Chapter 1.
I had just moved into forks, Washington, me and my brother Eddie were
close so after our parents died Eddie didn't leave me out of his sight.
I was unpacking and going through my things when I heard the door bell
ring. I knew who it was because every time I moved the people next door
would come and welcome us. Well I figured it was our neighbor.
I heard the door open and heard talking. I looked like a slob in my
baggy t-shirt and my shorts. So I changed into jeans and a long pink
tank top. I walked down stairs and said my hellos I let them shake my
hand but my brother most likely didn't. They introduced them self's. The
man said he was charlie swan, the female was Bella Cullen his friend he
has known scenes birth. I said my name was Estella carty but I told
them to call me Stella,Eddie said his name: Eddie carty. Charlie asked
what are you guys to each other?". I laughed and said "siblings. He is
my older brother" charlie just said "oh. Well are you going to forks
high school?" I answered "yeah I can't wait." I gave him my brightest
smile. Bella asked "how are you going?" I said "walking. Or running."
Charlie asked "why would you be running to school?" I laughed and said
"we don't have a car... we came with a moving truck but then they had
to take the truck" charlie said "oh, well you can ride with Bella and
Edward in the morning." Bella said "dad, I don't think Edward would like
that because he doesn't know who Stella is." I said "she's right and I
like to run don't worry."
The next day I was going to miss school to paint my room but then I
heard a honk out side my window. It was Bella she was going to ride me
to school. When I got my books and walked outside I couldn't help
laughing. Bella was in her Ferrari and was smiling. She didn't smile like
she was happy but she seemed OK. I asked her "why?" she said "well
Edward said so.." She sorta side smiled I said "the guy behind us in the
Volvo?" Bella nodded.
We got to the school and everyone was looking at me. I gave Bella a
look saying was this normal? She nodded. I laughed and I let her go to
Edward. This kid walked up to me. He had black hair and he looked to be
friendly. He said "I am for forks high news paper, may I ask the new
student a few questions?" I said "sure.."
5 minutes later
I was walking down the hall way when I bumped into a kid with blond
hair average height but I was a little taller then him. I was a weight
lefter and he was so muscle less. I had dropped my books all over the
floor he helped me pick them up. I couldn't help laughing. He looked up
and saw that I was the new kid. He just stuttered. I laughed even harder.
I got my books and walked into class. Everyone with an empty chair next
to them wanted me to sit next to them. The teacher made me sit next to a
girl named Jill. She had brown hair and she made it look as if she could
manage blond hair. I sat next to her making sure she wasn't thinking
negative of me I said "hello" she said "hey, your the new girl Estella
right?" and our conversation went on::
Me:yes
Jill: everyone has been asking what would you be like and everything,
people thought you'll be old fashion because of your name
Me: ah-aha no I was named Estella because my great grandma's middle name
was Estella.
Jill: oh, so well where are you from?
Me: well I was born in Italy, but my parents are both from America
at least from what I know, my parents never told us a lot about their
history.
Jill: oh, so your Italian?
Me: yeah, I guess so...
Jill: so, where did you move from?
Me: Cali...
Jill: what? California?! Why'd you move from sunny happy California to
bi polar forks?
Me: I don't know...you should ask my brother
Jill: your brother goes to this school?
Me: nope. He doesn't go to school, he finished college.
Jill: oh
I had just moved into forks, Washington, me and my brother Eddie were
close so after our parents died Eddie didn't leave me out of his sight.
I was unpacking and going through my things when I heard the door bell
ring. I knew who it was because every time I moved the people next door
would come and welcome us. Well I figured it was our neighbor.
I heard the door open and heard talking. I looked like a slob in my
baggy t-shirt and my shorts. So I changed into jeans and a long pink
tank top. I walked down stairs and said my hellos I let them shake my
hand but my brother most likely didn't. They introduced them self's. The
man said he was charlie swan, the female was Bella Cullen his friend he
has known scenes birth. I said my name was Estella carty but I told
them to call me Stella,Eddie said his name: Eddie carty. Charlie asked
what are you guys to each other?". I laughed and said "siblings. He is
my older brother" charlie just said "oh. Well are you going to forks
high school?" I answered "yeah I can't wait." I gave him my brightest
smile. Bella asked "how are you going?" I said "walking. Or running."
Charlie asked "why would you be running to school?" I laughed and said
"we don't have a car... we came with a moving truck but then they had
to take the truck" charlie said "oh, well you can ride with Bella and
Edward in the morning." Bella said "dad, I don't think Edward would like
that because he doesn't know who Stella is." I said "she's right and I
like to run don't worry."
The next day I was going to miss school to paint my room but then I
heard a honk out side my window. It was Bella she was going to ride me
to school. When I got my books and walked outside I couldn't help
laughing. Bella was in her Ferrari and was smiling. She didn't smile like
she was happy but she seemed OK. I asked her "why?" she said "well
Edward said so.." She sorta side smiled I said "the guy behind us in the
Volvo?" Bella nodded.
We got to the school and everyone was looking at me. I gave Bella a
look saying was this normal? She nodded. I laughed and I let her go to
Edward. This kid walked up to me. He had black hair and he looked to be
friendly. He said "I am for forks high news paper, may I ask the new
student a few questions?" I said "sure.."
5 minutes later
I was walking down the hall way when I bumped into a kid with blond
hair average height but I was a little taller then him. I was a weight
lefter and he was so muscle less. I had dropped my books all over the
floor he helped me pick them up. I couldn't help laughing. He looked up
and saw that I was the new kid. He just stuttered. I laughed even harder.
I got my books and walked into class. Everyone with an empty chair next
to them wanted me to sit next to them. The teacher made me sit next to a
girl named Jill. She had brown hair and she made it look as if she could
manage blond hair. I sat next to her making sure she wasn't thinking
negative of me I said "hello" she said "hey, your the new girl Estella
right?" and our conversation went on::
Me:yes
Jill: everyone has been asking what would you be like and everything,
people thought you'll be old fashion because of your name
Me: ah-aha no I was named Estella because my great grandma's middle name
was Estella.
Jill: oh, so well where are you from?
Me: well I was born in Italy, but my parents are both from America
at least from what I know, my parents never told us a lot about their
history.
Jill: oh, so your Italian?
Me: yeah, I guess so...
Jill: so, where did you move from?
Me: Cali...
Jill: what? California?! Why'd you move from sunny happy California to
bi polar forks?
Me: I don't know...you should ask my brother
Jill: your brother goes to this school?
Me: nope. He doesn't go to school, he finished college.
Jill: oh
This is writen in the point of view of Kara
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Kara stood in apartment and stared out of thr window, just a few moments ago someone stopped her from jumping off her flat roof.
"Kara..."the voice said, it was the same voice of the man who saved her.
Kara looked at the time, it was 11.48. She yawned and went into her bedroom.After getting changed she slipped into her bed.That voice ringed through her ears."Kara....".She closed her eyes and almost fell asleep when she herd someone call her name "Kara...."
There was a knock on the front door, Kara grabbed her dressing gown and put on her slippers. She walked over to the door and opened it. There was a piece of paper on the floor with wriing on it. I was a note, on the note was written in 7 days all will be alright
Kara awoke from her bed, had it all been a dream? Kara noticed that she had the note in her hand.She read the note over and over again. What did it mean?
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Kara stood in apartment and stared out of thr window, just a few moments ago someone stopped her from jumping off her flat roof.
"Kara..."the voice said, it was the same voice of the man who saved her.
Kara looked at the time, it was 11.48. She yawned and went into her bedroom.After getting changed she slipped into her bed.That voice ringed through her ears."Kara....".She closed her eyes and almost fell asleep when she herd someone call her name "Kara...."
There was a knock on the front door, Kara grabbed her dressing gown and put on her slippers. She walked over to the door and opened it. There was a piece of paper on the floor with wriing on it. I was a note, on the note was written in 7 days all will be alright
Kara awoke from her bed, had it all been a dream? Kara noticed that she had the note in her hand.She read the note over and over again. What did it mean?
when i just have been through the worse in my life
my eyes turn black,my skin turns white
i'll be like a ghost
life has been sucked right from me
i feel my skin tearing apart like it's going to shred
i'm shaking and lonely and cold
but it's funny that my only savior is just a little sharp metal thing
just a small razor can heal me that much?!
better than anybody i have ever known
i slide my left arm just a little as a start and i feel like i need more and more and more...
until i can not get enough
but then i feel so good,almost satisfied
watching my blood spilling on the floor,drop after drop very slowly
that's just the hottest painful pleasure i have ever experienced
i feel so unbalanced,so numb
i don't know if i need someone to touch me or to shoot me to know that i'm still alive
but i know i won't stop
i'll cut myself and fuck the wound
i'll lick my blood for all my pain
my eyes turn black,my skin turns white
i'll be like a ghost
life has been sucked right from me
i feel my skin tearing apart like it's going to shred
i'm shaking and lonely and cold
but it's funny that my only savior is just a little sharp metal thing
just a small razor can heal me that much?!
better than anybody i have ever known
i slide my left arm just a little as a start and i feel like i need more and more and more...
until i can not get enough
but then i feel so good,almost satisfied
watching my blood spilling on the floor,drop after drop very slowly
that's just the hottest painful pleasure i have ever experienced
i feel so unbalanced,so numb
i don't know if i need someone to touch me or to shoot me to know that i'm still alive
but i know i won't stop
i'll cut myself and fuck the wound
i'll lick my blood for all my pain