"Why in the heck are you wearing that?" my mother asked. I looked into my full-body mirror in my bedroom inside this tiny apartment, studying the short, yellow, frilly gown. I sware to God..I gleam in this, Mom! I thought. "It looks more like a scrap-of-a-dress." I ignored her.
It was the day of my high-school prom, the last prom I'd ever go to. I was going to graduate this summer. I sorta wanted to come out with a bang. My eyes, just like moms, looked bigger, darker, and gorgeous when I was wearing yellow. My choppy black hair seemed to shine more. This IS the perfect dress, I thought. My cat mewed next to me. I picked him up, rubbing his favorite spot, right inbetween his ears. He purred in response, motor running sixty miles and hour. "Mom," I say, giving my voice some edge, "I love this dress. I want to wear it. I have to wear it. Please?"
"Well.." my mother thought. She tapped her cheekbone with her index finger. "I guess. But atleast wear a sweater over it, love. It's cold." I looked outside.
"Fine," I sigh. THe golds, reds, and yellows seemed to reflect any darkness. The only absorbed sunlight, taking in all of the warm they can before they hit the ground and shatter. A car horn honked outside.
"Kates!" my friend Lily calls, poking her dyed, bright red head out of her blue mustang convertable, "c'mon, chica! We'll be late!" I hurry, slipping on my simple (but elegant) black flats, grabbed my mini under-the-arm looking metallic purse and head out the door. I text my mom, saying that I'll be home by eleven.
Or so I thought.
Lily pulls up to our school. The place is glowing green, red, and blue. Oh, crap, I think. Here we go. I pull out my sweater, slipping it on. I plan to take it off as soon as I start dancing. I leave my purse in the car, but slip my phone into my sweater jacket. Just in case, I think. A low whistle echoes through the gym, now converted into a wonderlad of silver, white and teal blues. I turn around to find my guyfriend, Erin. He looks amazing in his plain white tux, a red corsage tucked into his pocket. His tie is red as well. "Dang.." he mumbles. He looks at me up and down. "You look..WOW." My cheeks flush. He laughs. "Can we dance? I mean..just friend-to-friend-"
"Shut up and dance, Erin," I say, implanting a grin on his face and mine. I dance with him to some funky pop station. I go to get some punch. I lift the drink to my mouth and spit it out as soon as I see him.
THE him.
As in super-hot him.
The boy is tan. Very tan. His hair is choppy, dark, wavy. He smells of some rich cologne, and oh, God, some kind've musky earth smell. I love it. He flashes an ultra-bright smile at me.I melt. I feel like I'm slinking to the floor, but Lily's pulling me down.
"What heck're you doing? Stop gawking! You're so friggin' weird." She gets up. I get up, smooth my hair. An icy cold touch on my neck makes my hair stand up. I turn around.
He's behind me.
RIGHT behind me.
Staring at me like I'm some kind've jewel.
"H..Hi..Hey," I say, stuttering.
"Hello," he says. His voice is liquid warmth. His touch makes my blood freeze, but his voice melts it away like a slushie.
Hm. Strange.
It was the day of my high-school prom, the last prom I'd ever go to. I was going to graduate this summer. I sorta wanted to come out with a bang. My eyes, just like moms, looked bigger, darker, and gorgeous when I was wearing yellow. My choppy black hair seemed to shine more. This IS the perfect dress, I thought. My cat mewed next to me. I picked him up, rubbing his favorite spot, right inbetween his ears. He purred in response, motor running sixty miles and hour. "Mom," I say, giving my voice some edge, "I love this dress. I want to wear it. I have to wear it. Please?"
"Well.." my mother thought. She tapped her cheekbone with her index finger. "I guess. But atleast wear a sweater over it, love. It's cold." I looked outside.
"Fine," I sigh. THe golds, reds, and yellows seemed to reflect any darkness. The only absorbed sunlight, taking in all of the warm they can before they hit the ground and shatter. A car horn honked outside.
"Kates!" my friend Lily calls, poking her dyed, bright red head out of her blue mustang convertable, "c'mon, chica! We'll be late!" I hurry, slipping on my simple (but elegant) black flats, grabbed my mini under-the-arm looking metallic purse and head out the door. I text my mom, saying that I'll be home by eleven.
Or so I thought.
Lily pulls up to our school. The place is glowing green, red, and blue. Oh, crap, I think. Here we go. I pull out my sweater, slipping it on. I plan to take it off as soon as I start dancing. I leave my purse in the car, but slip my phone into my sweater jacket. Just in case, I think. A low whistle echoes through the gym, now converted into a wonderlad of silver, white and teal blues. I turn around to find my guyfriend, Erin. He looks amazing in his plain white tux, a red corsage tucked into his pocket. His tie is red as well. "Dang.." he mumbles. He looks at me up and down. "You look..WOW." My cheeks flush. He laughs. "Can we dance? I mean..just friend-to-friend-"
"Shut up and dance, Erin," I say, implanting a grin on his face and mine. I dance with him to some funky pop station. I go to get some punch. I lift the drink to my mouth and spit it out as soon as I see him.
THE him.
As in super-hot him.
The boy is tan. Very tan. His hair is choppy, dark, wavy. He smells of some rich cologne, and oh, God, some kind've musky earth smell. I love it. He flashes an ultra-bright smile at me.I melt. I feel like I'm slinking to the floor, but Lily's pulling me down.
"What heck're you doing? Stop gawking! You're so friggin' weird." She gets up. I get up, smooth my hair. An icy cold touch on my neck makes my hair stand up. I turn around.
He's behind me.
RIGHT behind me.
Staring at me like I'm some kind've jewel.
"H..Hi..Hey," I say, stuttering.
"Hello," he says. His voice is liquid warmth. His touch makes my blood freeze, but his voice melts it away like a slushie.
Hm. Strange.
you don’t live this life,
you’re becoming a shadow
of your destiny.
This cruel fate hates
your laughter,
loving your pain that
sleeps inside your
broken heart.
Broken and tired
of all these lost fights,
your life becomes
invisible
and you don’t care anymore,
but you do,
you still do.
You’re trying to see
through this fog,
you’re still fighting
for that day,
the day of your peace.
Your path is full of
thorns that are stabbing you
directly into your hope,
tearing your soul apart,
you’re on the wings of powerlessness.
Hey Mom,
It's been a while
Since you sat next to me,
Since I saw you smile
I miss you Mom
I wish you were here
Giving me kisses
Holding me near
I can still see you Mom,
the laughing happy you
Not the ill broken women
Who broke my heart in two
I'll always remember Mom,
You taught me well
To do good things,
And with Honesty tell
I'm telling you Mom
Losing you killed me
Laying a rose on your casket
Trying hard to be
Strong.
That's what you were Mom,
Strong.
In everything you said
In everything you did
So now I'll be just that
Strong like a mother, not like a kid
I wrote this in honor of any child who has ever lost a parent.
It's been a while
Since you sat next to me,
Since I saw you smile
I miss you Mom
I wish you were here
Giving me kisses
Holding me near
I can still see you Mom,
the laughing happy you
Not the ill broken women
Who broke my heart in two
I'll always remember Mom,
You taught me well
To do good things,
And with Honesty tell
I'm telling you Mom
Losing you killed me
Laying a rose on your casket
Trying hard to be
Strong.
That's what you were Mom,
Strong.
In everything you said
In everything you did
So now I'll be just that
Strong like a mother, not like a kid
I wrote this in honor of any child who has ever lost a parent.
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Tick, tick, tick
That sound, constant in my head,
A sound that haunts every mind,
A sound that brings fear,
A clock,
Ticking the seconds of your life away,
Making life shorter and shorter with every tick,
Drawing death nearer and nearer,
But you should not live in fear,
For life is too short for such a thing,
Some people waste these precious seconds,
Others treasure them, making sure that no tick is wasted,
The clock ticks on,
But as this sound is registered,
What do you do?
Tick, tick, tick
Three more seconds, gone, like that,
Did you use them well?
Live life,
For life is too short to spend these seconds in hell.
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Tick, tick, tick
That sound, constant in my head,
A sound that haunts every mind,
A sound that brings fear,
A clock,
Ticking the seconds of your life away,
Making life shorter and shorter with every tick,
Drawing death nearer and nearer,
But you should not live in fear,
For life is too short for such a thing,
Some people waste these precious seconds,
Others treasure them, making sure that no tick is wasted,
The clock ticks on,
But as this sound is registered,
What do you do?
Tick, tick, tick
Three more seconds, gone, like that,
Did you use them well?
Live life,
For life is too short to spend these seconds in hell.