(Okay before I start I just want to warn you, this maybe sad, so don't cry.....well if you do cry maybe that means you like, huh? Okay on with the story., and also this may sound so corny but, i'm corny so,lol)
Dear Dairy,
It's been 3 years after the casket was moved,
Sometimes I forget what love really means. Does it mean, to have strong feelings, to devote someone with a passion? Love, is not really a word, I should be using in this point, more than that like.....passionate devotion.
Once I could leave the same place I start, it will soon start over, but not in a way I wanted. I want to start off, hearing "Princess" or "Goody-Goody", something I usually dislike from my perspective, at least I used to.
Now, it so quiet so peace, so unlike the life I had. It shouldn't be like this. I don't to go everyday and put the same amount of flowers on his grave like it's a daily basis. I don't want sit in peace and calm and quiet, I want annoyance. Something to sooth what I want, but now is gone.
I like waking up at 2:00 am in the morning from loud music playing, I like it, and sometimes wish, I could hear it again. I could my so-call-name being called:"Princess, let's go for a walk."I can hear, I can also hear all the times I dismissed all of the opportunities I had, but did not take the advantage to use.
Yes, I know. It's hard. Everyday, same plan, same work, same fiends, but not the same life. If I couldn't have his body, than give me his soul, at least the proof of him living. Was I waiting to long, that finally the king of kings decided to teach me a lesson. Teach me to love what you want. I do! I Do! Please lord, give me a chance, just one more, give me his soul, I need it, please.
What I did remember was, that before he had gone parish, he said,"Princess, you don't have to overly give what you want, the love you want."I didn't understand what he meant.
Now I do. Don't try to be what others want, just receive what the love you can get. I should have listen.
I don't really care what others think, now that the say,"You don't know whats good to you until it's taken away" is now taking it's tole on me, physically, and mentally on my body.
Before, it's my time, I asked, if I could have a casket right next to him. You know, sometimes I could still hear his music playing, his motorbike running, his historical laughter, and his voice calling my name......Princess
*On his casket, it says:"Duncan James Coleman
Always will be loved
Forever will be loved By Courtney Daniels...."
Dear Dairy,
It's been 3 years after the casket was moved,
Sometimes I forget what love really means. Does it mean, to have strong feelings, to devote someone with a passion? Love, is not really a word, I should be using in this point, more than that like.....passionate devotion.
Once I could leave the same place I start, it will soon start over, but not in a way I wanted. I want to start off, hearing "Princess" or "Goody-Goody", something I usually dislike from my perspective, at least I used to.
Now, it so quiet so peace, so unlike the life I had. It shouldn't be like this. I don't to go everyday and put the same amount of flowers on his grave like it's a daily basis. I don't want sit in peace and calm and quiet, I want annoyance. Something to sooth what I want, but now is gone.
I like waking up at 2:00 am in the morning from loud music playing, I like it, and sometimes wish, I could hear it again. I could my so-call-name being called:"Princess, let's go for a walk."I can hear, I can also hear all the times I dismissed all of the opportunities I had, but did not take the advantage to use.
Yes, I know. It's hard. Everyday, same plan, same work, same fiends, but not the same life. If I couldn't have his body, than give me his soul, at least the proof of him living. Was I waiting to long, that finally the king of kings decided to teach me a lesson. Teach me to love what you want. I do! I Do! Please lord, give me a chance, just one more, give me his soul, I need it, please.
What I did remember was, that before he had gone parish, he said,"Princess, you don't have to overly give what you want, the love you want."I didn't understand what he meant.
Now I do. Don't try to be what others want, just receive what the love you can get. I should have listen.
I don't really care what others think, now that the say,"You don't know whats good to you until it's taken away" is now taking it's tole on me, physically, and mentally on my body.
Before, it's my time, I asked, if I could have a casket right next to him. You know, sometimes I could still hear his music playing, his motorbike running, his historical laughter, and his voice calling my name......Princess
*On his casket, it says:"Duncan James Coleman
Always will be loved
Forever will be loved By Courtney Daniels...."
i cant do this!! i'm not going to brigette! i cant marry him i know its gonna end badly!!- courtney
just because ur not thrilled about this doesn't mean you WONT get the million! you will if you just complete the challenge, oh and here you go here are the vows now have fun go down that aisle and act like nothing is wrong!!- brigette
courtney walked down the aisle
confessionals:
oh god! when she walked down the aisle all i could think about is how much i loved and how hot she looks in a wedding dress!- duncan
reality:
courtney got to the alter and chris, who was acting as the preacher- did all the usual wedding stuff then he got to the challenge part of this
okay the challenge part is that heehee, you have to say no and you have to say yes at the same time!!!- chris
okay ya i kno its short but hey!! there will b more tomorow
just because ur not thrilled about this doesn't mean you WONT get the million! you will if you just complete the challenge, oh and here you go here are the vows now have fun go down that aisle and act like nothing is wrong!!- brigette
courtney walked down the aisle
confessionals:
oh god! when she walked down the aisle all i could think about is how much i loved and how hot she looks in a wedding dress!- duncan
reality:
courtney got to the alter and chris, who was acting as the preacher- did all the usual wedding stuff then he got to the challenge part of this
okay the challenge part is that heehee, you have to say no and you have to say yes at the same time!!!- chris
okay ya i kno its short but hey!! there will b more tomorow