He's back, But its not him. its like a differant person came back, like he left all of himself behind. But he's sam: the same clear eyes so i guess its not his sanity he lost. Have a lost him for a second time, have a lost what i so dearly needed. He's not calming anymore he seems so angry, all the time. he gets angry at me when i ask him where he's been. He seems to have grown ( if thats possible ) like all the anger has filled him up. He seems stronger but not in a good way. Theres something in his clear eyes that conquers the anger: fear- to much fear I've never seen him so scared he's always been so calm and that seems to have melted away. I don't know what to do i can't ask him. why did anything have to change, we were happy. I was the happiest i'd been in years why was I being punished? I needed him, I needed him more than i ever have needed anyone because: i've always looked after people: seth, dad even mum and now the person who looked after me was here but not really here and i felt alone.