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Last Time
"God DOESNT EXIST!!!"He yelled at me.
"Oh really then why do you believe that??" I asked getting annoyed.
"Because there is NO higher being controlling us and if he does exist then he isnt controlling me!!"
"That's why religious belief annoys you,because if the universe operates by abstract rules then you can learn them, you can protect yourself.....If a 'supreme being'exist then he can squash you any time he wants...." I said very angry.
"He knows where I stand. And I still dont believe in him."
"Do you love me???"
"Yeah whats that got to do with anything??"
"Well I cant love someone who doesn't love God and who isnt willing to think about changing. I dont know if this is going to work out. Leave! Now!"
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Chapter 8
Lonely Days
The next few days I spent completely alone, well except for Rachel. Every day it rained and I just sat there and watched the rain fall. I couldnt believe that I had said what I did. The reason I said that is because he had yelled at me and I was vulnerable from being attacked and I was almost afraid that he would go off the deep end and hurt me that was why I threw him out, I wouldn't want him to change for me because that isnt the man I fell in love with. But he was scaring me and I....I guess I just over reacted. Now sitting on my window seat I watching the rain fall. It reminded me of a song I had once heard it was called "When The Rain Falls" the chorus was when the rain falls its like heaven crying, I thought that it applied well to this situation.
So suddenly that I jumped I heard Rachel crying. Getting up so fast made my head spin. I got Rachel from where she had been sleeping. Looking at her face as she started to calm down and eventually drifted into a peaceful sleep. Looking at her face made me miss my childhood. Running around in a pink dress with a pink bow in me hair, and my only worry was that my barbie doll wouldn't fit in her new dress that I made for her. I wished that Rachel would never grow up. Growing up means that you get responsibility, you fall in love, and worst of all you get hurt. Why cant Rachel stay a child forever? Putting her back in her crib I went and sat back down on the window seat. It was still raining and I wondered if it was ever going to stop raining.
Later that night I lay in my bed all alone. I was just so fed up....fed up with what? Well I wasn't quite sure. I told my self, "I'm so sick of love songs, so tired to tears." But most of all I am tired of wishing that House was still here. Wishing that I was wrapped up in his arms listening to his slow even breaths and shivering as he caressed my arm. I fell asleep with small tears silently falling down my face.
The next morning I realized that I couldnt live without House. I went to his house in hope that I would find him there. I knocked on his door and when he didn't open I got scared because I didn't want him to be hurt. I let myself in and I was shocked to find his place spotless. I found him playing a beautiful song on the piano.
"What are you playing?"
"Your serenade..."
"You wrote a serenade for me?"
"The night that Rachel had her naming ceremony."
I was slighly suprised at how easy it was to get back into a regular rutine with him. But I wanted to explain my self to him.
"Sorry I uh....sorry I kicked you out."
"What??You kicked me out??When did this happen? I think that you are losing it!"
"Shut up!"I said punching him on the arm playfully. Glad he wasnt mad at me."But really I wasnt mad that you didnt believe in God . I would never want you to change, then you wouldnt be the man that I fell in love with....Its just you scared me with the attacks on us I didnt want you to go off the deep end and...and hurt me." When I said that my voice broke and I started to cry.
"Do you really think that I would do that? Cuz if you do then mabye we dont belong together."
Now I was bawling and I walked up to him and hugged him,"No...no dont leave me! I'll die! I'll die without you!!"
He kissed me and said, "I would die without you too! I have been miserable without you!"
"I have missed you too! Really missed you...these last few days have been pure hell with out you. Why arent you freaking out about this?"I asked confused.
"Because it was a true test of our love."
"What do you mean?"
"The test is...If you love somebody, I mean truly love them, let them go....If they return, they were always yours....If they dont they never were..."
"So you mean that I have always belonged to you?"
"Yes..."
"And I always will be..." I said snuggling close to him on the couch.
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Ok heres one...
"Mmmmm."I moaned as he kissed my neck and took off my shirt....
Did you like my spoiler?
Are they gonna have sex?
Who is trying to kill them? You forgot about that didnt you?? Well I didnt....
Youll have to wait to find out... LUV YA!
