Doesn't edward wants me like I want him? Why is he always cutting on me? I was taking advantage of my lonely time since edward can read my mind I cant think of anything and when I do he gets mad at me! God why is life so complicated! I was thinking of the day that me and edward are getting married how happy were going to be ………………
When I saw edward standing next to the mirror frowning “what? I'm not happy you could read my mind! and when I think I'm alone and I could think about stuff that bothers you , your eavesdropping! God! What’s wrong with you cant you give me some privacy now that you can read my mind! Poor Emmett, rose………….. it should be like hell fore them with you around” “shhh shhh Bella god! I never heard you talk this much if you want privacy just tell me and I will go away” “no ,no I don’t want you to go away I mean when your around and I think something that your not suppose to hear you are hear it and its on my nerves sometimes I think maybe someday you will hit me on the head with, um I don’t know something then maybe you cant read my mind again” “Bella that's stupid I wont ever hit you with any thing and I kind of enjoy it reading your mind its exiting” –ok I get it this is going to last fore ever then from now on I'm not gona control my mind edward chuckled I got up and reached for his lips I liked hoe his lips moved on mine I could kiss him fore ever then my lips crushed him I hugged him closer to me are lips were answering every un spoken question I wanted to hug him closer to make him a part of me when my heart started reacting and he moved away –damn it cant my heart shut up! For a few days or at least hours “Bella your human your heart should beat! That's why your alive” “no kidding me edward!” I shot him a dark look I sat on his knees looking into his eyes at that moment I lost my train of thoughts his eyes were amazing the golden color would hold anyone there for hours I hugged his neck “I love you” “I love you too” know he kissed me more passionately than ever when my heart started reacting he didn’t cut the kiss he moved on to my neck so I could breathe then back to my lips I couldn’t imagine any thing like this I just wanted him for ever and ever I didn’t want to let go but he wouldn’t this go long cause ‘stupid’ ideas pop into my mind “yeah stupid ideas pop into your mind Bella you know I could kill you” “but I know you wont” I said with a begging tone “pleas we could try”
“Bella you know I want too but if anything happens I will not forget this in a 10000 years” “I will cause I will be dead and gone like I never existed and you could be with your family, happy!” “Bella you know if you die I will go to voltury” he said sad “do you realize that's sick I don’t want to die! I want to be with you forever then you could be with me forever, we will have each other then we wont need anything else edward why should we die when we can be with each other, for ever” edward was thinking of what I said after a few minutes he got up “you have a point, but I don’t want to end your life” “your sick!” I said and covered my face with a pillow” –I knew he didn’t really loves me! When I die maybe a hot vampire will catch his eyes cause I'm just ordinary human why doesn’t he tells me the truth maybe when I got old he will leave me and I will die like I should “Bella you know its not like that I love you and no one is going to catch my eye, I love you how could I make you believe you believed me when I said I don’t want you and you believe me but not when I tell you I love you what’s wrong with you” he was mad why should I care he could tell me he loves me but lie no no no he won’t lie to me he wanted to protect me when he left me “that's right Bella” then he was in front of me he took my face and kissed me like never before like he was a human and he wasn’t being careful at allll!! I was kissing him as hard as I could then he pushed me at the bed he was still kissing me as hard as he could then he cradled me in his hands and said “do you believe me know” I couldn’t talk this was too much for me to tack in so I just nodded and rolled over to see his expression it was just like the first time he kissed me at the forest there was excitement in his eyes then he smiled at me.
********4 weeks later ( Cullen's house)
Everyone had forgotten about the accident but not edward he didn’t let me go jogging or walk by myself but he allowed me to drive by myself 4 weeks after the accident
Alice was dressing me up after to my surprise rose painted my nails then we all watched a movie esme asked me about my mom after Emmett teased me about the accident jasper calmed me down I watched Carlisle and esme played 21 Emmett and edward went out to fight Alice rolled her eyes and told me edward is going to win an hour later edward gave me a ride home.
it was 13weeks after the accident when me and edward went to are meadow when we came back edward told me Tanya’s sister was killed so he and his family are going to see them he even told me he could stay with me if he wants but I didn’t wanted to be a baby so I told him its ok when they left I found out I have lost my mobile and I had a good guess it was at the meadow at first I didn’t want to go there alone so I forgot about it . the next day I was driving to the store when I saw the trail to are meadow I remembered maybe edward would call my cell and would worry so I got out of the car after an hour I found the meadow and went to search for my cell phone when I found it I headed back to the car worried that the stores will close I walked slower enjoying the light the birds were singing and the flowers were shining .
I heard a sound so I turned and saw Victoria was behind me a smile spread across her face that she found me “I never thought I would find you with the wolves in the forest but, I was wrong you came with your two little legs to me hahahaha! That's good I cant wait to see riley and tell him this story” I was so afraid that I couldn’t run or even move blood drained from my face I knew there was no hope I am going to die today. She longed for my neck but I ran towards the tree this made her furious she took my hand with in a snap and through the trees I heard my ribs she did this twice when my head and my body was covered in hot blood and I even couldn’t move my finger then she bite my neck it was the most pain full thing in the world even worst than James after a few minutes my body got cold cause there was not blood left when I heard an angry bark. Jacob????
Jacob threw Victoria away then I heard other barks then they fade away “Bella,Bella,Bella please don’t die, oh my god” she has bitten her I'm sorry jake then I heard little beeps and jake called Charlie.
I was drifting away but I wanted to know if I'm going to live or die something hot grabbed me and started running this helped a little my drifting got slow but then that hot thing stopped and I heard Carlisle’s voice and I blacked out.