ok, im sorry, but this isnt what i normally write, i wanted to try something different... im sorry if its lame..
I woke to same sound, as every morning. The cries, of a exhusted child always did. I had thought for a moment we had a routine going on but you know children, but its jsut doesnt happen. It's if as though they are engineered to keep you up late, have a colourful shoulders and bags under your eyes, Well my baby did.
I was young, and so was she. We had that in common. Thats all we had, She was the spitting image of him. He makes it hard to love her sometimes.Which makes me hate him more, Stopping me from loving my own baby , the only person who hasn't rejected me ..yet.
i stumbled out bed, every muscle in my body ached for rest, a desire that could not be fulfilled, my days of relaxtion were OVER. I can't even remeber the last time that i wasn't feeling pain in either my back or muscles.
dragging my feet across the floor, i felt like a kid chucking a trantrum, i even had the pout.
It's 4.30 am, good on ya Mila, you know your mum well to scream and shout at this hour, no matter how long she has been in this world, You never get used to the early starts. I have a hour and half till i have to get ready for school.PERFECT. after what happened last year. im not even sure i want to.
Im starting year 10 this year, and they starting to put the whole "SCHOOL AND YOUR GRADES ARE YOUR MAIN PRIORITY" well that doesn't occur to me?
I already have a priority, and its screams and it's demanding. And besides what am i going to do now? im not to go to yale, and be the fansty writter i had dreamed of, i'll proberly be the hairdresser on the a average wage, and half time netball mum. Visiting the Mc Donald's drive through, to just easy the strain.
Mila's Room was located at the very end of the hall, and she still maintained the skill to vibribe the floor to send me morse code.
....FEED me..NOW...you get the rift?
I started to fluttering my eyes, wishing that i could relief alittle bit of this exhustion. .
I opened her door with a creek that cause my nerves to cringe.Her cry silencing slowly, she knew i was close by.
Literaly dragging myself to her cot. The cot was the only present i recieved from my mum before she kicked me out. disowned, she beleived that because she diddnt need it anymore and she diddnt want her granchild to sleep on the ground even thought she cares nothing of Mila, or me.
the last words i remember from my mum was "GET OUT OF HERE RIKIA!"
I wanted my mum, to show me to be a mum. Mila's cries stopped, i looked down to see her face in complete distress, and sweat traveling down her paniced face. Aww my baby.There is just something you just would be peacefull, this was a moment like this. I reached out my arms to hold her to me. I heard her Pants decreased, she knew she was safe, safe from him, forever.
i turned to find the rocking chair staring at the sunrise, i sighed relief.
I sat down, finally, i could rest my legs. Oh the feeling!! Mila restled in the pockets of my hair.
The sunrise was the only memory before the rude awaking, of the rush outside the door, great the shelter has woken up.
I woke to same sound, as every morning. The cries, of a exhusted child always did. I had thought for a moment we had a routine going on but you know children, but its jsut doesnt happen. It's if as though they are engineered to keep you up late, have a colourful shoulders and bags under your eyes, Well my baby did.
I was young, and so was she. We had that in common. Thats all we had, She was the spitting image of him. He makes it hard to love her sometimes.Which makes me hate him more, Stopping me from loving my own baby , the only person who hasn't rejected me ..yet.
i stumbled out bed, every muscle in my body ached for rest, a desire that could not be fulfilled, my days of relaxtion were OVER. I can't even remeber the last time that i wasn't feeling pain in either my back or muscles.
dragging my feet across the floor, i felt like a kid chucking a trantrum, i even had the pout.
It's 4.30 am, good on ya Mila, you know your mum well to scream and shout at this hour, no matter how long she has been in this world, You never get used to the early starts. I have a hour and half till i have to get ready for school.PERFECT. after what happened last year. im not even sure i want to.
Im starting year 10 this year, and they starting to put the whole "SCHOOL AND YOUR GRADES ARE YOUR MAIN PRIORITY" well that doesn't occur to me?
I already have a priority, and its screams and it's demanding. And besides what am i going to do now? im not to go to yale, and be the fansty writter i had dreamed of, i'll proberly be the hairdresser on the a average wage, and half time netball mum. Visiting the Mc Donald's drive through, to just easy the strain.
Mila's Room was located at the very end of the hall, and she still maintained the skill to vibribe the floor to send me morse code.
....FEED me..NOW...you get the rift?
I started to fluttering my eyes, wishing that i could relief alittle bit of this exhustion. .
I opened her door with a creek that cause my nerves to cringe.Her cry silencing slowly, she knew i was close by.
Literaly dragging myself to her cot. The cot was the only present i recieved from my mum before she kicked me out. disowned, she beleived that because she diddnt need it anymore and she diddnt want her granchild to sleep on the ground even thought she cares nothing of Mila, or me.
the last words i remember from my mum was "GET OUT OF HERE RIKIA!"
I wanted my mum, to show me to be a mum. Mila's cries stopped, i looked down to see her face in complete distress, and sweat traveling down her paniced face. Aww my baby.There is just something you just would be peacefull, this was a moment like this. I reached out my arms to hold her to me. I heard her Pants decreased, she knew she was safe, safe from him, forever.
i turned to find the rocking chair staring at the sunrise, i sighed relief.
I sat down, finally, i could rest my legs. Oh the feeling!! Mila restled in the pockets of my hair.
The sunrise was the only memory before the rude awaking, of the rush outside the door, great the shelter has woken up.
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I'm looking at the black ceiling, in this empty room I sit.
I'm leaning my back on cold wall where light of the sun can't reach me.
I don't have any peace, same pictures are repeating in my head.
The grey clouds rise above and I'm goin out for the rain.
Let the cold drops from the skies give me peace and break my sadness.
But even hard rain can't clear thoughts of you.
And feels like I'm falling in deep abyss, dark water swallowing me as I close my eyes and turn my head up to sky.
It's eating my mind, taking away my dreams.
Oh please pull me out, stay with me.
Today I'm not goin out, I'll reamin in the dark waiting for you.
I'll defy to all my desires cause I can't ask anymore from you.
I'll be singing only for you my angel.
Oh please pull me out, stay with me.
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I'm looking at the black ceiling, in this empty room I sit.
I'm leaning my back on cold wall where light of the sun can't reach me.
I don't have any peace, same pictures are repeating in my head.
The grey clouds rise above and I'm goin out for the rain.
Let the cold drops from the skies give me peace and break my sadness.
But even hard rain can't clear thoughts of you.
And feels like I'm falling in deep abyss, dark water swallowing me as I close my eyes and turn my head up to sky.
It's eating my mind, taking away my dreams.
Oh please pull me out, stay with me.
Today I'm not goin out, I'll reamin in the dark waiting for you.
I'll defy to all my desires cause I can't ask anymore from you.
I'll be singing only for you my angel.
Oh please pull me out, stay with me.
I have this image in my head of a girl who spent the first 17 years of her life being loved. Loved by her parents, her brother and sister, and everyone in school. She doesn't know the meaning of hate. Then this mysterious guy come to her school. He doesn't say much and the only person he notices is her. But he is different then the other guys at her school he is too sexy to be real. They fall madly in love but what she doesn't know is that he has been alive for the last 268 years. He is no vampire but something that can scare the helll out of you. And he has a immortal enemy, and that enemy is the boy who is filled with so much hate all the immortals call him...The deffinition of hate(his real name being Marcus) And the girl so finds out that Marcus will stop at nothing to take her away from him and show her what it's like to be hated
“You can’t!” I screeched, griping the thick grass beneath my paws.
“The whole forest will belong to the Pack of Shadows!” the dark wolf exclaimed enthusiastically, his fur flickering like shadows, “No wolf will stop us!”
I have to do something! I couldn’t let it end like this! Not with the alpha in this state! Not with the pack split in four!
“Out of my way pup!” he tossed me aside like a tiny mouse.
“No!” I leaped at him, biting and clawing with all my strength.
“This is pointless! You cannot defeat me she-wolf!” I felt him bite me and fling me away again. I was too tired to move now, after traveling this far without resting, I can no longer breathe enough to live.
I’m over; this is the end of the Pack of Ice! I lay winded and defeated, awaiting death’s arrival patiently.
~Let You Go~
1: On and on ~ the days go by
Without a sight of you or my sanity
I'm lost not found ~ I wanted to show you , I wanted to tell you...
Chorus: If I say I'm sorry will you believe me?
If I love you again will you never leave me?
I made a mistake when I said no
I never should have let you go...
2: I ring your phone but no one answers, I'm alone
Days are spent reading your old letters, but with a groan,
I'd put them away, In the draw they'd lay until tomorrow...
Tomorrow...
Chorus-
3: This moping, not coping is killing me
My soul is not at rest when I long for it to be
I wish you'd come back or my fears may come true
When I left you, I still loved you and I think you knew
Chorus-
Darlin' don't forget me
I'm locked and you're the only key...
1: On and on ~ the days go by
Without a sight of you or my sanity
I'm lost not found ~ I wanted to show you , I wanted to tell you...
Chorus: If I say I'm sorry will you believe me?
If I love you again will you never leave me?
I made a mistake when I said no
I never should have let you go...
2: I ring your phone but no one answers, I'm alone
Days are spent reading your old letters, but with a groan,
I'd put them away, In the draw they'd lay until tomorrow...
Tomorrow...
Chorus-
3: This moping, not coping is killing me
My soul is not at rest when I long for it to be
I wish you'd come back or my fears may come true
When I left you, I still loved you and I think you knew
Chorus-
Darlin' don't forget me
I'm locked and you're the only key...
Another poem by me. This one came out kinda lame,but I'll let the rating be the judge (assuming there will be any).
That Girl
Have you seen that girl,
That goes around here and there?
Nobody knows where she’s going,
Is she even going somewhere?
Pretty face, pretty hair,
Nobody knows her name,
She seems sad, what a coincidence,
I’ve been feeling the same.
She seems lost,
Doesn’t even know where she’s from,
I’m a nice guy so I invite her,
To stay in my home.
She seats in the couch,
My, is she pretty?
I wonder what I can say,
To comfort that girl , so dreamy.
Sarah,
She tells me it’s her name,
She feels sad,
Funny,
Because I’ve been feeling the same
That Girl
Have you seen that girl,
That goes around here and there?
Nobody knows where she’s going,
Is she even going somewhere?
Pretty face, pretty hair,
Nobody knows her name,
She seems sad, what a coincidence,
I’ve been feeling the same.
She seems lost,
Doesn’t even know where she’s from,
I’m a nice guy so I invite her,
To stay in my home.
She seats in the couch,
My, is she pretty?
I wonder what I can say,
To comfort that girl , so dreamy.
Sarah,
She tells me it’s her name,
She feels sad,
Funny,
Because I’ve been feeling the same
Only in my dreams
You're missing, but you're always
a heartbeat from me
I'm lost now without you
I don't know where you are
I keep watching
I keep hoping
but time keeps us apart
Is there a way I can find you?
Is there a sign I should know?
Is there a road I could follow
to bring you back home?
Winter lies before me
Now you're so far away
In the darkness of my dreaming
The light of you will stay
If I could be close beside you
If I could be where you are
If I could reach out and touch you
And bring you back home
Is there a way I can find you?
Is there a sign I should know?
Is there a road I could follow
to bring you back home?
To me...
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