This place is totally different from how Bea told me how is was. Freedom? I feel like a lab rat and everything is limited. They watch you do everything, and all the pills that they give you, you have to take them and they watch you take them.Yet, Janice doesn't take them. I've seen her little tricks, and I must say for myself that it's pretty brilliant how she does it. They watch her take them, but then after they leave, she takes them out of her mouth, puts them in her pockets, and then around nighttime or so, she'll trade with another girl for pills that Janice wants. This goes against everything that teachers and parents have taught me, but have I even gave a shit what they've taught me? Of course not! I'll be willing to do that. I mean, I'm pretty slick in a way. I've gotten away with some crazy antics before. Yet, Iah's always there to pull the collar of my shirt and tell me otherwise. Hell, he makes better parents than our actual ones. It's not about the discipline, but the care that he has for me. He actually cares, unlike Mom and Dad. Mom and Dad just yell at me, scream at me, suspect that I did something wrong, and Mom just cries about me and is scared and Dad always blames me for that. It's just a shameful and pathetic life that my parents live. At least I've lived before and now I've pretty much died. I mean, I have limited freedom, it's hard to rebel when they hold you down and put you in straight-jackets. I haven't been in one (just yet), but Janice gets into them A LOT!!! I mean, she's not really rude to me or anything, but I don't try to avoid her. Look, if she does nothing with me, then I don't mind her talking to me. People keep telling to avoid her, but they talk to her too. I don't understand that. I talk to her because she's someone to talk to. Yet that doesn't mean I automatically like her. I don't like the way she treats Dina. Like earlier today at breakfast, this is what happened:
I sat down at a table by myself, and Shannon, Dina, and Janice followed. We all had trays of food, except for Dina who just had a quart of white milk with a straw. We kinda just ate in silence, until Janice looked at Dina and said,"You know, cows shouldn't drink milk, unless they're babies.When a grown cow does that, it's stealing from your young." Dina ignored her, and Shannon got upset and said,"Shut up! Because of you, Dina gets sicker everyday. Just leave her alone. She never messes with you." Janice just giggled and kept eating. Dina looked over at Shannon and said,"I like it that you try to stand up for me, but she isn't making me sicker." "But she-" "Janice isn't the root of my problem. There is a creature on this Earth way worse than her." Janice giggled and joked,"Who? Your mom?" "Actually, yeah. How did you know that?" "I was joking. What? Your mom is that bad?" "Yeah." Shannon snapped at Janice and said,"Don't make her upset. Maybe she doesn't want to talk about her." "Did I ask about her mom?" "Kinda. You asked if her mom was that bad." Dina got up and said,"Look! I want you two just to shut up! Janice, quit being such a bitch to me, and Shannon quit trying to baby me! I hate insults, yet at the same time I hate this baby pity that you have for me. You know what? Everyone here has a crappy lifestyle! If they didn't, why are they screwed up and have to come here to live? So why baby me, when everyone else needs it more than me? I'm sick, I'll admit. My mom's a psycho and she deserves to stay here more than me, but do I complain constantly? No! I don't whine like a little girl. I do what I want to do, and I don't need your insults and pity." Dina walked away, and we finished our breakfast in silence. This is going to take forever.
I sat down at a table by myself, and Shannon, Dina, and Janice followed. We all had trays of food, except for Dina who just had a quart of white milk with a straw. We kinda just ate in silence, until Janice looked at Dina and said,"You know, cows shouldn't drink milk, unless they're babies.When a grown cow does that, it's stealing from your young." Dina ignored her, and Shannon got upset and said,"Shut up! Because of you, Dina gets sicker everyday. Just leave her alone. She never messes with you." Janice just giggled and kept eating. Dina looked over at Shannon and said,"I like it that you try to stand up for me, but she isn't making me sicker." "But she-" "Janice isn't the root of my problem. There is a creature on this Earth way worse than her." Janice giggled and joked,"Who? Your mom?" "Actually, yeah. How did you know that?" "I was joking. What? Your mom is that bad?" "Yeah." Shannon snapped at Janice and said,"Don't make her upset. Maybe she doesn't want to talk about her." "Did I ask about her mom?" "Kinda. You asked if her mom was that bad." Dina got up and said,"Look! I want you two just to shut up! Janice, quit being such a bitch to me, and Shannon quit trying to baby me! I hate insults, yet at the same time I hate this baby pity that you have for me. You know what? Everyone here has a crappy lifestyle! If they didn't, why are they screwed up and have to come here to live? So why baby me, when everyone else needs it more than me? I'm sick, I'll admit. My mom's a psycho and she deserves to stay here more than me, but do I complain constantly? No! I don't whine like a little girl. I do what I want to do, and I don't need your insults and pity." Dina walked away, and we finished our breakfast in silence. This is going to take forever.
Memories,
Confusion,
So many thoughts,
The end is near,
The darkness coming,
Now its here,
The show is over,
The lights are off,
We now say goodnight,
Goodbye,
As we begin 2 open the new chapter
It hurts at first,
Will the changes be extreme?
Please, just tell me,
This was only a dream,
I want to go back,
To relive this again,
This high point in life,
It can't end.
The stage lights dimmed,
The leaving spoke,
With happy faces on,
But tears in their eyes,
This show is over,
Now go home.
Confusion,
So many thoughts,
The end is near,
The darkness coming,
Now its here,
The show is over,
The lights are off,
We now say goodnight,
Goodbye,
As we begin 2 open the new chapter
It hurts at first,
Will the changes be extreme?
Please, just tell me,
This was only a dream,
I want to go back,
To relive this again,
This high point in life,
It can't end.
The stage lights dimmed,
The leaving spoke,
With happy faces on,
But tears in their eyes,
This show is over,
Now go home.
She fell to the floor and wept, and the jar shook
The day ended on a cold note for the cold night
He had her heart sealed in a jar, fragile and trapped
Until he had his moment and let go
With little strength, she had saved it and ran
She had ran until the darkness was unbearable,
As she wept, the jar shivered in her arms
Her dark blue eyes were drenched
And her mind was a dark, narrow corridor.
Her heat prolonged in entrapment,
Torturing her unknowingly with each eternity-like moment.
Finally, she ceased her overwhelming emotions,
Now silent and pondering
Distracted, the jar fell, and shattered at her feet
He’s gone. He’s gone! The words danced in her mind.
Her heart was free, and she was free
She got to her feet, no longer stumbling
And the shattered jar crunched under her feet
There was no more pain.
~~~~~~~~
...Yeah, I know it kinda sucks. Like I said, first attempt. :/
The day ended on a cold note for the cold night
He had her heart sealed in a jar, fragile and trapped
Until he had his moment and let go
With little strength, she had saved it and ran
She had ran until the darkness was unbearable,
As she wept, the jar shivered in her arms
Her dark blue eyes were drenched
And her mind was a dark, narrow corridor.
Her heat prolonged in entrapment,
Torturing her unknowingly with each eternity-like moment.
Finally, she ceased her overwhelming emotions,
Now silent and pondering
Distracted, the jar fell, and shattered at her feet
He’s gone. He’s gone! The words danced in her mind.
Her heart was free, and she was free
She got to her feet, no longer stumbling
And the shattered jar crunched under her feet
There was no more pain.
~~~~~~~~
...Yeah, I know it kinda sucks. Like I said, first attempt. :/
Ok, so I just want to write a little summary to my story that I want to write called A Place of Our Own I'm basically writing this to see if people will like it, and if they do, I'll write more. :)
So anyways, it's about a Hollie, 17 year old girl who has an alcoholic mother and a step father who abuses her as well as her 12 year old sister, Amy. Hollie's been in a 3 year on/off relationship with a heroin addicted boyfriend, Danny. When a close call puts Danny in the hospital, he promises Hollie that he'll quit and they'll find a better life. This causes Hollie to realize that she needs to leave home and find help herself.
So yeah, if you liked this, please comment and there WILL be more. Thanks. :)
So anyways, it's about a Hollie, 17 year old girl who has an alcoholic mother and a step father who abuses her as well as her 12 year old sister, Amy. Hollie's been in a 3 year on/off relationship with a heroin addicted boyfriend, Danny. When a close call puts Danny in the hospital, he promises Hollie that he'll quit and they'll find a better life. This causes Hollie to realize that she needs to leave home and find help herself.
So yeah, if you liked this, please comment and there WILL be more. Thanks. :)
