(Okay before I start I just want to warn you, this maybe sad, so don't cry.....well if you do cry maybe that means you like, huh? Okay on with the story., and also this may sound so corny but, i'm corny so,lol)
Dear Dairy,
It's been 3 years after the casket was moved,
Sometimes I forget what love really means. Does it mean, to have strong feelings, to devote someone with a passion? Love, is not really a word, I should be using in this point, more than that like.....passionate devotion.
Once I could leave the same place I start, it will soon start over, but not in a way I wanted. I want to start off, hearing "Princess" or "Goody-Goody", something I usually dislike from my perspective, at least I used to.
Now, it so quiet so peace, so unlike the life I had. It shouldn't be like this. I don't to go everyday and put the same amount of flowers on his grave like it's a daily basis. I don't want sit in peace and calm and quiet, I want annoyance. Something to sooth what I want, but now is gone.
I like waking up at 2:00 am in the morning from loud music playing, I like it, and sometimes wish, I could hear it again. I could my so-call-name being called:"Princess, let's go for a walk."I can hear, I can also hear all the times I dismissed all of the opportunities I had, but did not take the advantage to use.
Yes, I know. It's hard. Everyday, same plan, same work, same fiends, but not the same life. If I couldn't have his body, than give me his soul, at least the proof of him living. Was I waiting to long, that finally the king of kings decided to teach me a lesson. Teach me to love what you want. I do! I Do! Please lord, give me a chance, just one more, give me his soul, I need it, please.
What I did remember was, that before he had gone parish, he said,"Princess, you don't have to overly give what you want, the love you want."I didn't understand what he meant.
Now I do. Don't try to be what others want, just receive what the love you can get. I should have listen.
I don't really care what others think, now that the say,"You don't know whats good to you until it's taken away" is now taking it's tole on me, physically, and mentally on my body.
Before, it's my time, I asked, if I could have a casket right next to him. You know, sometimes I could still hear his music playing, his motorbike running, his historical laughter, and his voice calling my name......Princess
*On his casket, it says:"Duncan James Coleman
Always will be loved
Forever will be loved By Courtney Daniels...."
Dear Dairy,
It's been 3 years after the casket was moved,
Sometimes I forget what love really means. Does it mean, to have strong feelings, to devote someone with a passion? Love, is not really a word, I should be using in this point, more than that like.....passionate devotion.
Once I could leave the same place I start, it will soon start over, but not in a way I wanted. I want to start off, hearing "Princess" or "Goody-Goody", something I usually dislike from my perspective, at least I used to.
Now, it so quiet so peace, so unlike the life I had. It shouldn't be like this. I don't to go everyday and put the same amount of flowers on his grave like it's a daily basis. I don't want sit in peace and calm and quiet, I want annoyance. Something to sooth what I want, but now is gone.
I like waking up at 2:00 am in the morning from loud music playing, I like it, and sometimes wish, I could hear it again. I could my so-call-name being called:"Princess, let's go for a walk."I can hear, I can also hear all the times I dismissed all of the opportunities I had, but did not take the advantage to use.
Yes, I know. It's hard. Everyday, same plan, same work, same fiends, but not the same life. If I couldn't have his body, than give me his soul, at least the proof of him living. Was I waiting to long, that finally the king of kings decided to teach me a lesson. Teach me to love what you want. I do! I Do! Please lord, give me a chance, just one more, give me his soul, I need it, please.
What I did remember was, that before he had gone parish, he said,"Princess, you don't have to overly give what you want, the love you want."I didn't understand what he meant.
Now I do. Don't try to be what others want, just receive what the love you can get. I should have listen.
I don't really care what others think, now that the say,"You don't know whats good to you until it's taken away" is now taking it's tole on me, physically, and mentally on my body.
Before, it's my time, I asked, if I could have a casket right next to him. You know, sometimes I could still hear his music playing, his motorbike running, his historical laughter, and his voice calling my name......Princess
*On his casket, it says:"Duncan James Coleman
Always will be loved
Forever will be loved By Courtney Daniels...."
Courtney: *thinks OMG! my two bffs from CIT camp! Hadar and Issabella!* Hi Guys!
Hadar(LOL that's me!): hi! I saw you on the show!
Issabella: me too!
Hadar: you totally didn't deserve to get cheated on.
Courtney: awww thanks guys! But don't worry I met this really great guy at the cafe. His name is Andrew. He's sweet, charming, funny, smart, sensitive, sencible, and amazing!
Andrew: *comes in* Hey Court!*kisses her on cheek*
Duncan: *walks by* Who's this?
Courtney: Andrew. My...boyfriend.
Duncan: oh...
Issabella and Hadar: *sings* Awkward!
Courtney: Yeah sorry, but, you cheated on me and that's unforgivable. But we can still be friends! Right?
Duncan: yeah...well see you around...bye.
Courtney: See ya.
Hadar(LOL that's me!): hi! I saw you on the show!
Issabella: me too!
Hadar: you totally didn't deserve to get cheated on.
Courtney: awww thanks guys! But don't worry I met this really great guy at the cafe. His name is Andrew. He's sweet, charming, funny, smart, sensitive, sencible, and amazing!
Andrew: *comes in* Hey Court!*kisses her on cheek*
Duncan: *walks by* Who's this?
Courtney: Andrew. My...boyfriend.
Duncan: oh...
Issabella and Hadar: *sings* Awkward!
Courtney: Yeah sorry, but, you cheated on me and that's unforgivable. But we can still be friends! Right?
Duncan: yeah...well see you around...bye.
Courtney: See ya.