried
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    They said no one would read my story that I wrote that day, but someone did, and now I’m here. In this room with a stranger..They sent me away here to get better? Yeah right..I thought I was weird these girls are different..


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Fever:


    My parents heard about my sadness from that paper at school...The one where no one was meant to read and said they wouldn’t.They weren’t even trying to be supportive of me and help me, they called me a waste of space and someone would look to be in my shoes instead of on the street and alive. I couldn’t blame them...It was unfair to other people who had it worst then I did. But still I am there daughter and they should love me and try to help me no matter what I’m going through..That’s all I asked out of them..
    But when I look myself in the mirror all I see is a girl with brown poop color hair and green blue eyes and pale skin. My face is to round and my checks are big, I have no figure what so ever and I’m tall and skinny with big feet. I see someone who’s ugly and will never be loved and...
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"Write an article about your life, your thoughts, anything on your mind! Get it off you shoulders! Express anything"

I stared blankly at the paper. “What was I going to write?” My mind was blank. My stomach was in a tight knot. I held my fist tightly closed to my chest. I felt like crying. Those dark memories came back.

I raised my hand. She called on me. 'Miss Ivory! Yes!"

I hold back my tears but manage to mumble. All eyes were on my know. I shivered.

"Can you write about anything on your mind? And you won't tell anyone?"

She thought a little bit before answering with a smile. "Why, I don't see why not!" She giggled alttle.

I couldn't stand her. She was always laughing. Always kidding and joking. I can't even laugh anymore. Or even smile. It's all fake. Just like her fake little face.

I decide to start with the title.

Name- Ivory Snow

Date- 11/4/2012
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I feel like this.
THIS IS MARIAH MASON______I THINK I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF_______



I feel like there's a monster in my head that's clawing ne and killing me. Making me do horrible things to my body and bring those voices back. I found out how to control them but I'm 13. I will have medication for me depression. The secret: I'm going to over dose myself for a better life. I'll get out of your life, untangle it, and swallow about twelve to thirteen. First, I night be the age fourteen first. What the heck, I have a knife right now. GOODBYE SOONER. I can't believe you guys keep tackling me when I push you away. Get the tuck out you voices! I was the one in the classroom, on ground, and soon maybe a ghost. I'm sorry I'm not what you want! I'm sorry my dad rapped me mom for me to be born. I'm sorry I'm undeserved to know you! Damn...

I've never felt so alone.
Seems like I didn't get the memo because their laughing at me.
I spend so much time with music. Plus, I'm a loser.
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Hall of Fame (cover?)
Hall of Fame: A new book idea of the Goverment in dept with places like China and all kinds. The solution: Childrens futures.

about author:
With the given birth Mariah Mason , I had come with this idea inspired by my friends. Friends help each other and bring smiles like gifts with designs on them.
i'm a nerd who wishes she needed glasses. i'm a song writing, soda drinking, non normal nerd who just turned thirteen this year. than's for checking this page out. Lol.

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The Government has four high schools that are college too. The schools are: Technology Academy, Mirror Academy, Vederemedic Academy, and the new unburned Microphone Academy Plus!

Do YOU have a talent?

Well, at age fourteen is when your taken for high school. your name will be drawn to stay at one of the schools for three days before you addition to your real school. no talent? You will be killed or enslaved. follow Jessica Scott's adventure if you are infested for more.
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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Problems:

Heart:

    
    “Miss Heart I’m going to ask you one more time, and I’d like if you told me the truth.”
    My mind was some place else. I’ve been answering the same question over and over again with the same answer. The light burned my eyes and my stomach twisted as I stared down at the picture once again. There he laded...Dead. His body torn and cut, with flesh and blood seeping out with a pool of blood laying next to him. The thing that made me the most sick was his eyes..So lifeless and dark and dull. Then the same question shaped me back to reality.
    “Miss Heart?” Her voice dark and mean, I hated the sound of her voice.
    “Yes?” My voice sounded shaky and tired against hers.
    “Did you kill Jon EverHeart?” Sh waited for me to answer.
    “No.”

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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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Sadness...

Something that can just sneak up on you..
And eat you alive.
It can make you do the craziest of things..
And make you think the most deadly thoughts..
It puts you in a spot of living through the pain..
Or giving in..

Will you fight..Or flee..

Most give in..
But I'm not like most..

Most hurt them selves..
By Cutting there wrist
Or thighs or arms or stomachs..
Anywhere where they can feel the pain..
I've been there two..

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A Cutter's Point Of View


Go to sleep and close your eyes,
And dream of broken butterflies
That tore their wings against a thorn.
You know the pain that they have endured
Silver metal shine so bright
Scarlet blood that feels so right.
Dream of that blood trickling down,
And wake up just before you drown.
The moonlight shining off your tears
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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I stare up at my little red ballon....
Floating above me,
Without a care in the world.
I wish to be like my little red ballon..
I want to fly..
So I can fly away from all the.
Hurt and Pain
And Scars and sadness..
I want to fly away from this colorless world..
And be free..
And just not care
Not care about what everyone thinks
So says or does..
Just float.
So I said to myself..
Self,
Why don't you go learn how to fly?
Why don't you try to learn?
So you my be free..
And then I got this crazy I idea that...
What if I jumped from a really high place..
And maybe just maybe I'd just know what to do..
As I walk shaky up to the edge I see a never ending life of sadness in front of me..
But if I look up I see a life of happiness and I now I want to go there...
Just one more step..
And I'll fly..
Just like my little red ballon..
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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Okay here;s what's going on...


I found help and I made it to a phone in time I was brought to the doctors and ER and whatever.

The reason why I keep on passing out is because I triggered something in my spine that leads to my nerves and I messed it all up. I was also put on some new meds that help with sleep they messed up everything also but also I've been really sad lately..And the reason behind that is some meds I have to take everyday..

I take two pills in the morning because I need help focusing because when I was younger my mind couldn't tell what was fiction and what was reality I would get lost in my mind and sometimes couldn;t find a way out..But as I'm getting older those meds are working against me and in there theres some type of thing that triggers depression so I am no only taking those..

I'm really sick the doctor said..
And another thing,,
I came out..
I told my mother what I'd been doing..
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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Dear Self

What if you don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last day on this earth?
What if that two minute conversation you had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time you ever spoke to her?
What if you never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile or talk to him ever again?
What if you later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would you be proud of the life you have lived?
Will you regret something that you did or did not say?
Would you be proud of how people would remember you?
Would you regret not taking more chances, or not telling him what you really feel for him?


I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My heart racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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The blade shines through the darkness
Calling my name
Pretending to be a friend of mine
And I find that i can't resist
It seems so easy
Always being careful
Hiding the scars from the world
And never letting on how much it hurts
When people don't see what's in front of them
I'm invisible to them
And they don't know
How the blade punishes me
Telling me the blood will make it better
But it never does for long
It only makes things worse
Harder to deal with
Harder to keep going
Harder to fight
It's never the right thing to do
But still I find myself falling into the trap
Everytime it gets worse
Days and nights pass
The calling of the blade gets louder
Everywhere I go it's there
I pretend I don't care
Until I'm alone in my room
Then I can't pretend anymore
Not to myself, there's no point
And I reach for it
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Fan fiction by BooBooBear981 posted over a year ago
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I know what it's like to be scared.
And most people even think I'm brave.
But the don't really see the truth behind my lies.
Because on the inside I'm not the brave cat.
I'm the poor mouse, trapped in the darkness of the corner
But the darkness and the corner is my life.
Because really....


I'm scared of the dark, and that evil will corner my life

I'm scared of being left alone because someone will hurt me

I'm scared of death, even when I look it in the face.

I'm scared of pain, even though I have it.

I'm scared of knives and blades, because I've pulled them more than once.

I'm scared of evil, because thats the only thing that fills my world

I'm scared of falling in love because someone will break my heart, again.

I'm scared of being sick, because it might be my last breath.

I'm scared of being abducted, because it's come up more than once.
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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This girl, her name is Amanda Todd.
She posted a video on YouTube a few days ago.
She was bullied so bad it led to suicide…

She was in a webcam chat group to meet up with new and old people.


They started calling her Beautiful, Stunning, cute, Etc.
And then they asked her to flash…
So she did…..
… Thinking it was nothing…
A year went by and some guy she did not know, messaged her saying ”Give me a ‘show’ or I will send your boobs.”
She ignored it…..
Christmas Break came and a knock came on her door at 4 AM.
It was the police…
That person sent the picture to EVERYONE.
Everyone judged her.
Bullied her.
From ONE MISTAKE.
She ended up switching schools.
That person found out her school, friends, address once again and sent them there too.
She had no one.
Everyone hated her.
She ended up switching towns.
Then at this new school….She met this boy who she thought liked her.
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Opinion by malmcd posted over a year ago
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I now see my life as if I'm alone in a big dark movie theater...
No way out.
And I'm sitting there watching all the happy memories I'v'e had...
One's with friends.
Real Friends,
Friends that have always been there for me.
And Funny moments.
Moments when I couldn't stop laughing or take the smile off my face...
And dance.
One the time in my live were I could be free
And be me.
When I could move anyway I wanted to...
I could be weird
Crazy
Sad
Mad
Hurt
In Pain
Alone
I could be all of those when dancing and no one would care how I looked they would see the real beauty of the movement...
And I see all those birthdays...
The one time I had a bouncy house,
Or when I had a Halloween party,
Or when we went to a really scary haunted house..
All those great moments of my life...
But get as I watch them I feel empty..
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Opinion by StReNgThHoPe posted over a year ago
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May wings be wings and soar past these vast unearthly feilds of hate,

May love be love and extinguish these feilds of uncertainty,

The girl in the back with her hair kver her eyes,

Her father left when she was 5

On the outside shell be smiling but inside silently dying

The boy in the alley with the cigarette bud in his hand

His mother died at his birth and he'll never be accepted my his dad

On the outside hes a skummer but inside hes still a kid

The one passed out on the floor, a bottle to her lips

She drinks away her pain but shes fearing it'll never drown

May the anorexic become strong inside and defy lifes odds

May the uncertin cinfirm their bravery and destroy insecuruties

The girl will break and slide the blade to her wrist

Her mother cries heartache and the casket closes
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