bella pov

i wake up and saw alice infront of me smiling rose bed was already made so she was already out
"hi alice"
hi bella come on i got just the right outfit for you today she said smiling
what outfit no nono
"thanks alice but i think i can pick an outfit for myself " i said
she giggle" well i doubt it this last two days you were almost the same clothes i pick somthing really nice"
she pointed at a mini skirt and a shirt
"thanks that sweet but im not going to wear that" i said amost yelling acting a bit like a brat

"please bella please" she make puppy eyes and i couldn't resist
"fine fine " i mutter and change
"yay " she said

school today was horrible again they stare at me and some guy whislte but stop when they saw my angry face

and to top the day rose alice and i went shopping and emmet and jasper came to carry our bags
it wasn't that bad it was really nice alice just pick a bunch of clothes and i just try them on
after probalby 5 hours of shopping the boys and me were hungry so we went to the school restaurant yes this school has a restaurant well actually 3 how cool is that !!!

when we sat and order i notice that some tables foward was a bronze hair and i look and it was edward but he look really sad really miserable it didn't matter that he was a pig and a player but his expression break my heart so i took a big breath and walk to talk to him
alice and rose didn't notice because they were lost in emmet's and jasper's eyes
"i have to go to the bathroom" i mutter

i walk to his table
what are you doing??? i thought i really didn't knew but seeing that expresion and remembering how i yelled at him i had to talk to him

i sat infront of him he was looking down when he look up his green eyes were red and swollen like he had cry all night

"edward what happen?" i didn't ask if he was ok because he clearly wasn't ok
he look at me not look almost glare but then his eyes turn hopeless
"what do you want bella?didn't you ask me to leave you alone?" he ask
he was right but his expression
"you didn't answer my question" i told him softly and touch his hand i wanted to help him it was as if this was a different edward he was not the player he was like almost a frighten little boy

he look at my hand and then at my face then he sigh
"if i tell you could you promise to keep it to yourslef?" he ask
i nodded
"is that today 3 years ago my mother died" his voice broke "that is why my dad send us to this school he was too heart broken my mom was the love of his life . i love her too she was more than my mom you know when i was a kid i didn't have friends so she was also my best friend" he said

i took his hand in both of mine
"im so sorry edward" i was surprize that alice and emmet seem so happy so normal today

edward seem to read my thoughts
" alice and emmet also love her and miss her i think but i was closer to her or maybe they just deal with her death better than i do"

he look at me right at my eyes

"you are sure something else bella swan i trust you wont tell anyone. i have to go thanks for hearing me i needed that" he gave me a weak smile and walk away
he suddenly turn around and look at me with angry eyes
"bella promise me that you will feel the same way you felt before i tell you this ok i don't need anyones pity" he turn and walk quickly away not giving me a chance to say anything

i was shook poor edward and he was alone although he had many fans girls he was still alone

so was this the real edward cullen ??

i approch to my table
"hey are you ok you were ther for ages" emmet said i look at him and then at alice
"yeah im fine " i said

i was mad at alice and at emmet how could they let edward go alone through this !! but probably edward didn't want there pity either

"are you sure you look really pale bells" alice said

"your right maybe a should go to bed you stay here and eat " i said and smile weakly

"ok" they said

i arrive to my room and went to bed i wish the pianist was there but i didn't heard his music i fall asleep thinking about edward